#its astounding what matters to you people and i mean that with malice

[kirinoha]

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[supernatural-fanficuniverse]

Heart Hope

Title: Heart Hope

Pairing: Dean x Reader x Sam (friendship)

Word Count: 3,776

Warnings: Fluff, ANGST, drunk angry dean, self-harm, depression, cussing, suicide attempt. 

Summary: You had known the Winchester brothers for 3 years and had grown to love them as if they were family. You had started to think you were a burden and that the boys were better off without you. What happens when one night you decide to act on those thoughts?

Inspiration: Heart Hope by Oh Wonder 

A/N: *I am in no way trying to romanticize self-harm and/or depression.* I struggle with these as well, and just used this work of fiction as an outlet. If you ever need to talk, I’m here. This is my first Supernatural fanfic, so please let me know if it was any good or not.

Y/A = Your age

You were laying in your full size bed that lied in your bedroom in the bunker. It was 2:48 in the morning and you couldn’t sleep. You knew that wasn't a good thing because your thoughts are always relentless, and they bring things up from the past that you wish you could forget about forever.

You had known the Winchester boys for about 3 years now. They rescued you from a Rougarou. It was a hunt you had been waiting for, for nearly your whole life. After all, it was the Rougarou that killed your parents and your little sister, and that’s what got you into hunting.

To this this day you couldn’t forget the sound of your little sister’s screams. It’s like the sound was burned into your brain, and the devil played it on loop day and night just to watch your pain being relived over and over again.

You had to admit, it was taking a major toll on your mental health. You became obsessed with tracking the damned thing down. You wanted to torture it, to make it feel pain, the same pain you felt every day by not having the people you had loved the most next to you. You wanted to hear it elicit the same gut wrenching scream that you could never forget. You just wanted the fucking thing to die. You wanted revenge, as simple as that. At least it should have been simple, somehow you’d found a way to fuck that up to.

You got a lead and had finally narrowed down its next targeted hunting ground, Smith County Kansas. You had prepared for the long trip (you were currently in Minnesota) and did as much research as you could, all the while trying to hurry. You caught whiff of a few news articles. Fuck. A few missing bodies here and there and you knew it had already struck. You thought you were too late but you went anyways, there’s no way you’d miss the chance to slit its throat, even if there was a chance it wouldn’t even be there. You had talked to the local townspeople and had finally figured out that the Rougarou’s nest was in an abandoned farmhouse on the outskirts of town. By the time you had gotten there and snooped around some,something hit you on the back of the head and your vision went black. Long story short, you were tortured until the Winchesters came to save you. You would always be eternally grateful to them. 

You found out that Smith county was practically their backyard seeing as how they lived in Lebanon (one of the cities in Smith). They said they could use a fresh set of eyes, and someone to help do some research, kinda take the load off of the boys, so you gladly and happily obliged to tag along. You had grown so attached to them within the last 3 years. There’s nothing you wouldn’t do for those two goofballs. You looked up to them as if they were the older brothers you never had, and you were pretty sure they loved you like a little sister. It was the closest thing to family that you’d had in quite a long time and it was a nice change in pace. But you started to think you were a burden to them. You knew they loved you, and you knew they’d never intentionally let you think anything less than that. But these days and with everything that had happened in your past, it was all just beginning to be too much to handle alone. Yeah, you could count on the guys always being there to protect you on the hunt, Sam or Dean always rushing in to save the day. But this was different. You didn’t need to go laying your problems on them, they handle enough on their own, much less the heavy weight it would be to add your plethora of issues on them as well. You were just getting so sick and tired of being so alone. You gave up on the idea of sleep and sat upright in the bed, carefully setting your feet on the cold floor. The sheer coldness sending a shiver up your spine. You quietly padded down the hallway to the kitchen, passing both Sam and Deans doors. By the sound of it you could tell that at least one of them was snoring heavily, but hey at least they were getting some shut eye. Good sleep is something very few hunters can get often, so you knew they relished in their off time, even though they were always searching for the next case. You went to cabinets and pulled out a mug, along with supplies to fix a nice warm tea. Maybe a chamomile infused tea will give you just the right amount of comfort to be able to shut your mind off and finally fall asleep. God knows what you would give for a hug right now. But as always you were left to console yourself, tightly crossing your arms and drawing what little solace you could out of their pressure on your chest. The microwaved beeped bringing you of your thoughts, you reached in to get the mug and as you pulled it out you realized it was much much hotter than you were anticipating. The mug slipped out of your hand, the hot liquid splashing against your arm and your leg, as the cup made its way toward the ground. That’s when your heart sunk to the bottom of your stomach.

