#it goes without saying that i’m also obsessed with everything bono is doing

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I can’t stop thinking about a) how good The Edge looks in his cowboy outfit and b) the way he’s moving with his guitar…😏

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELLIS!!!!!

today is my best friend/platonic soul mate @beachsequence‘s birthday!!! i’m not great at doing these posts, for some reason i feel like i am less able to articulate the way i feel in important posts than i am in casual posts. but anyways, here it goes.

when ellis and i started talking around xmas 2014 within a month i felt like i’d known them forever. i have always been cautious of the term “best friend” bc i never have had one for a long, sustained period of time, but now around 3.5 years later, ellis has been the only true best friend i’ve ever had. i now have a hard time remembering what it was like without them, it was so much more lonely for sure. i remember often wishing that i had someone in my life, just one person to be able to share what i love with, especially music. i remember wanting just one person to take a chance and love me enough to try and understand and see what i love in the things that are important to me, with an open mind. we initially bonded over zooropa, for YEARS all i wanted was to find someone else who loved that album as much as i did (and still do). they are obsessed with the details and found things in that album that even i hadn’t found. that is one of my favorite things about them, they give their love so openly and dive in without fear. zooropa was the first album we shared and since then most of the music i have found and loved i’ve been able to share with them and that means so much more to me than i can say. but also they have opened me up to so many other things too, and i guess this is what love does, bc when i listen to the albums/artists/songs they are into, i can’t help but listen to them knowing that ellis loves them, and knowing that makes me warm to them immediately, if that makes sense.

this is the place where i could really go on forever about how much i love ellis, and it is overwhelming having to edit myself hahahha. whenever we talk we just dissolve into the grossest love-fest and it is the best but disgusting. but honestly, ellis is the most amazing person i know. they have struggled a lot over the time i have known them, and i know how hard it has been, but watching from the sidelines i can’t feel anything but love and immense pride for the person they are becoming/have become. i think they have this effect on a lot of people, pretty much everyone wants to adopt them bc they are so wonderful, and real, and authentic and kind and funny and awesome. i think we all see how rare what they have is, and just want to protect them from anything that could possibly take that away. but what is so incredible about them is how strong and resilient they are, i have total faith that they will make it through whatever life throws at them (the bruce springsteen lyric: “i strolled all alone through a fallout zone and came out with my soul untouched” comes to mind <3) i just feel so fucking blessed to know them and have them in my life.

in closing here are some things that i love about them:

they always, always, ALWAYS make me feel infinitely better if i am feeling down without even knowing a lot of the times (for example a message like last week about how they were watching a porn and the guy answered the phone AND IT DIDNT EVEN RING. me depressed, lonely, sees that message and it just reminds me that i am not alone at all :’))

we are like the two biggest shaun ryder fans and literally yelled SHAUN RYDER IS THE KEATS OF OUR TIME!!!! all day long when we were in ann arbor with sam and michael (i sent them black grape the first time i listened to it and they replied so quickly THIS IS AMAZING!!! honestly this is everything to me, they are the person i can share shit like black grape with)

i found a half-eaten bag of almonds in the bottom of my bag last week that i had bought at our u2 concert in detroit in august and sent them a pic and they were like “WHY IS THIS BAG OF ALMONDS ABOUT TO MAKE ME CRY!”

we sobbed through “i still havent found what i’m looking for” at that u2 concert together and then during “one” were resting our heads on each others’ shoulders and BONO SAW US AND RESTED HIS HEAD ON ADAM’S SHOULDER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

they are the first person i want to tell pretty much anything that happens in my life

they wake me up with screenshots of graham coxon tweets

they come up with some seriously epic puns and shitposts (”here cum that boi” springs to mind)

SELFIE KING, STYLE ICON (me drunk, scrolling through IG while out with friends: LOOOK AT ELLIS LOOOOOOK AT THEM!!!!!!!!!!! THEY ARE SO FUCKING AMAZING LOOK AT THESE SELFIES LOOK AT THEM!!!!!!!!!)

a;ksdfjkalsdjf;a there are so many more things i cant even begin to go into THEY ARE THE FUCKING BEST

HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY TO MY FAVORITE PERSON IN THE WHOLE FUCKING WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHH I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!