#idk like nothing's there for me bc im not pretty and im talentless and

[txl-kgdm]

A sunset, hopefully to calm my self.

[jasonblossomsghost]

1-64 and 65: If you were a bird, what kind of bird would you be?

1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you?mm no more my own? i dissociate Constantly

2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you?4 unless i’m w someone else then 1

3. The person you would never want to meet?drumpf

4. What is your favorite word?hmm idk iridocyclitis is fun, a meme, and i work for an eye doctor so relevant to my occupation

5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be?i like weeping willows and i cry a lot so

6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought?we’re really doing this again huh

7. What shirt are you wearing?a long sleeved red and navy striped shirt that my mommy gave me

8. What do you label yourself as?a disaster

9. Bright room or dark room?bright room. fun fact: when i was ab 13 i could not sleep unless my overhead light was on. sometimes if im doing really badly i still need it lmao

10. What were you doing at midnight last night?uhh iirc i was talking to my boyfriend and playing wordscapes

11. Favorite age you’ve been so far?idk 19 is going ok so far

12. Who told you they loved you last?my boyfriend

13. Your worst enemy?either myself or this one coworker of mine who i genuinely hate

14. What is your current desktop picture?just the preset one,,, idc that much lmao

15. Do you like someone?i mean my s/o is pretty cool sometimes

16. The last song you listened to?Outside - The Early November

17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?me bitch tf

18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face?that one coworker... this one patient at my job who degrades me and my coworkers constantly

19. If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do?no one and nothing... i like to do things myself

20. What is your best physical attribute? (showing said attribute is optional)idk tbh 

21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do?don’t really like this question or the phrase opposite sex in general  so pass /:

22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it?nah i’m Talentless

23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of?you know overflow drains in like bathtubs? until i was like 10 i had to have my back against them bc i was scared people could watch me through it 

24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal.i live off popcorn so i dont eat or like sandwiches really

25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it?put it in savings. i’m tryna move out in 6 months

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go?hmm idk. i have a friend in san francisco i havent seen in forever so that would be lit

27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be?smirnoff 100%

28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place? no geminis

29. What is your favorite expletive?fuck

30. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno?i was gonna say my fire safe box that has my social security card, birth certificate, etc then i was like wait a minute... but tbh idk maybe my laptop? or my purse?

31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?my childhood was like 98% trauma but like.. it made me not suck that bad so i’ll keep it

32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world!i wanna move to seattle but thats in country so.. no idea. sweden? i like ikea

33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back?don’t fuck w the dead. no one is coming back

34. What was your last dream about?last sunday night i dreamt i woke up monday (christmas eve) and didnt go to work even though i was supposed to (paranoia. i had the day off lmao)

35. Are you a good….[insert anything you’d like here]?i am very good at loving dogs

36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital?yeah lots of times lmao

37. Have you ever built a snowman?yep. shitty but a snowman

38. What is the color of your socks?black

39. What type of music do you like?depends. sad boi music lately

40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets?sunrises 100%

41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor?i can’t drink milk /: but maybe strawberry

42. What football team do you support? (I will answer in terms of American football as well as soccer)i am gay idk sports

43. Do you have any scars?quite a few! i’m a clumsy clusterfuck

44. What do you want to be when you graduate?i’m currently in college for poli sci and after i graduate w my BA, i wanna go to law school

45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?idk?? like i hate myself but i also dont really wanna change anything

46. Are you reliable?generally yes. but i am known to cancel plans bc i’m depressed lol

47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be?hows life dude

48. Do you hold grudges?oh hell yeah not gonna play like i dont

49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create?nope dont like that At All

50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had?nothing really stands out... probably something from work but i take 100 calls a day so? they all blur together

51. Are you a good liar?really good. i don’t lie though. i’m actually brutally honest bordering on asshole

52. How long could you go without talking?dayssss i love not speaking

53. What has been you worst haircut/style?uhh freshman year i had an awful side part... next

54. Have you ever baked your own cake?yeah! i’m really great at cooking and baking!

55. Can you do any accents other than your own?not really? i took 2 years french and 4 years spanish and to pronounce properly i have to talk differently so i guess i kinda take on an accent then? but not actually

