#last fall was literallyyyyyy ''i'm far from lonely and it's all that i've got'' <- i relapsed hard into listening to the used

[dykeofmisfortune]

last fall i had literally everything going wrong in my life (close friend's suicide/lost $600/best friend psychotic episode+psych ward/my mom was hospitalized and then was mean to me/my crush who i was desperately in love with rejected me) but i had so many friends (even though 2 of those friends (psych ward and crush) were lost by the end of it. but NOW it's like. i'm achieving financial and professional and personal success i have 2 jobs for the next school year lined up and so many activities and responsibilities i feel like i actually have things to look forward to like i'm not just surviving i'm Living. but i still feel like i've lost so many friends and it's just like. would you rather be successful and have just a few friends or be surrounded by people but feel gratingly miserable and directionless and like you have nothing to look forward to. much to think about