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Whats That Tongue Do? (Drabble)

Pairing: Becky Lynch x OC Melissa Word Count: 804 Description: Melissa really enjoys watching Becky’s promos and interviews mainly for one specific thing. Her tongue. (Smut implied.) I wrote this little drabble when I was talking to @new-zealand-chic about the fact Becky licking her lips (which I saw multiple videos on Instagram) made me feel some type of way. 

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Melissa stands backstage watching her girlfriend, Becky was doing a few pre-taped promos since they had the next week off. Melissa couldn't help but stare at the screen in amazement sure her girlfriend was stunning but that wasn't exactly why she was staring. Becky had this habit of licking her lips whenever she spoke especially when she was annoyed or amused. 

"Melissa? You good over there fam?" 

Montez asks as he walks over and looking at the tv screen. Waving a hand in front of her he laughs when she blinks looking surprised at him. 

"Hi Monz what are you doing?"

"I came to talk to you about the party tomorrow, you were too busy ogling your girlfriend." 

He says smiling as she blushes rubbing the back of her neck. 

"Sorry about that she's just so beautiful and the slide of her tongue across her lips. I just."

"Wanna have her in your hotel room instead of here, girl wants some of that Becky lovin."

"Hell yes and I'm tried of waiting."

"I got you." 

Montez smiles offering his arm and leading Melissa through the backstage area in search of Becky.  Melissa watches him slightly concerned about what he had planned. They could faintly hear Becky talking and that caused Montez to walk faster. When they reach the area they see Becky talking to Charly.

"HEY YO BECKY! YOUR GIRL WANTS TO SEE WHAT THAT TONGUE DO! COME HELP HER OUT BEFORE SHE FLOODS THE PLACE!"

Melissa stares at Montez in horror her cheeks flaming red with embarrassment, he smiles patting her back. 

"There you go fam have fun and thank me later." 

He scurries off before she could even make a response, glancing over to the women she sees Becky and Charly staring at her. Whereas Charly was laughing in amusement, the look on Becky's face told her that The Man was more than intrigued by what Montez had said.

"Come on over lass I'm just finishing up the last interview we can leave after that." 

Becky says watching Melissa slowly walk over her eyes remaining focused on the floor. She honestly wouldn't mind if it swallowed her up she was just sorta glad it was only the three of them and the camera guy. She was going to get him back for this if it was the last thing she did. Becky wraps her arm around Melissa's waist kissing her temple. Then turns her attention back to Charly making sure Melissa didn't try and escape. 

"Okay, we'll start from the last question, have Melissa come over and edit it all together. For your sake Melissa we'll edit that bit with Montez out."

 Charly smiles trying not to laugh. 

"Thanks, Charly."

Melissa remains quiet as she steps away waiting to walk in, she was surprised and a little confused on why Becky just didn't let her stay off to the side. It wasn’t until Becky continued to occasionally lick her lips that she understood. When Becky starts talking about her upcoming feud with Charlotte...again.. Melissa smiles walking by and Becky calls her over wrapping her arm around her. 

"So Melissa I was just asking Becky about her upcoming match with Charlotte who do you think will walk away victorious?”

“This is going to sound so biased but my money is on The Man, Becky isn’t going to be stuck in her shadow any more. She’s showing everyone that she’s the champion that she promised she would be. And no matter how many times she and Becky go at it, Becks will always come out on top one way or another.” 

Letting Charly and Becky finished the interview Melissa had to keep her attention mainly on Charly otherwise she’d be staring at her girlfriend just waiting for her tongue to flick across her lips again. When they were finally finished Becky leads Melissa down the hallways towards her locker room. 

“Did you enjoy the promo princess?”

“Yes, you did amazing just like you usually do I really enjoyed watching it in person.”

“From what it sounded like you enjoyed seeing my tongue across my lips more.”

Feeling her face heat up again Melissa shakes her head apologizing to her girlfriend.

“I don’t know why he did that and I’m sorry if it ruined your promo and interview.”

“Nothing to apologize for my love I’m rather glad he told me because now I can take you back to our hotel room and show you just exactly what my tongue can do and you can flood my mouth instead of the arena floor.”

The shot of pleasure that ran through her at Becky’s words had Melissa taking her hand and speeding up their pace. She most definitely wanted to feel Becky’s tongue buried in between her legs and by damn, she wouldn’t let it stop there.

[buckys-other-punk]

Hurt (Jealous Part 7)

Bucky x Reader, (slight) Steve x Reader

Warnings: angst, PTSD reader (kinda...but not really), violence, weapons (knives and guns), blood, dead bodies, minor panic attack, and cuss words

Word Count: 3K (w/o lyrics)

Song inspiration: “Hurt” by Johnny Cash (this is gonna be a bit depressing)

A/N: @lostinthoughtsandfeelings​ this is my surprise for you Ash lol You’ve waiting long and patiently for this series to return and here it is!❤️ But WOW its been a while (holy shit! almost 2 years nows!?) since I wrote this series huh? Well it's back and still angsty as ever…Anyways let me know if you wanna be tagged or if I accidentally forgot to tag you lol. Like always this is unedited and has minor mistakes so please don’t mind them. Feedback is always appreciated!

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 ~Previously~

*A week later back at the Avengers Tower*

There was something off about (Y/N) and everyone notice this. She kept to herself more than usual. Tony had another mission for Bucky and Steve. The boys wanted you to tag along, to get you out of the tower and doing your usual routine. They both walked to where your room that was moved closer to the lab so Bruce can keep a close eye on you. As they drew near Bucky knocked on the door and entered. You were sitting in the corner of the room holding your most prized possessions, weapons, a gun and knife. You looked up at the two with terror. Screaming telling them something is wrong on the inside, but you were so scared so your facial expression said you were fine.

I hurt myself today

see if I still feel

I focus on the pain

The only thing that's real

The needle tears a hole

The old familiar sting

Try to kill it all away

But I remember everything

The two men stared at you as you hesitantly stood up, gathering you belongings for the mission. Avoiding both of their gazes you started packing your clothes for the mission not even know what the mission is about.

