#in all seriousness I do highly recommend keeping a doc of just this. tho it does require you having to recognize what's being implied

[essektheylyss]

the only thing I keep notes on when writing is stuff that's already been signaled and needs to come back somehow, and I try to keep those notes as condensed as possible because if they're too lengthy or I have too many items I'll start missing things, but that gets very funny when I jot down something like

[yandere-sins]

Sigh. I’m just ranting, life’s been strange lately.

I had some trouble with my right eye since last week, so today I went to a doc and got it looked at and while she said it’s nothing bad bad with the eye itself my already existing astigmatism just, idk, worsened in the matter of a week or so. Now everything is doubled and a little fuzzy on one eye which is one hell of a ride if you try to look at anything I swear lol

I probably should be really glad not to be seriously injured but at the same time I now have to do lots of tests to see if it will stick on this level or develop again and urgh, so annoying. I have so much planned I want to do, first and foremost the alien project of course, but also write requests again after finally finishing up with the last commission. However, that commission also has to be written and I feel like a child throwing a tantrum that it’s gotten so much harder to do it!! Aaaaah, it’s really frustrating!!!

My therapy is going well tho. Was a good idea to go into proper therapy and I highly recommend it, but I am so damn impatient. I wish I was already at a level I could just... get over shit tbh lol. I always think I should be better by now, but man, I am not. At least in some aspects...

And then this blog, oh man, I love this blog. I’d love to write for it more again, commissions definitely drowned me this month. But at the same time... the amount of passive aggressive anons I had this month are, frankly, exhausting. I still read the messages, just in case I misinterpret someone but eh. If I had some of that audacity of some anons, I think I wouldn’t be in therapy. The sheer demand of things, and oh god beware, if I don’t agree with everyone and say shit like “Strictly sub!yandere don’t work” man. It really makes me wish to interact more with people who run my kind of blog actively just to see what they do in this situations, but really, I think I already know. It’s becoming a little exhausting ngl. I miss the beginning of the year where we all were just vibing and being cool, that was chill. Loved that for us. But oh well, once I am feeling better maybe we can bring back the good energies and return to that state because I was definitely more happy then.

Oh, also, thanks to tiktok I found this song (and it’s probably about domestic abuse, but still really beautiful in delivering this message) and it makes for a really good yandere song, so I think everyone should hear it:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AGCL3icu9dk

Well, now you guys are updated. Sorry for ranting but now you know what’s going on here. Hopefully I’ll keep up the schedules I set myself for the next few days, fingers crossed!