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monsterbisexual · 6 months

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its so weird how id been seeing the same therapist for like yrs so ofc ive talked abt intrusive thoughts n my whole deal etc n then i talk to 2 different mental health professionals (different therapist while mine is taking time off + psychiatrist for trying meds again) n both of them are instantly like oh well yea buddy thats ur ocd!!

#p #like alejdk idk my original one had never called it that but it does make sense #i think cuz i dont have lots of (external especially) compulsions that i notice it was hard to wrap my mind aroind it #like my dad n brother have it im sure n its like more what i expect thinking of ocd than like. me n my stuff #i know ppl have different opinions on getting stuff diagnosed or not (idk if they wrote it down all official or what but still)#but its helpful n comforting to me at least. if id never gotten the autism one officially id never be sure i have it #n its kinds nice to especially for ocd be able to look at it as a different thing from myself n how i feel n think #the therapist ive been seeing (might keep seeing tbh ive rly liked her) has said its important to put a space/distance #between me n The Thoughts. which is meant to make it feel less like how i usually do if smth gross/awful comes up #like that im evil n will hurt ppl/secretly want to etc #but thinking of it as this almost separate entity is meant to help w that #like ya theyre in my brain n they suck n cause me distress n theyre not My thoughts in the sense that im intentionally havinh #them or want them #lost track of what this post was but w/e idc aldjdk

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