“(Y/N), you don’t have to go on this mission if you don’t want to.” Steve said with concern.

You shook your head and said with a smile, “It’s fine Steve. I think I can manage.” Both men looked at one another and shrugged. Steve exited the room while Bucky stayed behind.

“(Y/N).” he said softly looking at you. “Are you sure?” 

“I’m fine Bucky.” you said sternly at him. “Can you please leave so I can finish packing without any distractions.”

“Alright.” he sighed walking towards the door. “Tony said we leave at nightfall.” he added exiting the door. You sighed, stared at the door and started to gather your belongings.

What have I become

My sweetest friend

Everyone I know goes away

In the end

And you could have it all

My empire of dirt

I will let you down

I will make you hurt

*Time Skip*

“Alright, Stark suggests that we split up for this mission.” Steve says to you and Bucky as you all place your belongings in the penthouse Tony bought. “They have an underground maze that has these different rooms and chambers. Tony also wants each of us to get coordinates of the people who are associated with Hydra.” he added loading up his gun.

Bucky paused, sharpening his knife and asked, “Wait, why do we need to split up if we’re looking for the same thing?” You looked towards Steve with the same questioned look Bucky had on his face.

“Right, I asked Tony the same thing and he said that Hydra scattered the information in different computers to secure the safety of those people.” Steve answered putting his gun away and picking up his shield. He looked up at you and Bucky taking a slight note of how distant the two of you were. “Ok, um I’m going to make a quick call to Tony to see if he has any other requests for this mission.” he said exiting the living area and going into his room.

You sighed as you finished loading your gun and putting it in your thigh holster. You moved on to sharpening your knife when you heard Bucky clearing his throat. He stood standing behind the kitchen counter and moved towards you. You shifted in your seat at the dining table when he took the seat across from you. 

“Are you sure you’re ready to go back into a mission Y/N?” Bucky asked sincerely, looking at your hands expertly sharpening your knife. You looked up at him and nodded. “I’m being serious Y/N, I don’t want you to get hurt.” he added looking up at your face, staring at your eyes. That's when he noticed something was different about you, just from the look in your eyes.

“James, I’m fine. Stop treating me like I’m a fragile baby that doesn’t know what she's doing.” You exclaimed as you finished sharpening your knife and standing from your seated position. “I’ve trained hard for missions like these. So stop worrying.” you added putting your knife in your holster wrapped around your waist and turning to walk to your room.

Bucky stared at you as you retreated to the area. ‘Fuck.’ he said to himself thinking about how you called him by his first name.

I wear this crown of thorns

Upon my liar's chair

Full of broken thoughts

I cannot repair

Beneath the stains of time

The feelings disappear

You are someone else

I am still right here

*in underground tunnel maze*

Steve, Bucky and yourself were huddled at the entrance of the tunnel. All making sure their weapons and coms were accounted for. “Everyone knows what to do right?” Steve questions you and Bucky as he adjusts the straps of his shield. You and Bucky nodded in agreement to his question. “Alright, I’ll go to the west side of the maze, Buck to the east and Y/N north. We’ll try and meet in the middle headquarters. Good luck in there.” he said as he entered the tunnel. You took a deep breath and you retried your gun from your holster. Bucky looked over at you as he also drew his weapon.

“Stay safe..ok doll.” he says with a shaky breath as he began to enter the tunnel. You looked into the direction of the dark tunnel having a weird feeling deep within your gut. Ignoring that feeling and exhaling the breath you held for some reason you entered the dark maze.

Walking through the maze wasn’t half as bad as you thought it would be. You found your third computer and began to download the file on some rich fat bastard to the flash drive that Tony gave each of you before the mission. You sighed as you finished getting the info you thought you heard something behind you, but as you turned nothing was there. Your com was silent until there was a slight static and a voice came through.

“I’ve got my third file.” Steve said with a hushed voice.

“Same here punk. Doll you ok over there?” Bucky said calmly.

“Yeah, I’m fine over here. I thought I heard something, but nothing was there.” you replied.

“Right, well keep your eyes peeled out for Hydra security members. Stark mentioned that some soldiers would be lurking around the computer rooms.” Steve whispered. 

“How many of these computers are there again?” Bucky asked through the coms.

“Tony said there were ten files so we can regroup near the middle of the maze. What are your guys’ locations?” Steve answered.

“I think I’m near the middle.” Bucky replied. “Y/N, are you at the center of the maze yet?”

“Yeah, I feel like I'm already close.” you responded as you made your way around the winding walls. Your gun skillfully pointing forward making sure nobody got in your way. 

“Wait, Buck I think I see you.” Steve announced. “Y/N, Bucky and I are together and going towards your location.”

“Alright.” you replied and paused when you began to see a shadow. A hydra soldier was guarding the main headquarters. “Guys there’s a guard, but I think I can take him.” you stated, readying your gun.

“Y/N wait until we get there. We don’t know if there are more guards around your area.” Bucky shouted through the com.

“I got this James.” you replied as you took your com out of your ear. You slowly made your way towards the guard and he noticed your shadow emerging before him. He drew his gun pointing it at you and shouted asking who you were. Ignoring him you began to fire, shooting him in the leg then his chest. The gun shot echoed and his body collapsed on the floor. You walked closer to the body, turned it to have it facing up and that’s when you froze. You couldn’t move. You froze staring at the body that laid before you and the blood began seeping out of the gun wounds. Your eyes began moving up the body to look at the guard’s face and this was the moment you finally dropped your gun in fear. The face of the guard wasn’t the man you had originally seen, no it was the face of the monster. The monster from your nightmare that Hydra had induced. It was you.

What have I become

My sweetest friend

Everyone I know goes away

In the end

And you could have it all

My empire of dirt

I will let you down

I will make you hurt

You crouched down at the level of the body, not knowing how long you stared at it, but you couldn’t keep your eyes off of it. There were two Hydra soldiers that saw your figure and slowly drew closer to where you stood. You were completely unaware of them inching towards you.