It wasn’t just any mug, it was Deans favorite mug, the last one that he had kept from his Mom’s personal china collection. He’d either lost or broken them throughout the years and this was the last one. The mug collided with the ground and produced an almost ear shattering sound that echoed throughout the entire bunker that was so quiet, that you could hear a pin drop from a mile away.. Before the mug had hit the ground you had instinctively reached down trying to save it. When it splintered in 6 huge pieces of porcelain one of them came up a jabbed you in the soft skin between your thumb and pointer finger. Your eyes instantly welled up in tears, and it wasn’t even because of the astounding pain you felt in your hand, it was because you knew how angry Dean would be at you. And you never wanted Dean to yell at you. To look at you with those pretty green eyes of his and see anger and disappointment reflect back to yours. You heard two sets of footsteps stomping down the hallway as fast as they could. “Y/N?!”, you heard Sam yell. You stood there shaking, tears in your eyes clutching your injured hand, and fearing what was about to happen in the moments after this one. You thought Sam was going to round the corner first, but you were surprised when you saw Dean instead. “What the hell is going on?” Dean questioned in a not so nice voice, his tone gruff. You noticed he slightly slurred his words, fuck. That means he had been up late drinking and he probably hadn’t sobered up yet. You just stared at him, for fear if you were to open your mouth that you would lose your shit right then and there, but you couldn’t let that happen no matter what. You can’t let the boys see you weak. Sam stood there just taking in everything as well, he looked a little dazed. “Did you not fucking hear me or something, Y/N?! I said what the hell is going on in here!” Dean’s voice boomed. You hated when he got like that (which he had only ever done once before). He looked at the ground and you knew he was about to explode. “Wait. Hell no. Hell no! Is that my moms fucking mug? Did you break the last item that meant so much to me?!” Dean practically yelled. You could smell the whiskey on him from here. “Dean,” Sam said warily. Dean turned around and angrily looked at Sam. “No Sammy! You don’t fucking understand! You never have! That was the last possession of our mother that I had, and what!? She gets a free pass to just destroy my personal items!? Huh Sammy!?” You knew you wouldn’t be able to take much more of this. You had never meant for any of this to happen, all you wanted was to make some tea. I guess you fucked that up too, just like everything else. “And the big kicker is, she’s not even family!”, he turned on his heel to look at you, your heart breaking in two. “You know that you have caused nothing but trouble since we found you?! I knew the day that Sammy begged for you to come along that I would regret it sooner or later and boy was I right.” He laughed but it contained no mirth. “He said he pitied you, hell, even I did too. But only a little bit, what can I say? It’s a hard knock life, get over it. We put our asses on the line for you all the time! And you don’t even appreciate it!” Dean continued his voice getting louder and louder with each sentence. “What about that time you almost got Sam killed because you messed up the Latin during an exorcism?! Or maybe the time when I almost got shot because you forgot to clean your damn gun?! Do you ever fucking think? Or are you too stupid to even handle that?!” The malice that dripped off of his voice was so heavy you could physically sense it. You couldn’t take this anymore. This was just too much, all the insecure thoughts that you had been thinking had just been expressed by someone you loved more than anything. You took off towards your room, practically slipping in the small puddle of blood from where you cut your hand. You hadn’t even noticed it was bleeding until now. You’re so fucking stupid, Y/N! You just couldn’t keep the one good thing that had happened to you huh? You shouldn’t be surprised, you fuck everything up so what would make you think this time would be any different? You should just die. It’s not like anyone would miss you now. Dean certainly wouldn’t. He would probably be happier. You slammed your door shut behind you, quickly locking it. Your breathing was erratic and your heart was beating out of your chest, hot tears streaming down your face. You could faintly hear Sam and Dean arguing with each other in the kitchen. You can’t ever do anything right and this just proves it. You were a waste of space from the start and should have just given up when your family died. If they were still alive today they probably wouldn’t even love you either, you just made people feel that way about you.

