#im sorry ill shut up noe

[wonwoonlight]

They sit on the same table

[hobwithluv]

bro mindhunters is so good i hate literally every character and im so here for that also murder i mean what's not to love

[lovinmullen]

i’m all alone in my house for my birthday. all my friends are “busy”. my parents, away. my siblings, away. uno i just can’t wait for the 12th y’all it’s gonna be so lit i hope there’s a fire truck on standby 🤪🤪🤪🤪🤩🤩😤😤😔😔🤭🤭🤫🤫😉😉🤪🤪

[nui-r-ni]

Pressurising. To see ur own bf making plans on celebratin someone elses birthday when he barely noe her and able to spend a big amount or yet better still to buy someone/their profile pic when u have been there through the shits for all the past years but yet every yr on ur birthday there was nothing to comemorate. Yes i dont expect much and never did. To even hear ur bf make plans with u is hard enough what else about taking leave just to celebrate someone who is not his gf birthday when he never even gave a little bit of care towards u or never even bothered to take leave for u known as gf and even making plans and even saying everything is on me. Seeing ur bf so lively to be meeting someone new, to be going out and to even agree on taking public transport and paying for them. But upon seeing everything how ur heart sank to the very bottom. Things that u as a gf should noe but dont but other girls noe. How irony is that. How that sharp pain that ive never felt before pierced through my heart. It feels like a heart attack but maybe its more of a shock attack. Slowly, everything is surfacing up. Idk if ill survive one more day with all the shock attacks that r haunting me day by day but i noe im strong and i believe i will be. Idk what else could be and might had happened behind me. How many other ppl u have met with, giving rides, lending money, in short everything. And u even wrong ur own race that allah has given just to be and get this girl. How big of a sin is that. And this girl might have been a special one coz shes told not to leave. so u had me as someone to fall back on. Im just as good as a spare somewhat. All those msges really woke me up. Made me realised what im and what i meant for the past years. How could i not realise all this. Maybe i was too blinded. Am i too nice that im being stepped on. Why am i questioning all this to even begin with. Idk how u can easily give ppl ur number when i find it so hard to even ans calls from numbers that idk. Im sorry tumblr. Ur the only one which i can just basically pour out every single thing to without being judged and as im typing all this, it took every single courage within me to tell myself to hold back my tears. Im hating myself, im hatin the world, im hating all the places that she mentioned. I feel like i should just shut myself from the world. Thank you tumblr. I really appreciate u.

Does love really have to be this painful? Idk if im still a spare for u to fall back on when things with other girls fail up till now.