#i'm sorry. something tells me though that you'd understand the impulse to hold something beautiful close for a little too long

[lokisprettygirl]

What's love got to do with it ? (Loki x Female Reader)

Read chapter 2 here

Chapter 3

Summary : You keep hurting him and he loves you too much to let you go but how long it will take before he breaks.

Warning : Some smut, Reader will come across as abusive even though it's not her intent

Note : Reviving this back from the dead Because four people asked

(that's how he looks in this AU)

When you came out of the bathroom, he went inside and did his thing. And when he came out, you weren't there waiting for him. Everytime he tried to get closer to you you'd pull away or get upset. But you agreed to marry him so you must love him right? 

When he went back to the party, he watched you drinking and dancing, from afar. His eyes tearing up, he wanted to spend some time with you, not just sex, he wanted to hold you and whisper sweet things in your ears but you won't let him.

"You deserve better" he heard Mandy's voice so he turned his head to look at her

"I don't mean look wise or anything before you get me wrong, but you deserve someone who'd show you affection" she told him and he sighed.

"She's affectionate, it's just her way is a lot different" loki defended you quickly and she sighed.

Once the party and the food died down, you made your way towards your room. You were so drunk and you just wanted to go sleep before you'd do something stupid or impulsive. So you brushed your teeth somehow, took your makeup off and changed. When you heard a knock on your door you groaned hoping it wasn't Loki, you wanted to fuck him again but you couldn't deal with his emotions.

When you opened door he was in a plain white shirt and a sweatpant on

"Ahh still up?" You asked him and he leaned forward to kiss you and then he got inside

"I love you sweet baby, are you feeling okay?" He asked you and you nodded.

"Yeah why are you here?" You asked him a little pissed off and he teared up

"I uhh..you want me to leave?" He asked you, his voice so sad and hurt. 

"I just . I'm drunk I'm sorry'" you hugged him and pulled him inside then you closed the door

"So you enjoying here? My family can be bit much" 

You chuckled not wanting to focus on his hands holding yours so tightly

"You have a big family, it must be nice during festivals and stuff" You didn't want to feel bad for him, you didn't want to comfort him, you didn't want to hug him so tightly in that moment but you did all of it. 

"All my cousins wants to sleep with you, telling you in case the knowledge makes you feel any better"

"That ..that makes me feel so weird now" you chuckled and then you both laid down on your bed. You have cuddled him before, several times, and you have loved it too but you can't get used to it. That's why you leave after sex or send him away, but he was drunk and upset, at a new place, you didn't want him to get uncomfortable more than he already was.

"Are you okay baby? Something wrong?" He asked you so you pulled away from him 

"Why do you keep asking me that? I am just trying to sleep" your tone had the hint of annoyance to it and as much as it hurt him he didn't want to sleep without you

"I'm sorry come back, I won't ask again..just come here" he placed his arm around your waist and pulled you closer slowly

"I'm sorry..I'm sorry y/n" Now you felt like an asshole which without a doubt you were being, you didn't understand why would he put up with you? He was supposed to leave in 3 months , maybe 10 max, that's more than any of your exes has stayed with you. Why was he still here after all this time and not only that, he also proposed to you. The anxiety rose within you and that's the last thing you wanted.

"Hey you want to have sex?" You started to unbutton his shirt as you got on top of him and how could he deny you when you took control of him like that. Didn't take you long enough to have him inside you as you hopped up and down on him. He pulled you down on him and kissed you deeply

"You're so beautiful my sweet girl" somehow he flipped you around and pinned you underneath him, 

"Mmmhm you are too" he wrapped your legs around his waist as he thrusted in and out of you 

"The best ever" he mumbled again, the best? Now that made you feel that his standards was too low if you were the best girl he had been with especially after the way you treated him

"Mmm keep going..that's a good boy..ohh yess right there..you know my spot" you squeezed his ass and he moaned loudly and he kept going until he made you cum and then came inside you.

"I need you to go back to your room, the bed's not big enough for two people" his smile disappeared at how emotionless you sounded. So he got up to put his clothes back on, then he kissed you softly before he left 

"Do you want to marry me y/n?" He asked you and you glared at him

"Why would I say yes if I didn't?" He sighed and you could see his eyes were starting to tear up but he didn't say anything and left.

Next morning, when you went to the dining area you found him giggling with your cousin Mandy. She was showing him something on her phone which he seemed really excited about. You could feel it again, the jealousy, but you tried to shove it aside. 

As he saw you walking past him and going to the kitchen he quickly got up to follow you, leaving Mandy to roll her eyes. He grabbed a hold of you and wrapped his arms around you 

"Mmmm good morning..I was right there, did you not see me?" He kissed on your neck so you turned around and glared at him

"Oh I saw you..were you having fun with mandyy?" He raised his eyebrows and leaned forward to kiss you 

"I love you..please talk to me darling, I need you to talk to me" you groaned and pulled yourself away from him. He leaned against the counter as he watched you prepare breakfast. He noticed how you were making pancakes, something you didn't like much, something he absolutely loves munching on first thing in the morning. And that made him smile, he knew you cared about him even if you didn't say it.

"Your family..they planned an outing.. everyone is going to the lake nearby for a picnic" A picnic? Are they all three? 

"Okay..umm what are you wearing?" You asked him so he walked closer to you

"This?" You looked at him. He had a purple shirt on, tucked underneath a black pair of pants. 

"You look handsome" you gave him a smile so he walked closer and wrapped his arm around your waist 

"I can't wait to marry you and see you like this everyday, you look so pretty like this" he whispered softly and you tried to ignore how it made you feel inside. He's going to leave, you had to remind yourself.

"Mmmhmm see me after breakfast in my room okay, I need you inside me before we leave" he pecked on your cheeks softly. After breakfast, you left to get ready for the outing and he was on his way to your room.

"Why don't you leave him…if you don't want to marry him just let him go? He's too sweet to take your shit" He heard your cousin Mandy yelling at you so stayed outside.

"He's my fiance I'll do whatever I want, go find your own man and fuck him..why don't you?" He heard the angry footsteps approaching so he hid behind the wall. When Mandy left he entered your room and you were in the middle of doing your makeup.

"Oh thank god you're here, I need you so bad right now" you grabbed his arms and pushed him down on the bed, he was going to say something but you shushed him up. 

"Baby, my love.. I heard the yelling what happened?" he asked you softly and he was going to cup your cheeks but you grabbed his arms and pinned it above his head 

"Ssshhhh do you want to fuck me or not?"

"Of Course I do..but.." 

"Shhh now be a good boy and let me feel you inside me"  

And he did, once you were done with him you went back to doing what you were doing before. He put his shirt back on and you could see his tearing up from the mirror view

"What now?" You sighed and turned around to look at him..he told you what you wanted to hear, then why did it hurt so bad when he did.

"I can't do this anymore, y/n"