#jacks is super fucking stressed this entire time also lmaoooo

[chryzure-archive]

isdfuygvfszi I just remembered that AU where Chrysi and Azure were married and then Azure died and Jacks and Chrysi got married and then Azure came BACK TO LIFE... CAN I HEAR MORE ABOUT THIS

YEAH YEAH YEAH, i remember i gave a basic rundown of the au somewhere on this blog, but i don’t know where it is. so. that’s an issue.

ANYWAY, YES!!! chrysi and azure were both the it couple in ghost hunting circles. everyone was either happy for them or jealous of them. and jacks was chrysi and azure’s friend around this time (because jacks being the little accessory pet of that relationship is very funny to me)—but let’s be real, he had the tiniest crush on chrysi.

obviously he respects chrysi and azure’s relationship too much to do anything about it—plus, he’s pursuing someone else instead.

well, long story short, azure dies on one of the cases he and chrysi take on. it was a combination of bad luck, chrysi being in danger, and azure jumping in the way to protect her. he doesn’t remember anything after that because, well, he’s super dead now.

chrysi is destroyed after he dies. she’s found with azure’s body in her arms, and she’s screaming and desperately trying to bring him back to life (azure and her were trying to figure out the extent of her ghost witch powers and azure mentioned that some ghost witches can bring people back to life. clearly chrysi doesn’t know how.) jacks is ultimately the one to drag her away from azure’s body. he’s the only one that can survive her grief.

after that, jacks spends a lot of time with chrysi to help her. she’s a ghost of herself after azure dies and it breaks his heart (he doesn’t realize it’s beating. not yet. but it is.)

eventually, as the years pass, chrysi heals enough and realizes that she likes jacks back. it’s kind of a realization that dawns on both of them after they’ve essentially dated for months. like, chrysi’s making breakfast and jacks is sitting at the table while reading something, and chrysi’s like “so. are we boyfriend and girlfriend?” and jacks is like “………….are we?” i mean, he has been living there, unofficially, and chrysi and jacks have kissed before.

at that point, they start dating.

around this time, emery runs away from home and shows up at chrysi’s doorstep like “hi! you’re my legal guardian now because i can’t stand my mom :)” so their little family gains another person.

when they end up getting married, it’s a really tough decision for chrysi, since she’s still in pain over azure dying. jacks is super patient as she goes through all the stages of grief again, but he’s thrilled when she agrees to a wedding.

it’s a personal wedding. they put up all the pictures of it near the wedding pictures chrysi has with azure (they still have azure’s photos on the walls, since it feels wrong to erase him. as time goes on, it just makes chrysi feel wistful and nostalgic).

things are going great! until chrysi goes out of town and jacks is the one basically in charge of their town’s supernatural-hunting team. nobody should leave jacks in charge.

anyway, some people come back to life in the graveyard. azure is one of them.

he’s incredibly disoriented when he drags himself out of the dirt. you can imagine how fucking disoriented jacks is when he’s called out to the graveyard and sees his wife’s dead husband (and others) suddenly alive.

jacks does not handle this very well. for example: he does not tell chrysi what happened.

(chrysi’s out of town on a girls’ trip with emery and filly and luna rune. he gets the feeling that chrysi would want him to interrupt this bonding time, but he also doesn’t want to tell chrysi that azure’s alive because of this nagging fear that she’ll leave him now that azure’s back)

he instead takes all the resurrected people to a safe house and tells them that they need to stay there. then he calls simeon, who comes in, sees azure, then immediately drags jacks out of the room to yell at him. this is absolutely a situation that requires chrysi’s input.

jacks still refuses to call chrysi (DUDE!!!!) and he doesn’t let azure know what’s going on.

azure, for his part, can tell something’s up. jacks is acting really weird around him and chrysi’s not back yet. as he’s trying to figure out what the hell is going on, conni (also resurrected) sneaks out. he can’t handle being cooped up.

azure chases after conni once he realizes he’s gone.

along the way, they run into some shady individuals that might have something to do with their sudden return to life. it’s not a very safe interaction, and it ends with conni and azure making a break for it.

azure, for fear of leading them back to the safe house, takes a detour. he knows a house in this area with the same magical protections as the safe house, and it’s in the opposite direction. problem solved!

so he breaks into his old house (chrysi keeps the key in the same place, and azure figures it can’t have been that long since his death. um.) and he is greeted by photos of chrysi and jacks all over the walls.

