#it's over 2000+ words so I stopped OTL

[yellowocaballero]

How did you get into writing?

That one's kind of tough to answer. I feel like there's a simple and a complicated answer. I'll try and go for simple.

It's partly genetic. My mother wrote Buffy fanfiction in the early 2000s. She put it up on her Buffy forums. It's quite good. When I told her I was flying out to meet an internet friend, she was like - ah, yes, the joy of meeting internet friends! I hope you have fun! Icon.

I read a lot of books and comics as a kid for very boring reasons. I think if you do enough of that, it's pretty natural that you want to write something yourself. I remember vividly sitting in my office period in 8th grade, bored out of my skull, and deciding I wanted to write a story. I grabbed a random sheet of office paper and wrote a. Uh. One page Batman fanfic. OTL.

The thing about writing is that you don't have to stop doing it. It's just writing on a piece of paper, or writing on a Word document. You can do that shit in class. You can do it during lunch. You can do it in the library. You can go home and do it on Microsoft Word 2003. You can mentally write it in class and then go home and physically write it. You can do it on the bus as your friends make you write stories about them riding narwhals. I used to get smashed drunk and write (a small percentage of my AO3 fics were written drunk - I got called Hemmingway a lot). My family was very poor growing up, and writing didn't require any money. It was completely free. It didn't require any equipment or a space. It didn't require other people. You didn't have to stop doing it. So I didn't.

The other thing is that I love writing. I love the act of writing. It does not matter what I'm writing, it does not matter what the story is, and it doesn't matter how good it is. You know how your grandma sits in front of the TV and knits, not so she has a potholder or anything, but just because knitting is relaxing? It's like that for me. Writing is fun. I don't remember ever caring if it was bad. When I was 13, 14, 15, I don't remember ever worrying over if something was bad or not. I remember looking at lines and thinking - these are awesome lines. Or I remember how great it felt to put my elaborate daydream on paper.

Writing is the only hobby I've ever really enjoyed. I should find more hobbies. Ones that involve going outside with groups of people. Writing's made me a ton of friends but they're all online. I could meet up with writing groups in person, but then I'd have to talk to actual writers (worst case scenario). I'll have to fake interest in DND or something.

Oh, also, fwiw - during middle school I wrote fanfic, during high school I wrote almost entirely original fiction. I didn't write much in college because I was a Neuroscience major. And when things calmed down I decided god was dead and writing was for fun and my life was hard enough already, so I went back to fic. The fic is a choice.

[couldyouspeakmyname]

Ok so all your shishigumi content reminded me how much I adore Hino like uhh💖💖

He looks tired sexy and we love that

Could I interest you in Hino and an artist reader Maybe reader was in a gore mood so they went to the back alley market for some inspo and bummed into him and the rest of the boys and immediately asked Hino to be their model? I wonder how he'd react and if maybe a romance could blossom from that 👀

I'll leave the format and rest to your talented hands dear writer and I wish you the best of days ✨

I think this is my first Hino oriented ask? I love me a tired boi. 

-Maeve

You had heard a lot about the black market. It was no secret that many carnivores frequented the area, and it wasn’t unusual for you to visit a friend just to find that they had some sort of meat hidden in their fridge. At this point it was a secret everyone knew, but no one talked about. You had never been, despite the occasional invite. It wasn’t really your thing, and from the sounds of it, the Black Market was dangerous just to go to. There were gangs, fights, feral animals, it just sounded like a death trap, carnivore or not. 

You had never considered really going before, until you fell into a major art rut. You couldn’t think of anything to do. You’d stare at a blank canvas for hours and hours, and still...nothing. It wasn’t until your friend visited, and you began a movie binge that inspiration finally struck you. It was some old horror movie from twenty years ago, and while the effects were bad, and the blood was obviously fake, you suddenly had an idea. You finally had the urge to create and climb over the blockade your had been trying to climb over for the past few weeks. Finally! 

As an artist, you were used to this sort of feeling. It could make you feel like you were on cloud nine, then drop you to rock bottom in the matter of a few moments. When inspiration struck, sometimes it was at the worst time or place possible. Such instances usually involved when you were about to fall asleep, or when you were in a long car ride, or out shopping. Unfortunately for you, it wasn’t unheard of for previously brilliant idea you were so excited about to loose it’s appeal by the time you could get to a point where you could do something about it. This time though, the idea you had and the itch to make it a reality didn’t fade. It nagged at the back of your head. You knew you wanted something dark, bloody, edgy, exciting. 

While you loved your friend, you almost couldn’t wait for them to leave. 

There was just one problem, you didn’t know what to create. You had an urge, a concept, but no details. Nothing you sketched out seemed good. It was all lacking...something. Your frustration began to grow as days passed. The urge never left, the concept of a gory piece of artwork kept clawing at your brain. You tried going online, asking a few friends, but nothing you created seemed good enough. Nothing satisfied you. More than once a sketch was discarded, colors were replaced over and over. You wanted to create, the need was there, but no solid ideas seemed to stick. 

You really had no other choice.

“You’re coming?” Your friend grabbed your shoulders in excitement. They seemed so pleased you agreed to go with them. 

“Only for inspiration for my project! I’m not buying anything,” They didn’t seem to hear you, and were quick to try and drag you out the door. You were barely able to get your art supplies. 

You were going to the market.

