#jayhalsteadxreader

[halstudandruz]

Leap of Faith

*Not my gif*

Pairing: Jay Halstead x Reader

Requested: Yes

Prompt: Your dog has suddenly become a little too clingy

Warnings: Pregnancy, Swearing

“Nittany, I love you. I swear I do, but please get off my ass.” You sighed heavily after tripping over her for the third time in the last hour.

“Is she still all up in your business?” Your boyfriend asked walking into the kitchen to grab a water.

“What do you think?” You gestured to the dog who lay at your feet in front of the stove.

“Nittany come here.” Jay called her. She lifted her head to glance at him before laying it back down on her paws. Normally the dog was Jay’s sidekick, following him around everywhere, but only going overboard, like she was with you now, whenever Jay had gotten hurt at work. She would sleep at his side of the bed, lay up against him on the couch, and would only go outside to the bathroom if Jay ordered her to. So, it was weird for her to be acting this clingy. “Maybe we should make her a vet appointment.” He thought out loud, looking to you for your opinion.

“Yeah, I guess. I’m not sure. Just weird since she only acts like this when you’re hurt.” You’d be lying if you said you weren’t a bit concerned. Maybe something was wrong with you? Dogs do have that kind of instinct.

“Well are you okay? Did something happen at work?” He stepped towards you, concern lacing his voice.

“Honey, I’m a secretary at a firehouse. What exactly do you think would happen to me?” You smiled at him appreciating his concern, “Really I’ve felt fine.” You shrugged, it wasn’t a lie.

“Alright well I’ll give them a call to see what they have open.” He kissed your cheek lightly, pulling out his phone as he walked into the living room.

“God, that smell is making me nauseous.” You crinkled your nose at the cup of black coffee Matt held in his hand taking a couple steps away from him. You and your three best friends had agreed to meet at Gabby’s to go shopping together for the latest charity event you all would be attending tonight.

“Just because you drink more sugar than actual coffee in the morning doesn’t mean we all do.” He teased, gesturing to the tray of caramel macchiatos you had picked up on your way over to your friend's house.

“I for one am glad you have good taste.” Gabby chimed in, grabbing one of the cups from the tray to take a drink.

“Ditto.” Sylvie and Stella both agreed, taking the remaining cups into their hands.

“Make fun of us anymore and you won’t be getting any coffee next time.” You challenged, tossing him the empty cup holder to throw away.

“Yeah right you all love me too much.” He smiled, taking a drink from the Starbucks cup that you had distanced yourself from.

“You keep telling yourself that.” Gabby rolled her eyes playfully, leaning to press a soft kiss to his lips, “We’ll be back. I love you.” She grabbed her keys from the counter.

“Love you too. Have fun ladies.” He bid the four of you goodbye as you walked to Gabby’s car.

“I must’ve slept awful last night. I’m so tired.” You admitted leaning your head back to close your eyes as Gabby started the car driving towards the mall.

“Ditto. Not for the same reasons though.” You caught Stella’s smirk in the rearview mirror.

“How is Kelly doing after all that went down last shift?” You asked.

“Surprisingly well. He doesn’t seem at all fazed by it. I was definitely more scared than he was.” She admitted.

“Speaking of, has anyone read the Sun-Times this morning?” Sylvie asked, pulling her phone out of her purse. You all shook your heads waiting for her to elaborate as she stuck her phone out for you all to see.

“Leap of Faith?” Gabby giggled out loud.

“Would you look at those hotties.” Stella joined in grabbing the phone to read the article out loud.

“Is it just me or do my boobs like fucking fantastic in this dress?” You admired yourself in the mirror. The tight black dress accentuating your breasts perfectly, allowing you to show off more cleavage than you were used to. For some reason they felt fuller, must have been the detailing on the dress.

“They do indeed.” Stella nodded approving the outfit.

“Yeah I’m gonna get this one.” You checked yourself in the mirror once again after getting identical approval from your other two friends before changing back into your clothes.

“What are you guys doing Tuesday? I was thinking about making an appointment to look at dresses and then we can grab some dinner?” Gabby asked once you appeared back beside her, looking through the rack of clothing in front of you.

“I’m good.” Sylvie confirmed and Kidd agreed beside her.

“Nittany has a vet appointment that day. I can try to change it to Monday or see if Jay can take her but I don’t want to push it back any further.”

“What for?” Sylvie inquired a couple feet away from you, holding a red dress in front of her to look in the mirror.

“She’s just been acting super weird. Really clingy and won’t leave my side. Which I don’t mind, but it’s just not like her. The only time I’ve ever seen her act like that before was the couple times Jay got hurt. She flipped out when I went to leave today and Jay wouldn’t let her follow me.” You explained, laying your dress over your forearm to look at shoes.

“Awe poor girl. Hopefully nothings wrong.” Sylvie frowned.

“I’ll text Jay right now and ask him if he can take her.” You pulled your phone out opening up your messages.

“No, big deal if not. I’m sure we can find another day. Wouldn’t want something happening to Nitt on my account.” Gabby waved you off.

“Ya know I don’t think I’ve ever seen anyone in a mattress store before I really don’t know how they stay open.” Sylvie thought out loud as you passed a Mattress Warehouse located beside a Hallmark store.

“Honestly you’re not wrong.” Stella said mulling the thought over.

“I just told Jay the other day we need to look for a new mattress. My lower back has been killing me. I tried the chiropractor but it didn’t seem to help as much as it usually does.” You complained, feeling the annoying pain currently.

“I’m sure it has nothing to do with Halstead bending you over to break it every night.” Stella teased, fully aware that you and your boyfriend had an active sex life.

“Shut up.” You giggled, unable to deny the accusation.

“Can honestly say I don’t blame the girl.” Gabby smirked.

“Ew gross can you please not?” You huffed, but it was accompanied by a laugh. They were the kind of jokes you two made on a regular basis. You had a brief fling with Matt before they got together just like she did with Jay. So, it wasn’t uncommon for the two of you to compare notes if you will.

“Hey..why’d you say you made Nittany a vet appointment again?” Sylvie interrupted.

“She’s just been weirdly clingy.” You reminded her, looking over to see her biting her lip, “why?”

“[Y/N]…is there any chance you’re pregnant?” She asked after a beat of silence, getting straight to the point.

“What? No! Of course not. Well I mean..I guess there’s always a chance, but why would you ask that?”

“You seem to be showing a few signs.” She added cautiously.

“Like?” You pushed.

“Like.. this morning you said the smell of Casey’s coffee was making you nauseous.” Brett pointed out.

“And you said you’ve been really tired lately. Plus you even said yourself, your boobs look fuller today for some reason.” Gabby jumped in.

“Food aversion, fatigue, fuller breasts, lower back pain..those are all early signs of pregnancy.” Sylvie gave you a sympathetic look.

“Nah, I had my period like a week and a half ago. You guys are crazy.” You shrugged them off.

“What was it like?” Gabby questioned.

“My period? I don’t know. Came a few days early. It was lighter than usual. Only lasted two or three days which is a day or two shorter than normal, but that happens to me every couple months. My periods are usually just a little worse the month after. I didn’t really study it or pay attention. I got all my normal PMS symptoms though.” You answered as the three of them exchanged glances. “What? Why do you guys keep looking at each other like that.” Your eyes flicked between the women who were clearly exchanging looks.

“It just..it sounds like it could be implantation bleeding?” Gabby offered cautiously.

“Which means?” You pushed for more information.

“It happens when the egg attaches to the wall of your uterus.” She explained further.

“Don’t say your uterus like you’re referring to mine!” You began to panic a little.

“Okay hey calm down. We’re just trying to cover the possibility. You’re on birth control right?” Stella asked.

“Yeah. The pill.” You nodded, “we don’t use condoms though. Didn’t think it was necessary.”

“Well I’m sure you’re fine then, but it wouldn’t hurt to take a test.” Kidd tried to convince you.

“Okay. Yeah. Fine. Can we go to your place? Jay’s at home.” You asked Stella, knowing Matt would be at Gabby’s, Cruz and Otis would be at Sylvie’s, and even if Severide was at Stella’s he would keep any secret that may come out to himself. It was your best option.

“Yeah, absolutely of course.” She nodded.

“Someone tell me this isn’t happening.” You begged leaning against the bathroom sink as the timer ticked along on your phone.

“Hey, it’s going to be fine.” Gabby squeezed your bicep.

“Hey babe, we’re out of beer can you-“ His voice got louder as he walked into the doorway, “what’s going on in here?” He raised an eyebrow looking at each of you huddled tight in the bathroom when his eyes spotted the test laying on the sink, “Oh shit. Stell?” He visibly swallowed nervously, eyes averting to her.

“Not mine.” She reassured her boyfriend.

“Oh cool, carry on then. Just add beer to the shopping list if you could.” Kissing her on the forehead before turning around to walk out just as the ringing from the timer caused you all to jump.

Taking a deep breath you closed your eyes, butterflies filling your stomach as you brought the test eye level.

“Well fuck.” You croaked opening your eyes to confirm the “Pregnant” that was lit up on the screen. “I don’t understand. I’ve been taking my birth control religiously before breakfast.” You thought out loud.

“Well you know it’s never 100%.” Sylvie tried to reason when a particular occasion came to mind.

“Oh shit.” You looked at them horrified.

“I got really sick one morning from something I ate after I took my pill. We had sex later that night. I bet you I threw it up. I wasn’t even thinking. God, I’m such an idiot.” Your head fell into your hands, unable to believe this was happening, “What am I supposed to tell Jay? We haven’t even been together for a year and now I have to tell him we’re going to be parents?”

“Listen [Y/N], Jay is one of the good ones. It’s going to be okay.” Gabby gripped your hands reassuringly.

“And even if it’s not, you have all of us, okay?” Stella added, smiling.

“Hey girl.” You leaned down to pet your german shepherd who greeted you happily at the door.

“Hey baby.” Jay passed through the hall to press a gentle kiss on your lips on the way to your bedroom, “You find anything good?” He asked as you followed behind him.

“Yeah, I did.” You nodded, setting the bag on your bed.

“Oh good you’ll have to model it for me.” He gripped your waist pulling you into him after throwing a sweatshirt on.

“Jay, we need to talk.” You sighed putting distance between the two of you.

“Okay..?” He looked at you skeptically, his posture instantly straightening.

“I cancelled Nittany’s appointment on my way home.” You started.

“Why? Did you not get my message? I told you I could take her if you need.” He pulled his phone out to show you the proof.

“No I did. I just..I think I might know what her deal is.” Jay stayed quiet waiting for you to continue, “I’m pregnant, Jay.” You sighed, willing your body and brain to stay calm. Jay’s eyes widened, blinking a few times.

“You’re..um..okay wow alright.” He cleared his throat before shaking his head seemingly to get his body out of the automatic trance, “aren’t you on birth control?” He cocked his head to the side visibly trying to process the information.

“Well for starters no form of birth control is one hundred percent, but you remember that morning I got really sick from that bagel?” He nodded his head as you continued, “I must’ve thrown it up. I’m so sorry Jay. I wasn’t thinking and I should’ve realized-“Your emotions began to break through your facade voice beginning to break when he stepped towards you taking your face into his hands.

“Hey hey hey don’t apologize. It’s not your fault. We’re both adults. I don’t expect you to take sole responsibility for this honey. We both know the risks. This isn’t on you. You can’t suddenly get pregnant on your own.” He chuckled pulling you into a hug. “It’s going to be fine. We’ll make this work.”

“You’re reacting a lot better than I thought you would.” You admitted head stuffed into his neck.

“Baby I love you,” he promised, pulling back to look into your eyes, “and I want a family with you. This may be a little sooner than we planned, but I’m ready for this.” He smiled, leaning forward to capture your lips in a passionate kiss. “Sooo the dress?” He hinted when he pulled back to get a breath, his forward resting against yours.

“Yeah, okay.” You giggled grabbing the bag, carrying it into the bathroom to get changed.

“Wow.” Jay’s eyes trailed your body when you appeared in the doorway a couple minutes later.

“Like it?” You asked shyly, taking a few more steps towards him.

“Baby girl,” he smirked gripping your hips, “if you weren’t already pregnant you would be by tomorrow.” He joked, kissing along your neck.

“Very funny.” You rolled your eyes, “we have to start getting ready.” You glanced at the clock sitting on his nightstand.

“We can be a little late.” He assured you backing you towards the bed. Gabby was right. He was one of the good ones.

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[halstudandruz]

Scaredy Cat

*Not my gif*

Pairing: Jay Halstead x Reader

Requested: Yes

Prompt: Jay convinces reader to watch a scary movie

Warnings: Swearing probably

🎉Happy Birthday to my loveeee🎉

“No.” You stated arms crossed.

“If I remember correctly you said I could pick the movie.” He challenged with amusement.

“But you know how much I hate scary movies.” You whined.

“And what kind of best friend would I be if I didn’t make you watch them?” Jay teased.

“Whatever jerk. I’m making the popcorn.” You huffed getting up to walk into Jay’s kitchen shuffling through his cabinets before finding the perfect bowl, pouring the popcorn in once it was done cooking and adding a little extra butter with garlic salt. “Forgive me if I never watch a movie with you again.” You fell back down beside him crunching on a few pieces of your snack.

“You’ll be fine. I'll be right here the whole time.” He promised throwing an arm on the back of the couch and getting more comfortable beside you after hitting play, stealing a handful of popcorn out of your lap.

“Yeah until I have to go home to my apartment alone.” You rolled your eyes focusing on the intro of the movie.