this does not endear jacks to him. and yes, while azure’s somewhat mollified by the fact that his old photos are also still up, he’s in agony over chrysi moving on and choosing to be with jacks.

chrysi happens to come home from the girls’ trip right at this time, which… yikes. she can immediately tell there’s an intruder in the house, so she tells emery to stay in the car while she investigates.

azure and conni (who has jst been awkwardly standing there while azure came to the realization that his wife married his best friend) scramble to hide.

as chrysi walks the house, azure keeps an eye on her through a crack in the door. it hurts, seeing her again—it’s like his body can instinctively tell that it’s been years since he died, and that they’re no longer for each other.

then conni finds an escape route and they get out of there.

back at the safe house, jacks is freaking the fuck out because azure’s no longer there. yes, it’s concerning for azure’s safety or whatever, but most importantly, jacks doesn’t want chrysi to figure out azure’s alive again.

when azure comes storming back into the safe house, jacks begins to yell at him—only for azure to sock him right in the jaw.

right. okay. he didn’t expect that.

thaaaat’s right about when azure starts yelling at him for marrying his wife (“how long did you wait before you forced her to love you?” because even though he knows that chrysi’s immune to jacks’s powers, he still hates the thought of her moving on with jacks). conni wishes he could be recording this. simeon also thinks that jacks deserves this, just a little bit.

meanwhile, chrysi can tell something is off. she drives to the cemetery and finds, oh, well! there are empty graves! awesome! why the hell did nobody tell her about this? as she walks through the graves, she takes note of whose grave is empty. when she gets to azure’s, her blood runs cold.

oh, she needs to have a little talk with jacks. right now.

that’s how she finds azure fucking kicking jacks into the ground, and honestly? deserved.

she had an idea of azure being alive, but seeing him, breathing and real? uhhhhhhhhhhh. uhm!! she doesn’t know what to do.

she does stop azure’s savage beating of jacks (jacks gave up at a certain point lmao, he was jst curled up on himself as he endured), but when she takes jacks into the next room over, she slaps him.

jacks is not having a very good day.

anyway, after that, she goes into Very Professional Mode, and suddenly it’s like she was never married to either Azure or Jacks. she starts trying to figure out precisely what is going on and what the danger is. jacks and azure keep looking at each other with seething rage, but chrysi shuts down any other attacks by reminding them of the situation at hand.

well, around here is when chrysi discovers there’s a range of area that these newly-resurrected people can continue to survive in—evidenced by one of them running away and trying to escape, only to immediately turn to dust and disappear. well, that’s fucking inconvenient.

the more they investigate, the more they discover that the area of survival is shrinking, so that’s also not good.

anyway, in between all this time, when azure finally gains the courage to ask why chrysi married jacks, she looks at him and asks, “would you have wanted me to grieve your death until i died too? did you want me to be alone after you left?” he doesn’t have a very good answer to that. no, he didn’t want her to be alone, but he doesn’t like seeing her with jacks now that he’s back. there are no right answers.

anyway, that’s abt as much as i had planned for this concept,,,,, obviously i love it, but i need to figure out where to go w it now lol

[brothalynchhung]

2019 overview.

this year.. was fucking two years in one. also a little late again but whatever. this is going to be long as FUCK. 

started 2019 in dubai

spent the first couple of days in Dubai on the beach

YOOO AS AM WRITING THAT IT FEELS SO FUCKING LONG AGO HOLLYY SHITT

went to London and just fucked around dt and chinatown lost that damn snake ring fml

I got drunk eating dumplings watching Jeffrey star in that bed LMFAOOOYOO LMFAOOOOOEGJEORIGHSREUG

got back to Ottawa and it was straight GRIND from the get go

back to my last semester of uni 

back to club m (omg.. I miss:( kinda lol)

started that govt job

back to social media marketing for Dubai

3 jobs + school basically

did that dumbass STUPID FUCKING govt job all the way in quebec that I woke up for and travelled for everyday 

would go straight to gym, work again, or school fml

wasn't entirely bad I kinda needed it cuz I applied to a million jobs during that time and did school work LMAO also printed a lot of important shit and got paid so whatever

CAME TO TORONTO IN MARCH W TRAND OMG I FORGOT THAT WAS 2019

SAW VINCE STAPLES!!