“Y/N!” Bucky yelled to get your attention, but it didn’t work. The Hydra soldiers turned towards the commotion Bucky had made and drew their weapons. Luckily Steve was with Bucky to back him up and they both fought against them. The firing of guns echoed throughout the entire maze and an alarm went off. Steve and Bucky got closer to you and protected you. “Y/N?” Bucky shook you to snap out of whatever trance you were in, but it was no use you didn’t budge.

“What’s wrong with her?” Steve asked quickly, looking over his shoulder as he fired his gun at an incoming Hydra member.

“I don’t know, but we have to protect her, Steve.” Bucky said shooting his gun at another member. Steve nodded and held his shield up covering Buck. Bucky stood behind Steve aiming his gun to incoming Hydra soldiers. You were still crouched behind the two when they defended you.

“Is that all of them?” Bucky asked Steve as he kept his gun up.

“Maybe. There could be more coming from above the maze, but we should get out of here. How is she?” remarked Steve prying a gun off a dead hydra soldier’s hands.

“Still not responding.” Bucky replied, picking you up and carrying you in bridal style. This was where you blanked out and everything turned black.

*back at penthouse*

Bucky had laid you down on the couch and decided to wash up. Steve sat by your side petting your head waiting for you to regain consciousness. He turned the tv on for background noise and went to the kitchen to get some water for when you wake up. Steve noticed you fidgeting and slowly waking up. He rushed over to your side placing the glass of water on the table at the center.

“Hey Y/N. How are you feeling?” he asked as he brushed your hair out of your face.

“I’m fine. Slight headache and my throat feels dry.” you replied rubbing your temples. Steve gave you the glass of water that he placed on the table. “Thanks.”

“Yeah, no problem.” Steve said, looking s way for a bit. “Um..Y/N..What happened back at the maze?” he hesitantly asked.

“Honestly Steve. I don’t know how to put it. It was my nightmare.” you answered with a slight crack in your voice. You took a sip of water to somewhat soothe your nerves, but it didn’t work. Steve nodded and just when he was about to say something Buck came out of his room.

“Y/N! You’re awake.” He said as he rushed to your side gently grabbing your face to examine it. 

You pushed his hands away, “Bucky, I’m fine.”

“You didn’t seem fine back there doll.” he said looking over at Steve who agreed with him.

“Bucky, nothing bad happened. I just froze. Nothing to worry about.” you said looking down at the glass of water in your hands.

“Nothing to worry about. NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT!? Y/N YOU COULD HAVE BEEN SHOT!!” he began to yell at you.

“Bucky, calm down.” Steve said, raising his hand to make his friend lower his voice, but that didn’t work.

“I CAN’T CALM DOWN STEVE! Y/N COULD HAVE BEEN KILLED!” Bucky stood from his seated position and began to pace in front of the two of you. “Y/N I don’t know how many times I asked you if you were ready for a mission.”

“I said I’m fine James. I just had a small hiccup. Ok. I took down that one soldier and got no scratches.” you tried to sound calm when replying. You placed your glass of water down onto the table when you noticed your hands began to shake. Steve noticed this too and looked over at you with worried eyes.

“Bucky, I think you should calm down. Y/N is right she did take down a hydra soldier. We all got out of there safely.” Steve said, trying to calm down his friend and also you as well.

“Oh now you’re taking her side? She didn’t fucking move, Steve. There were soldiers surrounding her with their guns ready to fire. Y/N, you could have died!” Bucky snapped pointing at you. You felt your eyes begin to tear up, but you didn't want the two to see you cry. Bucky’s words felt like a knife stabbing you. You instantly thought back to a few hours ago back to the soldier you killed. Back to the body you had shot. Back to the body from your dream or nightmare. Your dead look alike. You were so lost in your thoughts you couldn’t hear Bucky and Steve arguing. You couldn’t move again. You didn’t even blink. You couldn’t even breathe. It felt like someone sucker punched you and you couldn’t catch your breath. Then something inside you snapped and you stood up from your seated position. The two men looked over at you as you began to slowly walk to your room. Steve sighed, putting his head in his hands in frustration. Bucky on the other hand stormed to the bar of the penthouse to fix himself a drink.

If I could start again

A million miles away

I would keep myself

I would find a way

*small time skip*

Steve and Bucky sat in silence on the couch. It had been a few hours since you went into your room. They saw that the TV projected a call from Tony. Steve answered the call and Tony’s face appeared.

“Capsicle. Manchurian Candidate. Where is Little Miss Heartbreaker?” Tony mentioned looking around the penthouse.

“Stark, you know Y/N doesn’t like that nickname.” Steve said sternly, staring at the screen.

“Fine, where is Rowdy Ronda? (a/n: *cough* ronda rousey if you didn’t know *cough*)” he said again with slight annoyance.

“In her room.” Bucky huffed. 

“Right..well how was the mission? You get the names?” he asked while tinkering with something.

“Yeah we did, but...um..something happened..with Y/N.” Steve murmured.

“What happened? Is she alright?” Tony exclaimed as he stopped messing with his project.

“She’s fine. It's just she-” Steve was cut off.

“She was almost killed.” Bucky interrupted.

“WHAT?!” Tony yelled. “How did that happen?” he stared at the pair on the other side of the screen.

“She just stood there staring at a body she shot down.” Bucky shot back with slight anger in his eyes.

“She might have had a panic attack, Stark. When we got back to here and she regained consciousness she said she felt like she couldn’t move like she was frozen. She told me that she was basically reliving her nightmare.” Steve added staring at the table where your glass remained untouched. Bucky looked over to his friend in shock or anger. Honestly he couldn’t tell how he was feeling.

“Well. Is she ok? She shouldn’t have gone on a mission if she isn’t up for it.” Tony asked, staring at the two.

“That's what I told her all day during the mission, but she was too stubborn to listen to me.” Bucky remarked standing from the couch and pouring himself another drink.

“We haven’t checked up on her yet. We thought that it would be a good idea to give her some air to breathe.” Steve said looking over at his friend with slight anger.

