𝙸𝚃 𝚆𝙰𝚂 𝙰 𝙻𝙸𝙴 when they smiled and said you won’t feel a thing !
tw : child abuse , alcoholism , death &. murder mentions , ferocious writing .
well hello lovely inhabitants ! tis i , honey the nineteen year old hick cowgirl residing in the est , here to bring u my three terrible muses and writings and hope u accept us regardless of our smell . i’ll keep each of these personal ooc intros short bc these are gonna b very long but , i am beyond excited to be here and can’t wait to meet every single one of ya ! plotting will taken place after a simple heart is given on this post or simply by hitting me up on the cord which i can give to u via ims ! now let’s continue .
╰ 𝐁𝐑𝐎𝐊𝐄𝐍 𝐒𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐒 𝐃𝐎𝐍'𝐓 𝐌𝐀𝐊𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐖𝐇𝐎𝐋𝐄 ; now will it matter after i'm gone? because you never learn a goddamn thing !
government name : katrina dilara yilmaz roma .
nicknames : kat , lawyer lady , attorney annie , kitty ( given by father &. sends shivers down spine )
physical/actual age : thirty eight .
hometown : watermount .
occupation : town attorney , struggling mother &. wife .
gender : cisfemale , female pronouns preferred .
orientation : pansexual .
height : 173 cm , 5′8 .
weight : 59 kg , 130 lbs .
complexion : fair , aged well with few markings besides laugh lines , smooth with a glassy appearance .
hair : lighter brown with an auburn hint , more burgundy in the summer after various long contacts with the sun , thick and straight as a board . comes two inches above elbows and is usually styled with a perfect middle part and flows down back .
distinguishable characteristics : head turning hazel orbs meant for intense staring to wither opponents into submission , mole on right side of face placed by a tainted father’s kiss , nose scrunches when expressing severe anger or amusement .
favored : western - like movies and tv shows , crime shows from any era , documentaries , almost every book , stressing out with work and other tasks to stay busy , keeping office clean but letting room stay a mess , trying to cook but constantly failing , and jazz music from louis armstrong’s era .
distastes : anything related to coffee , something off said about one’s family , those talking down on other supernaturals , injustices not fixable by one’s hand , vegetables , cantaloupe , the smell of vanilla , soap operas , romcoms , cheesy comedies , most current social media apps , and not being able to represent in the courtroom .
fears : he’ll find her and take her to the depth of hell with him .
aspirations : being the best mother and attorney capable of reach , dissolving laws set in stone and replacing them with ones of her own .
╰ 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐒𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐑 𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐊𝐒 𝐃𝐈𝐃𝐍'𝐓 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐄 𝐅𝐑𝐎𝐌 𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐇𝐔𝐍𝐓 ; bring out the old guillotine , we'll show 'em what we all mean !
you flinch in the mirror when fingertips graze features too familiar to his . now you see bits of him in your children , thankfully your husband’s dna has washed most of it out , but , you see more him than you in them , but they will never be him . sounds of plates smashing , bottles breaking from being thrown or stepped on by your bare feet , yelling at the tops of lungs , and the cock of a gun ; they all bring you to childhood . to the fear you felt by his hands . to the burden and disappointment weighing you down like shackles unsteady with their grip on you . mama died by the hands of a supernatural when you were two , a sweet father’s love burned with venom afterwards and nectar you never got a taste of . most of the scars decorating your body like personal wallpaper come from years of hunting just as a girl , though some had been by his hands alone , and you hide them from the naked eyes so they shall not cast for judgement that you pended . for judgement you did not seek , only forgiveness you craved but didn’t need . you had never done wrong to him , not even after you abandoned him after graduation . after he cursed every word of the book at you for falling for the wolf boy and carrying his mutt offspring in your womb . he swore to end you and the family you were creating and that made you sour - mouthed . you told him over your dead fucking body , you’d rip him limb from limb with your barred teeth before he could do such a thing . that was the last thing spoken before a pamphlet for a funeral would be in the mail two weeks later .
but , how could that be ? eight years ago , your kids aren’t grown yet but , getting there . they don’t need you as much as you need them and you’re okay with that . you finished your law degree and busted ass to secure a place as town attorney , earning more than a name as a disgraced hunter’s daughter or a werewolf’s wife . you were katrina , all your own . different from the fear ridden teen quaking in her father’s fury . but , that day eight years ago , you swore you saw him . at a gas station you constantly visit , at that . the smell of gun powder , budlight , and cigarettes flooded your nostrils like ferocious vermin pungent with odor . you wanted to run out and double check , but , you couldn’t . you stood absolutely still while grip tightened on your young as they would look at you in confusion , pulling on the sleeve of your dress as a feared tear would roll down scultped bone . now , you wait for him . you sit up at night with a bottle of whiskey by foot and shotgun in lap , latest audiobook on a fainted play while sleep - strained eyes never leave the front door . you haven’t slept in almost a decade , and until you are the one that puts him six foot under , you won’t be any time soon .