56. What do you like on your toast?i have celiac and gluten free bread is like $5 i dont eat toast lmao

57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of?i had to do a portrait in the style of francis bacon for my art final

58. What would be you dream car?ideally something that uses clean energy other than that idc

59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain.no and no.. i just shower what y’all doing in the shower

60. Do you believe in aliens?1000000%

61. Do you often read your horoscope?not often.. like if i happen across it i’ll read it

62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet?i’m not sure. m is a nice letter

63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons?dinosaurs bc they were real

64. What do you think about babies?honestly? terrified of them 

65. Freebie! Ask anything interesting you can think of.if i were a bird maybe a magpie? or a crow or raven? or one of those really annoying parakeets

[firelord-frowny]

im making myself warm and fuzzy by watching youtube videos of people saving other people’s lives and stuff and like 

there’s one about a man who jumped off a bridge into the chessapeak bay to save a baby that had been thrown from a truck after a bad accident, and then of course there’s a comment like

~pEopLe likE THIS shOuld bE oN tHe CovErS of magAziNes, noT CelEbrItIEs~ and then everybody is cosigning like ~yeah!!!1! this man deserves more praise than stupid bitch kim kardashian!!1!!!1~

and just?????

it amazes meeeeee how much energy people put into being mad about ~so and so being famous just for being rich~ or whatever bc like...

i literally never hear shit about kim kardshian unless it’s from somebody complaining about her being famous ~for nothing~omggg i don’t know shit about kim kardashian! or any other rich person who’s not, idk, beyonce or jason momoa. and it’s not like i specifically go out of my way to avoid hearing news about ~famous pretty people~. i’m literally just... not interested in the kind of media that focuses on those kinds of things. 

and then when people bitch about someone being ~famous for doing nothing~ or whatever, all that really does is make me wonder why this person consuming so much media that they clearly disapprove of?? like omfg maybe stop watching E! if you don’t care about celebrity news??? maybe stop watching TMZ if you don’t want to hear about The Bachelor or whatever??? there is SO. MUCH. MEDIA. that focuses on so many different kinds of things, and there’s no reason why someone who doesn’t want to hear about kim kardashian should constantly find theirself somehow still hearing about kim kardashian against their will. 

AND ALSO lmfao this is a dumb detail to be annoyed about, but like....

not everyone who’s famous is famous for ~being rich~ or Doing Nothing??? like omfg lots of famous people become famous specifically BECAUSE they have done something incredible for or among humankind, whether it’s through activism or art or whatever... simone biles??? venus and serena??? greatest athletes of all time? malala yousafzai??? SHOT IN THE HEAD by people who are pissy about Girls Being Smart, and not only does she continue being smart, BUT SHE CONTINUED BEING SMART IN PLAIN SIGHT OF THE WHOLE WORLD, essentially telling the people who tried to murder her to kiss her well-educated ass??? greta thunberg, the beleagured teenage girl who had to tell the grownups of the world to get their fucking act together and that it shouldn’t be her job, or any other young person’s job, to keep THEM from wrecking our habitats?? Dominique Jackson?? Ava Duvernay??? Artists whose work continues to open people’s minds and share moving stories with the world????? 

and even in the case of people who simply have inherited fame from their parents/family, not all of them are undeserving of recognition, either omfg steve irwin’s kids???? are such a huge and visible inspiration to so many people, and i’m glad they’re active in continuing their dad’s work in ways that suit their own goals and personalities. i’m so proud of them. i’m so HAPPY for them! there is no reason for me not to feel positive feelings for them while I watch them do all the same things their dad did, that taught me so many of the values I have today.

i mean ok sure, there’s a lot of room to criticize the way the western world chooses and treats its celebrities, but it’s just???? an annoyingly vapid assertion to suggest that all fame is shallow and all celebrities are talentless and useless.