“Fine. Well check up on her now please. I need you all back here with those flash drives. I’ll see you in a couple of days.” Tony ended the call. Bucky huffed as he downed his drink making his way over to your door as Steve trailed behind him. 

“Wait Buck, I think that you should apologize to Y/N.” Steve said as he grabbed Bucky’s shoulder stopping him from knocking out your closed door.

“Why should I say sorry? I was right, wasn’t I? She should have rested more before she decides to go on a mission.” Bucky countered, shoving Steve’s hand off his shoulder. Steve rubbed his hand over his face in annoyance and gave up.

“Fine. What are you gonna say to her then?” he asked with his hands on his hips.

“I..well I’m gonna...fuck.” Bucky looked to the ground thinking of what to say to you. Steve huffed and moved Bucky out of the way so he can knock on your door.

“Y/N? Hey can we talk to you?” Steve said kindly behind the closed door. There was no answer. He knocked again. Nothing. Steve looked over to Bucky who had a concerned look. 

This time Bucky knocked on the door. “Doll? Open the door please.” Nothing. He went to twist the doorknob, but it was locked and the two men looked at one another in shock. “Fuck..Y/N open the door!” this time his knocks were heavier. Still nothing. He used his metal hand to twist the doorknob so hard that it broke and he held one end in his hand and they heard the other end fall to the ground. The pair looked at each other another time, nodding and drawing their guns for precaution. 

“Y/N?” Steve said as he pushed your door slightly open. They both entered and saw the room trashed. They signaled one another to inspect the room. Looking for you. You weren’t there. “Buck. Come here.” Steve said as he grabbed a letter on top of your disheveled bed. 

“What does it say?” Bucky asked, looking at his friend.

“If you want to see her alive again, bring the drives to Hydra Headquarters.” Steve read aloud looking back at his friend.

A/N: ooof the cliffhanger seems familiar... ANYWAYS!! Hope you guys liked this part and lemme know what y’all think. Again sorry for such a long wait for this series. I have recently gotten small inspo with it, but have no clue about the ending..

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The 100 Highlights - “How We Get To Peace” (5x08)

Hey everyone! Sorry for the long wait for this highlight post. I was out of town visiting family for a week and didn’t get a chance to rewatch the episode until today. And, unfortunately, I am about to be swapped for the next ten days (at least) so you can probably expect the 5x09 highlight post to be pretty late, too.

... And the 5x10 recap.

But anyway - super excited to get into this episode! Hope you enjoy my thoughts. :)

Feel free to read up on the previous posts in this series here. 

“I’ve seen the horrors we inflict on each other in the name of survival, colonel. God knows I’m as guilty as anyone, but we’re on the brink here - on the edge of an abyss I’ve stared into before - and I can tell you, having sacrificed the few to save the many more times than I care to admit, eventually, the few becomes the many. The ends don’t always justify the means and if you don’t know that by now, after everything you’ve been through, then you’re just as bad as Octavia, and we’re already lost.” 

At first I was a bit thrown by Kane’s speech here because Charmaine’s move was, objectively, very politically savvy (and it seemed a little out of place, considering Kane was the one who implied that if Charmaine got rid of McCreary she wouldn’t have to be concerned about resistance anymore but whatever) but - in retrospect - I do see the value in it. It seems to reflect what Bellamy and Clarke do later in the episode to Kara Cooper (which was honestly SO fucked up guys, like, holy shit). And the line was well delivered too. Very dramatic.

I kind of like this Vincent guy. Hm. Seems too nice to be a cannibal/serial killer. Speaking of which, are we ever going to see him snap? Maybe in 5x11 ... and that’s when we’ll get Abby telling the story of what happened in The Dark Year. :o I’ve cracked the code fam

Echo suggesting that they kill Zeke made her more familiar to me. Her character arc seems pretty on track (based on this episode) with what I have already speculated and I expect that we’re going to see her facing some issues with her old methods soon (maybe next episode?). I did like how they have set up her character arc in this episode.

I’m really enjoying that they have Indra teaming up with our mains this season. It’s an interesting dynamic, to see her interacting with characters besides Octavia and Kane this season and I am really enjoying it.

LEMME TAKE A MOMENT TO TALK ABOUT ZEKE PUTTING HIS HAND IN FRONT OF RAVEN PROTECTIVELY K

Listen, I know that their relationship has no base to it and they barely know each other and their connection doesn’t even really make sense *realistically* but I really, really LOVE Raven and Zeke’s dynamic. Lindsey and Jordan have fantastic chemistry and they look so good together and Zeke and Raven’s personalities/intellect complement each other so well. Also, this is a television show so lack of development DOESN’T MATTER, especially considering Zeke hasn’t killed Raven’s family or ex boyfriend or anything which - if you ask me - is a definite bonus! I just loved that little detail of him looking out for her, despite being angry (and having every right to be) because he feels protective of her and can’t really explain why just yet.

Also, I am in no way delusional enough to believe that the writers intentionally paralleled Bellarke and Zaven in this episode but this moment was visually extremely reminiscent of Bellamy jumping in front of Clarke in 2x09 ... so that’s a plus.

Everything involving Raven and Abby in this episode was just the most gut-wrenching, fam. Raven’s concern over Abby being threatened by Diyoza and her determination to protect her and Abby lying was just ... a Lot. It shows how far gone Abby is and added some new stakes to her addiction. I think it was important to show how Abby and Raven’s relationship will be affected by this.

“Your mother would be proud, Monty.” I wonder if anyone has told Monty this before, and how much he probably needed to hear it. In all that had happened, I forgot that Kara Cooper and Monty come from the same station on the Ark, and that they have probably even known each other for a long time. I never would have guessed that I would love seeing them interact so much but their scenes in this episode were so cute? Cooper laughing at Monty’s jokes about getting lit was the scene I didn’t know I needed. Leave it to The 100 to humanize the Worst character in the episode they get killed

THE ORIGINAL MURDER TRIO IS BACK AND AT IT AGAIN

I have to admit, in a kind of sick way I liked that we had Monty, Clarke, and Bellamy back at their old shenanigans again? Like, this felt like an indirect callback to Mount Weather, where they all committed mass murder together. This time, they’re trying to prevent that from happening again. It’s weird to see how their old allegiances and perspectives have shifted from that moment - and yet, they all continue to cooperate with each other.