AND The fortune teller who like prophisized all this shit goddddd 

iconic if I must say

little did I know...

I miss movati fml lol

working at club Monaco omg ugh they gave me life honestly

fun times w trang cc precious Courtney mich JACK Amanda Raman donia even tho she annoying lol and whoever else I worked w jana jil Daria honestly I just miss Courtney LMFAO uhh jenn was cool too 

I'm never going to forget that place I swear to god I have so much loyalty and pride for my memories for that place im never going to take my experience there for

chilling with avid Vinny and like Alex a bit LMAO he would randomly ask to chill it was weird

that Chinese dinner and chat time thing in his car WHAT WAS THATTT

chilling like a scrub a cu with hector and that crew goddLMAO

avin vin rideau gang

visiting avid at nordstorm the Rui girl and Herman lol he was sofunny

MY BODY IS FOR ME NOT THESE BITCHES LMFAOO 

last class with strangle omg he was iconic honestly 

trang pargol fidede zainab mannnn honestly shoutout old Ottawa friends 

xinyii!! and jelly!! my last times with them

I miss Xinyi so much :( im so happy I got to see her before leaving she was so nice I wish her so much success 

remember working those last shifts at cm like.. yo I feel like things are going to change and my days are numbered.. I feel it. 

did interview after interview, applying EVERYDAY to escape 

the amount of focusing I did on applying around feb and April like I was just focused on working and getting out of there

did two interviews in like 2 hours always on the go always moving always working 

and then like clockwork.. at the govt job.. went to the bathroom knew? to bring my phone with me.. and then right when I left I got a call from mk went into that empty conference room and got the offer. cried. accepted. life changing

I honestly just left that place... went to cm and just.. resigned... put my two weeks in...

and it happened literally in my last week of the govt job..

like fate 

immediately went home told cc precious fam 

fam weren't happy 

BUT I FINALLY ESCAPED!!!! LOOKING BACK ON THIS BLOG AND EVERYTHING I FINALLY F I N A L L Y GOT OUT OF THERE THE BITCH ASS CURSED SHIT CITY NEVER GOING BACKEGIUEHGEIRUGH 

shout out precious for helping me honestly he helped so much 

found my place through hmida who held it down

that whole condo scenario LOL godddd my landlord a HOE

met zgy gvy at precious while I crashed a night

THE MILLIONS OF RIDESHARESSS GOODDDDDD

remember the one I took last minute from Yorkdale LMAO that one wasn't bad honestly I slept good

moving my things packaging them up. like yo.. lol

bringing the boxes from shoppers godddd LOL 

finally landed in Toronto with my place

waiting outside for 5 hours for my damn keys crazy with my suitcase lol... 

THEN FINALLY GOT TO MY FIRST PLACE!! MY FIRST RENTAL CONDO ALL ON MY OWN NO ROOMATES JUST ME

unpacking my things

like just finally having my own place mannn that was my dream for such a long ass time

getting around dt a bit getting used to tdot... 

crazy exciting 

then... 3 days in..

...

met that bitch that fucked me up 

met everything I ever wanted in a person? physically and interest wise and yet?

nothing? 

SO CONFUSED I MET SOMEONE WITH EVERYTHING I THOUGHT I WANTED

first hookup? lost v? 

new city new job new life new home lost v new everything

in 3 days. 

my life crazy..

spent the whole time like until October till low-key NOW just thinking about it bitterly 

my feelings up and down I was drowning in obsession and confusion

I know I fucked it up but it was fucked up since the beginning

shook everything about what I thought I wanted in gl or a person

standards are definitely raised and all men trash and hoes Idgaf

I feel nothing towards nobody

my whole mind switched to money and power. 

gl I love you but you're not here and we got a lot growing to do so imma see ya ass in a couple of years 

anyways started working at mk!!! craziest 3 month probation thing I had 

HOWWW DID I DOOOO ITTTTTTT 

met so much people... holy shit.. zgy,gvy,hailey,gab,aisha,priya,rach,lisa,alex,DANIA, goddddd

clubbing.. mon., thurs... weekenddd... wake up... 8:30 work

how did I do it.... fuck lol

met a lot of hoes.. fucked with Sunday once more before he died bye bitch ass hoe.. Leo, sleeve, uhhh that's it I think actually