You had known and been best friends with Jay for years and for years every time Jay got to pick the movie on your movie nights he picked a horror film. Regardless of his knowledge that you simply hated them. You wondered if it was just because they made you vulnerable, made you cling to him in fear, and maybe he liked that. He definitely liked being in control, feeling like he made you feel safe. So maybe he liked the clingy fear that horror movies revoked from you. At least that’s what you hoped. On the other hand what you knew is that even though you hated horror movies it gave you an excuse to shove your face into Jay’s shoulder, take in his smell (and damn did the man smell good.) Gave you an excuse to hide your eyes against Jay’s chest, and tuck yourself into his side and if horror movies gave you the opportunity to do that there’s no way you could hate them that much.

A half hour in and you were already much closer to Jay than what you originally started hands gripping the bowl in your lap tightly when a man jumped up on the screen out of nowhere causing you to jump and send the bowl flying across the room, popcorn flinging everywhere, “fuck!” You exclaimed in surprise making Jay laugh.

“You should’ve seen that one coming.” He teased pulling you closer into his side.

“How exactly do you think I would’ve seen that coming?” You huffed.

“The music got louder.” He shrugged. “Well now we’re outta popcorn you gotta clean it up and make us more.” Jay smirked looking at the pieces scattered across the room.

“I have to clean it up? You’re the one that made us watch this stupid movie!” You exclaimed making Jay laugh louder.

“What do you propose I do? I’m hungry with no snack now.” He asked. Making you shake your head as you picked a piece up off the back of the couch shoving it to his mouth.

“I guess that works.” Jay smiled chewing on the piece of popcorn and opening his mouth again after swallowing causing you to giggle. Rolling your eyes, and not thinking your hand went to Jay’s crotch where a handful of popcorn laid blushing immediately and retracting your hand once you realized where it was. Jay raised an eyebrow, cocky smirk on his face, making you avert your attention back to the TV when you felt a piece of popcorn being pushed against your lips. Huffing a laugh you open your mouth taking in the few pieces unconsciously licking Jay’s fingers with the action. You could see Jay’s eyes widen slightly thanks to the light from the TV before he cleared his throat shifting beside you slightly and turning back to the movie ignoring the action. By the end of the movie the encounter was quickly forgotten and you were practically huddled in Jay’s lap, eyes shoved in his neck to distract you from the bloody, gory details. “It’s over.” Jay announced against your hair.

“Oh thank god.” You replied reluctantly backing away from him letting him get up to turn the TV off and the light on. Looking around at the crumbs still scattered you got up to fetch the vacuum. “You should get a dog.” You commented plugging it in before starting it and cleaning up. After finishing and shutting the vacuum off Jay continued the conversation from the kitchen,

“I don’t have time for a dog.”

“I guess. But then I’d actually have someone who’d comfort me in my times of fear instead of judge.” You retorted leaning against the kitchen entrance arms crossed.

“Oh I don’t comfort you well enough now?” Jay teased, eyebrow raised walking closer as he handed you water making heat run through your body as he inched closer to you.

Shaking your head you made yourself snap out of it, “I mean I didn’t say that.” You shrugged, smirking. Jay laughed in return turning to look at the clock.

“It’s already 2am you should just stay here.” He said walking away from you back into the living room. “You know where everything is in the room.” He continued pulling blankets out of the nearest closet to make a bed on the couch.

“Stop.” You shoved him away.

“What?” He asked.

“I am not taking your bed. Why do we have to have this fight every time I stay here?” You asked, annoyed laying the blankets down.

“[Y/N]-“ He started again as you cut him off.

“Just save us 15 minutes and admit defeat Halstead, goodnightttt.” You hit him with a pillow before laying down. Sighing heavily Jay gave in kissing your head and bidding you goodnight.

The problem was it had been an hour and you were still jumping at any tiny sound. Yes, you were a scaredy cat but what were you to do? You didn’t want to turn the TV on in fear of waking Jay and you certainly weren’t about to try and go home at 3am so you laid in silence tossing and turning images of blood and creepy guys reoccurring in your mind.

“You’re still awake aren’t you?” Jay’s voice came out of nowhere in return causing you to scream and jump resulting in you falling off the couch with a loud thud.

“What the fuck, Jay!?” You yelled in a hushed tone as he rushed over to you clearly trying to keep a laugh in but letting it out once he saw you were okay.

“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to scare you.” He apologized, helping you up.

“How’d you know I was awake?” You asked turning to see him standing shirtless making you let out what you were sure was an audible whimper but he didn’t acknowledge it if he did hear.

“I could practically hear your wheels turning from the bedroom.” He explained.

“Sorry.” You mumbled falling back down on the couch.

“No. Come on.” Jay protested trying to pull you up.

“What?” You whined standing up.

“You’re coming to bed with me.” He explained leading you towards his room, immediately making your throat go dry.

“Wait what?” You croaked out.

“It’s my fault you can’t sleep so I’m gonna fix that. Plus you threatened to replace me with a dog so...” He joked, pulling the covers back to let you slip into his bed before making the way to his side and doing the same. Pulling you into his chest once he got comfortable. Instinctively your head fell to his bare chest wrapping your legs between his. You had cuddled with him plenty of times before but this was something different, more intimate.

“I make you feel safe right?” He asked, rubbing his hand up and down your back as you nodded your head not trusting your voice as your heart was beating a million miles a minute. “Good. Now go to sleep cause I’m not until you do.” He kissed your forehead wrapping an arm even more tightly around you. Instantly relaxing you took a deep breath closing your eyes before kissing his chest as a way to tell him goodnight. Within minutes you were fast asleep feeling more safe than you ever have before. One thing was for sure, you certainly would be having another movie night.

[halstudandruz]

Always Have, Always Will ~ Part 2

*Not my gif*

Pairing: Jay Halstead x Reader

Requested: Yes

Prompt: Sequel to Part 1 // Part 3 here

Warnings: Swearing, cheating

A/N: Jay’s texts in bold, yours italicized

You were woken up the next morning by soft kisses being pressed along your neck and shoulders. Whining a little you turned to face the man that lay behind you.

“Goodmorning gorgeous.” He smiled pushing the hair out of your face. Huffing you shoved your face into his bare chest causing him to chuckle, “still not a morning person I see.” He joked wrapping his arms tighter around your body. Gladly letting you sink back into his warmth.

“You’re hard.” You mumbled against his chest feeling the boner pressing against your leg.

“Do you blame it?” He smirked moving his hands up and down your body laughing when you nodded your head against his chest not moving. “I know. I know. No morning sex unless I’m willing to do all the work.” He kissed your head before flipping you underneath him, “Lucky for you I’m feeling quite energized this morning.” He smiled nuzzling your neck to kiss it. Humming you opened your legs wider to let him slip between them letting Jay take complete control of you. Just getting to the good part when your phone dinged a few minutes later. Huffing loudly in protest you reached over to pick it up squinting to see a message from Will. The guilt overtaking you as you then recalled the events from yesterday. “Who is it?” Jay asked, pulling your hips back towards him.

“Will.” You mumbled moving to open it.

“What’s he want?” Jay sighed running his fingers over your thigh, and instantly you were wide awake pushing him off of you and jumping out of bed.

“He’s on his way over, he just got off.” You hurried looking around for your clothes before remembering half of them still lay in a trail to your bedroom, in plain sight. Grabbing Jay’s jeans you threw them over to him as you wrapped a robe around yourself. Running out of your room to start the clean up tossing Jay articles of his clothing as he followed behind you, “Fuck!” You exclaimed reaching your kitchen where pieces of glass were shattered along with dried wine that had splashed on your floor and cabinets.

“I’ll sweep if you mop.” Jay bargained, nodding your head you quickly dumped out the little bit of beer Jay still had left when he sat his beer down the night before tossing it in the trash as he followed you over to your cleaning closet that was directly located behind your front door, jumping a thousand feet when there was a knock. Opening the closet you got out the broom and mop before you shoved Jay in just as the front door opened.

“Hey.” You said calmly, trying to slow your breathing from the panic.

“Hey.” He smiled stepping in and kissing you on the forehead, “sorry I didn’t give you more of a heads up I just figured since neither of us work tonight we could spend the day together. Talk some. But I definitely need a shower and nap first.” He laughed turning to walk into your kitchen to presumably get a drink when he stopped looking back at you, “what happened?” He gestured to the mess on the floor. Making you swallow hard,

“I was drinking last night and I never finished it. I must’ve knocked it over in the middle of the night when I came to get a drink.” You cover easily as he nodded,

“Here I’ll help-“ He started reaching for the broom but you cut him off,

“No. I got it, go ahead and get in the shower I’ll be in bed waiting for you after I get this cleaned up.” You forced a smile starting to feel a little light headed at the anxiety coursing through you. Will stopped to give you a light kiss before heading to the bathroom where you watched him intently only hurrying back over to the closet once you heard the water start, “okay you have 2 minutes get out, get out.” You started to push Jay towards the door.

“Okay, okay. But when are we going to talk about this?” He asked, stopping in front of the door, making you groan your eyes flickering between him and the door of the bathroom.

“I don’t know. Not now though I can tell you that!” You whispered as he pulled his phone out handing it to you,

“I’ll text you.” He informed you as you got the hint putting your new number in and handing it back.

“Okay seriously you got to go.” You reached around him to open the door quietly. He walked out into the hallway before turning back towards you. “Jay I’m not kidd-“ you started again before he quickly pulled you into his lips for a short but deep kiss.

“I’m sorry I wasn’t leaving without that.” He explained, making you shake your head but smile at the same time, “I love you.” He whispered looking into your eyes.

“I love you too.” You sighed reaching up to give him another quick kiss before successfully pushing him out this time, quietly closing the door after him. Earning a breath of relief your head fell back against it, “I’m the worst person alive.” You groaned to yourself before moving to clean up the mess that was made in your lust filled state.

Climbing into your bed you quickly did a double check that everything was as it was supposed to be switching the pillows in fear of Jay’s smell still permeating off them. Before relaxing or at least pretending to and waiting for Will to come in.

“I was hoping you would come join me.” Will playfully frowned walking into your room hair still wet.

“I was cleaning.” You laughed nervously.

“I know but a guy can fantasize.” He smirked, climbing into bed next to you and pulling you closer before leaning over you and capturing your lips. Rigidly you kissed him back begging your mind to relax when he pulled away looking down at you concern on his face, “Are you okay?” He asked. Swallowing hard you nodded,

“Yeah. I’m sorry I just didn’t sleep well last night I guess.” You answered making him sigh,

“Look [Y/N] I’m sorry I didn’t-“ He started before you cut him off,

“You’ve been awake for over 24 hours go to sleep.” You smiled at him leaning up to kiss his forehead. Nodding he turned back over to his side getting comfortable before quickly falling asleep. You were in the kitchen making breakfast as Will slept in your bed when your phone buzzed. A text from an unknown number popping up. Sighing you opened it carefully after making sure you were alone,

“You’re going to get me caught.” His text read accompanied by a picture of his back where numerous scratches clearly covered it.

“Oh fuck. I’m sorry...kinda..” You replied.

“Yeah didn’t think you would be 😏.” He answered before another text came through.

“Listen I think you should know that Erin and I aren’t together. Everyone thinks we are but we aren’t. It’s...complicated.”

“Oh good so I’m the only cheating bitch?”

“Along with a backstabbing brother I guess.”

“What if this is a bad idea? Maybe we should just let this go. Move on.”

“[Y/N], come on. Stop that.”

“I’m just saying is it really worth all the damage this is going to cause?”

“Absolutely, and I don’t care how terrible that is of me to say. There’s a reason he didn’t want us to know. He did this to himself.”

“Yeah okay Jay let’s see how well that argument will go over.”

This went on for about a week. Sneaking around, avoiding Will as best you could. You and Jay talked numerous times about how you were going to tell him, but you couldn’t ever come up with a good enough plan. One that wouldn’t end in a huge argument and inevitably hurting Will once again. You and Will both had off tonight for the first time in a week so he had come over to help you make dinner and watch a movie. You were almost to the end of the movie when Will moved slightly on top of you leaning down to kiss you deeply. Not wanting to be suspicious you kissed back only pushing him away when his hands started to move up your shirt.

“Will. Stop.” You said, halting his hands. Sighing, he rolled back to his side of the bed shaking his head.

“Am I doing something wrong here?” He asked, laughing a little.

“What do you mean?” You replied not meeting his eyes.

“I just mean we’ve been together a few months now and you push me away every time I get even slightly touchy. Not that I need sex. I just don’t understand.” He answered.

“I’m sorry. I’m just not ready. I’m not someone who can just jump into bed with someone.” You explained.

“I didn’t realize doing anything more than kissing would be considered jumping into bed. As if we just got together and I’m some horny teenager. I’m just saying it wasn’t like you made Jay wait.” He huffed sitting up fully.

“Excuse me?” You said appalled, Will quickly catching on at your offended tone.

“Okay, wait that’s not what I-“ He started to cover his tracks reaching for you as you got up walking away from him.

“I want you gone by the time I’m out.” You interrupted slamming the door of your bathroom. You were fuming when you got in the shower only calming down when you realized maybe this was your way out. Maybe you could break up with him now and just play it out. Pulling on a tank top and shorts you walked out, drying your hair happy to see Will still seated on your bed.

“[Y/N] I’m so-“ He walked towards you.

“No, it’s okay. I just overreacted.” You shook your head, tossing the towel into your hamper and walking closer, “but listen. It made me realize that-“ You started going to grab his hands when he cut you off,

“What’s on your chest?” He asked pulling the neckline of your tank top lower to reveal more of the bruise. You gulped noticeably, looking down, racing for any excuse. “[Y/N]. What’s on your chest.” He repeated looking up at you but you started to panic backing away from him, “Tell me that’s not a hickey. Just tell me it’s not and I’ll believe you.” He pleaded pain in his voice.

