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idk-what-im-doing-ever · 1 month

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I thought everything would largely be cool and good once I got a job with the company/business I wanted. But it turns out you can still get burnout doing something you want and that is Infuriating. So now I just want to see if I can work four days a week instead of five but, in this cost of living era? Not fucken likely.

What a curse it is, to have such financial obligations just to live.

#maybe I just want a couple weeks to Exist #to garden and write and find joy in chores like in a Ghibli movie #to not have to hold small talk conversations a hundred times a day with people regardless of whether I like them or not #to take photos of funky bugs and grow food to eat in the million pots I have where the plants have died since I've no energy for things #that aren't Required Obligations #I've made such big moves to change my circumstances for the better and I can't appreciate them still because I have No Fucking Energy #it's easy to see why people play at the lotto and stuff in this headspace #some windfall for a reprieve; to get set up and then ease back in to chill work after a break #working from during school (which is work itself truly) right on until retirement? fuck me that's depressing #yet it is

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