#i walked into my old target and some 17 yesr old with the worst spray tan I've ever seen was staring me down in judgement | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

killerchickadee · 2 years

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The thing about it being my Midwestaversary is like.... sometimes I wonder if I really was that unhappy in Colorado?

Yes. The answer is absolutely yes, and I hated it almost from the very first day. Like I look at Facebook memory posts and even within the first few months I was like, "I hate it here, why the fuck did I move here?" And I stayed there EIGHT YEARS. I've lived in 6 different states and even though I have lots of mental health issues so I'm never really happy, and I have mixed feelings about a lot of the places I've lived in, I've never been as miserable as I was in Colorado. And even though I knew it was bad I didn't realize exactly how traumatic it was until I left. I've been back twice and both times ended up crying because I didn't want to be there. That's.... probably not normal lol.

So like, is my life going well? Not at all lol. Would I say I'm happy? Probably not, because my work situation is shit and I'm a little lonely here (and also the aforementioned mental health shit). But I'm a million times happier where I am now than I was there. I fucking love the midwest so much. Special shoutout to @thebrideofcaliban and her husband for getting me the fuck out here.

#also I'm sorry but colorado is ugly #like sorry to my friends who love it there!!!! really!!!!#but since i left i had that opinion in my head and going back two weeks ago i was like... oh yeah #fuck ugly #i mean there's things i like #magpies!#and when you go hiking and there's not a single human-made sound to be heard #and driving through the plains and there's not another car to be seen for miles #and you can SEE for miles because there's no trees #i mean fuck i love trees but that is kind of cool #i know like 3 people from there who are absolute gems #....and i think they're actually from there so maybe that's proving some kind of point #because the transplants are generally the biggest fucking assholes on the earth #and THAT is what i hated so fucking much #i walked into my old target and some 17 yesr old with the worst spray tan I've ever seen was staring me down in judgement #in the midwestern cities I've lived in people literally could not give a fuck #i don't know what it is about the people who move to colorado but most of them are complete shitheads #....anyway yay i love you milwaukee

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