“Will, just hear me out.” You begged voice shaking.

“You have got to be fucking kidding me.” He laughed bitterly running a hand down his face, “it was him wasn’t it?” He asked, looking back up at you, anger starting to seep into his features. Sighing you felt the tears start to prick your eyes,

“I don’t know what you want me to say.” You finally choked out.

“I want you to tell me you didn’t have sex with my brother. That you didn’t cheat on me with Jay. That’s what I want you to say.” He yelled. Shaking your head and looking down you whispered,

“I can’t do that.” The tension in the room was thick when he knocked a picture on your nightstand across the room in anger making you jump.

“I’m going to fucking kill him.” He growled walking out of your room, slipping on his shoes, and grabbing his keys hurrying out of your apartment as you yelled after him.

“Will come on! Wait!” You called following his lead and running down to your own car slipping in just in time for you to see Will spinning out of the parking lot. Speeding right behind him you tried to grab for your phone before you realized it still lay in the bathroom now panicking more unable to give Jay any kind of heads up. You were in front of Jay’s apartment building within minutes turning your car off just as Will entered. You were hot on Will’s heels following just a beat behind him. Rounding the corner of the stairs just in time for you to witness Jay opening his door and getting knocked back by Will’s fist.

“Will!” You screamed running the rest of the distance to Jay’s apartment.

“No. You stay out of this.” He growled, grabbing Jay by the front of his shirt and slamming him against the wall. You quickly stepped inside shutting the door behind you in fear of any nosy neighbors.

“Will. Let go of him now.” You ordered trying to pull him away from Jay.

“No. It’s okay. He wants to hit me? Go ahead. I deserve it. Just as long as he knows this is his fault too.” Jay challenged hands up in the air not backing down.

“My fault? Yeah cause I distinctly remember telling you to climb into bed with my girlfriend.” He growled slamming him back into the wall again knocking the breath out of Jay.

“You can act like a badass all you want, but there’s a reason you hid everything from both of us. You were bitter that she picked me and knew she would again. You were too scared. This is your fault too Will and you know it.” Jay said.

By now there were tears running down your face and Jay’s eyes kept flickering to you pain and worry on his face as blood ran down it.

“Will...please. Just please let him go and we can talk.” You begged, reaching for his arm again. Will looked between the two of you dropping his hands and laughing bitterly stepping back.

“Whatever. Neither of you are worth it.” He shook his head, moving to the door and slamming it behind him. Sighing you moved to Jay hugging him.

“I’m sorry. I tried to call you but I left my phone and I-“ You cried still sniffling against his chest.

“It’s alright. It’s okay. It’s going to be okay.” He promised rubbing your back. Leaning back you seen blood beginning to dry on Jay’s lip, the bottom of his eye starting to darken.

“We have to get you cleaned up.” You sighed wiping at your face and pulling him off to his bathroom dabbing at his lip before forcing him to hold frozen peas against his eye.

“I didn’t mean for this to happen.” You shook your head, dropping it into your hands. This was not how you planned for this to go down.

[halstudandruz]

Always Have, Always Will

*Not my gif*

Pairing: Jay Halstead x Reader

Prompt: Reader reconnects with Jay, her ex boyfriend and current boyfriend’s brother.

Warnings: Swearing, cheating

A/N: Part 2 here // Part 3 here

“Babe, have you seen my-oh nevermind.” Will yelled from his bedroom making you laugh as you finished packing both your lunches. You were both heading off to your shifts at Chicago Med where Will would be working a double that night.

You were a few hours in when your world was flipped upside down.

“Hey we’re here for Jamison Recker.” A voice a few steps away from you said that had you immediately turning around, eyes wide at the familiarity and your heart was caught in your throat at the confirmation of the owner.

“Room 343.” The receptionist informed him. He thanked her turning to move down the hall when he spotted you stopping in his tracks. The girl beside him looked suspiciously between the two of you before shoving him in the arm seemingly bringing him back to reality. Allowing him to take the last few steps towards you,

“Jay..” you croaked out in disbelief.

Now for the background story. You had reconnected with Will whenever you moved back to Chicago after getting a job offer as a nurse at Chicago Med. Growing up you two were neighbors along with his little brother, Jay, and hung out with them practically 24/7. By the time you had gotten to high school Jay and Will were vying for your attention both sporting obvious crushes, which surprised you honestly, but eventually you had to pick and well... you picked Jay. You were head over heels for Jay much to Will’s dismay. After that things weren’t always the same between the three of you. Which upset you, you never intended to hurt anyone, but it was inevitable apparently. It wasn’t that you didn’t love Will because you did it was just that Jay had you sucked in from the start. He ended up being your first everything, and you his. You were convinced this wasn’t some puppy love, this was absolutely the real thing. You stayed together throughout all of high school and then some until he decided he wanted to go into the military. You were willing to try it. It was going to be hard but you were completely in love with him and you would do anything to support him, but he didn’t want that. He didn’t want to put either of you through that especially with you going off to college where he wanted you to live your best life, and that was that. No letters. No pictures. No communication. You were devastated for months. Standing here right now was the first time you had seen him since you bid him goodbye in the airport the day he left for basic training. When you had gotten back to Chicago you were pleasantly surprised to run into Will on your first day. It didn’t take long at all for you two to get back into old habits and you ended together. It had been about two months since he asked to make your relationship official, but no words had been spoken about Jay. You didn’t want to ask and he didn’t seem like he wanted to bring it up. So, in fear of any answers or fights you always let it lay dead in your mind. But now here he was. Standing right in front of you making you lightheaded at the reality of it all.

“[Y/N], wow..hi.” He answered back with as much vulnerability making your heart ache even more. You couldn’t believe your body was having this reaction right now. You were dating his brother and you wanted nothing more than to pull him into you like your life depended on it. Wondering if his lips felt the same as they did a decade ago. Your mind couldn’t keep up. If it was even fucking possible he was even more handsome. Muscles rippling clear in the shirt he was wearing, jeans forming around his legs perfectly, just the right amount of scruff on his face. The same baby blue eyes you always fell into.

“Jay! Hey, I didn’t know you were coming in.” A voice appeared beside you making you jump. Feeling an arm wrap around your waist you looked up to see it belonged to Will making you swallow hard. This had to happen someday you just didn’t imagine it happening like this. You hadn’t imagined it at all actually because you refused to, but now that it was you wanted to step as far away from Will as possible, but he held you tightly against his side as though he was showing his possession. You could see the confusion on Jay’s face as Will continued, “I see you’ve run into America’s most badass power couple.” He joked and suddenly you remembered there was a girl standing beside Jay. Averting your eyes to her. A gorgeous brunette with combat boots and a leather jacket. Sporting an amazing smile as she extended her hand to you,

“Hi. I’m Erin.” She introduced herself, “I take it you two know each other?” She pointed between the two of you after shaking your hand and the jealousy was running thick through your blood.

“Uh yeah. A long time ago. I actually didn’t know he was even in Chicago.” You explained looking back over to Jay who was fidgeting.

“Didn’t I tell you that honey?” Will asked with emphasis on the pet name and you could swear fire appeared in Jay’s eyes, “he’s in the intelligence unit.” Will finished.

“Speaking of, we actually have to go talk to a victim. It was nice meeting you. We’ll have to get together sometime.” Erin smiled pulling Jay with her as he bid you goodbye, still in a daze. As you watched him walk away you turned to face Will.

“You didn’t feel the need to tell me Jay’s in Chicago?” You asked dumbfounded.

“I didn’t really see the importance. Figured you find out sooner or later.” He shrugged rendering you speechless, making him sigh, “I’m sorry. I thought if I did I might lose my chance with you again, and he’s with Erin anyway. We had to talk about it eventually. I just figured you didn’t want to know since you didn’t ask.” He pulled you into a hug as you nodded against his chest,

“Yeah. No, you’re right. I’m sorry I’m just shocked is all.” You explained.

“I would’ve given you a heads up if I knew he was coming.” Will said moving to continue but being interrupted by Ethan,

“Halstead, need you for a second.” Ethan yelled at him from down the hall. Will let you go backing away to take your face into his hands,

���We’ll talk more later, okay?” He asked, kissing your forehead and heading off when you nodded.

The rest of your shift went fast. Kissing Will quickly on your way out, heart not into it after the day's events. After arriving home you got a quick shower and ate before ending up on your couch, photo album in your lap. You were inspecting a photo of you on Jay’s back kissing his cheek when a knock alerted you. Quickly closing the album and shoving it back into your coffee table you went to answer it, confused since Will shouldn’t be even close to off shift yet. Opening the door you couldn’t help the laugh that escaped you. Thinking this day couldn’t get any more twisted as you stepped aside gesturing him inside.

“What are you laughing about?” Jay asked, walking into the doorway, closing the door behind him.

“I don’t even know at this point. I feel like I’m trapped in some kind of bad movie.” You shook your head walking into the kitchen where he followed you. “How’d you find me?” You asked pouring more wine into your glass you already had out before getting a beer out of the fridge and offering it to Jay.

“I am a cop.” He pointed out taking the beer from your outstretched hand.

“Never bothered to look me up before?” You asked leaning against the counter as he leaned against the doorframe. Making him look down and chuckle,

“Couple months ago. You were still in Florida.” He admitted. “How long ago did you come back?”

“About four months ago.” You answered, “he never told you?” You continued causing him to laugh bitterly.

“Just like he never told you.” Jay shrugged, “looks like it worked out for him though.” He shook his head taking a gulp of his beer.

“Jay..” You warned but as you looked at him you seen the pain clear in his features.

“Do you love him?” He finally asked.

“Jay..” You repeated.

“Please..I just..I need to know.” He pleaded grip tight around his bottle.

“No.” You finally answered, feeling guilty at the confession, as you watched Jay relax. “Erin, know you’re here?” You shot back.

“That..doesn’t matter.” He sighed after a long pause setting his beer on the counter stepping a little closer to you. “Why didn’t you ask about me?”

“I was too scared.” You admitted looking down at the marble knuckles white from the grip you had on the edge. He stepped slowly towards you, a hand landing on your hip as his finger tilted your head up towards him.

“I’ve never stopped missing you. Loving you. Not for a single second.” He whispered searching your eyes with his.

“Jay..what are you doing here.” You took a deep breath not moving closer but not moving away.

“I couldn’t not see you. I’ve waited long enough.” He answered but your palms came to his chest pushing him away shaking your head anger and sadness in your voice,

“You can’t do this. You can’t just show up here after 10 years and expect me to fall at your feet. You did this. You broke us up!” You yelled at him.

“I know and it’s eaten me alive everyday since. To not know how we could’ve ended up. To not know if you still loved me. I wrote you so many damn letters but I couldn’t bring myself to send even one of them.” Jay ran a hand through his hair taking a deep breath before continuing, “you know Erin,” and at her name you rolled your eyes making him raise an eyebrow but still he continued not commenting, “she made me go to her high school reunion with her last month and all I could think the entire time was what ours was going to be like. If you were going to show up. If you were married. Maybe you had kids, and it just fucking tore me apart, but I couldn’t bring myself to look you up because I was too scared of seeing it be a reality. I sat there and just imagined you walking through that door. Looking as beautiful as you always have and coming back to me.” He said taking your hand gently and pulling you back into him, “I’m sorry. I know this isn’t fair. I know we shouldn’t be doing this, but god dammit, [Y/N], my entire world was flipped upside down 6 hours ago when I saw you standing there.” He poured out, his hands gripping each side of your face, and you made the mistake of meeting his eyes, those damn baby blue eyes that you could never snap out of as you leaned up to capture his lips with yours. At the connect one hand gripped the front of his shirt pulling him impossibly close as the other grasped the back of his neck. The kiss started out slow, gentle as you fell back into the rhythm that was all too familiar, capturing a taste you had longed for for way too long. Before Jay snuck his tongue in your mouth slowly taking dominance while he lifted you onto the counter knocking your glass down at the same time, shattered glass hit the tile, merely an echo as you focused your entire body solely on Jay’s..

————-

“Well..that was a little different than it used to be.” Jay joked, still breathing heavily pulling the covers up to your hips.

“In a good way I hope.” You replied, head falling down onto his sweaty chest, his rapid heartbeat loud against your ear.

“In a very good way. Not that you weren’t good before!” He hurried out realizing what he said, making you laugh.

“We were each other’s first, Jay. Not like we had much to go off of. But god damn do you look good, and here I thought you couldn’t look any better. Way to prove me 1000 times wrong..” You said running your fingers along his abs, making him smile. You laid your hands on his chest, fingers intertwining below where your chin rested, looking up at him.

“Have you..?” He trailed off swallowing hard not actually wanting to ask, but gaining new found fresh air when you shook your head no.

“What did we just do, Jay?” You asked after a few minutes with guilt clear in your voice, causing him to sigh and tuck your hair behind your ear.

“We’ll figure it out.” He promised sincerity in his voice.

“I love you. I always have.” You bit your lip searching his eyes.

“I love you too. I always will.” He replied by rubbing your cheek bone with the pad of his thumb. You didn’t know how this was going to end up. You didn’t feel like it could be good in any way, but for the first time since the day Jay left you felt truly and completely safe in his arms again and that’s all that mattered to you right now. All the rest..it could wait.

[halstudandruz]

Jay Halstead Masterlist

*Not my gif*

Warning: 🍒 18+ Please note that whenever you read these works, you acknowledge you are 18+ and can view such works. 

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Took You Long Enough

Two Pink Lines

Opinions

Rules

Reassurance

Good Lay

Right Time 🍒

Insecurities

Unexpected

Control

Concern

Motherly Instinct (Siblings)

Crazy

Competition

Dirty Work

Thrill

Final Alarm

Last Nerve

High School Bully

Not Okay

Scary Reality

Alone Time

Stray Bullet

Easy on the Eyes

Birthday Present

One Day (Siblings ft. Will Halstead)// Part 2

Grand Appearance 🍒

Day Dream

One of a Kind

Protection

Wanna Play Doctor?