It was true, no one ever checked in to see if you were okay, no one ever cared to ask how you were doing. Nobody is this whole damn world fucking cared about you. And you knew it down to your core. You were never someones first choice.

No one needed you nearly as much as you needed them. You thought back to the last time you had cut and swore to yourself that you’d never do it again. That was 3 years ago. The Winchesters had helped you out a lot. Had being a keyword. You were pretty sure you were going to break that clean streak tonight. And the sad part is, is that you didn’t feel any remorse about it. You fucking deserved this. You took your back off of your door and ran to your dresser, rummaging sloppily through the drawer until you found what you were looking for. The razor blade that you used to self-harm. You had tried to get rid of it, but never could. Guess that decision had come in handy after all. You rolled up your sleeve on your left arm and glanced down at your wrist. The scars had almost completely faded, sending a pang of guilt straight to your heart. You ignored it, and cut a deep but short cut in the top of your wrist. You let out a strangled sob slash cry of pain. This was deeper than you’d ever dared to cut before, the blood immediately coming to the surface. Sure it hurt like hell, but you deserved this and so much worse. You know if you cut deep enough into the vein that runs the length of you arm, this could finally be over? “Shut the hell up,” you muttered trying to ignore the intrusive thoughts that were invading your brain. If you take the razor blade and cut vertically instead of horizontally that- “SHUT THE FUCK UP,” you yelled at the top of your lungs. You started attacking your wrist and arm with the blade not even caring where it cut, nor how deep. You could hardly see the cuts because the blood was pouring out so profusely. You heard someone (maybe even two people) banging on your and screaming your name, but you could care less. You started to feel lightheaded, but continued to cut into your sensitive skin anyways. You heard the door open with force and slam into the wall, the lock failing. “NO!,” Dean yelled, concern and fear etched onto his face. It made your heart break even more. In an instant his strong arms were around you, but you still had one thing on your mind and that was putting your lights out forever. Dean took off his flannel and gingerly wrapped it around your arm as he whispered things in your ear, taking the blade away from you before you could do any more damage. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean it”, “It’s going to be okay”, “You’ll be alright”, “Stay with me sweetheart.” The last thing you saw was Sam’s shocked and concerned face come around the door frame before the peaceful blackness overtook you and you gladly let it. You prayed to God you’d never open your eyes, or take another breath again.

You suddenly regained consciousness, your brain coming back to life. You looked around the dark room, hoping that you were in heaven and you just hadn’t gotten there yet (and it certainly didn’t look like hell).

The pounding in your head (not to mention the pain in your heavily bandaged arm) and the steady hum of the air conditioner told you that you were in fact not in heaven, but in the bunker.

You felt halfway disappointed that you had failed, but there was a small part of your subconscious that was happy you’d be able to see Dean and Sam again. You felt the familiar cotton sheet and the fluffy bedspread and knew it was yours. You were in your own bedroom.

You wondered where Sam and Dean were, and somehow as if reading your mind, you heard a click and the light from the lamp on your bedside table flooded the room.

You had to squint your eyes before you could open them fully. It was Dean, your heart restricting as you noticed how puffy and bloodshot his eyes were. It looked like he had been crying for days straight and Dean never, I mean never cried. You had only seen him cry once since you’d known him and that was because Sam had scratched Baby’s passenger side door in a narrow parking garage.

Guilt flooded your heart as you stared back at him, hardly even noticing Sam in the rocking chair in the corner of your room. He was still fast asleep but his eyes looked about the same or maybe even a little worse than Deans did.

A single tear, that stung almost tangibly with accusation, slid down your cheek.

“I’m so sorry, Dean.” You were scared your voice wouldn’t work properly so you just whispered. It was almost inaudible, but you knew he had heard it.

