#ignore this im just off my meds temp andreally lonely! | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

yugocar · 3 years

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any social interaction is deeply exhausting when you operate on the basis of “i am deeply unbearable when i relax and am truly myself and therefore even with good friends i need to constantly calculate how much i will allow of my genuine personality to shine through”

#like im not being funny #if i relax and actually just talk about things i want to talk about #its just me monologuing about very intense subjects and reflections #and that's not enjoyable for anyone #but on the other hand this leaves you with an overwhelming sense of grief #when faced with the knowledge that except for like one or two people max #everyone in your life would distance themselves from you if you just behaved authentically #in other news #i still hate my autism #ignore this im just off my meds temp andreally lonely!#logs #mental health once again #is just a lot of math

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