#im gonna log off now and maybe turn my anons off cause i dont think thatd be productive right now im too upset | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

slutdge · 6 months

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there are a lot of symptoms of OCD that ive showed since childhood but ive kinda felt too much shame surrounding mental illness until recently where ive been working on both 1 unlearning that shame and understanding that diagnoses are not always helpful and can often be harmful with how psychiatry is practiced/its racist and misogynist and homophobic origins/so many other infinitely nuanced criticisms about psychiatry i dont have the ability to cover right now, and 2 becoming more and more critical of the psychiatric institution that abused me as time goes on and processing that the abuse i had to go thru was wrong so. idk why im saying this im just drunk and talking shit cause it makes me feel less crazy lol.

#i hope this was coherent lmao #i just need to be held by an old man and told im not an awful irredeemable shitty person and that theres still hope for me lol #im so afraid to be my authentic self. im not even confident i could ever find an authentic self cause the abuse has gone on for so long #there was never a ''real me'' when its been happening every day since birth. i dont know who i am and im scared.#im gonna log off now and maybe turn my anons off cause i dont think thatd be productive right now im too upset

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