#its like how ducks imprint on who raised them. my white grandma and aunt raised me so i just saw myself as white?? idk
Text
sending good vibes to mixed race folk who have a very complicated relationship w their heritage or view of themselves, ily
#mentally i call myself a racially ambiguous american#i don't really connect with the word latino idk why.. like i was raised by an immigrant parent but#oddly feel no connection with the culture at all. not out of self prejudice even. i just wasnt close w my mom idk#like sure i know some spanish and have eaten the food but i just feel no connection anymore. i used too. its weird#again i just prefer to call myself slightly brown/ambiguous American or something lol it just feels more accurate#its not self hate i just legit dont connect... i feel like an outsider and thats okay. i think it was due to how i was raised really.#my white side was shitty too but they were more involved in my life so i guess thats why despite being brown-ish#i saw myself as white for 17 yrs of my life til i had a therapist (of color) say something like#“i bet you relate since you are also of color” and i was in shock and confusion like#i told her “uh no im white i dont know what you mean” and it caused some cognitive dissonancee#so i asked a few ppl what they saw me as and it shattered my view that i looked 100% white passing#its like how ducks imprint on who raised them. my white grandma and aunt raised me so i just saw myself as white?? idk#its still a weird feeling and nowadays i dont really like identifying my race or ethnicity to ppl idk#maybe this all sounds weird i dont know#but its how i genuinely feel; unfiltered and all#again i like mexican culture a lot i just often don't feel like its “my roots” it feels more like#im appreciating someone elses culture which makes sense bc i was raised as a gringo!! yk?#its not really “my roots” it's my moms roots but not mine#altho ngl i feel kinship with first/2nd gen latinos...#i think a lot of them have similar feelings like me minus the mix race stuff#well actually many of them r probably mix race too idk i mostly meet 1st gen ppl who have 2 immigrant parents tho#and yesss i know latinos can be any race. i know i.#im just rambling incoherently
4 notes
·
View notes
Last Seen Blogs
irfanarifin
Irfan's
irfanarifin
Irfan's
yurinasan
katamari on The LOVE
famoustechnologysciencegarden
Untitled
poemsaboutgirlsandboys-blog
Poems about Girls and Boys.