#it hurts a lot. eveything does. sessions were safe from that and now i just feel.. idk. i wish it matttered.
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#ignore me. i wish it mattered. i wish i was important enough for a chance or at least enough for now. it kills me everyday#the constant reminder just with waking up or anything. it's all catching up to me and i feel like i am falling apart.#the distance is killer. i wish i could rip my fucking skin off.#i hate knowing that i'm easy not to love and easy not to miss. but on another hand that should be good because i'd never want#you going through this pain. but that fact also is just tearing me apart more and more. there's not really anything left.#i miss everything. even small things like compliments. i miss looking forward to anything. i'm tired.#i miss closeness and being touched... safety#everyday feels pointless. it feels like a fight not to do something stupid. i don't really have it left in me.#i feel like it'd be so much kinder if i was ////. for everyone.#i would do anything to make this stop. to have that applied to me. t obe important enough significant enough enough for now#i read those messages and wish they were true. wish i could believe it.#i wish i could get to try. i really hope i /// soon. i hope it happens before. it won't. and i'm too much of a coward to do it now.#i just want to disappear. or be sucked into that blackhole. be allowed to take up some bit of space there. otherwise i just#want to make sure i don't take up any. it's better that ways.#i wish i could understand how this pain is better than trying. i can't take it. i'm glad you can but i can't.#after both hits of shittiness last night i just want to go away. i want to go back to sleep and not wake up. i wish i could be wrapped up.#there were parts of that that just felt like salt in the wound. i don’t want to hurt anymore. i want it to stop i can’t.#it hurts a lot. eveything does. sessions were safe from that and now i just feel.. idk. i wish it matttered.
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