The ride there was fast. It was probably due to your nerves. Your friend didn’t hesitate to jump off the train and drag you up the station stairs and onto the street. The station was a few block away from the market itself, and as you walked, the buildings seemed to age quickly, many becoming questionable and dilapidated. The last building of any note that you passed, ‘The Hidden Condo’, seemed like one of the most questionable places to live you’d ever seen. You suddenly were grateful for your home, even if it was a little worn down and small. At least there weren’t animals pushing some sort of weird energy drink on your stoop. You and your friend gave that group a wide berth, and continued to chat normally as you entered the market. 

The smell hit you first. Cooking meats, savory spices, and even the scent of raw flesh hit you all at once. Your friend wasn’t phased, but why would they be? They knew this place. Most carnivores your age did. High schoolers knew what this place was. You suddenly felt very out of place, but not your friend. They even gave a small wave to a friendly stranger that were on their way out of the market, leaving with a sealed and taped cooler. You’d seen coolers like that on the all carnivore train before, and while you had suspected what was in them, now you had confirmation. As you walked along the stalls, the slabs of meats were displayed in such a way it’d be easy to forget that they once belong to someone else. You wondered how they got them, but you didn’t ask. 

This place was perfect. 

“I know you said you didn’t want to try anything, but there’s this shop that makes the best ramen!” You tuned your friend out as they babbled, and focused your surroundings. You took notes of the tall buildings, the broken street you walked on, the seemingly pleasant patrons. You quickly took out you sketch book, and began illustrating what you saw. The deeper you went, the more inspired you became. 

A booth had legs set up for sale, minus the feet. One shop boasted about the fowl they sold, and another had a sign announcing the sale of their pork ribs. One shop even had whole sale rabbits, who looked quite peaceful in the window. You tried not to think of a classmate you had in your previous art class. 

“Tussle!” You heard someone yell, and your friend grabbed you arm and began dragging you the direction of the yell. You almost fell. 

“They’re going to fight!” Your friend seemed excited, like they were a child again and describing the latest roller coaster ride they wanted to go on. They were practically skipping the direction of, what you could only assume, was the ongoing violence. 

“Who are?”

“The Shishigumi,” They dragged you over to the edge of the sidewalk where a large crowd had formed. Even on the edge, there were still a few rows of animals ahead of you, blocking the majority of your view. 

“This is their territory, and those guys,” They pointed to a group of leopards, or what you assumed were leopards. The crowd made it difficult to see. “-are infringing on their territory. They fight to settle things,” You gave them a look. 

“So you want to watch a gang fight?” You sounded skeptical. Wouldn’t that be dangerous? What if they started shooting?

“Yeah, don’t worry though. It’s not going to be to bad since there’s a crowd here,” Ah, they didn’t want to kill any bystanders and hurt business. You tried to stand on your toes to see, especially when a distinct thud hit the ground. Your friend seemed to catch one and yanked you forward. A few more animals, and soon you were about the second row of the crowd.

In the street were a few leopards, and a few lions. The lions, as a group, seemed to stand a ways back, except for two. Just the two alone seemed to handle the leopard with little effort. The violence itself was great for your sketches, and you jotted down a few notes and ideas before they flew out of your head. As the fight ended, the crowd applauded the winning lions. You looked up from your book to the see the victors. The two who partook in the violence seemed to be bragging to their companions, but they weren’t your focus. No, instead your eyes caught sight of someone absolutely stunning. Despite the bags under his eyes, he seemed so relaxed. His mane had these gentle waves that really seemed to suit him and frame his face. Even next to his violent companions, he just looked so calm. 

You needed to know who he was.

“Who’s that?” You inclined your head the beautiful strangers direction, and your friend shrugged. 

“Not sure. I don’t talk to them. They run this area, but they’re not the kind of animals you just walk up and talk to. The most I know is that the big one is Miguel, the one with the tattoos is Free, and that’s it. Those two fight more than the others, so everyone knows their names. I think the one with the face scar is Doc or something?” They shrug, and look down at your notebook. 

“I need his name,” Is this what tunnel vision felt like? You just kept your gaze on him, and even when the group began walking away, you kept watching. 

After that? You were hooked.

Your art piece began to take shape. The first drafts would end up burned in a dumpster, and you’d revisit the market, hoping to catch that stranger. You spent hours working on it, reworking it, and redoing everything from scratch. You had ideas, and the background came together first. The nitty-gritty streets, the market goers, the stalls displaying limbs severed from their owners, but something was missing. You knew exactly what, or who, it was, and you knew couldn’t finish it without him. You weren’t going to even try. You knew nothing you’d put would fit quite right, not like him. So, you visited the market again, and again. Your friend would go along, just happy for the company. The shop keepers didn’t mind you either, since your friend was a loyal customer. You’d usually buy meals and just end up giving them to your friend as leftovers and a thank you for always coming with you. 

Even though you were now a regular at the market, you hadn’t seen him again. It was like trying to find a needle in a haystack, and your friend refused to go deeper into the market where their hideout was supposed to be. 

Still, you persisted. 

. . .

You woke up suddenly one night. The window was cracked, cool air blowing in. The breeze caused a gentle rustling of paper, and a few pencils had rolled off your desk and onto your floor. Even so, that wouldn’t have been enough to wake you up. There was no reason for you to be awake. Yet, there was an undeniable urge forcing you out of bed and into your street clothes. 

You knew you had to go back. 

This time though, you went alone. 

You put on your shoes, and locked your apartment up tight. In your pockets were nothing but your phone and keys. You didn’t bring your book, your instincts told you that it wouldn’t be needed. You trusted them. You had to, they had gotten you this far. 

