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Diabolik Lovers LOST EDEN ー Ruki Maniac [Prologue]

CHAPTER MASTERLIST

ー The scene starts in the forest

Ruki: ...

...Oi. How many times do I need to tell you not to follow me? You go back to the other guys.

Yui: ...Why did you tell me where you’re going if you didn’t want me to tag along?

I refuse to go back until you answer that question. 

Ruki: ...So you’ve chosen to disobey me?

Yui: I’m not disobeying or anything. But...I’ve already made up my mind. That I won’t let you go through this alone.

Ruki: ...

...Haah. You have become quite arrogant. I honestly miss the days when I had you under my full control.

Yui: I mean, I wouldn’t be able to walk alongside you if all I did was obey, right?

Ruki: Good grief...At times, you are incredibly bothersome.

Yui: ( Uu...It’s kind of a shock to hear those words from him... )

Ruki: You might end up regretting coming with me, you know? ...Will you join me regardless?

Yui: Yes...I’ll go. Because I want to accept you, no matter what you choose to do.

Ruki: ...I’m envious of you.

Yui: Eh? 

Ruki: You’re coming along because that’s what you want, right? You follow your own heart and desires. 

Yui: I-I know that it’s selfish of me. But...

Ruki: That wasn’t meant as an insult. I even admitted to being envious, remember?

I am...terrified of giving in to my own desires. 

When I consider that one day, I might have no other choice but to admit to the ugly monster which resides inside of me...I am overcome by fear.

However, despite being scared, I am still unable to let go of those desires. In that sense, I suppose you could call me selfish too. 

Yui: ...This desire you speak of would be ‘becoming Adam’, right?

Ruki: Yes. 

That’s why it hurt to be told that I’m not acting like myself. It felt as if being confronted with the fact that the desires inside my heart were flurrying out of control. 

Yui: Is that how you got into an argument with Yuma-kun...?

Ruki: Well, pretty much.

I realize that reaching for those desires will lead to my own demise...Yet I fear that the second I let my guard down, I’ll succumb under the temptation. 

So far, my remaining sense of logic has always managed to snap me back to reality but...In the end I remain stuck in this vicious cycle. 

As if I am being possessed by the Devil...it repeats. Time after time. 

Yui: Is that...because of me? Is that why you tried to go alone? 

Ruki: ...I wonder? That wasn’t my intention, but you might be onto something. 

I am honestly starting to have trouble differentiating between what are my true feelings and what are just made-up lies. ...I’m lacking confidence. 

Perhaps I decided to go to the Sakamaki Castle because I want confirmation. 

That I will be able to suppress my own desires, even when what I yearn for is right there in front of my eyes. 

Yui: ...In that case, I think I should come with you after all. 

Ruki: To stop me in case I try to murder Sakamaki Shuu? 

Yui: No. For when things become painful for you. 

Because I’m already aware that it hurts even more when I’m not with you.

Ruki: ...You really are a pain. However, it was that side of you which saved me. 

If you’re that insistent, be my guest. But I am leaving you behind if you take too long. 

ー The scene shifts to the guest room at Eden

Yuma: ーー Ouch! Oi, Azusa! Can’t ya be a lil’ gentler!?

Azusa: My bad...But it’s important to disinfect that wound...

Kou: You brought this upon yourself. You shouldn’t have lost your temper...That being said, he got you pretty good, huh?

Yuma: Ruki actually didn’t hold back for once. How old is he, five?

Kou: Not sure if you have the right to call him out on that?

Azusa: You are...very worried about him, aren’t you...?

Yuma: ...Rather than worried, it just pisses me off to see him act like mister perfect.

I know that’s just the kinda guy he is, but it’s not like anyone is forcin’ him to, right?

It’s not like any of us would judge him for tryin’ to achieve his own desires.

Azusa: ...In Ruki’s case, he probably isn’t afraid of what others think, but of himself. 

Even if he knows that he won’t get ‘punished’ for it, I believe he wouldn’t be able to forgive himself.

Kou: It’s not like he’s a monk or anything...He should try to live his life a little more freely.

Azusa: But...I believe it was that side of him which saved us.