“What’s one more, right? We’re all murderers.” OOF MONTY I FELT THAT

“We’re talking about taking one life to save hundreds.” “Really? Then let’s kill Octavia.” I literally yelled DRAG HIM at my screen when he said this lmao. Monty had ALL the lines in this episode. Like, damn, I love that he is questioning Bellamy and Clarke’s decisions in this, how they just revert so easily back to their same old methods. It’s refreshing to see.

 And also, he’s RIGHT. What Bellamy and Clarke are doing is so fucking twisted. They are literally killing someone in the most grotesque manner and framing them for something they didn’t even do all in order to avoid killing someone else - the person who forced her to commit the atrocities she has in the first place. Let’s face it: Cooper is easy to hate but the only reason she is the way she is is because of the system that Octavia created, the game Octavia forced her to play. And yet, they won’t kill Octavia, because of their own selfish wishes. It is absolutely fucked up and I am so glad that Monty called them out on their bullshit.

I really loved Murphy looking at Clarke’s drawing of him and Emori chained to the rocket from 4x08. It was a nice detail (and parallel to Season 4′s corresponding episode) and callback to include. Here’s hoping that we get to see *cough* other characters looking at pictures of themselves that Clarke has drawn. You know ... no one in particular.

“Tell me what we’re looking at.” 

“I don’t think we’d see it the same way, but all right. That’s where the trading post will be. And next to it will be a farm, and a workshop, and a mill ... And a real medical center, for Abby. To the south, there’ll be homes dug out of the ground to preserve the trees, and at the center, there’ll be a well, a place for people to gather, talk, debate ideas.”

“And a school with a playground where kids can blow off steam and bitch about their teachers and kiss under the bleachers. My kid.”

LET ME TALK ABOUT THIS SCENE !!! I LOVED THIS SCENE. 

I think this is the very first time (with the exception of Briller and the chickens) where any character has explicitly voiced their greatest wishes for the future, how it looks in their mind. And it’s so fucking tragic because you can just visualize it so clearly, but it feels so far away. That future doesn’t seem possible. It’s so melancholy and I love how Ian and Ivana delivered their lines in this scene.

Also, soft!Charmaine is EVERYTHING. Her line about the school and the teenagers “bitching” and making out and doing regular teenage thing was just so ... normal, it was honestly startling to think about. That’s the life that the hundred should have had - that they’ll never get now. I love the baby storyline so much (and I never thought I would like a pregnancy storyline but I do) because it humanizes Diyoza in so many ways. 

The music in this scene was gorgeous and matched the tone so well, I honestly started tearing up a little bit don’t @ me. I have a really big feeling that this discussion will come up again - either because we’re going to see this vision completely destroyed, or because we’re going to see it come to fruition. With the space travel theory, I do kind of wonder if we might get an “epilogue” of sorts for the people who stay behind on Eden, where we see Kane and Diyoza’s vision has come true (and maybe they’ll both even be there). It would be like a farewell to the characters who remain on Earth. I think it would be beautiful. (But that’s all assuming that the space travel theory is correct.)

As mildly annoying as it was that Kane literally named Diyoza’s baby for her (wtf Kane???) I did appreciate the symbolic purpose of naming her child “Hope”, especially considering the episode title “Pandora’s Box”, in which hope (aka. Kane/Baby) was the last out of the bunker and then flew away with Eligius. It’s a nice follow up to that little piece of mythology.

In a way, Kane, Abby, and Charmaine are delivering Hope (literally and figuratively) to the people. Which is also why I believe that they may all remain behind in Eden at the end of this season as we see our mains (ie. Clarke, Bellamy, Raven, etc) take off into cryo sleep, officially saying goodbye to all of them forever. (Goddamn I’m already crying and the season finale hasn’t even aired yet? THe fuck)

Also side note to talk about how vindicating it was when Kane was judging Charmaine the entire episode about her damn notebook (”names of the people you killed?” stfu) and it turned out to just be a goddamn list of baby names and defense strategies. Sit the fuck down, Mark.

I present to you: the creepiest fucking shot this show has done. And yet, I really liked it? Showing Cooper’s reactions by shooting through her helmet was a really well done creative choice. It was so trippy and it made her death feel so visceral and real. It honestly kind of sickens me to watch this scene, tbh.

On another note, I cannot BELIEVE how many stomachs Jason has forced me to watch explode this season .. the audacity ...

Emori establishing healthy boundaries is ... EVERYTHING. It’s so important for the writers to have addressed the toxicity in their relationship in this way. 

“Trouble in paradise?” I kind of love that McCreary says this to Memori because it is exactly what Murphy said to Clarke and Finn in 5x06 after the massacre. That’s some sweet kind of karma right there

Everything about Raven and Abby in this episode was absolutely devastating. Lindsey and Paige both killed this scene - the emotions were so real. Lindsey did such an amazing job portraying Raven’s hurt and rage - I could feel her emotions so viscerally. 

“Don’t you talk to me about pain.” If anyone deserves that line, it is Raven. She has been through hell and back and has had to be so strong for so long. I really liked that line.

CLARKE SITTING ON BELLAMY’S BED IN HIS TENT. Man, I would LOVE to see how that scene went askskqisks

Also, Clarke comforting my poor baby just like old times ... *sigh*

Although I have some reservations with the dialogue in this scene, I do appreciate the sentiment. Despite everything that has happened, Bellamy and Clarke still have such an understanding of each other. They forgive so easily - it’s practically second nature at this point. While I hated how Jason Rothenberg-y Bellamy sounded when he called Clarke a “mama bear” it IS nice that he is acknowledging the role that Madi plays in Clarke’s life. I feel like he finally is starting to understand just how crucial she is to Clarke, and recognizing that he felt the same way about Octavia. It gives them something new to connect over. Also, I’ll never turn down Bellarke being soft with each other.

