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skunkes · 2 years

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I forgot to ever write dis down somewhere so im doing it here

So in college i did a quite a bit of Me and Al work for art classes, + even if not, if people saw my Socials they'd see all my Me and Al content. (Dis was a few years ago already.)

Anyway one day I was able to have a discussion with one of my professors (once Gender was also thrown into the mix with one of my pieces) and he asked me if Al was like. An alter ego? Or like, Guy I'd Like to Be? Transition goals? And at the time I was like hmm no he's just one of many ideas of an ideal guy in my head...we aren't really anything alike. He's the sun to my moon, red to my blue etc.

What's been absolutely insane to find out in like, the past year is that I'm more like him than I originally thought...! Especially in ... specific contexts... im very much...The Al... i guess we can both share the sun.

#talkys #im still more moon adjacent though #but it was a shock and surprise to me #even when i daydream stuff up im not giving him the fawning he'd deserve... that's His Job ykwim #and yet...at first opportunity...i was The Al...#im already getting weird situation amnesia about it. (dk how to word this) but i cant deny it #<- sorry for these vague as hell additions btw #im eager im sappy i gush and i fawn...#i also wonder if its from almost a decade of ''him'' doing that to me ykwim? like projection almost #many such theories etc

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