#just finished watching princess mononoke and BAWLING

[glassrunner]

sometimes the only thing getting me through bad days is the thought that maybe if i were a character in some form of popular media, people would be rooting for me. they’d want me to be okay, they’d cry when i’m in pain. i deserve a good story with a happy ending, don’t i?

[that-little-zebunny]

True Warmth

Part two of my work Chills, written for the ever wonderful @the-ss-horniest-book-club​ and based on this ask ☝️.Djwjbdxidj sorry I got absorbed by it so much xD hope you'll like it and it'll be wonderful to know how you feels in this.

Pairing: Bucky x Mutant!Reader

WC: 1,343 words

Warning: Angst, Injuries, Mentions of Alcoholic beverage, Fluff and soft gorgeous Bucky.

Summary: it has been months since the Avengers saved your life. They have offered you a roof to stay on when they learned you're all alone now and had been with them. Everything is wonderful until that sad summer time.

"Why the hell it's so freaking cold again?" Asked Tony as he walked in the kitchen wearing a fluffy sweater. "Who made little ice cube angry?" He said looking around pointedly at everyone present there which consisted of Vision, Wanda, Bruce and Sam. They all answered they had no idea until Nat came in scratching her nape.

"I think we should ask Barnes to go back as soon as he can." Natasha said, wrapping a blanket around her body. "Y/N is sad because we just discovered she can't be under the sun and she dreamed of it so badly." She continued walking towards the bar counter to get herself a shot of vodka.

"She must have been very heartbroken." Wanda said, playing with the cup of hot choco. "She's been looking forward to getting released from bed rest to feel the sun for the first time and now this..."

"Has anyone tried talking to her?" Tony asked. They all shook their heads. "Friday, update on Ice cube."

Friday's voice rang around the kitchen area. "She is in her bed crying, sir."

"What's the temperature inside? Can we get in?" Tony asked again. He had customized your room to withstand your power.

"It is currently negative four Fahrenheit sir and the door is blocked by a big wall of ice." Friday said, Tony sighed.They can break the wall or have Vis float in and he can survive the current temperature if he uses his suit but you've been in so much trauma and not yet that comfortable with everyone. You've been willing to undergo medication, trainings and studies to understand your ability but that's what you're willing to offer yet.

Vision floated near Tony and tapped his shoulder. "I think it is best to call back Sargent Barnes. I can replace him on this mission."

"Alright…" Tony said, sitting down on one of the stools. "Friday call Barnes."

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You are on your bed staring at the wide window of your room. You've been crying for a while and now you have no tears to shed.

The disappointment and heartbreak you felt when you tried going out to feel the sun for the first time was too much for you. From excitement to pain. If it wasn't for Natasha being there for you maybe you might even be dead right there in the middle of the large yard of the Avengers compound. You weren't able to move, feeling the painful burn on your skin to your bones as if acid was thrown at you. You rubbed your arm it still stings a bit.

As Natasha helped you up your room you bawled, both from the pain but from the realization that you will never be able to feel the sun on your skin, that you're not normal and that you don't belong in the outside world. You're made to be caged and hidden. You're a monster that even the life giver Sun doesn't want you in its presence.

As always when your emotions are out of control, so is your power. Making your room into a cold cage blocking all access in, you lay on your bed staring at a dream that is so near yet may kill you.

You were just staring at the iced covered window when you heard the sound of ice cracking. It continues for many times and with a beating heart you got up to look at your door. The door itself is open from the outside and you can see a silhouette of a man punching the thick ice wall. Ice meeting metal... it's Bucky!

Doing your best to make the wall fall and it did. Cracking to tiny ice blocks and there he is. The man who is always there for you. Wiping your eyes you sat up on top of your bed hugging your knees.

"Hey, Doll." He said. Waving his flesh hand that is holding a bottle of wine. Based on the layout of it. It's your favorite one from all of Tony's collection. "Heard the Sun made you cry so I came in to heal it all up with your favorites." He winked at you. You can see some dirt from his face and clothes.

"Aren't you supposed to be on a mission?" You asked in a hoarse voice.

"Nah, Steve and Sam can handle it." He said walking towards you slowly as to not slip from the ice on your floor. "I also bought your favorite chocolates on my way back." He continued, taking out different kinds of chocolate bars from the pockets of his tactical pants putting it down on your bed.

"B-Bucky…" you whispered looking up at him. "Why…?" You asked him in a low voice, your heart beating fast. Why is he always nice to you? You're a monster. It's what your parents would always tell you, locking you up in the basement of your house and the same with your captors who you now know is called Hydra. You'll always hear them how you're a monster capable of destroying a whole town.

Your eyes started to water again as you watch him move around your room, he's all smiles as he goes near the television installed on your wall with a protective case from your ice. He clicked some buttons turning it on and used the remote to bring it to the show he wants. Wiping your eyes you stared at him as he sits next to you and offers you a glass of wine.

