#im on a 225mg dose of effexor

[restinpeas]

holy shit, how am i supposed to not self medicate when the depression is fucking unbearable and nothing helps

[vobocaloid]

/image description: a discord chatlog between two users. user one, ushiwakamaru, is replying to a prior message discord user two, feitown, has sent that says "why are you dissapointed in me blame my meds". user one's response is "i am". user two says "i'm on this high a dose so i don't do-se doh kill myself". user one says, "o child be cured of thy insomnia, devil medication leave the body of this young boy, leave leave". user one then also responds with "oh" and "uhm ignore that then". user two responds with "LMAOOO". end id/

context: i have sleep problems and am awake for 36 or more hours between sleeping. friend was suggesting ways to help me sleep but all things he suggested were food adversions or just unavailable to me. we were bantering and talking about it and i said something asking if my medication affected my sleep. i sent him a link to a study i found when i googled it and still unknowingly, thought it was bad for me and was typing his o child message but i sent my do-se doh message before he could send his and so i caught him off guard lmao

anyways i have learned that Effexor can cause insomnia. it's probably studied at the regular highest dose (150mg) and it might not be that bad on that dose but i am on 225mg and it's definitely affected my sleep. i mean im fine with it but my friend isn't lol

[badvibes8]

I had suicidal ideation before taking effexor I had suicidal ideation while taking effexor 225mg (maybe slightly less but with increased anxiety and irritability) I had suicidal ideation while transitioning between effexor and zoloft (150-75mg & 25-50mg) I'm having suicidal ideation (still) on zoloft 75mg like is anything working? i have no idea what it's like to feel better everything is just bad all the time forever and i feel like on the 18th hour after every zoloft dose im EXTRA FUCKIN DISSOCIATIVE and suicidal? im almost functional for a bit after my dose and then im 86 mountain goats songs in a row and an entire box of cheese its and calculating the height necessary to snap my neck