#last year I was almost over even remembering the day because I'd mostly stopped grieving the loss of the life I used to have | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

mosspapi · 4 months

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Oh fuck. Today marks 6 whole years since The Bullshit started. I mean. It'd Started well before then but that's when it officially started yknow. And what cosmic irony is it that a whole new bullshit that's basically just a worse version of the original bullshit is starting now too

#my autoimmune disorder fully kicked in on Feb 18. 2018 lmao #and like. I know it all started before then bcuz even that previous April I had what I realized later was a flare #and the December before that was when I had strep that spread to my ears and almost definitely my brain bcuz my doctor just didn't give #us the strep test results for a whole week #so shit was definitely going wrong before then but it didn't actually Do anything until that day yknow #we were in Seattle to see Hamilton live and I could barely even see the stage because the world was spinning too much and I was so nauseous #I spendt the entire next week in bed and barely ate anything. missed a ton of school. and it just never got better #and now here we are. 6 years later. and I've spent almost the whole week in bed and barely eaten. waiting on specialist appointments again.#it's like nothings fucking changed #last year I was almost over even remembering the day because I'd mostly stopped grieving the loss of the life I used to have #and now it's even worse than before.#idk man it's just. it's a lot yknow #armchair speaks #actually disabled #physically disabled

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