Tumgik
About
Privacy Policy
Removal Request
Visit Blog
Explore Tumblr blogs with no restrictions, modern design and the best experience.
Fun Fact
China blocked Tumblr because of pornography and censorship problems in 2013.
#i’m abt to go on a very long laundry list of reasons why i’m throwing myself a pity party
luobingmeis
·
2 years
Text
things do not feel Good right now <3
#i’m abt to go on a very long laundry list of reasons why i’m throwing myself a pity party
#which i beg all of u to. ignore.
#bc ik w/ posting on social media there is an air of. wanting to be seen.
#which i will not deny! but it is much easier to yell into a void of profile pics then. be by myself or (god forbid) actually talk to someone
#but like! here are all my fantasy escapist media so i can ignore how i am trying to avoid reality at all costs <3
#alcohol continues to be the devil. i am so tired.
#and does an adult in ur life ever say something so off-putting that u don’t even know how to interpret it
#like wtf does ‘this house will all be yours anyway just make sure u take care of my pets :)’
#like. i’m 90% sure that means my house will be left to me but. it was just. weird.
#which tying into some other things my m*ther said tn im just like. what the fuck is happening
#anyways i feel so guilty having m*mmy issues bc i don’t trust my own perspective of things
#so what if im just ungrateful and a bitch? <3
#also sometimes i feel too anxious to leave the house
#and i am either too anxious or too low on energy to talk/talk consistently with most people i know
#so that’s all fun
#and i want out of here but idek if/when that will ever happen
#and i am so very tired! and so very anxious! and i would like to be able to just talk abt that
#and hope get the point across how it’s ruining my mental health without having to say it
#and not have to hear advice that just evades the point that. when i am without any distractions i am deeply unhappy <3
#i am at all times stuck in august/september and i feel like i will not let myself leave
#and when it turns out that this is all pmsing and hormones i will simultaneously become worse and pretend this never happened <3
#anyways. ‘im scared and i do not want to be like this’ lines that will haunt me forever
#anyways. sudden downspirals that make u want to be medicated but also just sleep for a while.
#i have had an uptick of sudden downspirals lately and it’s all bc i no longer have the motivation of. self-care/self-preservation.
#and in the morning. i will either wake up more anxious or wake up embarrassed.
#either way. i always feel like a brat complaining abt my home life or my job or my mental health etc etc etc but. alas.
#i just. miss a lot of things rn. and i would like to not be like this.
#i rly don’t want advice or. sympathy or anything like that. bc idek what i would say to most stuff
#so instead i will bury this post with posts abt my funny little guys <3
14 notes
·
View notes
Last Seen Blogs
indescriptequilibrium
imagine-rwby-and-more-blog
Let's Imagine!
zophisecartervu-blog
Zophise Carter
fallenessences
Fallen Essences
cruel-style
“sending a hug, Taylor”