#ily thanksss

[love-war-and-other-crimes]

*tight hug* I love you you're amazing

*doubtfully* wow now that's a bad decision and delusion

[lio-the-chaotic-nonbeanie-weenie]

Merry Christmas, Janus

Summary: After the gift exchange, Janus returns to the Dark Side of the Mindpalace to relax and reflect. As he picks up his new socks, he finds a second gift from Roman…maybe he really should have laid off of the wine.

Pairings: None, background prinxiety if you squint

Warnings: WINE/ALCOHOL MENTION, NO COMFORT, I GUESS?

(A/N: So I'm posting this really, REALLY late because I had no energy to finish this but I finally do!)

When Logan had invited him and Remus to this year’s gift exchange with the whole Fam-ILY, Janus hadn’t expected things to go the way they did. Yes, he might have downed a few glasses as he refused to show up sober. He didn’t want to have to remember such a warm and soft event. He didn’t to have to hear all the sappy shit coming from those Light side dorks. Especially from Patton. Janus especially did NOT want to deal with Virgil and Roman while he was sober.

            Speaking of the prince, Janus finds himself glancing over at the Creative side. Roman was currently curled up on the couch with Virgil, babbling away as he showed the anxious side his twenty-dollar bill with his face on it. Virgil chuckled, lounging against Roman’s side, and saying something Janus could care less about. Though…something twists in Janus’ stomach as he watches the two of them get cozy, Roman wrapping an arm around Virgil who nuzzles him. Gross.

            Janus watches them a little longer before turning away. He finishes his remaining wine and makes the mug vanish as he tries to ignore his still throbbing cheek from the bitch-slap earlier. Yeah, he probably deserved it though. The lying side then glances at Roman and Virgil again, glancing away when Virgil suddenly glares at him. Janus doesn’t know when, but Virgil has been acting like the prince’s guard dog and hardly ever leaves his side. Huffing, Janus turns to Remus.

“Remus, get up. We’re going home.” Janus hisses.

Remus looks up from where he’s sitting on the floor with his air-fryer. Somehow, Remus has managed to put several substances and a stick of deodorant in it.

“Already?” he whines. “But I wanna stay! I’m making dinner!”

Janus cringes at the chunky slop in the air-fryer bucket.

“We already had dinner. You can bring that home and play with it all you want there.”

Remus pouts and unplugs his appliance, tucking the bucket back in.

“Boo, you’re no fun, you Scrooge.”

“I don’t care. I don’t want to be here. It’s getting too sappy for my liking.”

“Fiiine.” Remus then turns to the rest of the room. “Hey, dorks! We’re dipping out. Snakey here is getting grouchy.”

Janus huffs.

“Thanksss, Remusss…” he hisses.

            After what felt like an hour of goodbyes, thank yous, and Christmas wishes as well as a good riddance from Roman and Virgil, Janus and Remus finally sank out and returned home. As soon as they popped up into the dark and cold common room, Janus beelined towards his office while Remus scurried off somewhere with the air-fryer. Janus didn’t care and entered his office, locking the door behind him. Usually, this is where he starts chugging a bottle of wine but for once he’s trying to sober up so he can sort out his mind. Maybe he’ll thank Roman for slapping him somewhat awake.

Roman…

Of all the sides…Roman had to be the one to have his name.

            Janus sighs and stares at the box on his desk. Despite everything he’d done to the prince, Roman still put in the effort to make his gift look nice. Roman was even thoughtful, giving him a gift he could make use of rather than giving him some fancy trinket. The snake side picks up the box and opens it. Luckily, the bitch-slap-in-a-box was a one-time thing. Setting the lid aside, Janus picks up the mustard yellow socks inside and gazes at them. Sure, they’re just socks and usually they’re not a gift you want to receive on Christmas, but part of Janus couldn’t be upset. Roman gave him an actual gift rather than just leaving him with nothing.

Trying to ignore his heavy thoughts, the deceitful side discards his gloves and runs his fingers over the fabric of the sock. They’re quite soft, much to his surprise. He at least expected it to be some god-awful fabric that would try to rip the scales off of his feet. Janus then picks up the other sock and feels it only to pause when he feels something crinkly in the sock. He winces and prays it’s not another prank from the prince. Bracing himself, Janus reaches in, and his fingertips pluck a folded and now crumpled piece of stationery. Of course. There in black ink and written in cursive is his own name. Oh. Janus then opens the paper, a very long and cursive message waiting inside.