Faith in the Process (Siblings ft. Will Halstead)

Movie Moments

Talk About a Dream (ft. Kelly Severide) 🍒

Knight in Shining Armour

Every Step of the Way

Hold it Against Me

NSFW Alphabet 🍒

First Time 🍒

Sick Day

Reminder

Mimosas on a Tuesday

Tiny Detail

Code Red

Racing Thoughts

Addiction

Never Have I Ever

Safe With Me

Scaredy Cat

Always Have Always Will (ft. Will Halstead)// Part 2 // Part 3

Simple Instructions 🍒

Hero Complex

Give In

Research Purposes 🍒// Part 2 // Part 3 // Part 4

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Daddy Jay Series

Uncle Jay

We Did It

Can’t Keep Up

Husband Duties

Little Man

Mini Jay

Stir Crazy

Disappearing Act

[halstudandruz]

Never Have I Ever

*Not my gif*

Pairing: Jay Halstead x Reader

Requested: Yes

Prompt: A game of Never Have I Ever brings the readers past out

Warnings: None

“No.” You stated leaning back into Jay’s couch.

“Come on, [Y/N]. Stop being lame!” Kevin pushed.

“You guys seem to have forgotten, but let me remind you we aren’t in high school anymore.” You rolled your eyes at the people around you.

“Jay, I’d be a little concerned she seems to have a few secrets she doesn’t want you to discover.” Adam pretended to whisper behind Jay. Jay raised an eyebrow at you suspiciously as you innocently took a drink keeping your mouth shut. To be fair you had only been dating Jay a little over 5 months so clearly he didn’t know all your secrets. Even if you were purposely hiding some of them but that’s besides the point.

“Do you propose anything more interesting?” Kevin asked arms crossed. The next five minutes was full of begging until you finally gave in.

“Oh my gosh fine!” You huffed throwing your arms up. High fives around the room at your defeat everyone positioning themselves in seats around the room and grabbing their drinks. Jay sat next to you to pull you into his side. This couldn’t be that bad right?

“Alright [Y/L/N], you can start.” Adam announced. You thought for a second before a small smile appeared.

“Never have I ever been shot at.” You stated.

“Low blow.” Kevin rolled his eyes as everyone around you took a drink.

“Alright!” Adam exclaimed getting everyone’s attention, “never have I ever kissed someone of the same sex.” He claimed looking around, grin appearing over his face as he watched you, Kim, and Hailey take a drink. “Oh this is gonna be fun.” He laughed kicking his feet up on the coffee table.

“Never have I ever said ‘I love you’ just to get laid.” Kim said. Groaning you took another drink, joined by Adam and Kevin.

“Halstead go.” Adam nudged.

“Okay, never have I ever had a threesome.” Everyone looked around at each other not moving until you very slowly took a sip of your drink. This time Jay looked at you eyes a little wide. “What-“ He started but you cut him off,

“Hailey next question!” You begged.

“Never have I ever had sex with over 30 people.” You and Adam clinked bottles before taking a drink. Beside you Jay stiffened a little hand rubbing over his chin.

By the end of the night you were two sheets to the wind Jay carrying you into his bed.

The next morning the headache and nausea hit before your eyes even opened. Whining you rolled over colliding with warm skin. Jay reflexively pulled you closer into him kissing the top of your head.

“I think I’m dying.” You mumbled into Jay’s chest, voice croaking as you felt his chest puff out in a laugh.

“I wonder why.” He joked rolling away from you.

“It’s all Kevin’s fault.” You groaned pushing a pillow into your face to lessen to brightness coming into the room.

“In his defense I don’t think he expected you to have to drink so much.” Jay responded teasingly. “But while we’re on the subject, let's talk about that.” You could hear the accusing nature in his voice.

“About what?” You asked innocently.

“[Y/N].” He stated. Jealousy and amusement both present in his voice.

“Sooo I may have a little bit of a rocky past.A rebellious phase if you will.” You winced moving to look at his face trying to judge his reaction.

“Why didn’t you tell me? I mean I feel like.. I don’t know anything about you now.” He continued a little sadness in his voice.

“I’m sorry. It’s like not something you just happen to bring up in conversation. I was worried how you’d react. Clearly my body count is a little higher than I would like it to be.” You admitted grabbing ahold of his hand.

“A little?” He raised an eyebrow at you chuckling when you threw him a look,

“You already know I have a high sex drive.” You defended.

“I’m not going to judge you on your past. What you did back then has nothing to do with me or our future together, but I also would like to know who you were. Hear your stories. Because they are why you’re lying here with me today and I couldn’t be more thankful for that.” He smiled lightly brushing your hair away from your eyes.

“As long as I get to hear yours too.” You negotiated as he nodded in agreement, “Okay good. In that case what’s your body count?” You pushed.

“Whoa, no I get the first question.” He crossed his arms against his chest smirk appearing, “now about that threesome..” He started as you groaned hitting him with a pillow.

[halstudandruz]

Addiction

*Not my gif*

Pairing: Jay Halstead x Reader

Requested: Yes

Prompt: Jay finds comfort in his partner during his failing marriage

Warnings: Swearing, cheating/affair

How did you get here? How did you let this happen? How could you keep letting this happen? The self deprecating thoughts ran through your mind as you laid next to Jay Halstead, both panting heavily.

“Wow. That had to be one of our best. I did that thin-“ He started still trying to catch his breath.

“We can’t do this anymore.” You hurried out.

“What?” He asked turning towards you.

“You have a wife, Jay. A wife!” You exclaimed leaning up to search for your bra and panties that were scattered around the room.

“Yeah, barely.” Jay scoffed.

“The existing marriage license begs to differ.” You spit back, slamming his underwear to his chest.

“[Y/N], come on.” He looked at you like you were over reacting.

“How are you okay with this!? How can you think this is a decent thing to be doing?” You yelled tying your robe around you and slipping out of your bed.

“You’re saying what we just did was not decent? I would definitely have to disagree and judging by the sounds-“ He continued to joke which made you angrier.

“Get the hell out Jay.” You shook your head walking into the bathroom and slamming the door. By the time you came back out your apartment was empty. Sighing heavily you collapsed onto your bed, face in your mattress, scent of him still strong on your pillows. Here’s to hoping tomorrow wouldn’t be too awkward.

————-

Walking into the district you had to compose yourself. This had been going on for over 3 months. It first happened after a hard case. You went into a little bit of a spiral as it took you back to your teenage years. Jay, being the good partner he was, was there for you, but a couple too many drinks later and here you were. There was always something about Jay that drew you towards him, but he was married. You weren’t going to let anything happen. Until it did, and then you couldn’t stop it from happening. You had sufficiently gotten a dose of Jay Halstead and without a second thought became addicted. The couple times you had woken up in his arms right before your alarm went off you found yourself wondering how it was going to end. Because there was an inevitable end for the two of you. He would call it off because he felt guilty. Kristina would find out and he would convince her to stay, promise that he wouldn’t do it again. Someone in the unit would find out and blow it up (even though you had a sneaking suspicion Trudy already knew but that’s besides the fact.) Logically, there was no way it would end well for you, and yet you kept going back. Falling into bed, begging for more. It was suddenly a regular occurrence. So the whole walking into the district the morning after, the memories of his lips, his hands all over, was something you were used to, but this time it felt different. Like maybe it really was over. Maybe it really was the end and you didn’t know how to feel about it.

Walking upstairs was nothing different. Everyone was at their desks sipping coffee, Kevin and Adam screwing with each other. Just like every other day, but for you the tension felt thick as you locked eyes with Jay. Taking a deep breath you headed towards your desk sitting your stuff down, where a hot coffee already sat. Glancing at Jay you mumbled a thank you as he gave you a small smile. It wasn’t long before you were in Jay’s truck headed to question a suspect. After 10 minutes of awkward silence Jay decided to break it,

“So..we gonna talk about this?”

“Nope.” You simply replied in a second.

“[Y/N]-“ He tried sighing heavily before you stopped him.

“We have more important things to be worrying about right now Jay.” You crossed your arms across your chest. He looked over at you annoyed, “I just..can’t talk about this right now, okay?” You bit your lip looking away from him. Guilt took over his features as he nodded focusing his attention back on the road.

————

A few days full of avoidance and obvious tension later you and the rest of the team sat around a table at Molly’s. Quietly you stirred your drink around in the bottle thoughts spaced out as you avoided Jay’s eyes. You were in withdrawal and with even the slightest bit of alcohol in you, you knew if you looked into those baby blues you would be absolutely without a doubt fucked.

“So, where’s the mrs. tonight?” Adam asked turning to Jay who was being suspiciously quiet as well.

“Not here.” Jay shrugged not looking over.

“What does she look like? It’s been so long since we’ve seen her I’ve seem to forgotten.” Antonio raised an eyebrow at Jay.

“Yeah bars aren’t really her scene I guess.” Jay answered.

“Come on man what’s going on with you two?” Antonio nudged.

“I don’t know. Just hasn’t been...for a long time.” Jay sighed.

“Seriously dude when was the last time you got laid?” Kevin joked. Jay’s eyes locked with yours before he quickly looked down at the table shrugging as he took a chug of his beer. “You don’t even know? Bro I was just joking, but clearly you need to figure some stuff out.” He looked at him pointedly.

“Look I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to break her heart and go through the whole process, but I just don’t want to be with her anymore.” He admitted, and at the words you swallowed hard.

“Marriage is hard you have to work at it.” Kim included.

“No it’s not like that. I don’t want to work at it with her. I don’t love her anymore.” He admitted.

“How do you just fall out of love with someone?” Kim asked.

“I don’t even know if we were in love. At least on my end. I mean I thought I was, but now... I don’t really know anymore. We were young, I had just gotten back and was in a bad way. We thought we knew what we were doing. Thought everyone was wrong. I don’t think I had the right idea of what love was.” He explained looking at you again.

“I need another drink. Anyone else?” You asked voice squeaking before you hurried towards the counter. Letting a deep breath out once you felt you had enough space.

“So, how long has that been going on?” Kim asked beside you make you jump.

“What?” You asked nervously.

“I’m your best friend [Y/N], I’m not a dumbass.” She gave you a look as you groaned head falling into your hands. “Look I’m not here to judge. I’m not here to make you feel bad about yourself. I’m just here to help.” She promised. Looking at her the guilt bubbled even further in the pit of your stomach.

“I’m in love with him. I’m in love with a married man. With my partner.” You stated, disbelief in your voice. “How did I let this happen. I’m a terrible fucking person.” You groaned running a hand down your face.

“You didn’t do it to hurt anybody.” She rubbed your arm.

“Do they know?” You looked over at the table making Kim chuckle.

“I could give Adam a literal ticket to Rome and he would still say it wasn’t a good enough hint. They’re clueless.” She promised.

“I gotta go home. I just don’t have the mental capacity to be in his presence right now.” You admitted weakly. Smiling sympathetically she nodded hugging you quickly,

“I’m here for whatever you need. Always.” She stated before grabbing a few drinks and heading back to the table. You followed behind her grabbing your purse to sneak your way out.

“Whoa what are you doing? It’s like 10 o’clock.” Kevin caught you. Rolling your eyes you made an excuse,

“I got a thing tomorrow so..” You tried, but trailed off when you met Jay’s eyes, and what looked like pain..? inside of them.

“Alright bye.” Kim pushed you towards the door snapping you out of it, giving you a pointed look. Anger, sadness, guilt, need, want, were all so mumbled together in your body you didn’t know which way was up. Once getting home you quickly fell into bed hoping sleep would help you gather your thoughts a little.

You were later awoken by your phone ringing beside your head.

“Hello?” You groaned not bothering to look at the caller ID, eyes still closed.

“Can I come over?” The voice on the other side asked hesitantly.

“Jay..” You whimpered suddenly wide awake, heat immediately coursing through your body at his question, looking at the clock you realized it was 4 in the morning. “This is hard enough-“ You started to lecture, but his soft husky voice cut you off.

“Please, I just..I need to see you. I need to talk to you.” He practically begged, slight whine in his voice.

“The door will be open.” You answered after a few seconds of contemplating before hanging up. 20 minutes later you were joined in bed by Jay.

“Hey.” He whispered sliding in next to you to bring you into his chest.

“No, no, no.” You pushed him away despite every bone in your body telling you not to.

“I talked to her. I told her everything.” He informed you looking away from you.

“Wow..okay. And?” You pushed.

“She wasn’t mad. Weirdly enough she wasn’t mad. She was hurt, which is understandable, but we were on the same page. There was no yelling. No fighting. It just...ended.” He looked confused as he said it out loud.

“Well...how do you feel about that?” You asked.

“Happy.” He answered simply looking at you.

“What?” You looked eyebrows raised.

“My marriage didn’t end because of you [Y/N]. It was over long before you came into the picture. We haven’t even slept in the same bed in over a year. She got..annoyed with my dreams and episodes waking her. This isn’t on you, I need you to know that.” He took your hand in his.

“Jay, that doesn’t make any of this right.” You huffed.

“I know and I know it isn’t ideal, but I love you.” He looked at you seriously.

“You said the same thing to her.” You replied.

“You’re right. I did, but this is different. I’m not some 20 year old trying to push away problems I refused I had. Trying to sink myself into alcohol and some girl that was dealing with all of it too. If you can wholeheartedly look at me and tell me this isn’t what you want, that you’re not in love with me. I will leave right now and try my hardest to pretend this didn’t happen and that I’m not head over heels for you.” He clenched his jaw, lump clear in his throat through his voice.

