#like sorry it was just drilled into me that I'm inherently worse and alien and not a human being and that my existence is a burden | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

featherymainffins · 5 months

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I know that a lot of people are helped by someone saying something like "All humans deserve to make mistakes." or idk "You have a right to live, all humans do." but for me it just triggers my knee-jerk cult upbringing response and I go "Oh I'm not a human."

#like sorry it was just drilled into me that I'm inherently worse and alien and not a human being and that my existence is a burden #and a martyrium that will harm everybody including myself and help nobody and that my life has no chance of being happy ever #and that i bear all of mankind's sins and always will and as such I'm tainted.#so now i just do not see myself as a human at all. i used to be convinced that everybody could see that I'm not a human #but now i just have impostor syndrome. i feel like i have fooled everyone and must keep up the charade or it will get awkward

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