The subway wasn’t running so late at night, and you had to walk. You found that you didn’t mind. A carnivore yourself, you were at less of a risk than an herbivore would be. Even so, you knew it was stupid. You shouldn’t be going alone. You should call you friend, but you didn’t. You just allowed your feet to carry you to the market. 

You finally reached the entrance, and went in.

At this hour, even the most desperate stall owners had closed their doors. The only things that remained open were strip clubs, bars, and hotels that never questioned their patrons. It had taken you and hour to get there, and your footsteps seemed to echo on the broken cobblestone road. You were smart enough to avoid ally ways, and stay under flickering street lamps. 

You didn’t know where you were going exactly, but you just walked. You held no fear, despite the location, and just pressed onto into an area of the market to which you had never been. The streets got worse, and the buildings seemed to be watching you. 

That’s when you spotted him.

He was alone, sitting on a bench that was rusted and worn. The metal arm on one side had been broken, and parts of the seat were splintered. There was noise coming from inside a building a ways down, and you realized it was probably a bar that had stayed open for, what you could only assume, was the rest of the Shishigumi. 

He was looking up, almost as if he was trying to spot the moon that was hiding behind rooves and the bright lights of the nearby seedy hotels. It was impossible, but it still seemed like he was looking. 

You saw your chance and took it. 

You quickly walked over to him, causing him to snap back from whatever train of thought he seemed to be on. He quickly straightened his back, and eyed you. He used one arm to get up, so he could stand taller than you, and his grip made the old wood of the bench creak. 

Even in the cheap streetlights, he was glowing. You couldn’t waste this chance.

“Hi, my name is Y/N,” You continue to approach him boldly, making him take a step back in shock. He didn’t even know he’d done it. Your voice cut though the muddled quiet of the street, and seemed impossibly loud. 

“I saw you a few weeks ago in the crowd, and I uh. I’m an artist, and I’d love it if you could model for me? I have a few examples if you’d like,” You made sure to lower your voice, to make it less shocking. You pulled out your phone and held it up for him. He didn’t say anything and just took it, a little dumbstruck. 

“Hey! Those look pretty good,” Neither you nor, who you’d learn, was Hino noticed that his companions had come up behind him. Felines were known for being light footed, but it really wasn’t fair they could walk up so quietly in dress shoes. Your phone was quickly snatched away by a lion behind him, who then began showing the rest of the group.

“Hino, you’re leaving us to go do modeling? Boss is going to be so sad to loose you,” An obvious joke, and Hino tried, and failed, to snatch the phone back. It seemed Free was having a good old time paying keep a way with your phone. You’d eventually learn Agata was the one he kept tossing the phone to. 

“That’s enough,” The larger lion, Miguel, took your phone from the now pouting Free, and handed it back to Hino. Hino looked exhausted by the small exchange.

“I’m sorry, but I don’t think I can do that,” His voice was so warm. You could listen to him for days. 

“Please? I just have one piece to finish, and I really need you, I could pay you!” You weren’t going to accept defeat so easily. He seemed a little surprised by your insistence, and your questionable lack of fear. You were in a dark streetway with a cluster of gangsters. Weren’t you worried? Even a little? Apparently not, since your gaze never left his. 

“Hey, do you know who we are?” Free butted in again, as if reading Hino’s thoughts. 

“The Shishigumi, one of the gangs,” You disregarded Free’s interjection and kept your focus on Hino. One of the other lions snorted in amusement in the background.

“Please,” Hino didn’t say anything. his shoulders slumped, and he looked at your phone again, flipping through the images. They were impressive, but a lion of the Black Market? Sure his looks were used for jobs but, you seemed like an actual artist. What could you possibly want with him? The other lions seemed tense, waiting for a response. He could feel their eyes on his back. 

Hino felt even more tired, if possible. He exited out of the folder of your artwork, and began going through your phone itself. You had websites, sketches, some pictures of you and your friends. You just stood there, gaze never leaving him. He felt a lot of pressure both from you, and from his gang behind him. 

“Here,” He offered your phone back. You took it, looking at the screen. He had added his number in, but before he let go completely he gave you a pointed look. Okay, you could play it cool.

“Get out of the market safe, it’s dangerous at night,” He turned to the other lions, who began giving him various jabs about the interaction. You just looked at your phone, and grinned once they were out of sight. 

You got what you came for. 

[jinniejohns-blog]

get to know me tag

okkkk so i was tagged by @whenjikookhappens and @idunknowhyimhere for one version, and @sashagirl1116 for another version...right?? maybe more but honestly for some of ‘em, i’m super late to getting to this OTL forgive me, but i’m combining them since they’re similar and i’m lazy :3

1ST RULE: Tag 9 people you want to get to know better (I think I might break this rule, because I don’t have 9 people askhakjss)

2ND RULE: Fill in the categories

Appearance: i have shoulder-length curly ass hair that’s dark brown (so dark to the point where it just looks black at this point-). i am 5′5″ i believe (approx. 167cm according to google) and have brown eyes. i’m always wearing black because i live that #Emo lifestyle....jkjk, no but i always wear either sweaters or hoodies/overthrows and pants- it’s a rare occasion if you see me in a dress, skirt, or shorts but it can happen if i’m feeling up to it.