Dear Sna  Dec  Janus,

            I apologize if my gift to you isn’t anything fancy. And I’m not talking about the bitch slap. Sorry for that by the way. I wasn’t going to do it at first but I thought it’d be funny. Honestly, I’m glad I got to see it in person. I really wanted to slap you, but I didn’t want to look like the jerk of all jerks. Again. Now, why am I writing this letter to you? Well…I have a lot to say to you and I don’t think you’d understand if I tried to say it in person. Despite your role, you’d never believe me. You’d probably think I was sucking up to our dear old dad or even Thomas. So, I’m doing it in letter form. Writing always helped me free my mind of the things I don’t want to think about.

            I just wanted to know, why do you hate me? Forgive me if you’re still bitter about the hat stealing and the name calling. Everything. To be truly honest, I had no idea what to do. When we were in the courtroom, everything was flipped outside down and all around. They said to trust you and then they said not to. When I tried to follow, they didn’t like it. Like I walked down the wrong path despite them giving me the map. Funny, isn’t it? Trying to do what you thought was right only to hurt yourself and someone else. That’s probably why you hate me.

            I suppose I should also apologize for my growing ego. Better it grew rather than let it fall apart and ruin Thomas, right? Then again, what do you care? I’m just a bumbling, arrogant prince who cares for no one but himself. Is that what you wanted to hear?

            I also miss you. When we were up on that stage and I had no clue you had taken Patton’s form, I had fun acting on stage and having, well, ‘you’ to direct me. It was fun and you seemed to like drama and theater. I had hoped we could work together again but now I’m scared I wouldn’t be able to tell when you’re acting and when you’re not. It’s a shame, really. After we were formally introduced, I thought we were friends. I wanted to be friends, believe me, but I’m scared. I don’t want you to lie to me again and make me believe you care. For Thomas’ sake I’m willing to be as civil as I can so we can work together but outside of that, I don’t think I’m ready to face you. Maybe in the future, we could talk but not right now. Not until I feel ready.

            I suppose I should end this letter now. If you’re still reading this, Janus, then thank you, I guess. Thank you for not trashing this letter. I mean, you can once you’re done reading if you want. You probably still don’t care. I’ll see you around the Mindpalace or something. Take care of Remus for me. He seems to like you more. I really wish we could’ve been friends. I hope you enjoy the rest of your Christmas evening. I mean, you won right? You beat the mighty prince and his massive ego. Congratulations. Merry Christmas, Janus.

Roman

           Janus stares at the letter, rereading it once more before putting it down on the desk with shaky hands. He rubs at his face, ignoring the fact that his cheeks were wet now. He leans back in his chair, hanging in his head guilt. God, Roman…what had he done? He just…the prince wanted to be friends…Janus licks his lips, the taste of salt and bitter grapes mixing. He stares at the letter sitting on his desk, regret and something heavy pooling in his gut. Janus hadn’t realized how much he’d hurt the prince has was supposed to protect.

He really should lay off of the wine…

[chilumi-shipper]

i just found your story, the diluc x mute reader one and it's absolutely heart wrenching. pls break my heart more with your stories ily

Thanksss so much! I really liked it, I just wished I went a little more in depth with it for more angst, but I liked how it turned out regardless.

I'm happy that you like that fic, thank you for your kind message. And if you will, I have other fics to break your heart :3

[moonjxsung]

STAR!! It's 🌱! I am finally back from supervising the retreat (sleep deprived and very tired but it was a good break from normal life and I got lots of yummy food hehe) aslkfdj thanksss I'm trying not to let it get to me... being an academic overacheiver all my life its so HARD YAY! So happy your day was good!! alkjsdkfjkdjf you're too sweet 🥹 i will do my best for you!!! 😤 I hope your day today was also good!!! Random question: what are some random hobbies/special interests of yours?

HELLO MY ANGEL I AM SO GLAD YOUR SUPERVISING RETREAT WENT WELL I was manifesting it would go well so hard ily ily ily ALSO GOOD FOOD RAHHH WE ALL CHEERED IM SO HAPPY FOR U

Academic overachiever my beloved….. don’t put yourself down you’re doing amazing !! 🫶 ur so smart and talented and even if your exams are the worst scores ever I PROMISE U there is a life beyond the confines of calculus. Coming from somebody who cried every day over her notebook doing calculus formulas and winging quizzes and now I am happy in a stable job and calculus is just a fleeting memory… 🕊️ sometimes it’s like I can still see derivatives if I squint hard enough 🫶

ALSO HMMM I LOVE THIS QUESTION I honestly have the worst fucking habit of starting things and then picking up new hobbies until I have just this long list of random things I do in my free time so there are MANY….. but writing (obviously 👼), crocheting, reading (although I haven’t had the time in a little while!), I love love love building mini scale things too! I used to work in a little convenience store and I would collect those mini brand foods and the whole time I worked there I built a mini scale version of our store for some reason,,,, and then one of the companies of the crafts I used reached out when I posted about it on Reddit and I got to meet with a few executives and just show them the little store I built and it was fr one of the strangest side quests I have ever completed 💯 I also love love love going to the gym or running whenever I have free time I just find it so therapeutic and it gives me a lot of inspiration! Binging horror movies is a HUGE one too. And I used to be super into music like playing the piano but I’ve mentioned on here I haven’t done it in a while which may contribute to my myriad of random hobbies now 🤓

