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[13thwitch]

@jarviinen said: ❝ you don’t trust me? ❞

It's almost laughable. Rowan chokes back a giggle that's bordering on hysterical, bright eyes shining, and she presses her hands against her thighs under the table, trying desperately to keep her composure, or whatever's left to it.

"I don't know you," she points out, a little desperately. "And trusting people hasn't exactly helped me this far." It's the understatement of the century, truth be told. "Trusting the Talamasca hasn't helped me this far." Not Ciprien. Trusting Ciprien was the best thing she could have done. Trusting Ciprien has kept her last hope that there's good in the world intact, a delicate gossamer thread that would snap if not for him.

But the rest of the Talamasca? Rowan clears her throat, tries not to think too much about it. (She knows everything that Lasher knows. She knows that there are those within the organization who have helped bring about his rebirth. Friends of Lasher. Friends of Cortland.) At the thought of Lasher, her eyes flicker towards the baby monitor on the kitchen counter, and she listens with bated breath for any sounds that the child has woken up.

Nothing. Thank god. She doesn't know how to explain it: that she hates the child more than she's ever hated anything, that she knows that Lasher is in there, but he's so small, so helpless, that hating him feels worse than trusting him ever did.

"I'm not handing him over." They think it's because she wants to keep him for herself; it's simply that she can't trust anyone there to do what needs to be done. Truth is, she's not sure she can trust herself to do what needs to be done. (Sometimes, to try and make herself feel angrier than sad, she thinks about the baby that might have been. She thinks about how he's robbed her of the chance to be a mother in a way she chose. She thinks about that fucking tomb.) "And if Cip couldn't convince me, I'm sorry, but I don't know why you think you could. So unless you have something new to add to the conversation, you're welcome to stay for a cup of coffee and a chat, but you aren't going to get a new answer."

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@jarviinen / plotted starter.

She has learned to live with certain rules. Place selenite wands over the doorways, front and back, and the crystals at the corner of each window frame, at the top so the cats can't reach them. Rosemary on the windowsill in the kitchen, even though she rarely cooks with it. Lots of garlic planted out back, much more than she'd need. Iron nails and salt lining the perimeter of the small square of land where she buried their bones, consecrated for her own use. Offerings to the goddess; offerings to the patron; offerings to the dead. Do not ask Satu where she goes when she leaves. Do not ask Satu where she's been when she returns.

There are some things that Astoria simply does not need to know. There are some things she is, really and truly, better off never knowing. She knows just enough: Satu's work is important, important enough that she'll leave sometimes with little warning, and come back hours, days, weeks later without an explanation. For all of Astoria's willingness to let her lover have her secrets, she wonders, sometimes, if she's doing something foolish by allowing this.

(Not that she thinks she allows Satu anything, of course—Satu has never needed Astoria's permission for anything—but she is uncommonly cooperative despite her curiosity, perhaps because of the bone-deep dread that comes with it.)

Another rule: there are certain places to avoid. Dublin and Boston both belong to the Donnellys (or it did, before Astoria declawed them). Salem once, and now Madison, to the Bishops. New Orleans to the Mayfairs. She'll take her chances with the vampires of the world before she'll cross the witches again.

Still. Still. There are few people In this world who could entice her to break those rules, adopted for her own safety and peace of mind, and one of those rare souls is sitting across from her now. "It's a tempting invitation." Her lips, painted their customary red, curl up in a slow, wicked smile, and she gently cups her hand beneath Satu's jaw, tipping her head up. Tempting in no small part because she's petty, and she wants the Donnellys to see that she's thriving with their power. Tempting more so because Satu never tells her where she's going. "But are you sure you want me there?"

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policies.

I like having exclusives and mains! I think it’s a nice way to build a coherent canon for my character, and to let dynamics develop extensively.

If you’re interested in becoming exclusives or mains with Vex, please feel free to message me! If I’m already exclusive with a particular portrayal, please do not approach me to write with other versions of these characters on this blog. Please also know that I’m unlikely to drop exclusivity for any reason besides extensive inactivity, or breaking mutuals. Threads which ignore or disrespect my exclusivity will be dropped. 

canon.

I don't accept exclusives in the Critical Role fandom — there are so many incredible writers here and this is a completely new fandom space for me, so I want to get the chance to know and write with as many of you as I can! The following portrayals are my mains, meaning that any character development done in general for this blog is done with these portrayals in mind, unless otherwise specified.

Cassandra de Rolo — xfindingtrouble.

* Percy de Rolo — xfindingtrouble. Ship exclusive.

Vax'ildan Vessar — xfindingtrouble.

exclusives.

Aleksander Morozova | Grishaverse — tmiina.

Baldwin Montclair | All Souls — balldwin.

Daemon Targaryen | House of the Dragon — dralgon. 

Dracula | Dracula — dracui.

Harvey Dent | DC — acidcaught.

Marcus Whitmore | All Souls — mortedoc.

Pamela Isley | DC — ecopoison.

Rhaenyra Targaryen | House of the Dragon — queenborn.

Robert Langdon| Robert Langdon series — sumbolus.

Roy Mustang | Fullmetal Alchemist — mustng.

Satu Jarvinen | All Souls — jarviinen.

Talia al Ghul | DC — pitborn.

mains.

Laurel Moore | Far Cry 5 OC — markedwrath.

Rosalynn Haas | Original — denieddeath.