“You know I can’t do that.” You stated softly all the fight you had in you seemingly disappearing.

“We’re filing this week. As soon as we talk everything out. Sh-She actually told me it was okay if I wanted this,” His eyes met yours hesitantly, “and there really isn’t anything I could want more.” He admitted shoulders tensing a little waiting for reaction.

“Jay, this is a lot, it’s 4 in the morning, I’m exhausted, and this is going to involve a long conversation.” You chewed at your lip nervously.

“I understand.” He nodded swallowing visibly hard.

“Can you just stay so we can talk about this in the morning? I don’t know how this is going to work or how we’re going to make this work, but all I know is I want to wake up next to the man I love in the morning and see what happens next.” You admitted linking your fingers with his. At your words a soft smile appeared on his face as he reached out to pull you into his body.

“I’ve never been addicted to something like I am to you.” He laughed in disbelief flipping you underneath him, leaning down and kissing you with a love you didn’t know existed. One feel of his lips on yours and your addiction was fueled once again.

[halstudandruz]

Masterlist

~Last Updated 09/24/2021~

🍒 18+ Please note that whenever you read these works, you acknowledge you are 18+ and can view such works. 

Chicago PD:

Jay Halstead

Adam Ruzek

Greg Gerwitz (Mouse)

Antonio Dawson

Hank Voight

Kevin Atwater

Alvin Olinsky

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Chicago Fire:

Matt Casey

Kelly Severide

Brian Zvonecek (Otis)

Peter Mills

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Chicago Med:

Will Halstead

Connor Rhodes

[halstudandruz]

Mini Jay

*Not my gif*

Pairing: Jay Halstead x Reader

Requested: Yes

Prompt: Natural Labor

Warnings: Swearing

You were about four hours in and already second guessing the choice to go through labor naturally. You weren’t afraid to admit your pain tolerance wasn’t exactly the best which means you had a long day ahead of you. Jay was sitting beside you rubbing your shoulders when you groaned in annoyance. Contractions still 10 minutes apart. You were only dilated 3 centimeters, but your water had already broken.

“Why did we think this was a good idea? This was a terrible idea.” You thought out loud causing Jay to chuckle.

“I think you may be exaggerating a little bit, honey. This isn’t even the worst part.” He replied.

“No uterus, no opinion, Halstead.” You glared up and him as he nodded his head, hands up defensively small smirk still on his face.

“Let’s go for a walk. We can get you more ice chips while we’re at it.” He requested standing up beside you. Sighing you adjusted yourself standing up with his help, informing the nurse, before you began your laps around the hall. Stopping for a second in front of the nursery, Jay stood beside you arm wrapped around your waist. “Just a little bit longer.” He kissed your head.

“You said that three hours ago.” You joked smiling up at him.

“Fair enough, but it’s all gonna be worth it when we have one of them.” Jay nodded towards the window at the room of babies sleeping.

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Five hours later you were now in active labor, contractions minutes apart, too far along to even change your mind about the epidural.

“Jay, please get him out of me, please.” You begged, tears covering your face.

“You’re doing great love, it’s okay.” He smoothed your hair your hand in his.

“It’s NOT fucking okay! It’s the exact opposite of okay! It hurts! I want to go home!” You yelled.

“I don’t think that’s an option love.” He replied calmly, ignoring your outburst used to it by now. Feeling another contraction you shoved your face into Jay’s shoulder crying out as the doctor walked in. “Breathe baby.” He rubbed your back coaching you through the contraction as he had the last few.

“Alright let’s see where you’re at.” The doctor said adjusting your legs and checking, “it looks like you’re ready.” He informed you. Looking at Jay nervously you waited for the nurses and doctors to situate themselves around the room. Jay smiled reassuringly kissing you lightly on the lips staying right beside you.

“Next contraction I want you to push through it okay?” The doctor instructed nodding you took ahold of Jay’s hand, you did as you were told, squeezing Jay’s hand hard, noticing as he winced a little, but you couldn’t have cared less at that point and he didn’t dare say anything. After a 45 minutes of numerous pushes you were told to relax. Leaning your head back against your pillow with exhaustion, “Jay.” You whined.

“I’m right here baby, you’re doing incredible. I’m so proud of you.” He kissed your forehead, hand laying against your head.

“What if he doesn’t like me?” You asked, slightly delirious making Jay laugh.

“He’s going to love you baby I promise.” Jay smiled squeezing your hand reassuring, the doctor’s words drawing your attention away.

“Alright he’s right there I can see him, just a little longer, on 3.” He explained, following his commands and 10 minutes later you heard your son’s cries. Body flopping down in exhaustion as Jay cut the cord and they did the normal testing on your son confirming he was healthy while talking you through the rest of the process and fixing you up. Until you were finally left alone son in your arms Jay beside you.

“How is this fair?” You asked looking from your son to Jay.

“What?” He asked confused.

“I just spent hours in pain for him to come out a reincarnated version of you.” You pouted looking at your husband’s mini in your arms.

“What can I say? The genes are strong.” He shrugged smiling happily.

“I love you.” You sighed looking up at Jay earning a grin from him.

“I love you more. You were a superhero. I am so proud of you. Thank you for giving me something this amazing.” He leaned down kissing you before kissing your son’s head.

“Takes two to tango.” You joked earning a chuckle from Jay, “I can’t believe how much I love him already.” You admitted.

“I feel you, baby.” Jay replied resting his head on yours.

[halstudandruz]

Tiny Detail

*Not my gif*

Pairing: Jay Halstead x Reader

Requested: Yes

Prompt: What happens when Jay drops a bombshell from his past

Warnings: Swearing

You had always trusted Jay even when he was working with Erin after they had broken up you still trusted him. You were never given a reason to not. He was always honest with you, open to communication, learning from the mistakes of his past relationships. Both of you were open with each other, gladly handing your phones to each other without any questioning, not having anything to hide. So, you were a bit on edge whenever you noticed Jay taking his phone in the bathroom with him during his showers which he never did, always questioning you why you wanted his phone to look something up, reminding you that you had your own even if it was the whole way in the kitchen.

Packing your lunch for the day you heard a phone buzz. It was then that you realized Jay had left his phone on the counter. After a few seconds of fighting with yourself you reached over picking it up to see the name Abby light up the screen. Setting the phone down you reminded yourself you trusted your boyfriend and he would tell you if something was up. Two days had passed and Jay was still being as secretive as before and you were getting irritated. Sitting in the break room eating your lunch when the oldest Halstead brother walked in looking through the fridge.

“Hey Will?” You asked.

“Hmm?” He mumbled grabbing a drink.

“Who’s Abby?” You asked looking at him innocently as his eyes widened dropping the drink. A few seconds passed before he cleared his throat picking the drink up from the floor.

“I don’t know. Abby who? There’s lots of Abbys in this world. Why do you ask?” He stumbled for words not so subtly.

“Just curious if you knew one in particular.” You shrugged smiling sweetly throwing your trash away and brushing past him back out into the hallway. Getting a few steps down the hall you leaned against the wall shutting your eyes and taking a deep breath to calm your rapid heart beat, not loving Will’s reaction to your question. You reminded yourself despite your swirling thoughts that Jay loved you and he wouldn’t do anything to purposely hurt you, or at least you were hoping. After another few hours your mind was officially in shambles, unable to think of anything else. So, after your shift and confirming with Kim that Intelligence wasn't busy you headed for Jay.

“Jay’s a popular guy today.” Trudy said when you appeared before her desk.

“Why is that?” You asked.

“Red headed Halstead just came through here 5 minutes ago.” She explained making you laugh at the irony.

“Remind me murder is illegal, Trudy.” You shook your head, fuming as you headed towards the gate. Reaching the top of the stairs all eyes turned to you. Kevin and Adam pointed towards the break room immediately realizing your mood. “Thank you.” You smiled at them heading towards the back. Opening the door without warning you witnessed Jay and Will standing close whispering to each other, turning when they seen you walk in. Crossing your arms and raising your eyebrow you looked between the brothers.

“You’re on your own.” Will clapped Jay’s back avoiding your hard glare as he snuck past you.

“Okay, I can explain-” He started before you cut him off.

“First of all, remind me to never go to your brother for anything again. Secondly, if you’re going to cheat on me could you be a little more subtle about it. I was waiting for you to say something, but since you haven't, I guess I’m going to have to ask. Who’s Abby, Jay?” You got the question off of your chest.

“I’m not cheating on you.” He answered, matter of factly.

“Then who is she?” You repeated yourself.

“[Y/N], just hear me out..” He begged.

“Just answer the damn question, Jay!” You yelled probably loud enough those in the bullpen could hear despite the door being closed. Sighing heavily he finally answered,

“She’s my ex-wife...or wife I guess? I don’t know I’m taking care of it.”

“You’re fucking joking right now.” You laughed.

“I know I-” He tried, but you shook your head backing up towards the door.

“I can’t believe you. You’re MARRIED and you didn’t think that was something I should know?” You said.

“I thought it was done, I thought the papers went through, but she-” He tried to explain, but you laughed tears gathering in the corner of your eyes.

“Jay, I can’t- I don’t even-” You searched for the right words, but couldn’t find them shaking your head in disbelief instead and walking out the door. Ignoring the curious eyes on you as you walked to your car. The fact that Jay kept this from you hurt. How could you not know that your boyfriend of 2 years used to be married, or...still is married according to him. Your head was spinning as you started off towards your apartment. Calling Kim once she had told you she was on her way home, spilling it all to her.

“Married? Are you sure?” She asked shock in her voice.

“No Kim, I didn’t just have a conversation with him about it or anything.” You answered sarcastically.

“Well..what are you gonna do?” She replied.

“I...don’t know.” You sighed heavily on the line. “I love him, but how could he keep something like this from me. I thought we told each other everything. I know he has a hard time talking about his past, but this seems like kinda a big secret to keep.” You explained.

“Good thing I know what we’re doing tonight!” She exclaimed.

“Kim, no. We both have work in the morning.” You groaned not appreciating her idea.

“We don’t have to get drunk [Y/N] geez.” You could practically hear her rolling her eyes. “Be over in 20! Love you!” She hurried out.

“Kim! No!” She tried, but the line was dead. Throwing your head back with a loud protest you headed for the shower knowing you were getting dragged out no matter how much you didn’t want to.

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Walking into Molly’s you were seated in the back corner with your friends. Having ignored plenty of texts and calls from Jay in the last hour. You watched Will walk in grabbing a beer and coming over to you apologetic look on his face.

“[Y/N]-“ He started, but you glared at him.

“You’re a traitor.” You crossed your arms against your chest.

“He’s my brother! I just wanted to warn him. It wasn’t my secret to tell.” He explained, which made sense. Sighing heavily with the weight of having to admit Will Halstead was right.

“I know. I’m sorry. It’s just a lot to take in. Could’ve at least gave me a heads up though.” You smiled at him slightly.

“I’ll remember that for next time he fucks up.” He replied clinking your glass.

“Yeah...I don’t know if there will be a next time Will, at least with me.” You admitted taking a drink.

“What? What do you mean?” He panicked for his brother looking at all those seated around your table.

“It’s just..a really big thing to not cover. He’s married Will, and not to me that is.” You shrugged.

“You’re really willing to throw what you have away because of a tiny detail-“ He started as you looked at him like he was crazy.

“Tiny detail!? Are you crazy. He-“ You started, but out of the corner of your eye you spotted your boyfriend..ex-boyfriend? Jay. You spotted Jay. Walking in but he wasn’t alone. “Who’s that bitch.” You scowled jealousy immediately boiling in you as you looked at the tan, gorgeous, brunette by Jay’s side.

“Down girl.” Kevin chuckled beside you, practically seeing the steam coming out of your ears.

“That..is Abby.” Will answered for you.

“Uh uh. Nope.” You shook your head slipping out of your seat heading towards them despite your friends protests. You weren’t drunk, but with the amount of anger coursing through your veins your conscience may have been a little far off. Sneaking up behind Jay you slid in next to him, hand resting on his thigh, interrupting their conversation. Turning to face you shock clouded his face,

“[Y/N]! What are you doing here?”

“Kim invited me out for drink. You know after the day I had. How kind right?” You faked nice and you were sure Jay was on edge with how this was going to play out. “Who’s your friend?” You smiled sweetly looking over at the girl who was staring you down curiously. Even more gorgeous up close making your heart sink even lower if that was possible. Clearing his throat you could feel his knee bouncing from nerves.

“This is Abby. Abby this is [Y/N].” He introduced not making eye contact with either of you. Extending your hand you shook hers gently, smile still on your face.

“It’s nice to meet you.” You greeted. “Sorry to interrupt I just had something to give Jay here.” Your smile faltered a little, heart literally breaking, you were pretty sure, as you slide his apartment key into his hand. His eyes met yours once he realized what he was holding, panic surrounding the emerald irises. Bidding goodbye before you turned around you surpassed your table going straight to the bathroom.

Head leaned against the wall you counted your breaths trying to calm your racing heart, and fight against the bile threatening to come up your throat. You heard the door open, opening your eyes to see Kim and Hailey standing in front of you. It was then that the tears spilled out both of them pulling you into a hug. After a couple minutes of silence you sniffled wiping the tears away laughing a little. They both looked at you like you were deranged.

“I’m sorry. My emotions are so fucked.” You admitted head falling into your hands.

“[Y/N], are you sure this is what you want?” Hailey asked.

“Ugh, I don’t know. I’m just so mad! I know I’m acting irrational, but ugh!” You started to pace.

“I know it’s a big secret to keep, but he wasn’t trying to hurt you. You know? It wasn’t like he knew he was still married.” Hailey tried to reason as you were interrupted with a knock on the door.

