#just mentally im in a dumpster and its on fire. my mom went into hospital last week and it brought up some additional issues

[defiledtomb]

I posted a writers update on the forum!

Tldr is that progress is progressing + life is taking the piss + a bunch of snippets + F!Auryn art

[valatheapprentice]

Echoes of the Past

Brought to us by @arcana-echoes

Vala Quintus

Hometown

Vala was born as Princess Alexandra Cirillo in the kingdom of Sparta. She wasn't allowed to go out into the kingdom. The few times her hand maiden would allow her to sneak out, shed find herself in a rowdier part. Despite being loud and reckless, they seemed to be very mindful and playful with her. She ran away at 6 and came to Vesuvia, where she was adopted and lived a fairly normal childhood in a nice neighborhood

Parents (mentions abuse)

Her birth parents were very cordial at best. They were very patriotic, proud and loving of their kingdom. When their son, valas older brother, was born, they loved him about as much. Years go by and they make a deal with the devil. Im exchange of their children's magic, he would be sure sparta lived on forever and that their children would go down in history. Since their son had no magick and an only child then, they agreed. A few years go by and they give birth to vala. While they loved her at first. That changed the moment she displayed magical abilities. With fear of the devil and magick being outlawed and detested , they would lock her in a cellar and place shackles on her to prevent her using said magic. By age three, Centaurs had threatened the kingdom. In exchange for being left alone, her parents agreed to let her be taken from time to time to entertain them, beating and r*ping her when they had gotten drunk. At this point they had seen her as more of an object and annoyance. When she ran away, war broke out and they died in that war.

Her adoptive parents were a lot different. They found her on the beach and took her in, despite originally not wanting kids. With nightmares and being former royalty (now kept secret) came behavior issues they had to help her overcome. They were extremely patient but stern. They gave her a fun and warm home and she lived 9 years as a fairly normal and happy child until her mother died when she was 15. She learned to cook and got her sense of humor from them. They signed her up for belly dance lessons, which she uses along woth her root work. Which they encouraged her into practicing.

Magick

She first showed signs of magick at age 2, but didn't really know it. As she got older she realized she could do things but was quickly punished for doing them. Once she was able to harness her power, she realized she was strongest with fire and chaos magick. She found some travelers and learned root work and conjuring from them. Which she continued researching and practicing after they left. She also has a strong connections to spirits and works/talks to them often

Education

She was heavily tutored as a princess, forced to learn Italian, and law despite being told she could never amount to anything due to her duties. In Vesuvia, she attended a public school until she dropped out at 15. Due to her love of dance and her Magick type, choir and science were her favorite subjects

The "aunt"

In her teens, she had been in trouble with the law frequently. Once she got back on her feet, she found qnd abandoned home and more or less squatted in it. She fixed it up with asras and her dads help and turned it into her shop "Magick and Mayhem". As soon as they started getting business, she was able to pay rent for it. The police she dealt with before let her slide of some formalities so they can keep seeing her stay out of trouble

Friends

In Sparta, her only friend was her handmaidens son, whom she rarely played with. In vesuvia, she had a habit of befriending colorful characters. One she was close to before she dropped out happened to be the daughter of a crime boss, Stella (another oc and LI for valerius)

Occupation (mentions substance abuse)

She dropped out of school after becoming dependent on drugs and entering an abusive relationship with her dealer. Despite helping forgive his debt in unsavory ways, she learned /some/ business skills through selling for him after a few years, such as negotiations.

Familiar

Her familiar is a possum named Arthur. She found him in a box labeled "free kitty" and couldn't resist. They are able to communicate and heal eachother. Hes able to sense peoples energy and his reactions can be seen as a warning for her. Together, they can manipulate the energy in anyone and anything. Its just a matter of if the want to or should

First loves (mentions abuse)

She had one love before meeting asra. Pete Uchiha (street name Ocho) was her dealer turned boyfriend when she was 15. Despite the good times she clung to and being too young to know better, he mentally, physically, and sexually abused her and forced her into dealing for him and attacking people who owed him. After 2 years of his paranoia and control. She met asra when he was homeless and a thief. They quickly went from being friends to facing an affair.

Cuisines

Growing up with her new family, her dad absolutely loves making chili and spicy beer chicken. While she could eat those everyday, she and her mom loved anything involving shrimp and gyros.

Defining moment (mentions substance abuse, attempted suicide, and crimes)

While she was considerate of others and wanted to be nice to everyone, she had little foresight, no impulse control, and often just thought of herself. The moment that really made her change her life was when she was 19. She had discovered she she could make any surface become soft and safe to land on. So she, Pete, and mutual friends would go onto a roof top, get high And basically fall into a dumpster. This went on for years until one day, her friend jumped and missed the spot, killing him. Once she realized what happened she was grief and guilt stricken and tried to overdose. Luckily, she was found and taken to the hospital where she started to detox. Later on she was arrested for manslaughter but was released on probation. That was the moment she realized she couldn't live like that. Pete was put on jail, she broke things off, and swore to never get high again and makeup for every wrong shes everyone, or try, since she finds herself responsible for the war as well. Still is and always will be, impulsive though

Holidays

She is a pagan, worshipping the Greeks gods (patron is Hermes, arcana is judgement). She follows the basic pagan holiday wheel. She will give either food drink or dance offerings and meditate to give her thanks to them and the spirits

Aftermath

After she had died, outside of asra, her father was completely grief stricken. Customers and neighbors felt sorry for their loss, a few even missing her and her energetic and kind energy. When asra brought her back, everyone knew something messed up happened and looked at them like outcasts. She has absolutely no memory and has to relearn how to talk, so this confused and disheartened her greatly. When asra told her dad, they got into a huge fight, her dad angry for putting more turmoil in their lives. So far (in my stories at least) he can't bare to face her, knowing she doesn't remember him yet/anymore

In another life

If she hadn't have left sparta. She would have died. Lets be real.

