#if you're still reading and know what this js anout tell me! haha

[abihastastybeans]

I'm going talk, so if you are busy just ignore this chunk of text :)

Since the day i started using tumblr, i scroll.

I scroll. I scroll all the way through till i reach the last post i saw the previous night (while reblogging stuff ofcourse, you would know if you follow me how I'll spam you all with 25-30 posts at once). Then i can go on with my day without any "bad feelings". The thing is, me being in the timezone that i am in, it takes me atleast an hour (more if I'm reading the fics then and there) to go through all the posts that happened when I'd been sleeping.

Now this has been alright on days when i have nothing to do but it has become a problem? I'm pretty sure it's bad for me. But i couldn't stop it because it felt like i 'would miss some nice things' or 'lose some good good memes or funny posts'. (I am also pretty sure that this is an underlying mental illness but we can't deal with that now, so let's move on lmao)

It was bad, like. I would have an exam/appointment/something today so i wouldn't open Tumblr in the morning but when i get home I'll open the app and then I'd do the Thing. Then I'll feel Better. (But this has made me feel bad about myself after a while eventhough i couldn't stop lol)

So. Today i didn't do it. Only saw some stuff as i ate breakfast and closed it eventhough i didn't cross the 6 am time mark. Going to try and continue this from now onwards and see how it treats me :)