Plus, have you ever seen a softer smile than Clarke Griffin’s? Cause oh boy am I not over that. She looks so fucking bashful when she looks up at Bellamy I can’t deal gotDAMN

“The worms were already loaded in the rover, so. What was Cooper doing there?” Marie’s delivery in this episode was SO good. God, she’s so creepy and she’s Killing It.

“Careful, big brother, or I’ll think you helped her and we’d have enough prisoners to settle this in the ring.” LISTEN. I WANTED THE EVERLARK AU SO FREAKING BAD CAN YOU IMAGINE WHAT NEW MEANING THE WORD “TOGETHER” WOULD HAVE HOLY SHIT

But also, Bellamy’s desperate looks/protests were A Lot in this scene. He really can’t fathom losing Clarke again. His and Clarke’s tragic looks towards each other just really fucking hurt - they’ve been here before. And last time, they didn’t see each other for six years. 

“Keep Madi safe. Promise me.” “I promise.”

GOD. CLARKE LITERALLY JUST GAVE HIM FUCKING CUSTODY OF HER CHILD UMMMMM HOW ONE DOES FUNCTION??? She trusts him so much i’mma cry. Also, his called out promise. He sounds so wrecked, but he needs her to know that he will keep Madi safe, needs her to have that comfort, just in case he never sees her again. Don’t Touch Me.

“Did he hurt you?” Protective!Zeke is always a plus but I’d be lying if I said that this scene didn’t immediately remind me of Bellamy asking Clarke the same damn question in 1x10. God, these unintentional Blarke parallels are really coming for my life huh

“Have you ever loved someone so much that no matter what they do to you, or themselves, you take it?” “Mom or dad?” “Mom. Drank herself to death.” I loved that Raven has finally found someone she can open up to. Feels Good, feels Organic. But also this scene came for my LIFE it was so angsty and so good. Raven breaking down absolutely ENDED me (and Zeke comforting her ... someone call 911). I really loved how they made the parallel between Raven’s mom and Abby - it just made the previous scene all the more devastating. So often it feels like the writers on this show forget about these characters backstory and I’m so happy to get these little callbacks every once in awhile.

“The answer is yes.” The fact that Raven and Zeke have this new unexpected thing to relate about is A Lot. I felt this scene deep in my bones. 

Plot twist: Abby dies because she is eaten by Vincent, and her withdrawal symptoms are just a red herring to keep us on our feet. ;)

“So much for The 100.” Hello, favourite line of this episode. Y’all have no idea (NO IDEA) how much it means to me to hear a reference to the heart of this show again, especially from Bellamy. He hasn’t forgotten, but it appears that Miller has. Wow. I felt that one.

“I can’t let you kill Clarke, O.” NO YOU CANNOT

“Here we go again. Pleading for the life of a traitor ... who you love.” DO I NEED TO SAY ANYTHING ABOUT THIS LINE HONESTLY Y’ALL ALREADY KNOW WHY IT ENDED ME

BELLAMY’S FUCKING FACE JOURNEY HOLY SHIT. THEY FOCUS ON HIS FACE FOR SO LONG AND YOU CAN JUST SEE - YOU CAN SEE - HIS INTERNAL STRUGGLE. GOD.

I totally overlooked this the first time I watched it but I love how Bellamy tells Octavia that HE made a deal with Diyoza. Clarke has already been sentenced to death and still, he’s protecting her. He won’t let Clarke get hurt for the deal she made - instead, he takes the blame. I just love him a lot fam.

Bob and Marie’s acting in that final scene was SO FREAKING GOOD. Both of them killed it. It was so devastating. 

“My sister, my responsibility.” While I was predicting before that this line would happen if Bellamy had to kill Octavia, the fact that it came back in the same context (with Bellamy having to protect others from Octavia, rather than the other way around) was so perfect. I love when writers take old lines and give them new meanings and that’s exactly what they did with Bellamy’s old mantra. It was so powerful.

AND HE DID IT ALL FOR CLARKE. HE CHOSE FUCKING CLARKE. I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT TO SAY???

So. 

That was a wild ride.

Hope you enjoyed reading my take on 5x08 and my favourite parts! Looking forward to the next episode in a few days. See ya then! 

[skygatecreations]

what up i was tagged by @kaitenkenburokuren

RULES: Answer all the questions, add one of your own and tag as many people as there are questions

not tagging that many ppl either.

not taggin no one because I pmuch know all of em pretty well and they all busy being awesome at life. but thank for the tag, these fun despite how smartass I sound.

under cut lmao <- same bro

1. Coke or pepsi? coke <-same

2. Disney or dreamworks? Disney has a higher hit vs. miss ratio with me, but Dworks got some good ones.

3. Coffee or tea? Coffee bro.

4. Books or movies? prolly movies. usually animated sh** that I use as ‘inspiring background noise’ and don’t actually watch a lot of the time.

5. Windows or mac? Windows cause it’s what I know best. Also I don’t tend to  like Apple’s monopoly-ish-ness.

6. DC or marvel? Marvel pm strictly because I like the movies. No clue on comics...Also ol X-men cartoon Storm was my homegirl as a youngling. I honestly think she might have subliminally created the thing I have for white hair lol

7. Xbox or playstation? Playstation cause that’s what fell into my lap.

8. Dragon age or mass effect? no.

9. Night owl or early riser? night owl <- same

10. Cards or chess? cards...but preferably neither because I’m uncannily terrible at non-video games...k actually pretty bad at vid games too but the nons...Jesus Christ 8/

11. Chocolate or vanilla? Are we talking ice cream because that kinda important op. like get yer sh** together...anyway if yes, then Chocolate.

12. Vans or converse? probably neither. not usually my look...also I’m picky as Hell.

13. Lavellan, Trevelyan, Cadash or Adaar? ...what you just call me bro?

14. Fluff or angst? angst in certain doses. Also I’m picky even with that.

15. Beach or forest? both.

16. Dogs or cats? both

17. Clear skies or rain? both kinda - no like...that patchy sort of cloud+sun after it rains that makes the light look all awesome and sh**

18. Cooking or eating out? eating out, but if I learn to cook more it’ll probably be a harder call.

19. Spicy food or mild food? mostly mild. There if like, 1 at times very spicy food that hurts me but tastes freaking amazing lol but been trying some slightly spicer that my normal jam foods lately.

