#invertebratephotography

[hekkoto]

Friend! :D would you like to pet this lil bby? ^^ I definetelly do [poor insects and animals I find, Im always petting them >XD even if its some spider, moth or frog ;D] Hi darklings, here I come with another update! Sorry you had to wait, I wanted to manage to do everything before saying more ;p so, I got my meds for ADHD! I hope it will help me focus more on arts and such ^^ honestly just after one pill I can say its better! I have lowest dose right now as Im just starting but I have appointment in like 2 or 3 weeks and we will talk if Im feeling fine and if its enough for me. I guess I will be getting higher dose and I really hope it can change my life. Honestly, for now I can say it will – I have 0 side effects and even this small dose help me think more clearly. Maybe I will be able to finally do stuff? ;p there is some issue with aviablity of this med but when I will be taking them regularly I will be able to plan how I gonna get it [huge thanks to my husband's friend help who bought it cause only pharmacy which had it was on the other side of Warsaw >XD] Oh btw, Im getting a lot of financial support from my parents so I can go on therapy also my fridge isnt empty ;p Im super grateful for how supportive they are, they are really trying help me as much as possible <3 its really making things easier as I dont need to worry so much for surviving ;D hopefully I will be able to be more chill thanks to it, financial struggles were really fucking up my head I plan to go back to regular posting stuff, both arts and videos; first I gonna finish everything commissions and Patreon print/mail related so just a few days and I will finish this all ^^ I really much catch up on stuff! Im feeling really good, its such nice feeling to not feel like shit ;p wanna support my evil dark empire? Im accepting souls on Patreon and Ko-fi! -> Hekkoto Huge thanks to all of my Patrons and people who donate <3

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Giant Asian Forest Scorpion (Heterometrus sp.) at Sedgwick County Zoo #heterometrus #scorpion #invertebratephotography #zoos #zoosmatter #zoophotography #zoophoto #sedgwickcountyzoo https://www.instagram.com/p/Co-BBJ6OMo3/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[hekkoto]

Spidur. Hekkoto making new friends aka why I love insects so much? >XD Isnt he cute uwu cute lil green guy <3

Guess who decided to replant plants at 4 am >XD I kinda feel those people who walked by looked kinda weird at me lolz I also watered all ma babies, I kinda neglected chores lately aaaand my plants are high priority for me so I took care of them cause I feel better right now. I also tried to clean a bit, I enjoy way more being here when its less messy lolz

Im just coming with update: fuck me - nothing certain was found, I will be doing MORE blood tests. I also have soon gynecologist-endocrynologist and rheumatologist appointments. I just got MORE meds - this time for stomach ache, I kinda feel my stomach starts suffering from amount of painkillers lolz I got something to maybe make it better. I got told to take my new painkillers when I need, if its not enought just take Ibuprofen [I guess mixing it with other strong painkillers isnt great idea >XD]. But yeah, I have sick leave till end of future week. GREAT start of being employed Right now Im working on fixing my mental state, it got affected by my condition, srsly, right now last thing I want is to be suicidal again =,=

but dont worry, Im sure AT SOME POINT my body will stop hurt so badly and I wont be dying all the time. I just need to have hope and not give up. And remember to take painkillers BEFORE I lose ability to move and all I can do is stare at drawer where I keep them >XD

wanna support my evil dark empire? Im accepting souls on Patreon and Ko-fi! -> Hekkoto Huge thanks to all of my Patrons and people who donate 🖤