#im more experienced with weed when it comes to substance use tbh HJGH

[jigenstits]

aight have a 'jeeg is alone and busy with draining a whiskey bottle' headcanon situation thing. i'll try to keep this from getting too dark. or heavy. because my headcanons tend to go there. if you feel like this got too heavy, feel free to trash this ask.

so i dunno how was your experience with alcohol, or if you ever had one. but alcohol doesn't drown out the pain, it just. makes you not care, it removes the filters, it snuffs out the reasonable, thinking parts of you. it robs you of your defenses, it allows every single repressed thought to bubble up to the surface and forces you to face it.

now how does this apply to jigen. well. i like to thing he has Issues™️. we've all seen his exes. there's a pattern. and it's not a good one (look at crazy mash, for example). so imagine one night, nothing is happening, lupin is gone for whatever reason (laying low, out to get groceries, chaisng tail, etc.) and jigen is alone with his thoughts and a bottle of whiskey, 40% abv, just like any other whiskey. many people drink out of boredom, but i don't think jigen does that, i think he respects the alcohol as an object, something of value. he pours himself a shot, just like any other night. for him it's a ritual, he does it because he doesn't feel right without it (behold, a functional alcoholic. mostly functional.)

But the more he drinks, the more he relaxes, loosens up, allows the Thoughts™️ to trickle back. he starts reminiscing about things he'd rather not remember. so he drinks more. maybe he spirals, maybe he doesn't, but his thought process gets really, really negative and he no longer drinks for the enjoyment of it. at its core, alcohol is a poison. jigen keeps pouring himself shot after shot, at some point when his coordination leaves the building, he decides to drink straight out of the bottle. he's hurting, and it just doesn't stop, so he keeps going and going, knowing very well he's past his limit but the thoughts are still there and it hurts and it just doesn't stop. he pretty much gives himself alcohol poisoning over the course of the night, having drank a bit over a bottle of whiskey. maybe he threw a beer or two into the mix. or he found another bottle and went with that. anyway he doesn't have a good time. his body had enough of his bs, he drags himself into the bathroom, lets everything run its course, he crawls to bed and falls asleep within minutes, as opposed to the usual hours.

and the hangover he got from this, oh man. he swears he'll quit, but deep down, he knows he won't. such is the vicious cycle. he pretty much spends the day in bed or in the shower, eating foods he knows are safe. 'safe' as in 'will not cause me to vomit uncontrollably because i fucked up my stomach last night'. headache/feeling of rubber bands around his skull, light sensitivity, touch sensitivity, he got the usual going on. his hat spares him of even greater suffering. And all this could've been avoided if he drank water along with the liquor.

man alcoholism is my jam, i could go on and on about it. doubly so because i see small things in jeeg that make me go 👀, but not necessarily in a good way. he shows The Patterns™️ imo.

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oh yeah he is definitely a (barely) functioning alcoholic

i think lupin is secretly really worried about it but doesnt wanna bring it up bc like. jigen knows he has a problem, he doesnt need to be told that he does