#its rlly fucking dumb i feel like a fraud and i need to learn how to break these habits | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

fatuifucker · 11 months

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im i spent money on clothes (which i need) and its making me feel financially insecure and i feel like i keep postponing the commission post bc i feel guilt for not working on sucker + my remaining requests 😭 like ik if im getting paid i will likely be more motivated and finish it bc then its an obligation, doing requests is just a silly little thing but AAAAAAA I FEEL BAD

#i feel like i need a character ai detox too it may be affecting my writing #ok bc ngl i realised my writing sucks now bc whenever i rp in character i am not as descriptive bc ik its pointless for the bot #as for sucker i do not wanna abandon it but it used to be a way for me to vent my bpd episodes #but now im not experiencing that i find it hard to get the sense in how kuni feels #not to mention im in my mortal kombat phase so im not that motivated to write for genshin atm #i mean ill probably try to rush a bi-han fic and some requests and get it out of my system #hshshshshs i hate it i feel like im so critical of writing and i genuinely enjoy it as an art #but i cant fucking write nor so i read or engage in any media thats not mindnumbing like character ai or tiktok #its rlly fucking dumb i feel like a fraud and i need to learn how to break these habits #ivytalks

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