Personality: i’m super quiet and reserved if i don’t know people (i try not to be online, but am still awkward as all hell) but i’m super lame when you get to know me. like, very lame. so lame i’m surprised if you don’t leave. that lame. i like to make lame jokes and puns a lot, but sometimes hold myself back because even i embarrass myself sometimes (all the time). i like to tease the people i feel close to, so outsiders may think i’m just a bitch, but i swear i’m not...or at least i try not to be *hides* ummmM i’m also sarcastic af if i know you well (or feel that comfortable) and i speak fluent meme. i’m very emotion-based in my actions, so don’t mess with those i love unless you’re looking to catch these hands!! :)

Ability: iiiiiii don’t have any “SUPER WOW AMAZING” abilities lol, but i draw and write aaaaand can play piano by ear *shrug* i dunno what my IQ is but apparently i pick things up quickly and am good at teaching myself stuff from either just experimenting or using...my...brain... so people say that’s smart, no idea. (i don’t believe them but sure, why not-) i dunno if this would count as an ability, probably a negative one, but i’m a toTAL WORD DUMPSTER. like, you’ll see in this because i can just type and type and talk and talk and saljsalsja i also ramble a lot along with this, so that’s also great. but yeah i shall stop myself now.

Hobbies: as mentioned above, writing and drawing are my main hobbies! also just listening to music (or musicals) in my cocoon (blanket) lol i don’t do much  because duh, i’m lame. 

Experiences: hmm this’ll be more like injury stories because those are fun. ok story uno: i was born with a hole in my heart!! :D i was apparently super close to dying because duh, nothing was functioning right and had to get my first surgery ever while only a couple seconds old. mmm there was also this one time where i was riding my scooter in my family’s garage on easter (i was like 6 or 8) and i bumped into the grill which had rose clippers on it. the rose clippers fell and sliced my foot open from heel to toe. i didn’t even notice tho and kept riding until my aunt was like saying how i’m trailing blood somehow and looked at my foot and screamed...then i started crying like a baby (ofc) and got 8 stitched and a cast. i didn’t understand why they wouldn’t let me walk tho and made it worse becAUSE I WAS A STUPID ASS KID. uhh another time i was riding my bike on the road and i was standing and riding (like this) and my foot slipped so i fell right on the road. my face hit the concrete and my arm was twisted and underneath the bike. me being the stupid 8-11 year old i was froze and started to cry because there was a car driving towards me and i thought they’d run me over. the car stopped, duh, but i was still convinced i’d get hit and i couldn’t frickin move because i was weak, so my mom had to come and get me after i was screaming bloody murder for her nonstop. i’m so embarrassed by that one because i was so dramatic ugh...and iN PUBLIC TOO ASKHSLJSA i’m the clumsiest person ever (namjoon level, bro) so injuries (either minor, major, or just plain stupid) happen a lot.

My Life:  well i go to a charter school, which is basically home school except i have to go onto “campus” (we call it campus, it’s a regular school building) twice a week. but majority of everything is completed online. mmmm right now i’m trying not to fail math as i continue my hate for biology ^_^ i live with my parents, grandparents, and younger siblings. i wanna be some sort of artist or writer, but i’m just not sure yet soooo yeah.

Relationships: i’ve never been in any sort of serious relationship. i once dated this guy online but i was, like, 12 so i don’t really count it, nor mention it (until now pfft). bUT my tumblr wifey is none other than @ithefanfictionwriter (aren’t i just the luckiest person alive to have them?? *sighs fondly*)

Random Stuff: if i get into the right mindset i like to bake. like, a lot. i always have these random bursts of creativity and/or motivation where i just wanna try shit .. like right at that moment, no waiting because i’ll most likely not wanna do it later. so now. right now. i’m also impatient af if you couldn’t tell. hmmm most of the time, i don’t like watching movies or anything like that because i have such a short attention span and will most likely get bored within a couple minutes. i’m in other fandoms that aren’t relating to kpop- i.e., talk to me about hamilton, heathers (both the movie & musical), deh, camp camp, eddsworld, rick and morty, etc. etc. and i’ll love you forever!!!!! i used to be into hetalia but only when i was younger so majority of it’s been pushed outta my mind, hence why i never mention because i don’t want people to think i’m hARDCOre ‘cause i’m honestly not. 

das it!! wow, look at all those words. i’m sorry if you read through it all. this is why all my essays turn out to be 2000 words over the word limit majority of the time and- shit i’m doing it again. I’LL SHUT UP AND TAG PEOPLE: @futuristicgardenerbasement , @jhopesun , @chimchimswifey95 (i know you lol but no one else does so get typing dorky), @thewordbedlookslikeabed , @neckpillows , @chockenscritch and that’s all because i dunno who else to tag (oops).

[todokori-kun]

Ok:

Luna, you’re the best. You’re smart, you’re talented, you’re dedicated, you’re creative and caring, a wonderful listener, so much fun to debate with, and the best friend anyone could ever ask for. I’m so grateful for everything you’ve helped me with ever since we started talking; I respect your resolve. You’re unique and amazing, and I’m so, so sorry this is happening to you.

I won’t go into detail because it’s a complicated story that’s also way too long, but I’ve sort of felt that way before too (thinking it might be better if I just disappeared/wishing I didn’t exist/feeling worthless). It sucks.

I don’t know if this’ll help, but just know that I’m always here to listen if you need it. You can Email me (though I guess that’s probably not an option lol) or just, like, I don’t know, maybe post something on the blog like ‘Evans can we talk’ and I’ll definitely see it and respond because I stalk this place 24/7 (Evans is a creep please don’t encourage her). I’ve also been considering finally getting a tumblr so maybe we’ll be able to PM each other sometime.