“Babe? Can I talk to you?” Adam’s voice muffled against the door. Giving you both confusing looks Kim walked out to meet Adam. You could hear them whispering but couldn’t make out the words until Kim came walking back in.

“Okay. Jay wants to talk to you.” She explained. Staring at her blankly you stayed still. “It’s up to you.” She continued.

“Where at? I’m sure as hell not having this conversation in a bathroom.” You crossed your arms.

“Hermann said you could talk in the back room? He has a soft spot for you two or something.” She shrugged. Closing your eyes tight you ran a hand down your face before nodding and walking to the back room.

When you entered Jay was pacing in the small space, his head immediately popping up when he seen you.

“Baby! Okay I know you’re mad, but just please hear me out.” He begged voice croaking a little making you waver as you nodded your head. Sighing with relief he took a deep breath before starting. “We got married in Vegas and it lasted like 24 hours. We were just both really fucked up at the time and we found comfort in each other and just did something really stupid. I’m sorry I never told you I just thought the papers had went through and it was done and over.” He rushed out.

“So you’re only telling me now cause you got caught, you weren’t ever planning on telling me?” You asked eyebrow raised.

“I don’t know. I really don’t. She’s a great person. She deserves the world, but I’m not going to give that to her. I want to give that to you, [Y/N].” He swallowed hard. You looked him up and down taking in the tears glistening his eyes sighing before giving in and wrapping your arms around his waist. He relaxed instantly at your touch burying his face in your hair. “You know what we went through I wouldn’t take back because maybe then I wouldn’t have ended up here with you and I would never risk that. I love you so much.” He kisses your head hugging you tighter into him.

“Got any other secrets? Maybe a child out there somewhere?” You joked making him groan a “no” into your hair. “You have some making up to do. I’m not just letting this go.” You reminded him still pissed.

“What did you have in mind?” He asked backing you up slowly so your back was flush against the door his body trapping you against it before grabbing your jaw tightly in his hand lifting your face up so he could capture your lips with his.

“Hermann said we could TALK, Jay.” You giggled against his lips as his hands slid under your shirt to rest on your hips.

“Yeah, and we did, but now. We’re. Doing. This.” He punctuated each word with a kiss to your neck, and you were 10000% sure you were going to go through with it if you hadn’t spotted the camera in the corner of the ceiling.

“Jay-“ you croaked as he bit down on your collarbone lifting your hands above your head, “camera.” You explained enjoying his movements way too much. Huffing against your skin he turned to see the camera facing your way.

“Fuck. Guess I’ll have to wait till we get home.” He kissed your lips hard before backing away to open the door gesturing you out first.

[halstudandruz]

Code Red

*Not my gif*

Pairing: Jay Halstead x Reader

Requested: Yes

Prompt: How Jay handles your period

Warnings: Swearing I think?

You had woken up to your alarm beeping beside your head, bed all to yourself, vaguely remembering Jay’s kiss goodbye an hour before as he headed off to work. Groaning you shut your alarm off tossing the blankets off your body. Moving to stand up you felt the wetness between your legs, gravity doing it’s work, already knowing the cause, you headed off to the bathroom to shower before it became a massacre on your sheets. You were right on time, and all the signs were there throughout the week. Tender breasts, cravings, irritability, tiredness. So, it definitely wasn’t shocking at all to wake up to your monthly gift. However, that surely didn’t make it pleasant. Moving out to the kitchen to start your coffee after getting dressed you grabbed your phone texting your boyfriend,

Good news. I’m not pregnant.

If wasn’t more than a few minutes later you received a reply,

Lol, code red?

Laughing you typed back,

Indeed, shark week has begun. Prepare yourself.

Bubbles popping up just as you answered,

That explains a lot..

Rolling your eyes small smile on your lips you typed a simple response before slipping your phone into your purse,

Douchebag.

You knew he was joking, but you also knew that your irritability during the PMSing stage was no joke so it was a fair reply. Jay and you had only been dating for a couple months so although he had witnessed you with your period before he hasn’t fully experienced yet. Pouring your coffee you grabbed your purse heading off to work. Hoping your regularly scheduled cramps held off until you got home. Unfortunately you didn’t even make it until lunch time. Nails digging into your desk as you breathed through the pain searching for the Midol you definitely had stashed somewhere. You’d think after having it so long you’d get used to it, but nope. Every month sucked just as much as the last. The day went by longer than you hoped and you were more than looking forward to being home. Walking through the door you didn’t hesitate to head straight for the bedroom. Stripping before throwing on a pair of sweatpants and one of Jay’s t shirts he had left. Walking out into your living room you grabbed the blanket off the back of your couch cuddling up in it. Falling asleep not long after. You were woken up to the sound of shuffling in the hallway. Leaning up you poked your head around to see Jay standing arms full of grocery bags.

“Fuck, I woke you didn’t I? I’m sorry.” He apologized walking in to lay the bags on the coffee table. Raising an eyebrow you adjusted yourself so you were sitting up straight as he started pulling all the stuff out. Chinese take out, pain killers, heating pad, chocolate, ice cream, and multiple pads and tampons.

“So...they had all these numbers and sizes on them and I wasn’t sure what they meant so...I just got them all.” He shrugged making you laugh loudly.

“You’re precious.” You smiled standing up to pull him in for a sweet kiss. Smiling happily he kissed your forehead handing you your food before going to put the rest of the stuff away. Returning he turned on your favorite show eating with you before pulling you into him. Rubbing slow circles in your shoulders. Not long after you started to relax into him more he pulled you off him moving to stand.

“Where are you going?” You whined reaching for him.

“I’ll be right back I promise.” He chuckled kissing your cheek. After a few minutes he returned picking you up with basically no effort carrying you into your bathroom where a bubble bath was already set up. You both undressed as he climbed in behind you wrapping you in his arms. Sighing with content you leaned back into him closing your eyes.

“You didn’t have to do all this.” You stated kissing the side of his neck but enjoying the warmth of the water around you as well as Jay’s body.

“I know, but I just can’t imagine how bad it sucks and you deserve everything baby.” He replied running his hands up and down your arms. It wasn’t long before you were wrapped into Jay in your bed. A pile of blankets on top of you Jay’s hands rubbing your lower back and stomach simultaneously. If you had this to look forward to every time you got your period it wouldn’t be so damn bad and after that day you had no doubt in your mind you were falling for Jay Halstead.

[halstudandruz]

First Time (NSFW)

*Not my gif*

Pairing: Jay Halstead x Reader

Requested: Yes

Prompt: First time/NSFW Prompts

Warnings: Swearing, smut (18+)

You and Jay had been dating a few months and the farthest you had gone was many makeout sessions. You knew the questions were bound to come at some point soon. The fact was, yes, you were a virgin. It wasn’t like you really wanted to be. You had listened to all the jokes about you being a prude, but that wasn’t the case. It wasn’t that you wanted to wait for marriage or anything you actually knew that you didn’t. You just wanted it to be with someone you felt strongly for. To you the emotional connection needed to come before any physical connection, and you definitely weren’t about to give it up for someone who didn’t understand and respect that. You wanted to be open with Jay and tell him from the get go, but the fear crept in every time you tried, and the fact that you actually were starting to fall for him didn’t help.

Once again like many times before you were laid underneath Jay, lips working flawlessly against his as a movie played in the background. Your hands were running up and down his arms and chest as his stayed on your hips. Until he moved one up underneath your shirt reaching for your breasts. Immediately you grabbed onto his hand halting it. Guilt flowing through you once again as you broke apart from him to see the confusion and disappointment on his face that he had always tried to hide too well. Sighing you moved to sit up against the arm of the couch looking at him.

“[Y/N]... don’t take this the wrong way or anything..but am I doing something wrong?” He asked sitting up further.

“What? No, of course not.” You answered quickly bringing a hand to his cheek as he continued to look at you skeptically making you take a deep breath. “Okay Jay..there’s something I need to tell you..” You bit your lip looking away from him. He tilted your head back to look at him concern in his features. Opening your mouth the words were stuck in your throat.

“Baby, what is it? You can tell me.” He urged.

“I’m...a virgin.” You spit out wincing as you searched his face for any emotion and were surprised when he let out a loud laugh.

“Oh thank god.” He let go of a deep breath.

“What?” You asked confused.

“That’s it?” He looked at you expectantly.

“Uh..yeah?” You answered.

“Why were you so afraid to tell me?” He brushed his hand through your hair tucking a piece behind your ear.

“I don’t know. I didn’t want to scare you off.” You admitted.

“Honey, that would never scare me off.” He promised.

“Yeah, well not all guys are like you.” You shrugged.

“I know. I’m pretty cool.” Jay joked kissing your cheek. “So, you want to wait until marriage or?” He continued.

“No. I just want it to be someone who loves me as much as I love them. I want that emotional connection.” You explained.

“You’re amazing you know that?” He smiled softly at you.

“Now you’re just trying to get in my pants.” You rolled your eyes.

“You wish.” He retorted leaning down to capture your lips again.

—————-

It had been a little over two months since your confession and you swear you were head over heels for Jay Halstead. He made you feel like a queen in every way. He had taken you out to dinner and you were now sitting on a blanket by the river looking out at the city lights. It was dark and nobody else seemed to be around. Jay arms were tightly wound around you as you leaned up against his chest.

“[Y/N]..”Jay whispered barely audible.

“Hmm?” You asked tilting your head up to look at him. His eyes flickered over your face before meeting your eyes.

“I love you.” He confessed. Feeling your heart drop you turned to him with wide eyes making him chuckle. “I don’t expect you t-“ He began before you cut him off with a kiss. Pulling back you smiled at him.

“I love you too.” You reciprocated making him grin wide pulling you back in for a kiss. It didn’t take long for the kiss to become heated as you pushed him back crawling on top of him. Your mind was racing, but you kept pushing every fear further into the back of your head as your hands roamed his body continuing to travel lower, laying open mouthed kisses along his neck. Your palm finally stopping at the bulge in his pants putting pressure against it. “Can we..try something new?” You asked looking up at him innocently. Jay’s breath caught as he grabbed for your hand. You looked up to see him flushed, eyes wide, blush covering his face.

“Hey, I don’t want you to think I said that to get something out of it. I really do love you. We don’t ha-“ He started to explain but you covered his mouth with your hand to stop his words.

“I have been trying to work up the courage to do this for days. Don’t stop me now Halstead.” You smirked as he nodded against your hand. You nervously slid down his body bringing both hands to his belt working to undo it.

“Are you serious? Here? Now?” He asked looking around at the dark and empty space around you.

“Okay if you don’t want me to do this just say so.” You huffed.

“No! No, I definitely do. Continue.” He panicked guilt coming over his voice. Feeling bad that you thought he was trying to stop you. You sighed bringing your shaky hands back to his belt. Avoiding the obvious bulge just below it. As quickly as you could you popped the belt open along with his jeans biting your lip in anticipation once you pulled his zipper down. He moved his hands to help you pull his jeans and underwear down stopping to look for any doubt in your face. But you pushed the confidence forward tugging on them. Your eyes widened at the sight of his dick hitting his stomach. You had seen pictures before of others, obviously, but it was nothing like the real thing right in front of you. You swallowed hard tentatively reaching out and running a finger over the vein that ran along his shaft. You noticed his body tense at your touch.

“Jay…?” You asked looking up at him from between his legs.

“Yes?” He urged, voice slightly strained.

“I’ve um..never..done this before? Can you...maybe.. show me how?” You implied nervously making him chuckle.

“Of course baby.” He answered moving his hand to grip the base of his dick. He started off slow, hand moving up and down, wrist occasionally twisting. Bringing up his thumb to swipe the little bit of liquid that was dripping out of the swollen tip. After watching intently for a few minutes, feeling warmth spread to your core, you moved your hand to grip him. He wrapped his palm around your knuckles lightly guiding your wrist up and down his shaft. Once you got the hang of it Jay left his hand fall down to his side letting you take control. You could hear tiny whimpers escaping the back of his throat.

“I’m not hurting you, am I?” You asked, scared to put anymore pressure on your hand.

“Oh fuck no. Please don’t stop.” He answered. Watching him throw his head back, eyes tightly shut deciding now would be a better time than any. Dipping your head and slowly licking up the liquid that was dripping out. His eyes flew open leaning up on his elbows to look at you. You took a long deep breath before enveloping the head of his dick in your mouth. Jay let out a loud moan at the contact making you smile. In the past week you had done research on the best blow job techniques and you were ready to at least try and put them to work. Working slowly you began to bob your head taking more of his dick in your mouth each time you went down, hand taking care of the rest.

“Teeth..watch your teeth baby.” He instructed.

“Sorry.” You mumbled before going back down on him, paying extra attention to your teeth now. Feeling his dick hit the back of your throat Jay’s hand flew to the back of your head involuntarily thrusting into your mouth, making you gag. “Fuck, I’m sorry babe.” Jay groaned fingers still threaded through your hair. You had a feeling he wasn’t actually sorry. Looking up through your eyelashes you admired how Jay looked. Jaw clenched, biting his lip hard, enough that you were sure he was drawing blood, mouth slightly open as he was letting out ragged breaths trying to control himself undoubtedly. Moving quicker on him, Jay let out another groan he had been trying to hide in his throat. Popping off of him you looked at him eyebrow raised,

“Try to keep quiet...we wouldn’t want to get caught.” You teased, your voice way raspier than you had ever heard it before, as a quiet growl escaped his lips. Returning your head you went back to what you were doing, honestly enjoying what was happening. After a few more minutes your jaw was aching, throat hurting, tears rolling down your cheeks, but you absolutely refused to give up. Jay’s grip in your hair was getting tighter, body tenser, and his breaths were getting faster.