"I promised…" he said, his voice cracking a bit as he looks down at you. "I saw the footage of what happened earlier...and I promised you that you're never going to get hurt again and this happened." He continued as he stared at you.

"W-we, n-no one knows…" you whispered looking down at the glass on your hand. "Maybe it's my destiny."

"What is?" He asked, making you look back up at him with his index finger under your chin.

"To never feel the Sun on my skin. To just stay in the dark... I-I'm a monster and I don-" you were not able to finish your self pity talk when you feel his soft lips on yours. 

Your eyes went wide from shock.

"You're not a monster. You're beautiful and pure and kind." He said. Looking at your still wide eyes. "Have you forgotten what you said to me when you first saw princess mononoke? That you want to be San and will save everyone?" Your eyes moved to the movie playing on the TV. It's your favorite animation Princess Mononoke and your eyes watered again. She was viewed as one of the monsters until she helped save everyone.

"I-I can be San?" You asked him and he smiled warmly at you caressing your cheeks. You felt the cold of his metal arm and the warmth of his flesh one.

"You can be anyone you want and don't let anything stop you." He said kissing your temple. You closed your eyes and as if feeling the Sun itself, your whole being felt warm and wonderful.

"I love you Bucky...can I be your San?" You asked looking up at him with expecting eyes.

He stole another quick kiss and smiled widely at you. "You had always been my San. I love you too, Y/N." 

Happy tears started to flow down your eyes making you bawl harder than you did earlier. You put down the glass in your hands on the side table and hugged Bucky hard and he hugged you back whispering sweet words as he combs your hair.

Once your emotion calmed down you both sat side by side with wine in your hands munching chocolate that Bucky feeds you as you watch your favorite movie.

You've realized that even though you can't be under the sun as you've dreamed you have your own bright and warm sunshine beside you always. Bucky is enough for you. Just Bucky. The warmth that you had been searching for your whole life.

Bucky/Seb Taglist:

@nano--raptor​ @marvelgirl7​ @godofplumsandthunder​ @jobean12-blog​ (taglist open ( ◜‿◝ )♡) 

[raikar]

I was tagged by @rosalyas​ and @moonlightmcl​

Rules: Complete the survey and say who tagged you in the beginning. When you are finished tag 5 people to do this survey. Have fun and enjoy!!!

1: Are you named after someone? Yes, my mom.

2: When is the last time you cried? Yesterday.

3: Do you like your handwriting? Yeah! 4: What is your favorite lunch meat? Nothing...

5: Do you have kids? Nooooo

6: If you were another person, would you be friends with you? Maybe, I’m not sure.

7: Do you use sarcasm? Nah, no way~ 8: Do you still have your tonsils? ....They should still be there but idk things happen. 9: Would you bungee jump? Lol when I was younger I wanted to but it never happened and honestly I don’t think my body could handle it at this point. 10: What is your favorite kind of cereal? Oh that’s tough I like a lot of cereal... just not Frosted Flakes D: 11: Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? Noo I’m too lazy to retie my sneakers every single time I wear them. 12: Do you think you’re a strong person? HAHAHA

13: What is your favorite ice cream flavor? I like vanilla, it’s easy to put other things with it. 14: What is the first thing you notice about people? Their personality. 15: Red or pink? Pink.

16: What is the least favorite physical thing you like about yourself? My body shape...

17: What color pants and shoes are you wearing now? No shoes! I have fuzzy gray plaid pajama pants on though.

18: What was the last thing you ate? Mozzarella sticks.

19: What are you listening to right now? Nothing much though I keep meaning to put some music on.

20: If you were a crayon, what color would you be? ...Indigo xD

21: Favorite smell? Lavender.

22: Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? @tzakicatcher

23: Favorite sport to watch? I don’t like to watch them... only play.

24: Hair color? Dark brown.

25: Eye color? Hazel.

26: Do you wear contacts? Nope. Tried them but it turns out I have astigmatism and wearing the larger ones dried the heck out of my eyes :///

27: Favorite food to eat? Pizza. 28: Scary movies or comedy? Comedy.

29: Last movie you watched? Princess Mononoke.

30: What color of shirt are you wearing? Black.

31: Summer or winter? Winter... needs more snow *bawls*

32: Hugs or kisses? Hugs.

33: What book are you currently reading? I hate reading :(

34: Who do you miss right now? Old friends.

35: What is on your mouse pad? I don’t have one :(

36: What is the last TV program you watched? Riverdale.

37: What is the best sound? Silence.

38: Rolling Stones or The Beatles? The Beatles.

39: What is the furthest you have ever traveled? Arkansas (my brother lives there).

40: Do you have a special talent? Not that I know of...

41: Where were you born? Americuuuuuh

42: People you expect to participate in this survey? @partijunkie @sabi138 @gnhpinn @nashashi :)))