#im starting to wonder if that was just a coping mechagnsim of something undiagnosed

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Hm.

i often wonder if it's supposed to be normal to feel real, searing pain throughout your entire chest and body and spine when you do something wrong

and if that's normal for others, or if it's just me

surely it can't be just me, but i can't imagine every one also feels whole body pain and agony when they have proven to be some kind of failure of a person

it's a mystery

my statement remains : a blade to my skin hurts less than this.