“Baby..fuck! I’m gonna..” He warned trying to pull you off, but you swatted his hands away dipping further down as you felt his dick twitch followed by warm liquid shoot into your throat. Jay’s abdomen tensing underneath your fingertips as your name rolled off his tongue, the most beautiful thing you had ever heard. Once his hand fell to the blanket underneath you, you swallowed completely getting up off of him. You could feel the thickness in your throat as you reached for a water bottle to help wash it down. Collecting himself he arched up pulling his jeans back on to quickly buckle them. Turning to Jay with a small smile he stared at you blankly.

“Uh..was that okay?” You asked suddenly self conscious.

“That was…” he searched for words, “way more than okay.” He settled on chuckling and reaching for you. “Would you like me to do something for you?” He asked gently pressing kisses to your neck.

“Not tonight. One step at a time.” You laughed leaning down to kiss him softly.

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About a week after that you were cuddled up in bed with Jay kissing all over his body. Jay breathing hard coming down from another high. You had grown to be obsessed with the sounds Jay made and loved being the reason he was making them, and what better way to do so, then practice? Not that he was complaining. Planting another kiss on his chest you looked up at him lovingly as his breathing seemed to return to normal looking down to meet your eyes.

“Baby?” He asked.

“Hmm?” You hummed in response.

“If you’re not ready I totally understand, but I would love to be able to make you feel good.” He implied hand coming down to rub your neck. You contemplated his suggestion. It wasn’t that you didn’t want to you were just nervous to have somebody see you. To be at someone’s complete mercy, but you knew that if you wanted to be at anyone’s mercy it was certainly Jay’s.

“Okay.” You finally spoke up. He seemed to be taken aback by your answer, but a grin spread to his face pulling you to him he took control flipping you over so you were now underneath him. His lips trailed down your neck lifting you up so he could slip the shirt you were wearing off. His calloused hands traveled over your body taking in every curve. Reaching behind you he unclasped your bra taking time to pull it off before discarding it on the floor. He bit his lip taking your breasts in his hands. Thumbs moving to run over your nipples smirking when a little whine escaped your throat. Dipping his head down, he began to lay kisses all over your chest, tongue occasionally reaching out to tease your nipple. Moving down your body he playfully bit your hip bones sliding your shorts and underwear off slowly. Leaning up he admired your completely bare body lying in front of him. You immediately felt self-conscious as his eyes raked over your body, chuckling a little when his eyes met yours.

“You’re so cute when you blush like that.” He grinned leaving a tiny kiss the tip of your nose. “You’re really are gorgeous though baby. I don’t know how I got so lucky.” He sighed contently hands moving to open your legs wider adjusting himself down between them. Starting by nipping at the inside of your thighs getting closer to your core and backing away to move to your other leg, causing you to growl at his teasing. You felt his breath against you as he chuckled before moving and licking a soft strip up your center. Making you suck in a deep breath. You adjusted yourself moving closer to Jay’s face where you could see he was smirking. Doing it again, but this time harder. “You taste so sweet.” Jay commented making you blush even deeper.

“Okay we don’t need any commentar-” You began to say, but cut yourself off with a big gasp as Jay took the opportunity to dive right in apparently done with his own teasing. Feeling his tongue move hard over you before flicking against your clit. One hand went to thread through his hair as the other flew to cover your mouth already feeling the sounds began to seep out, out of your control. You felt Jay stop and opened your eyes to look down at him.

“Don’t you dare cover your mouth. I want to hear you.” He scolded. Whimpering you moved both hands to the back of his head pulling him back into you which he happily obliged. You felt one of his hands move to grip your hip tightly as the over moved to accompany his mouth. One of his fingers very slowly pushing inside of you. Watching your face twist in slight discomfort he moved to suck on your clit distracting you easily. Surprisingly before long he was able to fit a second finger in curling them up hit a spot that made your hips jolt into his face. Laughing he adjusted his grip harder onto your hip in order to hold you down before doing it again and again, tongue paying extra attention to your clit. Breathing hard you felt your core began to tighten, and not long after at all the pleasure shot throughout your body. Pulling hard against Jay’s hair your thighs tightened, arching back as you screamed out for him. You had felt it before, you had done it yourself, but it was nothing compared to what Jay had just caused. Collapsing back down onto the bed you looked down to see Jay wiping his mouth against his shoulder. Feeling automatically embarrassed you grabbed for his blankets that were tossed to the side covering up while he walked out of the room. Coming back in with a towel he sat down beside you pulling to move the blankets off of you so he could clean you, but you held tightly onto them. He looked up at you confused as you hid your face. “Baby. Look at me.” He stated sternly. Lowering the blanket from your face you turned to see him looking at you with an eyebrow raised. “You know that was the hottest thing I’ve ever experienced in my entire life right?” He asked making you roll your eyes. “I’m being serious babe.” He promised grabbing your face in his hands. Rolling your eyes you leaned up to press a quick kiss to his lips moving the blankets for him to help you.

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Tonight was your anniversary and you were ready. You had just gotten back from dinner and were cuddled on Jay’s couch watching a movie. You were only 15 minutes in, but you were done waiting as your anxiety just seemed to climb with each second. The one thing you knew was that you didn’t have to worry about feeling any doubt. Whatever happened in the future. No matter went down you knew Jay was the person you wanted to do this with, and with that thought you turned towards him quickly pulling his lips to yours. Taking a minute to gather himself from the shock he flipped so he was lying straight on his back with you straddling his lap. Experimenting you grinded down into his lap making him stiffen beneath you. Figuring it was nothing he went back to kissing you. Continuing to work up the courage you snuck your tongue into his mouth taking control of the kiss expertly working your tongue against his before once again grinding down onto him, this time harder. This time he pulled back to look at you where you sat smiling softly.

“What-” He started to ask.

“I’m ready.” You stated confidently.

“What?” He asked trying to comprehend what you were saying.

“I’m ready, Jay. I want you. I want my first time to be with you.” You repeated.

“You..want to go all the way?” He asked again

slightly speechless.

“Yes, Jay.” You sighed laughing a little, “Unless you don’t w-” You started before he jumped in.

“No! I definitely do. I just want to make sure you’re absolutely sure about this is all.” He explained hand resting against your cheek.

“Do you love me?” You asked sincerely.

“More than you could ever know.” He answered.

“And I love you. I want this. With you and only you.” You promised.

“Wow. Okay. Let’s take this to the bedroom then.” He smiled lifting you up to carry you once you were both standing. Laying you down on the bed he hovered over you planting a soft kiss against your lips. “You are far too dressed my love.” He joked running his hands up the shirt of his that you were wearing.

“I think that goes for both of us.” You smirked pulling his shirt off of him. His hands snuck back up your shirt massaging your breasts while kissing and nipping at your neck. Occasionally biting at your earlobe making you wet from the sensation. It didn’t take long at all for both of your clothes to be stripped and haphazardly thrown around the room. Jay kissed his way down your body stopping when he got to his favorite part of you. Starting slow he gently licked at your heat tasting you and getting you warmed up before moving to insert a finger. Waiting until you opened up more before adding another. Moving his fingers around to stretch you. Whenever he felt you tighten he pulled back appearing back on top of you. Looking down you realized then that Jay’s fingers were nowhere near the size of his dick, nerves increasing in the pit of your stomach. You watched Jay roll off of you opening his drawer to pull out a condom before returning back to you.

“You’re 100% sure about this?” He asked grabbing your face.

“Yes. I want you.” You assured him. Smiling he kissed you before leaning up on his knees in front of you. You watched intently as he gave himself a few strokes, opened the condom wrapper with his teeth, and started to roll it on. You reached out to trace the muscles protruding in his arms and chest before he landed back on top of you.

“Okay baby I’m going to be honest. It’s going to hurt at first, but just be still and relax for me okay?” He asked as you nodded your head. “If at anytime you want to stop just tell me.” He looked at you seriously.

“Okay.” You promised pulling him down further towards you as he lined himself up with your entrance. You squeezed his bicep to tell him to go. Slowly starting to push in, you immediately felt the pain. Raking your nails into his chest he stopped leaning down to kiss you until you gave him the go ahead. That happened about 3 or 4 times until he was finally all the way in you.

“Are you okay?” He asked through a strangled voice.

You could see the lust clear in his eyes, jaw clenched tight as he breathed hard trying to control himself while you got adjusted. Moving against him he got the hint slowly pulling back a little bit before pushing back into you. Not long after the pain started to subside and pleasure started to seep in. Jay’s face was resting against your shoulder tiny grunts escaping him

“Oh my godddd baby. I can’t believe how tight you are.” He groaned before he came to a complete stop looking at you with wide eyes taking a deep breath.

“W-..did you cum already?” You asked looking at his panic. Swallowing heard he breathed a sigh of relief.

“No, but fucking almost.” He answered making you laugh, slowly moving again. Starting to thrust deeper he hit a spot that made you moan loudly. The same spot he had found with his fingers many times before.

“Oh god do that again.” You begged making him laugh as he hit it again, but harder this time. Raking your nails down his back, undoubtedly leaving marks, you started to move with him as best as you could. Your breath started to quicken as moans came pouring out of your mouth, “Jay, yes. Please don’t stop.” Only igniting his lust further reaching down to rub your clit with his thumb making you moan louder. Feeling that familiar tension in your stomach you warned him, “Jay I’m so close. Yes, baby, I’m..fuck-” You started, but were cut off with your own release jolting throughout your body. Stars appearing behind your eyelids, pain completely far gone. Assuming your release had triggered Jay’s when you heard him moan your name loudly enough that you were sure the entire city could’ve heard it biting down on your shoulder. Collapsing fully onto the bed Jay followed still on top of you. Hearts beating fast as you both tried to catch your breath. Your fingers brushed through Jay’s hair when he looked up at you grin covering his face.

“I love you so fucking much.” He shook his head in what seemed like disbelief kissing you passionately.

“I love you too.” You reciprocated smiling back at him. He moved off of you very slowly pulling out of you causing the pain to return as you whimpered.

“Ugh. Sorry baby.” He apologized, but a smirk covered his face once he was fully out.

“What?” You asked following his eyes to the condom he was taking off.

“Well you weren’t kidding about being a virgin.” He winked making you huff.

“Shut up.” You rolled your eyes waiting for him to clean you up. A few minutes later you were cuddled into his side, head resting on his chest, listening to his heart beat. “You’re not going to leave me now, right?” You asked glancing up at him as he gave you a look.

“Yeah that was my master plan all along.” He joked shaking his head and kissing you on the forehead.

“In that case can we do that again?” You bit your lip looking at him innocently.

“Yeah, remember you asked that tomorrow.” Jay smirked.

“Eh. Worth it.” You shrugged kissing his chest gently snuggling into him more. You were glad you decided to wait, and you were even more glad that the wait ended with Jay.

[halstudandruz]

Mimosas on a Tuesday

*Not my gif*

Pairing: Jay Halstead x Reader

Requested: Yes

Prompt: You get drunk on a Tuesday. Jay to the rescue.

Warnings: None

You hadn’t planned to get drunk. But here you were 11 o’clock on a Tuesday afternoon, you and your friends both a few too many mimosas in.

“No! You have to do it! I don’t want him to be mad at me.” You handed your phone over to Olivia, one of your best friends.

“Oh pleaseee. That man is head over heels for you. I don’t think he knows how to be mad at you.” She rolled her eyes dramatically taking the phone from your hand.

“Tell us your secret.” Your other best friend, Rachel, sighed, head resting on her hand.

“What do you mean?” You giggled taking another drink.

“He’s hot, brave, sweet. How’d you do it? How’d you rope him in?” She pushed.

“Sorry. Can’t reveal my secrets.” You shrugged shutting up whenever Olivia started talking.

“Hey Jay!” She exclaimed once he apparently picked up. “No, no she’s fine!”, “No.”, “Okay yes, no need to interrogate me.”, “Yeah that’d be great!”, “See you soon!” She said cheerfully hanging up and handing your phone back. “He’s on his way.” She informed. You and your friends had spent the next 15 minutes continuing to drink and gossip some more.

“Seriously baby, it’s noon on a Tuesday.” Jay looked at you accusingly, amusement on his face as he walked over to your table.

“Oops.” You smiled up at him innocently making him chuckle.

“Come on.” He shook his head leading you all out to his truck helping you in and making sure the other two didn’t fall on their faces. Driving off to Olivia’s place first Jay listened intently to your drunk conversation filling the truck, hand resting on your thigh over the console.

“So Jay,” Olivia started as his eyes flickered in the rearview mirror to meet hers waiting for her to continue, “[Y/N] told us about what you two tried last night and I was wondering where-“ She started as Jay’s eyes widened, blush taking over his face.

“Olivia!” You scolded whipping your head around to her in the backseat, cutting her off.

“What? I just wanted to know how-“ She started again.

“Shut up!” You begged.

“Fine. Whatever. I’ll look it up.” She pouted crossing her arms. As Rachel hit her in the shoulder for you. Before long the only people left in the truck were you and Jay as he parked in front of your house. Getting out and helping you towards the door.

“I’m not that drunk. I can walk.” You rolled your eyes, but kept your hand in Jay’s.

“You keep telling yourself that sweetheart.” Jay joked making your way into your house. Falling down into your couch you tried to pull him down with you. “I have to get back to work.” He laughed fighting against your strong pull.

“Pleaseeeeee. Just like 5 minutes.” You begged giving him puppy dogs eyes silently celebrating when he left out a sigh of defeat.

“You’re lucky I love you.” He mumbled to himself, but you just caught it.

“I’m lucky what?” You raised your eyebrow at him smirk covering your face. He looked at you fumbling for words, blush coming to his face. “Jay.” You pushed still smiling.