CABANNNAAAA

OMG I SAW SEAN PAUL LIVE ICONICC YOO THIS FUCKING YEAR LMFAOOOOO

omg YEAH I SAW NCT IN MY FIRST WEEK OF TO WITH PARGOL LMFAOOO YOOOOO

damn this year was crazy I keep forgetting shit

all the weird ass ppl I met at cabana omg the humber guy YOO THE ASIAN GUY WITH MY KEYS LMFAOOO ZGY FUCKLMFGIESH

omg tsf lmao and like yeah all the clubbing ppl in to fuck 

half and half like didnnt know if I liked it or not but it was crazy

still think about that Frans night the damn milkshake and food omggg

just spent summer exploring to trinity Bellwoods ossington like summer stories clubbing stories

managing my double life lol

SPIDERMAN OBSESSION LMAOOOO TO DISTRACT MY MIND FROM THAT BITCH ASS HOE LMFAOOFREJGIEURHSTESUIH THEN I FOUND OUT HE HAS A WHOLE WIFE AND BABY YOOO LMFAOOO

good distraction made work fun when I needed it during my last months of probation LMAO

omg going home during lunch and then back to work ICONIC

leaving the girls at my place and coming back for lunch LMAOOO god really iconic honestly showering and going back to work sleeping hoeing all that LMFAO 

omg the time I left Leo at my place YOO LMAO

still have that expensive ass sweater LMFAO WAT A SIMP

those drunk texts he sent Me in august and I punked him off LMFAOO 😩😂

men trash 

darren Chris rob goddd all those damn ppl I met the one guy who saved me during that blacTHE BLACKOUT CABANNA NIGHT GOD THAT WAS A MESS LMAO TITTIES OUT EVERYTHING but yeah he was low key useless I forget his name highboy but whatever

YOOO THAT GIRLS TITTIES I SLEPT ON NGEIRGHEUHUE ICONIC

I got catfishes twice 😩 the change bitch and the John bitch airehguerihserh FUCKKK LMFAO

AND THEN THE CHANG BITCH WAS TRYNA SAY OH U JSUT LOOK TO ARAB THATS WHY WE HAVNET TALKED AGAINL IKE BITCHHHHH FIRST OF ALL UR A WHOLE CATFISHFHERGUERBKSHETERU AHERUIGESRUYR LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO 

and then I catfish Sunday to punk him off for revenge and call him a thot and thought he was talking about me for catfish when it was just about another bitch he was hoeing with cuz he a hoe.. Jesus my life wild

SO MUCH SHIT THIS SUMMER UHERGHSREG

gained weight fml I don't even wanna mention it iDONT WANNA TALK

even if it is muscle I dDONT WANNT TALK ABOUT IT

the cabana pool jump... godd... walking home drunkregiuhersguhe fucK 

summer was crazy

nada and mama coming wow that was annoying I rlly can't do family even though I love them

getting high swimming the catfish racing munchies arguing with Alex LMAO 

eating out with Dania gab Lisa the normal ppl I met lool

a lot of stress of money and where I want to go I was in a hella rush idk why I think everything happening so fast made me not want to slow down at all but im finally slowing down 

priya end of the year rebel tiff stuff 

basically drowning in depress and regret around the end of summer cuz everything calmed down and I had the time to think and reflect about everything and yeah.. got super depressed

that bitch cc and her bullshit yo just fucking go bye

notice how there's like no memories with her like yeah there was but they were just annoying cuz she was annoying highkey

thanks for bringing my shit from Ottawa tho dumbass LOL eat a dick

THE HOT TUBBBB SUMMERSSS AND SUMMER NIGHTS 

omg all my emo ass walks at night to the port and water and trillium park in the morning aiohreughresehre writing with my journal god that was actually nice tho 

super peaceful so happy to live near the water highkey

always in between losing myself who am I what do I do now who am I like did I lost myself did I ever have myself

major existential crisis

how did I survive work god 

musicmusiscmusicccc

moviesmovesmoves

readreadread

actually I had a lot of night walking home from the club sad

omg remember the ovo guy fucking loser liar 

as usualllll 

RECORDRESCORSDCRECORDDSSS SO MANY TDOT IS PERFECTT

ugh what else fuck too much shit happened OH YEAH

my birthday with the girls and the bbq!! the cake!! omg so nice :((( so funny lol

that weirdo ass man that I still see in the gym sometimes god help me lol 

passing my probation!!!! and then like finally fitting in and feeling apart of mk and the “family” lol