I’m sure you guys remember as well, right? Back when we still lived at the orphanageーー 

ー A flashback to the orphanage ensues

Ruki: ーー Oi, Kou. What do you have there!?

Kou: Uwah! Ruki-kun! Ah-ahー I’m busted...

Ruki: Hand me that right now! ...Who gave you this? 

Kou: ...A bad adult.

Ruki: ...How many times do I have to tell you!? Don’t dirty your hands with this kind of crap!

I’m sure you’ve seen plenty of times how people ruined themselves with it, no!? (1)

Kou: I’ll only use a little. It’ll be fine. Why don’t you try some as well?

Ruki: Don’t be ridiculous! ...Do you want to die before you get a chance at seeing the blue skies?

Kou: ...!

...You’re right. I’m sorry, Ruki-kun. I’ll throw this away at once.

Ruki: Bear, you too!

Bear: Hah! Hold on! I’m not doin’ that shit!?

Ruki: I’m talking about something else. You stole some food from one of the guards this morning, didn’t you? Did you really think I wouldn’t notice? 

Bear: Uu...But that guy really pissed me off with what he said! And I was hungry too...

Ruki: That still isn’t a reason to risk causing unnecessary trouble. Good grief, I take my eyes off you guys for two seconds and this happens.

Bear: Dad Ruki is in the house again...

Kou: Shush. ...We’re at fault this time. 

ー The flashback ends

Kou: ...I guess you’re right, Azusa-kun.

Ruki-kun would always steer clear of trouble. That’s why he’d stop us without fail whenever we were reckless. 

I guess we kind of depended on him in that regard. 

Yuma: ...Guess so. I do think we managed to get through those tough times ‘cause he always kept his shit together.

Ruki wouldn’t pull stupid shit like we did. It just seemed impossible for him.

Azusa: Yeah...I do think...that we kind of forced that ideal image on him in a way.

Kou: Then...Could it be our fault that Ruki-kun turned out to be the serious, stoic guy he is today? 

Yuma: When ya think ‘bout it like that, we really were in no position to judge him for actin’ out of character...We’re the ones who forced him to behave that way in the first place.

Azusa: Don’t you think that our encounter with Karlheinz-sama only made it even worse...?

Ruki always tried to become that man’s ideal son after all...

Kou: Even though...Karlheinz-sama is no longer in this world...

ー The scene shifts to the entrance hall of the Sakamaki Castle

Laito: Oh dear...Who do we have here?

Shuu: ...What do you need?

Ruki: It’s nothing serious but...I do have one request. 

Could we stay in the neighboring wing for a short ーー no, for a while. 

Shuu: ...

Ayato: Haah? You’ve gotta be kiddin’, right? Why would we let you staーー

Shuu: Be my guest.

ー Shuu walks away

Ayato: Oi, Shuu!? Are you for real!?

Laito: I guess there’s nothing we can do if that’s what our King has decided.  I’ll drop by sometime, okay, Bitch-chan~?

ー Laito walks away as well

Ruki: ...Much obliged. 

ー The scene shifts to the living room

Ruki: I’m going to the library. You can roam around as you wish.

Yui: Sure.

ー Ruki leaves

Yui: ( ...I’d love to be there for him, but it’s important to give him space to think things over by himself, isn’t it? )

Monologue

If he were to become Adam,

Ruki-kun would be freed from his current suffering.

However, the price he’d have to pay is simply too large.

He cannot let Shuu-san be the victim of this.

Ruki-kun knows this as well. 

That is exactly why,

he has chosen to punish himself like this.

I do not want him to fight with Shuu-san. 

However, at the same time,

I obviously don’t want Ruki-kun to suffer either.

Yui: ( I can’t say what the best option here is but... )

( I just hope there’s a way in which Ruki-kun’s pain can be soothed at least a little... )

ーー TO BE CONTINUED ーー

Translation notes

(1) With Japanese being the vague language it is, the game’s dialogue never explicitly states what exactly it is Kou is trying to use behind Ruki’s back. However, judging from the dialogue, it seems highly likely that it’s some kind of drug which was distributed amongst these kids. Most likely it was a way for them to escape from the misery of their everyday life, but then they get hooked and it all goes downhill from there.