There’s absolutely nothing to apologize for. It’s really brave to talk about stuff like this (I never can). And if there’s any way I can help, please, let me know.

  (Also, funny story (it’s actually gross and is basically just Evans whining about stuff):

I know from experience that stomach-related sicknesses suck. When I first started taking swimming lessons I was an idiot with zero stamina who could barely swim halfway across the pool without coming up for air, so needless to say, I ended up gulping a ton of water (especially since my teacher didn’t go easy on me; mom told her not to because I’m a sloth and I usually won’t do any exercise on my own besides simple stretches and some walking/running). I mean, the water in swimming pools is usually a bit disgusting, and it’s even worse where I take lessons because it’s a pretty old place and I don’t think it gets cleaned that often… so not only did accidentally swallowing it trigger my clean-freak senses, I also ended up with a terrible stomachache. I thought it was fine, that it would pass. But then I got a fever and every other thing I ate made me feel like someone was twisting my intestines from the inside, I couldn’t even lie down and rest for a sec because whenever I moved or tried to change positions it got even worse ;p; (also my mom never let it go, she kept jokingly 'reminding’ me that water from a swimming pool is not something you should drink after I started swimming again. I guess I kinda deserved it, though. I was an idiot))

That sounds so lovely <3 I’d really love to go visit Norway myself sometime, though I’ll probably have to wait a few years (my mom has back problems that make it painful for her to stay in one position for too long, so long plane/car rides are a huge no). And oooh if you have any good pictures I’d love to see them :D

Thanks, I’m glad I managed to explain my shipping reasons (like it’s so hard to properly talk about why I ship stuff sometimes XD)! I would give anything to have you join me in Stoki hell so let me just recommend basically the entire Remember This Cold series (it’s angsty as heck so proceed with caution…there are bits of humor and fluff in there, though, and then some extremely rare (almost) pure fluff fics. Like the one where Steve wants to propose but is a nervous bean because Loki’s a PRINCE and he wants to make it perfect). I’ll also try to find some more good fics later becase I can’t remember any titles right now ^^;;

YES ANOTHER T'CHALLA FAN I adore this guy (also I feel like he has a really cool voice. Not really sure why, it just sounds so nice). I really respect him for his attitude towards Steve and Bucky after he figures out Bucky’s not the real murderer, and how he later stops letting his anger towards his father’s killer consume him.

We’ll fangirl over the Black Panther movie together when it comes out, won’t we *schwing*

(right after I wrote 'schwing’ I got this mental image of Hisoka having his glowing, expolsive schwing moments after seeing T'Challa. And then Hisoka schwinging in theater while watching MCU movie fight scenes. Why am I like this)

I can draw, but I don’t know how to animate so these memes will never be a thing ;-; it’s so sad, I’ve got everything planned out…everytime eyes are mentioned the screen zooms in on Illumi’s eyes (yes even when Illumi’s not in the song because he’s a Zoldyck assassin, you can’t keep him out) and the word 'eyes’ gets the weird treatment where all these high/low/metallic(?) voices get layered so it sounds like the creepiest thing ever

('History has its eyes on you but it’s actually Illumi’ is both the animatic I want to see the most and the animatic I hope will never be created)

Fun HxH facts I want to let you know about:

Kite (AKA Ging’s student and Gon’s big brother figure) is dead and has been brainwashed into being a weapon/punching bag for his captors. When sunshine angel Gon meets the new Kite he lets Kite beat him up and then hugs him, promising to save him (THE FEEEEEEELSS)

Forgot to mention this about Chrollo, but when Kurapika killed one of his troupe (a guy named Uvogin), Chrollo acted all cool and never really talked about Uvo…

but then he had the rest of the troupe murder 2000 mafiosi guarding a building they were trying to get into, and while watching the chaos from afar, listening to their enemy’s screams, he started waving his hands as if conducting an orchestra…

“Uvogin-san. Can you hear it? This requiem we’re dedicating to you.”

(jeez Chrollo we know you’re extra but you can’t just murder 2000 people and play a funeral march with their cries of horror every time you lose a subordinate)

Lastly: There’s a new character named Knuckle who’s like the HxH version of Metal Bat. He is the sweetest cinnamon roll. I love him. I’ll send you a pic later

So um did you hear the news about Hinami

(Queen Luna cosplaying Maka(? or any of the other three MCs)…omg that sounds so awesome)

*facepalm* ok WHOOPS I actually read about that on the SE wiki a while ago. How did I forget about it

Yep! It was so good <33 (Lizzy looks so graceful and pretty I can’t even) I actually found the whole movie on YT but just watched the parts I was really looking forward to seeing animated, like UT’s fight scene, Seb getting stabbed, the rest of the Midford family…(Francis’ hair shocked me. Idk how to feel about it. At first I thought it made her look like an old lady, but then, the more I look at it, the prettier it gets…like, it’s actually a really nice design, but I guess I got too used to manga!Francis lol)

Light is the trash GOD.

(hope you get to read the light novel! As far as I know it’s got a TON of L and Naomi in it so it might make you feel better :D)

Oh yeah, I get what you mean. Light’s reasoning/views on the justice system probably connects a lot to the culture and social issues of Japan at the time.

DN’s probably still one of the easier-to-adapt mangas out there, though, since the themes of justice and questioning the idea of 'greater good’ is something anyone can relate to (and they still botched it, I’m very salty about this and you can’t stop me ;-; even with how terrible Ryuk and Rem looked in them, the Japanese movies were WAY better, and it’s actually pretty rare that Japan makes a good live-action movie from a manga or anime. Apparently the TG movie that came out this year was pretty good too, though :D).