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@thaliatimsh - im so sorry!!!! a vague ‘riffing off of (tm)’ what i was saying? (trying to say) last night - but Mostly// word splurge everywhere :/ - unsure if theres either a/t Clear or!! tbfh a/t of worth here, but yk :T :S !
thaliatimsh said: I thiNK you are RIGHT re: distance n i wonder. … why. Considering distance in gibson bein murdererererd scene… tins of mystery… (like a week previous MAX). I wonder. Why. Im not very good at bein clear anyway im. Fffff.
=> fgksdhfg, idk if youve had the same thought w this as i have, or mabs,, its lead to/from the same thought but like. Hickey’s plan was always probs gonna end/hinge a lil on cannibalism? [‘Lads Gotta Eat! People Made O’ Meat!’; Hickey’s Personal Sledge Hauling Song, 1847.] Ofc they all already know tht the cans are making them Weak & WEird™ .
so im Not getting confused!!! Just #FAx: at some point theyre gonna run out of food With Them, so Options~: 1) take tins proffered by crozier, 2) somehow they manage to find game! 3) boys were made for eating
So assuming tht no ones gonna keel over anytime soon, theyre deffo gonna have to kill /Someone/
Once gibson ‘runs out’ [[ :(( ]], they gotta go back to tins, or they gotta get another Body p much. ppl who CAnt be ate!: Hickey (ofc), Diggle (For Now/, until Armitage gets his HACCP qualifications), Goodsir (butchers are hard to train up, lads might get queezy chopping up their M8s)
Gkdsfhgk, distance as a food preparation method, a book by cornelius (EC) hickey !! - is what im TRYINBG to get to as my point !!! jfc, idek
but idk if thats rly necessarily a v strong (or tbf, Accurate) Take yk? i gotta think it over, & leave this pot boiling someplace else temporarily or smth
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[[i think,, what i meant w/ Deliberateness, as much as i like. ½ tried to articulate it there last night (& now having read over a lil of tht, have v little clue WHat Exactly i was trying to be saying there tbfh), is that Of Fckn Course// hickey is deliberately setting him Apart “DELIBERATE isolation of hodgson during that scene (plate, cutlery, separate space, different /meat/)” like u said!! But i think up Til tht point, its one of those weird cases where its not being Enforced~ as such? [tht might just be my own reading tho? Which are.. while Not ~Notoriously Off-Base? But often taking the ‘’wrong part’’ of a thing as the important element, or just straight up Confused, rip lmao]
Like /Like/. The Hodgester™ has just turned up into a place already filled w dudes who are all a lil asshole-ish & starving! - & enough of them are running from a hierarchy issue, rather than a deep abiding love for EC, i suppose? Uhm - && they all wanna Be There (for want of a better descrip/). So, i was ½ at it thinking(?) abt if it was mayhaps (originally) one of those things where u accidentally(?) isolate yrself from the rest of the group bc u dont wanna bother/intrude/dont feel welcome [The Sk00l Feelingz] & thru that slight gap you end up falling thru the cracks as twere & /Actually/ becoming Set Apart.
&& like. Idk, on #mutineers side; hes just turned up! Hes Hierarchy!! & yk still,,, Officers/Men Divide~ the line drawn in the 6ft X 4ft ice-cave separating the messdeck & the wardroom ! which despite no longer /Rly/ being in place now, or honestly nearly as much as gone post-walkOut, has gotta be subconsciously embedded ? dunno [tbfh, im word vomiting rly Badly// now - i think u were & Are!! Right abt it, & yr fic Felt Right// abt it!! Which means it may as well be True & Canon & Real, etc: Often Always thinking abt the different ways of saying lieutenant, oof :( ] ]]
maybe what i mean is like; I'm Not Sure! (personally :S ) if it started out Accidentally, Deliberate Banal, or Deliberate Malicious, yk??
&& Whether its been a gradual progression, or happened much more Starkly when they decided to captainnap crozier, or spatchcock chicken gibson & other stuff? dunno
((i gotta [REally Gotta//] rewatch the last couple of eps, so i get the planning/timing etc right in my head? bc idr if the plan to marry tuunbaq was ‘hatched’ pre or post captainnapping, or if they were related At All -> do feel like the hermitage i mentioned going on has gotta be extended just so tht i can think things into #clarity, as well as actually watch the show again before making up shit, lmao))
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thinking abt:
possibly hodgester’s confession & inability to kill hickey in contrast w fitzy’s confession & offering up of his body? but idk what that IS or MEANS, or if its even THERE [yr talk of him as,, ‘the average mans james fitzjames’ is,, im Lov,, Truly Banger & Deeply Upsetting :( ]
smth poss to be said abt how Much// of what george says/dialogue is abt food & his big monologue is abt cannibalism & transubstantiation yk? Idk
[hodgester, location: North Artic Circle, likes: etymology, religious guilt, languages, musical instruments, food & learning abt how its prepared :(( ] other than, yk, Mood, Big Same There Lads
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To Conclude, yr 100000% right, Magnus Manson Good Boy, Packed The Plates & Forks
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