#if people are fond of then i am considering digitising it and making it into a printable pdf

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☀️ My Grief Came To Me In Sunlight - 13x01 destiel zine ☀️

inspired by the gorgeous light and jackle's insane acting in 13x01, here is a dean pov zine about the first day after cas' death. i've used fragments from two of my previous poems From Every Tree and Ducks out on the lake; prayers unanswered. widower arc you make me feel insane forever

transcript of the zine below:

My Grief Came To Me In Sunlight

I saw many things

the day after your

death.

The sky was such an

honest blue.

There was a family of ducks out on the lake

behind the pyre.

No wind, but the water

never stopped moving;

It was shimmering in the sun,

tipsy, beautiful.

I closed my eyes shut praying for you to come back,

and the sun pressed in, 

lit the skin of my eyelids golden.

The sunlight,

the honest blue sky,

the shimmering lake,

the beauty,

the grief.

Let it come.