[13thwitch]

@jarviinen said: ❝ you’re everything they say, aren’t you? ❞

She doesn't have high hopes for the Congregation; any interaction between them so far has been a letdown or a terror or some combination of the two. The vampires won't deal with her—we have had enough of witches for this century, one had responded, or so she was told. The daemons have too much on their plates to bother with witch business, though again, all of this is secondhand.

And as for the witches... Sidonie von Brocken was a nightmare, curt and rude and generally unpleasant beyond all measure; Janet Gowdie was, frankly, curious to a degree that left Rowan feeling more frightened than she was before she asked for help; and Diana Bishop was an absolute fucking horror show, as pleasant as she might have been under other circumstances, with words crawling under her skin like living ink and the kind of piercing gaze that made Rowan feel as though all of her secrets were on full display.

It's not her, Diana had explained, in the brief time they interacted. She'd flown out to Venice at Diana's suggestion, determined to be seen rather than brushed aside or swept under a rug. Real ignorance would be exhausting, but willful ignorance of what the Mayfairs have been doing is, frankly, intolerable. It's the Mayfairs. They're strange, to say the least. The sheer volume of inbreeding and isolation has left their witches with waning power for centuries; only the désignée has any luck with magic over the last twelve generations, as if she (or he, in Julien's case) were siphoning the power from the rest of the family.

"Well," Diana had said thoughtfully, correcting herself, "thirteen generations, now." And then, with a hard, angry look towards the other witch Rowan hadn't yet met, she added, "Satu is your best bet here." Whatever bad blood existed between the women, it left Rowan feeling uneasy, though she was at once at ease with Satu. They're close to the same age, offputting in the same way that no doubt had Satu facing teasing just as merciless as the teasing Rowan experienced in grade school. Scary. Possessed. Haunted. Yes; there's certainly something haunted to her. Something haunting, too.

They're back in New Orleans, now, and Rowan has cleared as many of the cousins out of the house as she could, though they aren't happy about it. Satu is stretched out on the coffee table, ignoring the couch beside her, watching as Rowan opens her eyes and lowers her hands. The necklace clatters to the floor between them, and Satu speaks, eyes fixed on Rowan's, something not unlike wonder in her tone.

"Guess so." Wish I wasn't. Not that Rowan's had much of a say in anything that's happened to her recently, especially considering her family. Not for the first time, she wishes she stayed in San Francisco. "But I don't want it. I don't want any of it. I'm sick of being used. I'm sick of being manipulated. And I'm sick of just being... the désignée or Deirdre's daughter or Lasher's chosen. I'm not a person anymore. Do you get how fucked that is?" Her voice is rising with agitation, and Rowan lifts an arm, wipes the back of her hand over her own startling eyes as she shifts them away from Satu. "All I wanted was answers. Not any of this."

[13thwitch]

i am what you designed me to be. i am your blade.

(you cannot now complain if you also feel the hurt.)

rowan mayfair fielding, of amc's immortals universe. show based. highly triggering content. affiliated with @jarviinen & @pasdiable. ©

[softersinned-arc]

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Audrey Horne (Twin Peaks): 91%

Damon Salvatore (The Vampire Diaries): 87%

Raymond 'Red' Reddington (The Blacklist): 87%

Neal Caffrey (White Collar): 87%

Yennefer (The Witcher): 87%

Margaery Tyrell (Game of Thrones): 86%

Jennifer Check (Jennifer's Body): 86%

Beth Dutton (Yellowstone): 85%

Amy Elliott Dunne (Gone Girl): 83%

Lady Macbeth (Macbeth): 83%

tagging: @avblod & @montclair & @jarviinen / @wolfisheart & @valiantsword / @literarist / @gilmor / @xbadnews & @xfindingtrouble (for ellis)

[13thwitch]

policies.

I like having exclusives and mains! I think it’s a nice way to build a coherent canon for my character, and to let dynamics develop extensively.

If you’re interested in becoming exclusives or mains with Astoria, please feel free to message me! If I’m already exclusive with a particular portrayal, please do not approach me to write with other versions of these characters on this blog. Please also know that I’m unlikely to drop exclusivity for any reason besides extensive inactivity, or breaking mutuals. Threads which ignore or disrespect my exclusivity will be dropped. 

exclusives.

Aleksander Morozova | Grishaverse — tmiina.

Baldwin Montclair | All Souls — balldwin.

Daemon Targaryen | House of the Dragon — dralgon. 

Dracula | Dracula — dracui.

Harvey Dent | DC — acidcaught.

Marcus Whitmore | All Souls — mortedoc.

Pamela Isley | DC — ecopoison.

Rhaenyra Targaryen | House of the Dragon — queenborn.

Robert Langdon | Robert Langdon series — sumbolus.

Roy Mustang | Fullmetal Alchemist — mustng.

Satu Jarvinen | All Souls — jarviinen.

Talia al Ghul | DC — pitborn.

mains.

Laurel Moore | Far Cry 5 OC — markedwrath.

Lestat de Lioncourt | Interview with the Vampires — pasdiable.

Rosalynn Haas | Original — denieddeath.

[softersinned-arc]

private & independent original witch / vampire character, ASTORIA GRIM, with various crossover verses (incl. critical role, dragon age). written by marianne, 25+, she/her. medium activity, triggering content. heavily affiliated with mara (@montclair, @avblod, @jarviinen) & luca (@wolfisheart, @valiantsword).

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