#ing yelling at thr dogs for barking. and they always bark whenever i do anything so you can see why i literally would rather lose myself in

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Plans not working out how I had the blocked in my head (I'm so fine about it (not)). Swept my floors instead since I've been putting it off. I have to move laundry again to tomorrow. Not walking today. Going to put my letter away finally, do some stretches, make lunch and try to sit outside for an hour or so reading. Unless everyone decides oh we should all go outside now that he's out there because I will go in. Trying to make some fucking routine of going outside but it's really quite hard because I hate listening to my the way parents talk and my grandmother's voice irritates me and if my parents get snippy I instantly feel extremely bad ++ it's my fault so.