#i'm sure there's something to be said here about sterotypical womanhood and consumerism but i won't get into that that's not what the post

[mackmp3]

please no one get mad about this maybe i don't know what i'm talking about but

a lot of 'feminine' ways of presenting are about doing extra. say what you will about consumerism. make up, fancy clothes (lots of clothes), long hair, long dresses, painted nails, all of it

and as a sort of maybe kinda transmasc person it feels like what i am doing to try and present more butch is reducing - don't wear make up or jewellery or even slightly pretty clothes because then i'll just look like a girl. i don't like make up anyways, but on the occasion i put on eyeliner for dramatic effect... it just looks like girl make up. i extend it into gender neutral gothic spikes and then i am too embarrassed to leave my room, and wipe it off. i buy a ring with a snake on it which is cool but it is delicate and golden. this would be very cool on a guy. on me, not as such. i cut my hair every couple months because it starts looking the generic afab non-binary haircut and it is too pretty. it is too feminine. on a guy it would be perfectly normal. but i do not look like a guy.