#im even s.ex repulsed. and it is killing me | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

mappingway · 4 months

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Wish I could confidently like, fully talk to my therapist. I have no adult friends irl. I have coworkers and that's it. People I'm friends with online aren't married as far as I know and it just feels like I don't have another adult mentor I can talk to. I already spoke to my therapist about my lack of sex drive once and it about embarrassed me to death and it's not gotten any better.

#i don't know. i don't have anyone to go to to be like 'hey im having this issue is this normal?'#to go from s.ex positive to just #.... uncaring? how do i fix this? if i weren't married it wouldn't be a problem #but i don't know how to fix myself. and it's embarrassing and humiliating.#i feel like im broken. there's rarely a day where i feel like having any s.exual activity and on some days #im even s.ex repulsed. and it is killing me #my husband says he doesn't mind but i don't fully believe him. he should want more from me. he shouldn't #have to wait a week or ten days until i feel so bad about depriving him that i work with what i have #i want to like sex again. and like. i do like it when i do it??#i just can't bring myself to do it hardly ever???#like. i dont know. i feel like im doing my best all around and the one place im failing in #is in pleasing my husband lol #therapy talks

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