CLARK KENT AND SCOTTISH MANS MAKING MY LIFE EVRYDAYYYYYugh love them

got a moomin from Scottish mans 🥺 love him

anyways got depressed drowning in obsession.. nothing surprising there 🙄 

got high and drunk like bottom of the barrel... 

right before pargol came LMAO 

oh yeah I went to Ottawa because yo I was going out of my mind about losing myself.. needed to go BACK to the place I hated to find myself

went back and it was like??? everything was the same.. still saw vin and avid and Herman at Rideau still had bbt with them 

still fucking around hector and that whole crew had Ivan his girl moe.. ribal..Kyle YO lol that weird ass club experience AS USUAL Ottawa clubs trash god

apple picking same year in a row wit z <3 and hamza and fams lol

saw the kids and got to be stupid again loool 

anyways came back to my actual life

like it just felt weird knowing that the place I had all my memories and experiences in like.. felt nothing

even the forest felt weird like I didn't need to be there anymore?

as much as tried to drown myself in obsession and my past and bad habits.. I couldn't?

im being forced to move forward and learned Sunday was the last experience it was just eye opening

after the emotional shit I sat down again and had a whole purging 

I never felt that bad and horrible and drowned in obsession since raglan..

like.. deleted the hidden pictures... the feeling.. like I've done this before...

that was the final straw..

you think its over just because I am dead but its not over..the games just begun.

never again. 

anyways I met Aisha!!! love her vibe with her heavy

introduceed me to the sugar shit YOOOO LMFAOOO

THEN WE STARTING PIMPIN AND MAKING EXTRA MONEY

NO MORE MONEY STRUGGLE 

GOT FUCKED OVER HEART TURNED COLD NOW WE FOCUSING ON MONEY CAREER POWER PLAYING THESE HOES FOR THEY MONEY AND RECLAIMING MYSELF 

weird ass fucking people but get the money and go 

stack up crazy and saving up this past few months 

and just chilling w friends and therapy sessions

scheming and planning for the future

therapy sessions

got close with Lisa

oh yeah BOLO!! UGH BEST GYM

ALSO OMG I FORGOT I SAW BROCKHAMPTON AGAIN!!! AND SOMEHOW GOT TO THE BARRIER AND LITERALLY HAD SO MUCH INTERACTION WITH KEVIN LIKE SINGING TOGETHER AND THEN HE CAME DOWN SAID I GOTCHU AND TOOK TWO PICS WITH ME FUCKGIERGEIUTHSEUH THAT WAS INSANEEE MY LIFE WILDDDD 

iconic holiday party and New Years with again like random weird ppl and my girls exemplifying how wild and fresh the whole experience of this year was 

at least I be waking up warm and clean in MY PLACEby myself with no bullshit 

just like.. got a new place new job new city basically live the life I always wanted? reading movies? new friends no problems? wtf how my life change so quick

new interesting experiences

getting drunk high dancing at my place out in these streets just meeting bare people all these new people and experiences holy shit... 

and like yeah im not where I want to be but this progress and process is FUN now 

everything a strategy and a move and love staying busy 

wish I had more free time tho I never feel rested my life fucking crazy LOOL

that weirdo bitch who thought he was dating me UGHHH BOTTOM OF THE BARRELL JUST FOR A CAR AND FOOD BITCHARE U CRAZY 

power trip crazy im so sorry jfc 

anyways block and move on

met Chris and we still talking for like 3 months in a row god... lol gunna see him Saturday idk was the HALE going on 

im like surrounded by hoes???? and I don't want it GOD I JUST BEEN FOCUSING ON ME AND MONEYFUCK EVERYONE ELSE 

idek what else maybe im missing shit but this whole year wild best year of MY LIFE though

idk what the fuck gunna happen in 2020 cuz my split lives and the chaos and playing hoes and always thinking about opportunity and abundance and money got my mind and moves all wrapped in strategy but we only ONNLY ONLYYY GOING UP from here no excuses lets fucking go I always say this but 2019 was fucking wild and you know what.. lets fucking go 2020 LETS FUCKING GO as long as I don't gain weight LMFAO lets fucking GO. money and power on my mind exclusively. gl imma see you in 2 years. focusing on bigger things but at least im OUT HERE and ESCAPED and we onLY ATTRACTING AND MANIFESTING ABUNDANCE