(I apparently somehow accidentally erased the part where I mentioned I actually read HCs/theories about Japanese-American Light on tumblr somewhere….that’s what got me thinking about it.

I agree though, seeing how different cultures would change Light’s character would be very interesting.)

The lack of potato chips doomed the entire Keikaku from the start.

I can see you being similar to Pearl too! I think I’m maybe a bit like Lapis…or possibly Connie. Or maybe Blue Diamond because I also cry way too much (but then again BD actually has a reason to be miserable so)

Those are both cool gems<3 and yeah, they’re both really pretty :D

I was talking about gem 'roles’ back on Homeworld, though ^^;; like, how Pearls are considered servants or pretty accessories, Diamonds are leaders, fusions like Garnet are outcasts, Rubies are 'dumb muscle’, Sapphires are valuable prophets, Peridots are tech experts, Jaspers are soldiers…sorry, I should’ve been more specific OTL

I’d probably be a Pearl lol. I could see myself being a Peridot and being scared to death without a Quartz soldier to guard me but I’m not good with any kind of technology so nah.

And sorry for asking weird questions, I forgot it’s been a while since you watched the show ^^;;

Hey, don’t feel bad about slow replies! Like I said before, I seriously don’t mind as long as you’re ok :D and I’m so glad I’ve managed to help.

('a friend I appreciate’ *ugly sobbing* thank you)

Did someone say suffering?

*'Remember That We Suffered’ plays in the background*

DID THE QUEEN JUST SAY 'Goals’ ABOUT SOMETHING I MADE OMG I’M FREAKING OUT TYSM

Ayyy I’m so glad you liked them! (The Hide pic was painted with the intent to kill)

(last thing:

I’m sorry, this is probably really creepy, but I ended up telling my mom about you because she asked who I was talking to (she knows I have internet friends and has seen me writing messages before). Since I’m only 13 she worries about the people I talk (she knows all my friends on ao3) so I told her some small things like your age, that you’re from Croatia, that you play the piano too and that you mentioned having a sister.

I’m really, really sorry if this makes you uncomfortable, mom just worries a lot and she likes to hear about my friends (like, she worries for my safety on the internet so she has to ask me some basic things about the people I talk with, and when she knows I have a good friend on the internet she sometimes wants to hear if my relationship with them is ok). I’d never tell her something really private but sometimes she wants to talk and I know she worries for me so I do tell her small, random details from our convos.

if you’re uncomfortable with that, though, I’ll stop. Again, I’m so sorry about this.)

And after two weeks of silence, the species finally shows some signs of life.  ;-;

I’m totally not crying.  I’ve said this so many times and you’re probably getting annoyed, but I have no idea what I did to deserve you in my life.  You’re actually the only person I’d told about my current mental state at that time, and I’m so glad you didn’t freak out or just write it away as me overreacting (like my mom did), and it means so so so much to me. Truly, thank you for being here for me. (And not giving up on me, considering how long my replies take ;-;)

I’m here for you as well, though, so if you’re ever feeling down, you can message me ^^ 

Oh, it’d be cool if you’d get a tumblr! I can guarantee my replies would be faster then, since the messages would show up in my notifications...

Also, to brighten things up a little, this is how I picture you at the beginning of the message:

Oh  god that sounds disgusting XD And perfectly describes why I don’t wanna do swimming as a sport. Are you still swimming? It’d be cool if you were, cause it’s a really beautiful sport imo. 

That’s unfortunate... Hopefully you’ll be able to visit it someday ^^

Tbh considering the shit I unironically ship sometimes, no ship is weird enough to be unexplainable. Name a single reason why you ship it, and it’s valid in my eyes. Heck, it can be ‘they look good together’ and I’ll say ‘makes sense’. Y’know why? Because I’m one of those ppl who will ship it if they so much as look at each other.

ok fun fact: I’ve loved T’Challa since I was like 8, because every summer, there would be a weekly publication of superhero comics, and Black Panther was almost always there, and I was a nerd even then, so I’d always buy them. Other than Spiderman, Black Panther was my favourite superhero. 

Lololol I need the HxH Cast watching MCU movies. Oh yeah, I found this a while ago and immediately thought of you:

Amazing... If you ever learn to animate, please send me a link, because I will pay money to see that. Just. I’m not even into HxH, but I’d give up a lot to see the crossover XD

Ouch, that seems like a lot of feels... Seriously I have no idea where you get the mental strength to read to many angsty moments...

um, yeah... i have actually... but um, she’s alive, right?

Turns out I gave my skirt I’d used to charity, so until i find a replacement, I can’t take any pics... well, at least i can grow my hair out to Maka’s length till that happens XD

I adore the movie, seriously, the animators did such an amazing job with it, especially the most important scenes. BUT HECK; WHEN WILL WE FIND OUT WHAT OUR CIEL’S NAME IS?? It’s been hinted that it’s quite unusual, BUT THAT MAKES IT EVEN HARDER HNNNGH

Oh yeah, I’m gonna find that novel even if it kills me, because I need the L. 

lol I still haven’t forgiven the movie adaptation of Avatar the Last Airbender. It was so bad that most people (including me are denying its existence). I might watch Death Note some time soon, so I can judge it for myself tbh... 

Of course, the chips were a vital part of the Keikaku... No wonder it didn’t succeed...

