#im currently doing a custodial job! its fine except that im really not made for nonstop physical work. i think im gonna quit soon and try t

[athene-studies]

ok this blog has fallen out of use bc (a) im not a student at the moment [i miss it :(] (b) i have plenty of other aesthetic blogs so im not rlly posting aesthetics here anymore (c) ive begun to like. hate. things that have an Aura Of Instagram around them (its the capitalism) but the needs to do shit and fall in love with life (not to mention the obsessions with stationery and beverages) have NOT gone away so we're getting a revamp. the new goals of athene-studies.tumblr.com are, in rough order of priority:

live a life where i feel like a real person and not just a depressed pleasure machine floating from moment to bittersweet moment (all the other points are really subsets of this one)

take advantage of the parts of life that arent quite in my "comfort zone"— while i am disabled and do need the rest, I'd really like to have a LITTLE less trouble not taking the path of least resistance! another part of this is becoming okay with being weird or going against the grain around people.

take care of myself (for instance, try to go to bed at a reasonable time)

find a place where i can help— work toward a job i like. participate in community, on smaller and larger scales. is it too late to meet my neighbors?

get shit done (always the real purpose of the blog. yknow ive been tentatively diagnosed with adhd and we tried like 5 different meda and none of them helped at all with my executive functioning? fucked up)

continue to learn without the pressure of school. im talking discrete study paths with goals (independent courses, languages, learning hobbies), small lessons (reading more. oh my god), AND just sort of ambiently learning from life around me

see the beauty in the world around me (not higher on the list bc... well, for one thing, im already good at that, baby! also my main blog is already basically a hopepunk blog. ...and i have a proper hopepunk blog thats fallen out of use. um)

i will attempt to do things like share lists of goals in these categories! for now, though, its bedtime, and im gonna try to take a walk. the whole "8 degrees fahrenheit" thing might cut that short though. also hey i never posted on here abt how i did an internship at nasa during school it was awesome :D