20. Halloween/samhain or solstice/yule/christmas? can’t decide. strangely apathetic at this...slightly concerned about myself now. thanks for the existential crisis, man. 

21. Would you rather forever be a little too cold or a little too hot? maybe a lil too hot tbh. just increase water intake and *thumbs up*. cause a lil too cold makes the migraines worse. like ‘difference between vom-ing or not’ worse.

22. If you could have a superpower, what would it be? Flight bro.

23. Animation or live action? Animation. like good 2D Disney-ish stuff, not this eyesore bullsh** on CN these days.

24. Paragon or renegade? Apache attack Helicopter. idk.

25. Baths or showers? shower <- same...I like baths but I don’t have a plug for the tub so they don’t happen much...

26. Team cap or team ironman? shut up I haven’t seen that movie yet.

27. Fantasy or sci-fi? depends on the mood.

28. Do you have three or four favorite quotes, if so, what are they?

‘Fall seven times, Stand up eight’, ‘Don’t be afraid of dying, be afraid of not living’, ‘Fly as far into the crash as you can’ (or ‘drive’ if we talkin cars) ‘You panic, you die.’ ...idk, a lot of stuff I heard from people that are generally a lot braver and cooler than I am lol.

29. Youtube or netflix? Youtube. Can’t afford netflix. check yo privilege damn.

30. Harry potter or percy jackson? HP. not even close.

31. When do you feel accomplished? *bitter, empty laughter*

32. Star wars or star trek? Not a space opera fan but if I have to choose, Star Wars all the way. because it’s a little LESS space opera.

33. Paperback or hardback books? hardback but can’t say no to all the free classic ebooks that I’ve been finding. Bro. Read the Jungle Book(s). the REAL ones. That mess is epic. All movies made of it so far are SH** and it will anger you once you learn how sh** they really are.

34. Horror or rom-com? Rom-com if must choose. because I have an overactive imagination and I will have f-ed up dreams. My sleep pattern is sh** enough as it is lol...and yet I listen to a lot of ‘true scary story’ narrations...

35. TV shows or movies? tv shows because easy background noise

36. Favourite animal? MANY. Dogs, cats, horses, sharks...

37. Favourite genre of music? MANY. like...only criteria is “do I like it?’. notables are classic rock, epic soundtrack-y sh**, and I’m super hooked on synthwave right now...which basically means I like 80′s synth music...

38. Least favourite book? idk, if I dislike something that much I stop reading/don’t read. I guess Hunger Games series qualifies tho compared to everything I’ve read. Not a bad story, but I really...don’t like first-person perspective...so cringe. sooo shamelessly made for self-insert fantasies.

39. Favourite season? fall I guess.

40. Song that’s currently stuck in your head? toss up between Neo-tokyo and Running in the Night (totally freaking different vibes? told you I like a lot of sh**)

41. What kind of pyjama’s do you wear? usually-loose camisoles and soft pants/shorts, preferably of Jersey material. I dislike fuzzy ‘warm’ sh**. let the blankets do their damn job lol

42. How many existential crises do you have on an average day? my whole life is one big existential crisis.<- SAME BRO

43. If you can only choose one song to be played at your funeral, what would it be? Bruh that dark.

44. Favourite theme song to a TV show? tbh AS a theme song? ...probably Yuichi ikusawa’s WARRIORS from one of the Yugioh openings. Pretty damn epic. only up to a certain point of the full song tho (opening cut is fine). eventually he starts doing this weird actually laughable thing with his voice and ruins it.

45. Harry potter movies or books? Books. movies are good for book movies though.

46. You can make your OTP become canon but you’ll forget that tumblr exists. will you do it? OTPs are great but I have friends on tumblr and some that I I’m having active interactions with and are expecting stuff from me. I sacrifice the OTP for my duties. *salutes*

47. Do you play an instrument and if so, what is it? *more bitter laughing*

48. What is the worst way to die? anything slow. Bonus bad points if you are alone and have time to think of your fam and friends and how your end will effect them...that got dark again. moving on :)

49. If you could be entirely invisible for a day, what would you do? idk man, maybe just go around looking for wild animals to hang out with without their knowledge...or the risk of being mauled. Or go places I’d never go by myself because ghetto-as-hell and just chill.

50. If you could have personally witnessed anything in history what would it be? The first hop of the Wright Flyer. Dawn of powered flight bitches. 

51. If you could understand animals but you could never understand humans again, would you? ...bruh. No. like I know a lot of people would think that would be cool and sh** but if you think ‘people just don’t get you’ now, imagine if you really were incapable of communication. like...sh** would suck. And you’d have to be a hermit somewhere with no money cause no/extremely limited livelihood options...is my adult showing? I feel like my adult is showing.

52. What is your most favourite album currently? I don’t really do albums. I pick and choose what I like.

53. What is your favourite TV show character? lots of them. usually the dudes with complex/’juicy’ backstories...which is pretty boring because a lot of people would probably say that. because those tend to be the most interesting.

54. What is something you were obsessed with as a child? doggies idk

55. Do you have any tattoos/piercings and if not would you like any? just single earlobe piercings.

56. Biggest pet peeves? hard to call. a lot of things annoy me lol. maybe people not taking responsibility for their own actions/bullsh**.

57. A place you’ve always wanted to visit? Close between Germany or Japan, I got family both places. Japan narrowly wins.

58. cheesecake or carrot cake? carrot cake if it good...and doesn’t have deer turds- I mean raisins. ...I think I got all of them? idk you see one I missed lemme know.

[hamonnose]

Trans ask game: all the odd numbers up to 11 (also i didn't know you were trans why don't you put it in your bio?)