No worries! It’s not your fault! Tbh, i dont think id even reached that part when I was watching it, so it’s interesting to hear all the roles...  Aw, you’d be an adorable Peridot ^^

Tbh ‘friend that I appreciate’ doesn’t even begin to describe how precious you are to me. You’re the first online friend I made and the first person I told about my mental state, so honestly, you’re one of the people I feel closest to...

Nah, I don’t find it creepy at all!! Seriously, I sometimes tell my parents about people I talk to, so I’ve mentioned well ^^ It’s your choice what/who you’ll talk about ^^

[x-avantgarde]

SHINee World V - Hong Kong Experience!

So hello everyone owo I went to Shinee's World V, Hong Kong stop's concert!! (This is a Kpop post, I know but I will be back for vkei in the future! So please stay tuned!!) :D I bought the tickets really late orz and so before I start, I would like to apologize because I don't really know SHINee that well (I know them but I wasn’t a Shawol or anything) and I went because my mom likes Taemin (and SHINee) a lot XDD  (beware of this long ass post haha (it’s 2000+ words orz)

So we arrived at the venue at around 2pm? The merchandise opens at noon but I had this lesson that ends at noon so... We had lunch before we went to the venue (and the place is super far lol, but it's super close to the airport). Me and my mom took the airport express line from Kowloon (Elements?) to Asia World Expo and it was actually pretty quick (~20mins?). But the fare was super expensive OTL (though you get a discount if you show them your concert ticket).

There were A LOT of people lining up for the merch when I got there, but I wanted to get the light stick so badly (because I don't have one? XD) so I just lined up (like whatever haha). The line was super long, the merch was outside but the lines looped into the area where the standing went and waited. Around 30mins in the line I met people from my school lmao XD (so awkward bc we're actually not close?).

There were these people who approached us and asked us when we were in the line about whether we wanted light sticks or not (because they had "a bunch"). It was super fishy so I didn't get any, there were many cases in Kpop concerts where people sold fake light sticks :/// The official ones sold at 80HKD each but those people sold it at 60HKD each :////

After approximately two hours and fifteen minutes, I finally managed to get the merchandise :D Around halfway through the line, the staff gave us this sheet to write down what we wanted. In the end, I spent around 500HKD lmAO. I told myself I would only get the light stick and that was it, but you know what? I ended up getting an Onew fan, Onew key chain and these postcards (rip my money haha but it was so worth it). The Onew key chain is super duper cute!! owo (and yes my favourite member is Onew ouo)

It was around 4pm when we finished getting our merch, so me and my mom decided to go into this (kinda bad) cafe / restaurant place to sit down and eat something. I didn't eat anything because I literally just ate lunch three hours ago X"D Around 4:15, people were starting to line up. There are two places where you can go into the venue, one is on the ground floor, (for people in standing (who already got in) and people from the seating (block 5-13 (aka every block)) in the first rows. (A-M)). I was in block 10 row L so I had to get in on the ground floor.

Around 5:00 we went to line up and get ready to get in. The security was super strict and there were these Japanese girls in front of me who got cut off because they found a camera (but the girl said she went to disneyland and that's why she bought it). They took super long T___T until they finally managed to check my god damn bag. I bought a small-ish backpack but they literally took out everything T______T I understand that they didn't want any cameras inside the venue and stuff, but... uhhh really???

Me and my mom managed to get in, and we walked up the stairs (finally) and found our seats!! :))) On our seats, there was a pack, which included an balloon, a fan (double sided with a member's face) and this banner in Korean //orz what does it mean haha//. I got Key's fan so it's okay /but ugly sobbing because I didn't get Onew T_T/.

It was supposed to start at 6pm but they were super late (because Taemin had this earpiece problem so he kept apologizing during the introduction / first MC T___T (like CHILD ITS OK (let me give you a hug lmao). When the fans sat down, it felt super unreal, and it all felt like a dream. When the lights dimmed and we started screaming and chanting, "SHINEE! SHINEE! SHINEE!" They played a video (to our disappointment haha).

After that Shinee cAME OUT :DD They started with the song Sherlock and it's super good XD But I didn't warm up yet so I was kinda stiff and I didn't scream and all. (For some reason, I felt super awkward). But I was waving my light stick, just enjoying Shinee performing :))

The next song was Married To The Music and I was starting to get more hyped :) I lowkey sang along XDD I think they came out in suits or something (i forgot orz). Then the next song was Juliet (and the chorus is so catchy?!?!) After these three songs, it was MC timeeee! ^^ they started talking about how they haven't been to Hong Kong for a long time (around four years??) so they were really happy to be back. Key mentioned about how HK food was really good or something haha.

(Starting from this part, the order of the songs are going to be all messed up). They changed clothes somewhere after the MC or something like that (they changed way too often!!). I got more warmed up as Reply came up :DD Everyone sang along to it (and dude it's so good hahaha). You know how people would scream when a member's part comes up? That was me when Onew's part came up XD But it felt like I was the only Onew fan in my section because when Onew sings there were nearly NO ONE screaming T__T (It felt lowkey awkward because I would only be hearing my screams hahaha).

Then midway they changed into casual and I swear, Key looks SO GOOD in real life. During Lucifer, I was so hyped hahahaha. Key took off his white jacket because it was "too stiff and too hard to dance in it", and also he was like, "I look better without it". OMG XDD And guess what was underneath his jacket? A grey sleeveless shirt. SLEEVELESS. HE LOOKED SO GOOOD OMG. XD In the middle of the setlist /forgot which song orz/ he made the hand heart and it got onto the mini screen on the side. I got /shot/ in the heart owo.