“It’s okay. I just wish you would have told us you were hurting this badly, Y/N.” Dean replied solemnly, sounding as if he had the weight of the world on his shoulders.

He handed you a glass of water, but you were shaking so he ended up holding the glass up to your lips and helping you drink.

“Thank you.” You said even quieter than the first time you had spoken, your throat feeling a lot better but you still didn’t want to test your voice just to have it fail.

“You know I didn’t mean a single word I said right?,”Dean said breaking the silence.

“I was drunk and I wasn’t thinking straight. I shouldn’t have taken it out on you. You’re the closest thing to family other than Sammy that I have. I will not lose you. Especially not when I can help you, which I can, and I will. I will do everything in my power to get you better, no matter what it takes.”

“Deans right, Y/N.” You heard Sam suddenly speak as he got up from the rocking chair and made his way to the foot of the bed, setting his hand on your blanketed leg. “You mean so, so much to me and Dean. You’re like our little sister. We don’t want you to have to go through this alone. Like Dean said earlier. I really really wish you would have to come us. If not me then at least Dean. We care about you.”

Hearing them reassure you like this almost made you break down, but you couldn’t yet. You still had all those horrible thoughts bouncing around in your head. Maybe you’d feel better if you expressed them out loud.

“I think I’m starting to be a burden to you guys,” you blurted out, drawing them to look at you with concerned and confused faces. You continued nonetheless, “I love you both just as if you were my blood brothers that I had had since birth. I just feel that sometimes I’m too much for you to handle. I feel that I’m not worth fooling with. I want to make your lives easier, not complicate it by me being there. You both have your own problems and issues and you don’t need me adding to that, y’all have a hard time carrying it all by yourselves. The least I could do was keep it to myself. I tried to ignore the thoughts, I truly did. It’s just hard when they tell you that you’re both better off without me. I agree with it too and that’s what kills me. I know that I slow y’all down and it makes it more difficult on hunts. I’m also not as experienced as you are at hunting. Sam is the best at research and can find out anything in a matter of hours and Dean can gank any son of a bitch that tries to mess with him. What am I good at? Making a sandwich? Doing a load of laundry? I’m only good at stuff that’s unimportant and it adds no value to hunting. I just feel that it was better all the way around if I were to check out. Maybe it would be better for you guys.”

You looked up from your hands that were sitting in your lap and both Sam and Dean were just looking at you. You suppose they were contemplating what they wanted to say next. You just felt so vulnerable under their roaming eyes. You had never told them any of this, for all they knew you were a happy go lucky girl, certainly not one struggling with suicidal thoughts.

“Y/N,” Dean said, drawing you from your unwelcome thoughts. “I’m the one that is sorry. You have no right to be apologetic. I do. Sammy and I obviously haven’t done our job well enough. We should have noticed you were hurting.” He was remorseful when he said it.

You looked over at Sammy and he nodded his head in deep agreeance with his older brother.

“We should have noticed when you started to pull away from us. When you started eating more meals in your room and when you stopped coming to us with your views and opinions. We care so fucking much about you Y/N. I care so much about you. You are the little sister I never got to have. You do so much for us. You may think it’s little tiny mundane tasks but if you weren’t here to do them, Dean and I would be lost. You and I both know that I’d starve if it was up to Dean to cook a meal every now and then.” Sam smiled at you and laughed softly.

You smiled back and laughed lightly as well. It was very true after all, Dean was a terrible cook. He’d tried to bake you a cake for your birthday one year and practically burned the whole bunker down.

Dean decided to chime in, “Sammy’s right Y/N, but that’s not the only thing you’re good at. You’re a badass hunter. There’s not one Y/A year old girl that I can think of that has the guts to do what you’re willing to do on a daily basis. We will get through this together. We will help you. Sammy and I are right by your side, and we will stay here with you until you get better.”

You were in tears now, the hot liquid flowing earnestly at their words.

“What if it takes forever?” You asked quietly.

Sam responded immediately, “Then I guess we’ll be here forever.”

“There’s no place I’d rather be,” Dean added.