ANYWAYS that was so many but HOW ABOUT YOU I can already tell you like to cook but do you like any other things like baking or whatnot I am so curious now…… I love you angel!!!!! I hope you’re having the best weekend 💓💞💖💘🩷💕

[skeelly]

Have you drank water today? You should btw

are you the same anon who said ily??😭😭

but yeah i did, thanksss. hbu?? and do reveal yourself, bestie

[intikus]

i just found your blog from fly me to looks to the moon and I thought recognized your name from the downpour OST (which I binge listen to all the time)

you wrote "landmarks" right??? bc i just wanna say that's my fav track on the OST and I LOVE IT SO MUCH

Thanks :)!!!!!! yeah no alot of folks come from the fly me to the moon post, wack-ily 'nough. fun to be recognized Thanks you :))!!!

but Yeah I made that and Overskog and Triptrap it's heatfull (positive) when i hear how much folks love it i'm just like "gmmgmgaghhh i theres so much else, ahhh thanksss".. but ye im glad thanks you.

got more in store here you just wakch okt? ‼

[yunjardi]

HII can u do jealous dom bf jake & spanking THANKSSS I LOVE UR WORK <333

yes ofc! and thank you sm anonnie ily

[minsungii]

guysss! send me some lee! han jisung asks in my inbox on my writing acc ( @sungminxxx ) please!! im planning on working on the 2 fics i have in inbox already but its a 12 hour flight so i'll definitely have the time and i reaaaallly need to help out the lee jisung communityyy!! PLEASE ILY GUYS THANKSSS <3333333

[vintagelacerosette]

i adore ur new icon myn!!! have to stan a gay pride artist!!

Hehe thanksss beloved! You making me blush ily 🥰 I worked so hard on it! I didn't sleep until 2am yesterday then even on my way to work I was putting confetti bc I felt like there was a lil something missing 😆

I made it my background too I'm just so proud 🌈🥰

[madame-fear]

".. .because I'm rather insecure about my writing and my chaptered story about Luke! So big big thanksss beloved🥹🫶❤" - amira

your chaptered story about luke is perfect.

this is my comfort place🌸🌺♥️( ˘ ³˘)

AHHHHH THANK YOUUU MY BELOVED PRECIOUS, MY LIL SUGARPLUM 😭😭😭🫂😍💟🥰💐💐💐

You guys have no idea how much it means the world to know you all feel comforted on my account and enjoy my work! I'm gonna cryyyyyyy 🥺🥺🥰🥰🥰🥰🫂

ILY ALL BABES, BIG VIRTUAL HUGS <333

[piyubole]

Summere themeeeee 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼

Millliiii thanksss ily 🫶🏽🫶🏽🫶🏽🫶🏽

[wannabewritersposts]

Shayaaannnnnn!!!!!! Thank you for existing<333 it's a pleasure to have you in my life ☆(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ* You are such a sweeeetttttt personnnn✨✨ Ily<333

You matter❤❤

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!

✨This isss soooooo cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!! ✨

✨sooooooo soooooooooooooooo cuteeeeeeeeeeee✨

Sweeter than sugar, and brighter than sunlight<33 thanksss alottt my frienddddddd!!!!!✨for one of the cutest asks i've everrrrrr receivedddddd✨✨✨✨ AND YOU TOO MATTER A LOT AND MAKE SURE NOT TO DO ANYTHING DUMB EVER AGAIN~ ✨thanks for being around✨

[velveteen-vampire]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ???!!!!! ILY IM WISHING YOU THE BEST THIS YEAR AND i wish we talked more but i literally do not know what to say ówò

THANKSSS!!!!! i wanna talk more too but im like uh. not great at talking i think lol.

[gh0stly-girlfriend]

mamas ur so pretty ily

thanksss

[fadeintolight]

✨🌸 congrats! you’re an amazing human being and I appreciate you endlessly. keep up the good work, ily 🌸✨

awww thanksss girlblogging is indeed a serious business!!!! love it when my hard work gets appreciated 💓💅🏻

[mikeysbabygirl]

CONGRATS ON 1K OMG ��😭 YOU DESERVE 100K 1 MILLION YOUR FICS ARE AMAZING BABY!! I will tattoo them on my body

CHERRY MY LOVE MY PERSON ILY SM THANKSSS AHHHH

Tbh guys this girl is one of the most talented writers I knew, so she's just flattering me ngl 😩