“You’re lucky I love you.” He repeated this time louder, more confidently. 

“Is that so?” You teased.

“Yes it is.” He replied leaning in to give you a quick kiss.

“Well I guess it’s good I love you too then.” You shrugged when he pulled away making him grin shaking his head.

“You’re something else.” He sighed to himself adjusting you so your were seated in his lap. “So you told your friends about last night?” He changed the subject making you giggle. You had never been happier to be drunk on a Tuesday afternoon.

[halstudandruz]

Stir Crazy

*Not my gif*

Pairing: Jay Halstead x Reader

Requested: Yes

Prompt:You had to get out of the house, to the district you went Warnings: None

It had been a little over four months since Jensen was born. You loved motherhood and loved being able to stay at home with your baby while Jay worked, but you were starting to go stir crazy. You needed something that was out of routine for once or your crawling tensions were going to explode. You knew that nothing big was going down in the 21st that required Intelligence's attention since Jay had informed you earlier that their day had consisted of paperwork and he was starting to go crazy too. You wanted to surprise Jay so instead of texting him you texted Kim asking if it would be okay to come in with Jensen for a small visit, which she enthusiastically encouraged. After changing him quickly you grabbed his diaper bag along with his car seat and headed to your car. Not long after you arrived at the district, already feeling more relaxed at the change in scenery. Lugging Jensen’s carseat in with you, you stopped at the desk first.

“[Y/N]!” Trudy greeted coming out from around her desk immediately, “Hi precious! Look at you wide awake today! You are just the cutest aren’t you?” Trudy smiled leaning down to Jensen. You set the carseat on the desk carefully removing him and handing him over to Trudy. “Can I carry him up?” She asked not taking her eyes off your son.

“Well of course.” You smiled following her up the stairs into Intelligence, car seat in tow. You could hear the conversation flowing down, complaints of boredom filling upstairs until you appeared at the landing. The room’s attention turned to you before they swarmed around Trudy making you laugh meeting Jay at his desk grin on his lips as the team acted like they hadn’t seen him less than a week ago.

“Hi baby, what are you doing here?” He asked kissing you as he pulled you down to his lap.

“I think we both needed a break.” You answered leaning into him as Voight came walking out of his office.

“What is-” He started before realizing what the commotion was about. “Oh! Hand that little guy over.” He ordered smile on his face as he carefully took Jensen into his hands. Talking to Jensen who could be heard giggling lightly.

“I know I say this all the time, but Jay he is your mini.” Kim smiled tapping Jensen on the tip of his nose over Hank’s shoulder

“Poor kid.” Antonio joked from the other side of the room causing Jay to launch a pen his way.

“Man we are gonna teach this kid so many things.” Kevin fisted bumped Ruzek who agreed happily. After getting passed around for a while Jensen started to get fussy, wiggling and whining in Ruzek’s arms.

“He’s probably hungry.” You informed after looking at the clock and gathering your son back in your arms. “If you don’t mind can I use the break room and then I’ll leave and you can get back to work?” You asked Voight going over to pick up Jensen’s bag. Voight happily assured you that was fine. Jay followed you into the room closing the door behind you and making sure the blinds were closed before helping you adjust Jensen so you were comfortable.

“You know that I really miss you guys during the day right?” Jay asked breaking the long silence kneeling in front of you still, thumb running over Jensen’s cheek lightly.

“I would sure as heck hope so, look at us.” You joked winking at him which caused him to chuckle.

“I don’t know how I got so lucky. I never imagined my life would turn out like...this.” He shook his head smiling happily. You laughed leaning over to kiss him lightly while handing him Jensen so he could burp him.

“Good thing you think like that cause I’m pretty sure you’re stuck with us.” You shrugged fixing your clothes.

“You have no idea how lucky you are little man. You have so many people who love you and are willing to protect you at any cost.” Jay said patting his back lightly until he succeeded. “Thank you for coming I think we all needed it.” He sighed kissing Jensen’s head before handing him over to you where you started buckling him into his car seat.

“I needed it too, and I think he likes the attention he’s barely made a peep the whole time we’ve been here, but $10 says he’s screaming his head off before we get home.” You joked.

“I would rather not make that bet.” Jay chuckled kissing your head and picking up Jensen’s car seat. Everyone taking their time saying goodbye before you were in your car headed back home. You couldn’t be happier to be reminded of the second family you had at the 21st district. Even Voight, a stone cold stubborn man, fell apart at the sight of your son. 

[halstudandruz]

Racing Thoughts

*Not my gif*

Pairing: Jay Halstead x Reader

Requested: Yes

Prompt: Jay’s learns a secret about his girlfriend

Warnings: Talk of bipolar manic disorder, swearing

Disclaimer: I don’t have experience with this so I’ve tried to make it as accurate as possible after some research.

You hid it. Maybe because it was easier that way. Maybe because you didn’t know how to tell him, didn’t know how to have that talk, how to explain it, or maybe because it was the thing you hated most about yourself, and if it made you hate yourself why wouldn’t it have the same impact on Jay? You hid it until eventually it all hit. You had been doing well. You were taking your medication, you had been going to your weekly therapy appointments, but sometimes that doesn’t matter. Sometimes all it does is...come crashing down. To be fair you probably should’ve seen it coming. You were working more since you couldn’t sleep, you were going out with Jay more, meeting new people, and even dare you say falling in love. Your first clue was a Tuesday morning. You had laid in bed tossing and turning all night despite your attempts to sleep. You were feeling anxious...you mind doubted for a half a second, but no you were on top of things, you hadn’t missed a dose of medicine. You were fine. It was fine. Just a bad night's rest. You got a shower, before texting Jay

“Goodmorning and be careful” reminder before choking down a bagel. You weren’t hungry, but if you didn’t force yourself to eat now you didn’t know the next time you would. Taking your medication as you always did, no thought put into it before heading off to work. You were working on a high profile case and you were full on into it. Working through lunch, food not even a consideration in your mind. Only really snapping out of your zone when your phone started ringing from Jay’s call.

“Hello?” You answered, a little spaced from the million thoughts running through your head still trying to write them all down.

“Hey, I haven’t heard from you all day are you okay? Are you still at work?” He asked a little concerned. The question irritated you a little, but brought you back to reality enough to glance at the clock, 7pm, 2 hours later than when you had told Jay you’d be leaving.

“Oh yeah. Sorry. Big case you know how it goes. I’ll be out of here in 15 though.” You sighed, closing your eyes and taking a deep breath before starting to organize your desk for the night.

“Alright be careful. I’ll see you soon.” Mumbling a goodbye you then remembered you promised Jay you’d stay at his house that night. A couple minutes later you were in your car, on your way fingertips quickly fidgeting against the steering wheel. Making it there in 8 minutes versus the usual 13 minutes it took. Grabbing your bag you hopped your way up to his apartment knocking on the door continuously until he answered. He swung the door open eyebrow raised at you, “You know you’re allowed to just come in right?” He asked. Shrugging your shoulders you threw your bag on the floor walking into the kitchen where takeout laid for the two of you. Scrunching your nose you pushed the container away from you,

“I’m not hungry, can I have a beer though?” You asked tapping your foot against the bar of your stool. Jay looked at you weird not moving causing irritation to appear, “What?” You snapped.

“It’s just we’ve been to a bunch of bars together and I’ve never seen you drink before.” He answered.

“Maybe that’s cause I had to worry about getting your drunk ass home.” You bit back walking around him to grab a beer out of the fridge yourself. Jay leaned across the counter across from you taking a bite of his food, eyeing you suspiciously once you returned to your seat.

“So, how's your case going?” He questioned. At the question you perked back up. Excitedly talking at a rapid rate.

“Great! You know I can’t believe they almost gave it to Amanda! Like really? They know I’m better than her. I mean yeah she might’ve been there longer, but I’ve won way more cases and- Hey! You know what we should do? We should go to Paris! You know after the case is done. Wait Italy…? No Paris. Yeah, come on let’s look at tickets!” The sentences were coming out so fast Jay couldn’t comprehend them as you grabbed your phone out of your pocket.

“[Y/N].” He said calmly only getting our attention when he grabbed your hand over the counter.

“What?” You asked slightly out of breath.

“What’s going on?” He asked concern in his face.

“Nothing.” You replied taking a long chug of your beer. Your hands were visibly shaking.

“I can’t help you if you don’t talk to me.” He explained.

“I’m fine!” You yelled smashing your bottle loudly against the counter, it was a miracle it didn’t break, making Jay jump.

“Just talk to me!” He growled.

“I’m bipolar okay? Happy? I have bipolar disorder and I’m having a manic episode! I feel like I’m on some kind of hyperactive energy drink, I can’t sleep, I’m not fucking hungry and I don’t know why! I’ve been taking my meds, I’ve been going to therapy, I don’t fucking understand why this is happening again.” You slammed your fists against the marble tears appearing quickly, body still shaking.

“Alright. Come here.” He gently grabbed your hand pulling you to the couch in the living room before pulling you onto his lap. “I want you to take a really deep breath for me okay?” He soothed trying to calm your thoughts.

“I understand if you want to leave.” You swallowed hard, grip tightening on his bicep.

“Leave you? What in the world would make you think I’d do that?” He asked a little appalled.

“I’m fucked up Jay.” You answered. At that, he laughed.

“Come on [Y/N]. You don’t think I’m fucked up? I’m almost as fucked up as they get. But I get through it because of your help. This works both ways. I’m here for you just as much as you’re here for me. But I can’t help you unless you talk to me.” He reiterated. Nodding your head you felt your body relax just a little. “I know you’re not hungry, but you need to eat just a little okay? Then we’ll lay down and watch a movie and I’ll get a bath ready until you feel okay enough for bed. Then in the morning we’re gonna call the doctor and you’re gonna go in to get your meds checked okay?” He asked even though it wasn’t really a question at this point. Despite your still racing mind you weren’t able to form any words as you nodded your head in agreement. Kissing your head he slid you off his lap going to get your food. This was something you were going to have to deal with for the rest of your life, but having Jay in on it made you feel just a little lighter.

[halstudandruz]

Sick Day

*Not my gif*

Pairing: Jay Halstead x Reader

Requested: Yes

Prompt: Jay’s girlfriend is sick

Warnings: None

A/N: Just a quick little Jay imagine that we all wish we could experience.

Waking up to Jay’s alarm it had immediately hit you. Your head was pounding, despite the numerous blankets piled on your body as well as Jay curled around you, you were freezing, could barely breathe, and your throat felt like it was getting clawed at. Jay still had not shut his alarm off only making your head pound worse. Slapping him on the shoulder he huffed burying his head further into your neck.

“Jay, get up.” You scolded, voice coming out way worse than you had anticipated. He groaned unraveling himself from you, making you shiver, as he reached over shutting the blaring sound off before turning back to wrap his arms around you, pulling you into him, causing you to sigh at the warmth.

“You wanna come shower with me?” He asked planting a kiss at the nape of your neck.

“No.” You stated, voice cracking. Jay lifted his head up giving you a weird look. “I think I’m sick.” You answered his unasked question.

“It sounds as if you might be right.” Jay joked leaning down and kissing your forehead. “Why don’t you call into work while I do the same.” Jay said reaching for his phone.

“You’re going to lie to Voight?” You asked, eyebrow raised.

“What he doesn’t know won’t hurt him.” Jay shrugged smiling as he walked out of the room. You quickly dialed your office informing your boss, hanging up as Jay walked back in the room. “Man you really can’t lie to that man.” Jay laughed coming to sit on the bed next to you.

“Do you have to go in?” You asked sadly.

“No, he said I could stay and take care of you as long as I keep my phone close. I’ll be right back.” He explained getting up to walk back out of the room before you could protest. After a few minutes of waiting you had gotten curious and rolled out of bed, blanket curled around you walking out to the living room almost bumping into Jay who was walking back towards the bedroom, Orange Juice and medicine in his hand. “What are you doing? Get back in bed.” Jay huffed at you making you sigh, turning right back around where you came from. After laying back down Jay handed you the medicine waiting for you to take it before covering you back up. Turning the TV on to your favorite show he kissed your head leaving to get shower, as you quickly drifted back off to sleep. Waking up a little later you still hadn’t felt the greatest. Turning you seen Jay was lying beside you typing on his computer. Moving to snuggle closer to him he instinctively lifted his arm to wrap it around you. “Hi sweetheart.” He mumbled kissing your forehead. “You hungry?” He asked closing his laptop. Shrugging you buried your face into his chest making him laugh. “Well I went out and got some soup while you were asleep let me go get you some.” He explained sliding you off of him while he went to the kitchen. Sitting up you averted your attention to the TV until Jay came back in tray in his hand. He gently laid it down on your lap careful not to spill the soup before sliding back into his side of the bed. After you were finished Jay had taken everything out before appearing back in your doorway. “Do you need anything else?” He asked sincerely. You smiled slightly nodding your head. “You gonna tell me what it is?” He laughed walking towards you.

“Your cuddles.” You answered looking up at him innocently. Leaning his hands on the bed he chuckled.

“Lucky for you I think I can make that happen, but first let’s go get a shower. It’ll help clear up your sinuses.” He said picking you up and carrying you towards the bathroom where the water was already running. Stepping in you leaned back into Jay as he washed your body and hair, thankful you were able to breath better thanks to the steam filling the room. Not long after you were cuddled into Jay on the couch as he had promised.

“Thank you.” You said head stuffed into his chest.

“Anything for my girl.” He smiled lifting your chin up to lay a kiss on your lips, but was stopped when your hand rested between your mouths. He leaned back, looking at you offended.

“You’ll get sick.” You explained.

“Then I guess you’ll just have to return the favor and take care of me.” He teased moving your hand and laying a gentle kiss on your lips.