Lemme answer your question about me being not having my gender in my bio… Honestly it’s probably cus I’m like still figuring things out. I mean I know I’m not cis, and I prefer he/him pronouns most of the time, and I definitely have dysphoria more often than not BUT at the same time some times i’m fine with being called a she, and presenting femininely, and sometimes i even like my body (in relation to the dysphoria… i don’t really have a problem with my body otherwise). So I don’t really want to put genderqueer in my bio cus first of all it feels like a placeholder until i find a label that fits me perfectly (not saying that if you identify as genderqueer that it doesn’t fit you perfectly), and second on my first blog I got yelled at by an anon who said genderfluid/genderqueer people don’t count as trans and that I should stop identifying as trans since I wasn’t clear cut “ftm” (which isn’t really a term i like using). While I personally think that’s bullshit and anyone who isn’t cis can identify with the umbrella term trans if they want i’d like to avoid that happening again. So maybe I’ll put he/him in my blog description but idk if that’ll just cause more confusion? Long story short… Idk I just don’t wanna? Now! On to the questions

Questions from the Trans Ask Game (I’ll be answering all off anon questions privately so if you wanna just talk about this stuff in private that’s cool too)

1. How did you choose your name?Right now I’m going by Joss and that’s just a shortening of my deadname. I started using it in sophomore year when I started going to a new school where no one knew me and I felt ok with choosing a more gender-neutral nickname. Recently though I’ve been thinking of changing it completely since it’s really close to my deadname and sometimes it makes me uncomfortable (I’m thinking Lance [no not because of Voltron thanks] or Lylle).

3. Do you have more physical dysphoria or more social dysphoria?I experience both sadly… But more often than not it’s physical dysphoria cus I have DDs and it’s real hard to pass when sports bras just make me look like i have a monoboob and i can’t afford a binder (I bought a binder a lil bit ago but it’s still hasn’t gotten here).

5. What was the first time you suspected you were transgender?When I first learned what the word meant (7th grade). See my mom raised me kinda without gender roles… Like she was a very pro “girls and boy can do anything they want as long as they’re not hurting anyone” kind of mom. She would also let me shop wherever i wanted and I had a good mix of “boys” and “girls” clothes (my favorite combo was a cute skirt with a pokemon shirt and a cool jacket) so it wasn’t really weird for me to be into traditionally masculine stuff and I never took it as an insult for kids to tell me i acted like a boy cus “yeah so what?”. Also mom was a bartender and that meant she knew all kinds of people including lots of LGBTQ+ people (and since she was the boss’ kid if any of the workers gave them trouble for who they were she’d put those bigots in their place). So I was also raised that “if someone says they’re a boy then they’re a boy, and it’s ok to ask if you don’t know but be polite… And staring till you think you figured it out is not polite.” So I guess I never really thought about gender (or sexuality tbh) till I started middle school and i started feeling uncomfortable being feminine so i stopped wearing “girly” clothes and started wearing jeans and HUGE OVERSIZED (and i mean lil 4′10 me wearing mens size XXL) sweaters that made me shapeless. In 7th grade I made a friend who was on tumblr and when she came out as bi to our friend group it made me start thinking about it and a few days later i said “I think i’m bi too? I mean the only difference between a boy and a girl is their boobs and how they pee right?” She calmly (if slightly irritated at my ignorance) explained that “no that’s not how gender works, there’s a difference between gender and sex.” So that day when I got home I did what any confused millennial would do and googled it. That’s how i found out what transgender, and genderqueer, and genderfluid, etc. etc. meant and when I first suspected I wasn’t cis.

7. What is your favorite part of being transgender?When my lil sister calls me brother instead of sister and it makes me feel so loved honestly.

9. How did you come out? If you didn’t come out, why do you stay in the closet? Or what happened when you were outed?Loaded question.... I’m kinda out to some people but not to others? I came out to my mom in the middle of the night crying cus i was so frustrated with my body and she handled it pretty well (Asked if i wanted to be called something other than my deadname, called me son and mijo, told me she supported me) but with my grandparents and friends.... Strangely enough I think I’m like officially out to only one of my friends, like I’ve asked him to use he/him and he does so like shoutout to Neil for being awesome. We didn’t necessarily talk about it but he wished me a happy trans day of visibility so like... I think he knows? Idk if my best friend knows... I mean I’ve told her that i’m like not exactly a girl (long story) but I haven’t asked her to use He/Him or officially came out to her. To be fair neither of us came out to each other as not straight but we figured it out. She’s probably reading this. Hi mattie love you nerdo! As for the rest of my family other than my mom (and my lil sis) I’m really only dropping hints. But like big hints. Like when my uncle says i’m the prettiest girl i will straight up say “But I’m not a girl.” and he’ll ask “Then what are you?” to which i usually respond “I just am.” I’m not afraid to come out to him but if he knows then EVERYBODY knows (our fam loves to gossip tbh). I use masculine pronouns and such for myself so i think most of my immediate fam has figured it out but like I still have yet to sit everybody down and be like “Ay y’all... I’m trans” But we’ll cross that bridge when we get to it.

11. What are your experiences with binding or tucking?Well when I was in 6th grade trying to cosplay (Prussia from hetalia... I was a weeb i know) for the first time i used ace bandages. THAT IS A BIG NO NO!! IT IS A HEALTH CONCERN DON’T USE ACE BANDAGES!! I stopped after like 2-3 times of binding like that because I read online that it was bad and could hurt you big time (and hurt your chances of top surgery in the future). So then I just used sports bras for a while... Which didn’t work all that well (puberty hit early and my boobs were the first things to grow). My mom got me a real binder for my 16th birthday which was great and i used it for both everyday and cosplay stuff. Sadly I outgrew it in like a year since again puberty sucks. I sent it to someone through one of those binder exchange programs. Then I got a cheap binder that didn’t work very well and I won’t lie... A few times I got desperate and put ace bandages over the crappy binder. WHICH IS AN EVEN BIGGER NO NO THAN JUST ACE BANDAGES!!! Mostly it was alone at home just to chase away the dysphoria for a little bit but i went out for quick grocery runs with thaat set up a few times. Now I’m waiting on a new binder that will hopefully work better than the last one (it should get here in about a week and i’m so excited).

Thank you for the questions nonnie ^.^