Given how she got the plague (kissing lucio, in a story ill post), it could have been avoided but then asra wouldn't have needed to be at the palace in her place and who knows what would have happened if lucio got his way in the ritual. Even ignoring that, when shed face asra again, it wouldn't have worked out. At least nothing would be easily forgiven. She'd probably be a numb and tired person after

If she had left with him, I think she'd feel guilt for leaving. Like itd be a happier life, being safe with asra in a new place, but I see her being more depressed and submissive. She just agreed to leave her home and father to rot in her mind.

Freebie

So, and I didnt know why until my husband helped me figure it out, but I always imagined her and julian getting married before having kids and her and lucio getting pregnant before getting married. Im one for diving deep into the psychology of my and other characters. While she and julian are no where near innocent and all, they tend to have a more wholesome relationship. She is very headstrong and a switch. Julian is in my mind a switch but is more submissive in personality. Lucio is just as headstrong as well as temperamental. So they but heads a lot and can be seen as a very emotionally charged couple. She does believe love is an action more so than a feeling, thanks to her adoptive mom and dad, and not many people put up with his shit out of love, so they do put the effort onto each other. So the more traditional route, in my mind I guess is better fit for julian and the chaotic route fits lucio better. (Idk I love doing deep dives into this kind of thing. Like ill spend hours talking to my super smart husband or researching to find the correct mindsets)

[irakirih]

Q&A Time!

Thank you to all of my Hummingbird Heartbeat readers for sending me your questions! As promised, here are my answers!

Q: What the hell man was this chapter (20)?

A: It's something like the love child of a dumpster fire and a train wreck.

Q: Is Eri going to appear in this fic?

A: To be honest, I had planned for her and Kouta to appear during the hospital scenes, but the story had taken so many turns that the idea had to be discarded. But as of right now, I DO plan on making Eri and Kouta appear at one point of the story.

Q: Do you have any idea how fucked up im feeling right now bec of this chapter (20)???

A: This was a joke but this was too much of a mood to pass. And ye, I am fully aware, and I am sorry not sorry :)

Q: How old are u?

A: I’m going to be 19 in a couple of weeks!

Q: Who overheard them and will they talk to either of them about it?

A: Kirishima, absolutely. And you can bet that Kirishima confronted Katsuki about it. But as we all know, that could only do so much.

Q: Do you already know how the story will end?

A: In all honesty, no. I swear to God, this story has a mind of its own, and each chapter is as much of a surprise to me as it is to you.

Q: How are the members of Bakusquad and Dekusquad doing?

A: We know most about the Bakusquad, and as of recently, they're still worried about Katsuki. But their plans and schemes have slowed down. As for the Dekusquad, they’ve been in terrible distress since day one.

Iida had spent weeks blaming himself for what happened, and he still does to this day. He tried to show how sorry he was to Izuku, but the latter just felt worse for causing his friend to worry like that. Iida has come to terms with the fact that the attack had been out of his control, and it serves to drive him to be better now.

Todoroki went to visit Izuku once a week, right after he visits his mom. By luck, he’s never bumped into Katsuki, but he does often see fresh flowers on Izuku's bedside table and wonders if it's from Inko or someone else. He’d been extremely worried, but he had confidence that Izuku would make it out okay. He’d seen first-hand how stubborn he could be, and how great of a hero he WOULD be, so the thought of Izuku dying felt too unreal for him to comprehend. Some would call it faith. Some would call it desperate denial.

Uraraka had the worst mental state out of the three. She had to shoulder the weight of all of the boys, and her selflessness had more often than not caused her to breakdown. Izuku was in a coma and was barely stable, Iida was beating himself up every second of every day for not being able to protect his friend, and Todoroki was almost denying reality. It was almost a new routine for the girls to come in her room and try to cheer her up with snacks and movies.

But since Izuku's woken up, they've been feeling more like themselves again.

Q: Does Izuku still think this is a dream?

A: As of chapter 21, not anymore!

Q: Is Katsuki going to talk to his parents?

A: About his new fight with Izuku, no. That was between them.

Q: Will either of them get counseling/therapy?

A: For Katsuki, no. That's been established in previous chapters. For Izuku, he wouldn't want to burden anyone, so also no. He’s caused enough concern as it is. Besides, he had his parents and his squad. They’re enough to get him by. For now.

Q: Will Izuku talk to his parents(s)?

A: For the current situation, no. He had considered the idea, but he felt that he'd just make them worry over something that could probably be nothing. He and Kacchan argued all the time. His parents couldn't fix that.

Q: Will there be more letters to each other in the future?

A: If you mean notes during class, then yes!

Q: Does Izuku really like him?? Or I mean is he just playing bc he thinks it’s a dream or whatever?

A: Most of this has been explained in chapter 21. As for if Izuku really likes Kacchan, he’s still very confused about it. He didn't NOT like him, but he also wasn't sure if he DID like him. It's complicated for now.

Q: WHAT THE FUCK BRUH?!?!?!?!?!?! Why did you hurt me like this?!?!?!?!?! What did I do to deserve this?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

A: Because you and I both love angst, my friend.

Q: Would they get a counselor?

A: With their current situation, no. It's their relationship, and they want it to stay that way. But who knows, maybe when they're pro heroes, they might for different reasons.

And that's all for this session! Thanks again for this fun opportunity guys ❤