THIS IS THE HIGHLIGHT OF THE CONCERT FOR ME HAHA. OKAY. During some song, Minho winked and gave this smooch towards the crowd OMG. AND IT WAS LIKE WINK THEN AIR KISS. /DIES/ WHEN HE DID THAT, I LITERALLY SPAZZED OUT ON MY SEAT HAHAHA, I WAS LIKE 'WHAT IS LIFE?' (He is so extra?!?! X"D)

In the middle of the setlist, (ESPECIALLY DURING Everybody), I got super duper hyped and screamed like crazy whenever it was Onew's part X"D (and also when their choreography was super cool). LIKE WHO CARES, I'M HERE TO HAVE FUN BITCHES XD During Everybody, these Japanese girls (again XD ikr, they have a lot of Japanese fans haha), also got super hyped XDDD Even though we weren't supposed to film, no one honestly gives a shit? (including me lmao). I filmed for around 30s in total XD (just to document the hype and it's the only thing I can hold onto after the concert T_T (other than the merch)).

They also performed Why So Serious, 1 of 1, So Amazing, View (that was aWESOME), Ring ding dong (the crowd was so high XD (including me hahaha)), Prism, Feel Good (CLIMAX OF THE CRAZINESS HAHA), Shift (don't really remember anything XD (except the fact they performed this song). The atmosphere was so awesome!! :))

In around the first quarter? Two members changed first, then the others went. Key, Minho and Taemin stayed first X"D Minho or Key was like, "I'm wondering if any of the members off stage are eating right now (referring to Onew and Jonghyun)" XD Then Onew and Jonghyun came back, wearing silk material / soft / shiny fabric clothes :DD it was so cool haha. (I think they also performed Dream Girl but I don't remember what happened T_T).

(I'm listening to SHINee's songs while typing this up so ahahahahaha) They sang a lot of the slower songs during that silk material clothing part XD (whatever you call it haha). Onew and Jonghyun also sang a duet-- Please Don't Go. This song was so touching and T_T //feels// Onew's voice was so sweet <333 /melts/ (Jonghyun's voice is also good <33) Hopefully Jonghyun's not sick or anything because he struggled a lot with hitting the high notes T___T especially during the duet and Replay QAQ

During Feel Good, oh my... oh my... The lyrics in the chorus, "I can make you feel good" X"D Everyone sang along in that part and I was kind of hesitant but I GAVE UP. So I also sang along and that was sooooo fun. This was one of the songs I like hahahaha. Though I wished they performed Tell Me What To Do because Jonghyun's voice in that song is GREAT.

There were a lot of Key and Taemin fans hahaha. Whenever it would be Key or Taemin's part, girls in my section would be screaming ahahah (like me in Onew's part X"D). And Onew's smile just melts my heart ouo Taemin also did a solo performance, he performed Sayonara Hitori (in Korean). His costume was so cool (there were these ribbons(?) that are sewn onto his sleeves, so whenever he spreads his arms it would look kind of like wings :D There were also these long stripes of red fabric hanging from the ceiling. There were also smoke(?) in the floor to make it even more dreamy <33 When my mom heard that song, she shook my arm excitedly and said, "This is my favourite song from Taemin!!" /lmao/ It was super cool and I enjoyed every single second of it /and I lowkey sang along because it's so good hahaha/

Skipping to Aside!! It was actually when we were supposed to blow up the balloons (which had led lights inside of them). I struggled a lot (because honestly I've never successfully blown a balloon before... until now XD) but the crowd looked super good because of the flashy balloons :DD Even Jonghyun was thankful for what the fans had prepared :DD (because he mentioned it in the ending speech).

Skip skip skip, time for chanting the encore! The fans actually started singing happy birthday (in Korean) to Shinee (as it's nearly their 9th anniversary!) ^_^ Every time we want to start over again (by singing happy birthday), we would all laugh as we don't know when we should start singing again haahaha (if it makes any sense XD). They came out in the moving carts (LIKE FINALLY?!) and the crew played So Amazing in the background. I really wanted to get one of their signed balls (that sounds wrong LMFAO /i'm sorry/) but I didn't manage to get one T_T because Onew and Jonghyun actually tried throwing some to my section but they didn't manage to throw it pass the crew (bc the crew was sandwiched between my section + the moving carts) OTL

/HIGHLIGHT NUMBER 2/ Since Minho was the only one on his cart, he actually stopped in front of my section (directly in front of me) and did the hand heart (like the one you make the heart with your arms + head??) towards my section XD I cried ahaha, and you know what? Before I knew it, MY HANDS AUTOMATICALLY DID AN ARM/HAND HEART BACK TO HIM. HE WAS SMILING SO BRIGHTLY OH MY GOSH. (No one in front of me did a heart back so it's actually possible he might have seen me in the corner of his eyes /dies from happiness/ /but it's okay if he didn't actually see me because giving a heart towards my section is already good enough <333/)

They did the ending speech and they reminded us to support Key's new drama <33 Shinee also told us that they will be back soon (isn't that what all the overseas idols say lmao). And it ended! I was so sad T___T they played a video (or some MV /i forgot/) and in the end the screen said "Thank you and love you" XD It was really touching but my mom had to ruin the moment and said, "Yeah, more like thank you and love your money" LMAO.

It was such a great experience and I have definitely fell in love with Shinee :D (who wouldn't if they attended Shinee's concert haha). It was so different from Visual Kei's lives and I might be doing a comparison in the future so please stay in touch with me! <3