#it was like edging that pepsi until it was sideways. you fucked up

[shivroy]

watching a vending machine malfunction is so sexual

[5secondsof5sauces-blog]

Friends And Failing

A small crush turns into something more before everything falls apart and Y/N feels her world come crashing down around her.

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Less than a week had passed by since your time spent with Calum and you continued to talk to him, you still shared late night conversations about the most random things until he had some ‘good news.’ You sat on your desk chair sideways, right leg bent as it kneeled on the arm rest, admittedly not the most comfortable positions but better than nothing ‘I’ve got good news’ Calum beamed through the message as you smiled, hoping it was actually good news, ‘go on’ you gently nudged as curiosity got to you. ‘There’s this girl that goes to the pub all the time, I think her names Rena but her mate Ashton told me she liked me so and I’ve liked her since I first saw her so I’m gonna try it with her’ your heart fell into you stomach as you skimmed through the message before anger set in but you couldn’t let him see that, ‘that’s great’ sarcasm much? It took a few seconds but he replied ‘is that sarcastic?’ well no shit Sherlock! ‘Nope, I’m happy for you’ you lied. It didn’t take long for it to fully sink in, Calum used you and threw you away like it was no big deal, to say you were upset would be an understatement. Grabbing the half full bottle of Vodka and Pepsi that sat on the edge of your desk, you ran downstairs to grab any glass you could find, ignoring the reply Calum sent you before hauling your arse back up and back on your desk. As if anyone couldn’t have guessed already, you were in need a drink and that’s what you got, pouring a little too much vodka your face burning, vision becoming a blur as your heart ached. Part of you was angry, the other part sad. The conversation continued, as did your drinking before you got to the point of just sitting there hot tears running down your sweet, soft cheeks before you did the one thing that would ruin your entire life.

‘You know Cal, I’ve always had a crush on you and when you came over you basically led me on and now you’re getting with her and it’s fucked the fuck up’ regret hit you the second you hit send, fear ran threw you as it was read and the three small dots popped up, how could you be so stupid as to tell him something like that? Quickly downing the rest of your drink you poured another, only half paying attention to the cup as you saw his reply ‘what?’ he asked, as if confused by the thought of you liking him when everyone in a ten mile radius knew you liked the prick. This got your blood boiling, as if he was that dumb, ‘I liked you from the first time I met you and when you came over it got worse’ you could have left it at that but come on? It’s you after all, emotions are not your strongest points and you choose to hide behind a wall, pretending you have a heart of ice, ‘I thought for some god forbid dumb ass reason because you slept with me you might have liked me but clearly not’ a small part of you told you to go offline and sleep this off, maybe apologise in the morning but a larger part of you told you to keep going and that’s exactly what you did. You continued to flip your shit on him as all he could say was ‘sorry’ you scoff at the response, telling him ‘sorry isn’t going to make any of this better’ before releasing yet another rampage of messages at him, watching in frustration as he continued to say sorry and that he didn’t know. How could anyone be so oblivious? It wasn’t long before you calmed down, exhausted from a long night of rage typing so you told him to just forget it and slammed the lid of your laptop down, leaving it on your desk as you crawled back into bed.

Silence filled the days after that, you didn’t message Calum and he didn’t message you. This just proved to you how much he cared. Of course you were hurt by this but at the same time you were glad because you couldn’t face the utter embarrassment of crying and confessing your love to a guy whilst drunk. Soon enough Wednesday rolled around and all your friends asked you to go out for student night, you weren’t the kind of person to turn down cheap booze and you needed a night out, so you went, letting the small fact that Calum goes out that night along with Rena. You knew they were getting pretty close and would be at the same place as were your friends dragged you too but again you brushed it off and went anyway, only to walk in and watch Rena bolt it to her sister before dragging her outside the second she saw you, so you did something similar with your friend Hayley. Tugging on her arm lightly you mumbled in her ear ‘bathroom, now’ she understood perfectly, taking your hand and making a swift walk to the bathrooms, checking they were empty before you slammed your back against one of the walls with a sigh, “you saw that too right? How fast Rena ran to her sister and then outside the second we came in?” you asked, wanting confirmation, she nodded in agreement “yeah, but don’t let it get to you, we’re gonna have a good time okay?” you smiled “can you hear that?” your voice was low, Hayley scrunched up her face in confusing, trying to hear “SHOTS!” you yelled, followed by a laugh before walking back out the bathroom and back into the pub, making sure she followed. It wasn’t long before you were on your ninth shot and feeling good. Ignoring how every time you stepped outside Calum and Ruby went inside, if they wanted to play that game fine, you hoped they froze outside since they wanted to be petty.

Everything was going well, you were happy and drunk until you turned around and got to see Rena and Calum making out right in front of you because I mean out of the entire pub why wouldn’t they do it right there when they know damn well how you felt? Although it bothered you and Hayley knew it did you just turned back around telling her you were going for a cig, she nodded as you stepped outside where you found Kyle, a mutual friend of you all. He was a nice guy that you felt like you could talk to about anything and that’s exactly what you did. You started to rant at him about Calum and Rena as he sat back, nodding in understanding, giving you advice when it was needed. When everything seemed to calm down and you were back to having fun Hayley swung the door open, scanning outside till her eyes found yours before she scrambled over to you, a face of full of guilt “Y/N come to bathroom I need to tell you something about Calum” she looked between you and Kyle, gripping a little tighter on her phone, “tell me now, it’s only Kyle, he knows everything” you spoke, glancing between them both as she insisted you go to the bathroom. After declining a few times she gave up, “I just saw this and thought I should tell you instead of you finding out alone” Hayley rambled before turning the phone around, showing Calum and Rena were in a relationship online, making it official. Your heart dropped as you saw it and you did the only thing you could think to do in the very moment, you cried, only a little bit but still. Hayley pulled you close, rubbing your hair as Kyle rubbed your back both rambling things about to try cheer you up but none of it worked. Instead you stood to your feet and rushed to the bathroom with Hayley not far behind, as soon as you got in there you calmed yourself down, deciding the best thing you could do was to get really fucking drunk, and that’s exactly what you did. To the point where you almost threw up in the street. You couldn’t remember much after that, just trying to throw up in different clubs toilets and being followed by Calum and Rena to every club you went to, forcing you to watch them kiss right in front of you, every time you moved away they seemed to follow, being sure to stick by you the whole time. It was like they were taunting you and you wanted to hurt them as bad as they hurt you. 

This part won’t be in the next chapter it’s just a bit of extra detail but after this night “Rena” acted innocent and befriended my friends, telling them she wanted to be friends with me and as you will see in the next chapter, she’s not as sweet as she makes herself out to be. Right now it’s a case of she’s innocent and I’m the big bad wolf. I also got a taxi with “Calum” and he nearly kicked me out for laughing quietly at her yelling bye bae to him outside McDonalds.. I still find it cringy to this day.

I know this chapter was kinda short but tbh I don’t remember much other than my face being in three different toilet seats in three different clubs because everywhere my friends went they seemed to be there and every single time I turned around there they were kissing. But I hope you enjoyed! And thank you for reading my smol beans! x