They both leaned in and engulfed you in a big warm Winchester hug. You cried and cried, their grips on you never wavering, not once, until the tears finally resided. You finally had hope that maybe you get actually get through this.

Dean pulled back and looked you in the eyes before speaking.

“Promise me and Sammy one thing.”

“What is it?” You asked softly.

“Promise us you’ll Always Keep Fighting.” Dean pleaded, unfallen tears brimming his eyes.

“I will. Just for you and Sam. I will. I love you guys.”

“And we love you too, Y/N.”

For once you had hope, real hope. Heart hope that ran so deep, you could feel it to your core. With Sam and Dean Winchester by your side you could get through anything.

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Re: Steven Universe & The “Concrete Controversy”.

Hey all, NTom here. Been a while since I’ve done much else besides reblog fan art and anything funny I’ve come across on Tumblr but I’m in a thinkin’ mood so I figured I’d jot down some thoughts regarding recent events. I’m gonna preface this, however, by saying I am white and if that’s enough for you to disregard my opinion on the following matter, then by all means go ahead. No skin off of my nose. 

Steven Universe is a very inclusive show. This is obvious. However, what happens when something comes along to challenge that idea? When it seems that there’s trouble in paradise? People freak out. They feel betrayed. This happened with the revelation of a concept known as “Concrete” that was found in the Steven Universe art book. 

Suffice it to say, there’s similarities with the “blackface/mammy” style that was oh-so-popular way back when, and rightfully so, a lot of people weren’t happy with this. On top of this some random notes assigned to the character were...less than flattering. You know, the “blacks are ignorant” level of stereotyping. But was this intentional? When brainstorming, did Lamar (a black man), draw up a racist caricature, pass it around and did Hilary, a white(?) woman look at it and say “ha, this looks like something I could attribute racial ignorance to”? No, of course not.

Lamar, Hilary AND Rebecca Sugar herself have since apologized for this lapse in judgement and future editions of the Art Book will no longer feature the concept art of Concrete. A lot of people accepted these apologies, some chose not to. I have to ask of those who refuse to though...why? What’s the point? Do you honestly think the SU team is filled with racists? For once I’m not being facetious, I generally do not understand this mindset. Sure, you don’t HAVE to accept the apology, you can disagree with its contents and how it was phrased, but some of the malice and outright VENOM that’s been spouted by particular sections of the fandom recently have been shocking. I’m a firm believer in trying to listen to both sides of an argument, even though sometimes it’s so very, very simple and much easier to be biased, but this has gotten kind of out of hand. 

Steven Universe is a product of love. Granted, it’s a very flawed one with many problems that I won’t get into here, but there’s no doubt that the people working on the show, be they white, POC or otherwise do what they do with a genuine affection for both the characters, the story, the world, but most definitely also the audience itself. If all it takes to lose that goodwill is one simple, little picture (and yes I’m aware of the Amethyst stuff, but I’m just focusing on Concrete here), then what does that say about you as a fan? 

If you truly believe the team is ignorant, then vent your feelings as constructively as possible, let it out, and then let it go. Let them take in the comments, let them learn and grow. No, “it should never have been done in the first place” is not a good enough reason for continued borderline harassment. This fanbase is better than that. I’ve not been here from the start, but I’ve seen highs and I’ve seen lows, and with the show moving past the rather...divisive fourth season and starting out Season 5 on an astounding high (and with SDCC around the corner and the hope of a bright future for the show), I just don’t like seeing things as they are. However, this is not a callout post nor is it meant to patronize. I’m addressing no user in particular here, and like I said, this is just the humble opinion of someone who was unaffected by the matter. If you want to show that you’re not OK with the art, don’t purchase the art book, or at least wait until the offending image is removed. Dropping the show, blasting the creators on social media etc,...these things do nothing. Be constructive. Be firm in your beliefs and don’t just fire from the hip. Be cool, be calm, be collected.

But most of all, be happy. If you need to be angry, and you feel hurt, then you have every right to BE hurt. Just remember that on the other side of this are creators who didn’t mean to hurt you no matter how ignorant they may have been.

Thank you for reading.