#if this is poorly written it’s bc i’m bowling rn LOL

[rip-aizawa]

since i feel bad dusting off this blog i will add on that last note. since it has been like actually five goddamn years i can say with some level of security that leviathan will likely never be completed. i’ve tried off and on to continue it in recent years but the passion just isn’t there anymore. 

frankly, the main hurdle with it is one i ran into again while trying to hand it off or at least summarize what might have happened: there was no plan. i started leviathan freshly 14 with even less experience with longform writing than the modicum i have now. i started it because i wanted to write a bnha fanfiction, not because i had a story to tell. everything was made up on the fly. towards the end, i did actually start planning major story beats, but only that: none of the track to get there, or the emotional elements that i think were what made the story so well-liked. 

and, in all my young teenage brilliance, i didn’t record most of what i did come up with, so most of what didn’t get recorded in discord dms or the occasional onenote page has been lost to time.

this is kind of a long-winded way of apologizing, because i know a lot of people were at one time invested in the story, and would like to at least know how it was supposed to end if they didn’t get to actually see it. i’ve been on the other end of that before, and i know it’s not super fun. maybe some day i’ll figure it out, but i’ve kind of moved on in life, so i wouldn’t bet any significant amount on it.

peace out