#idk idk idk idk idk i'm slightly intoxicated rn 3 jai alai's deep tbf
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she's just gonna shut everyone out in response huh 😔
#r#kill me#just choke me and slaughter me with your bare hands already#also yes i was just talking about how i'm going to be pushing everyone away but please i still latch onto my favorite people#idk idk idk idk idk i'm slightly intoxicated rn 3 jai alai's deep tbf#dog wound healing but it's at the closing up painful itchy stage#jobless but going to probably work at michaels again#it's what i know#moving to new orleans in around 10 months#i can't wait but i have to prioritize finding myself rather than reaching for the incredible high of a relationship with someone#this can't be my life#this can't be the way things go#my psychiatrist told me thru teladoc which i get for free thru my insurance i can search for therapists too#so i'm gonna try that and hope to get dbt or cbt#for my bpd#gonna make a song out of those acronyms#i think i need life-altering mental help and i'll finally start to use and hone my skills such as Music (instruments singing and composing)#but yeah my 35 y/o Teladoc psychiatrist who supplies me meds told me after about 8 months in ''Hey if you've ever thought about therapy you#can do this to get therapists instead of psychiatrists and you can have both at one time''#idk he's a busy man he probably didn't want to assume i didn't know :')#but yeah i'm excited to see if i can find an lgbtq therapist#i like how this post went from ''you're ignoring me everything is different and i'm suffering detaching from My Favorite Person''#to ''therapy is mere inches away fellas and then i'm FREE i can be fearless and do what i've always been afraid to do''#🤔#that's a really good thing :')#personal#sorry#long post#so many tags
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