#im quite sad but i do like the library...someone with rainbow earrings complimented my single gay earring and i returned it | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

readymades2002 · 2 years

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buzz library embarrassment.......finally got the courage to go for the first time since moving and did not anticipate that this would be an issue but my card expired and i did not have any proof of address so i could not check anything out. humiliating.............

#my mom sent a screenshot of my name on the lease over the phone after i texted about it but by then #the librarian id been talking to about it was gone and the other open desk had a line and thinking about doing it #and having it not work because it was my mom's account made me so nervous i just put all my books back and left...#well...found out the library stocks some books i didnt know if they'd have at least so i can look next time i guess.....sniffle #also this is a library that has video games and they had the switch copy of sayonara wild hearts. i feel like im being taunted #(i do not own a switch)#im quite sad but i do like the library...someone with rainbow earrings complimented my single gay earring and i returned it #so that was nice. i really like just being there but as soon as i got back in the car and explained to mom what happened #(after she had been waiting on me and my dawdling in the heat for like an hour because i got caught up in the glory of library)#she was trying really really hard not to be annoyed and i appreciate that she tried i guess but i still feel rotten about it #having to push through like. 50 layers of fear of being outside to have it fail and just waste everyone's time and no way to make it up....#i feel awful for trying at all. i hate how difficult it is and i hate that i fuck it up every time and i dont have anything that like #im just here and theres no benefit to it. it just makes everyone's life a little harder and a little worse that i'm around. i hate it

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