#in this never-ending cycle of wanting to be perfect... per his ocpd | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

nohymn · 4 months ago

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i was refreshing on the wonweek and sunday exchanges and this one still tickles me because so much is said.

i already surmised before this that sunday wasn't someone who took well to being "pitied" in his eyes [something to do with his pride, as well as his rhetoric with the weak and the strong and how he factors himself into this; that's something i can write a rambling post about another day], but having it confirmed was delightful. there's something there with his strain for condescension in contrast that i can't place.

and of course there's the elephant in the room of how he responds better to criticism and critique than he would someone genuinely showing him sympathy. punishment and disappointment will make him move, but smothering him won't. if he's met with condemnation, he can ruminate but do something about it, because he's given something to work with, and it goes against his perfectionism, which is a struggle in of itself; but there's not really much he can do with someone feeling sorry for him, and it makes him feel small and weak when there's this constant urge to fix something. it isn't conductive.

#it's very interesting in that regards of how he can offer comfort and platitudes #but he seems very action orientated. i don't want to say there's something for punishment here because i'm not precisely sure on that mark #but it feels to me like he's someone who like. when faced with condemnation or criticism #it's difficult and frustrating but he can make up for that... and can kind of be pointed against himself as an area to work on #in this never-ending cycle of wanting to be perfect... per his ocpd #but it's not something he's /happy/ to receive conversely with how much he holds the whole 'disappointing robin' thing over his head #and i wonder if that only adds to his difficulty with pity and sympathy. because it's something robin would probably do for him?#but that's likely reading too much into it #i think pointing out his weaknesses and appealing to his soft heart leads to some trouble with him.. i can't articulate it here but there's #something with strength and weakness there that's like. ugh...#sunday who kind of looks down on others [in a way that a god might pity the weak] who hates being looked down upon #someone who has risen to strength and considers themselves strong but is weak foundationally doesn't like to be #perceived as weak. because it ruffles him

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