#jasper needs to suffer for his crimes - not just die twice gdi

[daezedglownut]

Was struggling initially with this new fic I’m writing bc I was trying to find a way for Jasper to realistically explain his motivations to the king, seek forgiveness, and then go on to prove himself a better person bc he wants the forgiveness and approval (it’s all he’s ever had under Mordegon, after all 🥺).

And then it hit me: get into his head.

Truthfully he’d more likely be very up front about his crimes - and not exactly apologetic, but civil enough to communicate that - almost in a warning to Carnelian. Think: “no I am not a good man, - I will never be a good man, and it is not a given that you will ever be able to trust me. I have done bad things, and I expect—demand punishment”

Meanwhile the truth really is bubbling beneath the surface. He feels terrible—thinking he has crossed one line too far—but he’s nowhere near ready to address it. Far too easy to hide behind a veneer of “I made my bed, now I must lie in it”, and pretend like it doesn’t hit him right in the heart when the king says no punishment is coming, and he must simply aid in the reconstruction of Cobblestone - and all around him, little by little, as he allows himself to remember the man he once was, he sees people thaw and trust him again.

:’3