#like the layers and the depth aughhh

[julymp4]

i dont know shit abt music production but i wish i did bc i need a better way to describe a song like this other than 'this sounds so full'

[what-even-is-sleep]

thinking about Bodkin again bc I mean,,, ALL THE SYMBOLISM OHHHHHGH. i NEED some tumblr film analysis hobbyists to watch this show and tell me all the themes n such

[parfaiting]

this fic was so fucking good????

heres my little secret heres my little fess up to the void but i havent read in depth fanfic in like 2 years and im thriving off the crack that was Antimony by jibrailis which was such an amazing and expansive fanfic aughhhhhhhh the characterization is just so fucking good in this i could actually run laps and scream about arthur / eames thanks to this alone wtfffff 😭😭😭😭😭😭

im 14 years late but aughhh glad i am reading this now instead of a couple years ago since my brain is more formed to digest it all in its wonder. the layers of characterization is so good i could essay about it....

I'm not used to ocs being added to fanfic but alike to a book, they felt necessary to the slowly expanding plot and ended up making the world feel more lived in, a real construction of a setting. Gave more depth to what Eames and Arthur do, what they did, and thus made their characters more interesting and sympathetic.

The slow burn is just so excellent too.... reading this felt like a perfect little secret, bc thats what shipping an "outdated" ship feels like, wandering the old relics of stories from 10+ years ago, but its such a joy and a comfort what the hell....

anyways if i dont spiral into arthur eames insanity then know i was put down like a dog by irl responsibilities. jesusss

[futurewife]

i literally don't understand why you're single. you're wonderful and beautiful and really just wife material. hm.

Thank you for saying such nice things about me, at the very least I feel I can feel some semblance of having that fairytale ending for myself- being chosen and valued and having positive qualities be seen in me through selfshipping, and also through friends on here who I feel know me in a more layered and genuine way than anyone else (even irl!!) wonderful and beautiful? and WIFE MATERIAL??? aughhh💐🩷

I mean maybe hopefully my dream can still come true! This is kinda sad but really of my own volition- not because of anything my parents ingrained in me at all- "in love" is all I wanted to be as a little girl and ironically I have ended up being 26 with zeroooo kisses or handholding experience let alone a relationship. like great now I'm inexperienced, awkward and honestly kind of nervous about intimacy you know?

personal navel gazing below cut on why I am rapidly approaching spinsterhood 🐈‍⬛:

I do know if I am honest with myself. 😬 I have a tiny social circle (two girl friends) and am very much someone who lives in their bedroom. I don't have any relationship experience at all and the older I get (rounding up to 26 at this point lol) the more hesitant I am, and the more distant and abstract the possibility seems to become. This is the way it's always been and that "always" just starts to sound more and more like "forever" and "predetermined." I know I have to be the one who changes this if I am to meet someone. I just am not sure how or where I might go or where someone who might like me might be or what activities they might be doing.

The second thing I think is perhaps what I am searching for just isn't realistic and doesn't exist. But I'm too much of a romantic and refuse to lower my standards. Sometimes I think I'm more in love with the idea of love and the idea of men than anything else. Add in self shipping my whole life and I think that does factor in my stupidly high standards cause anyone would have to compete with the perfect men in my head haha.

thirdly and sorry. self pity moment. I just don't see a real depth of value that could elicit the response I crave out of anyone. I would honestly feel that I had unethically deceived them in some way, and that I ought to help them by turning them around and sending them back on their way, because there are other girls. I don't feel an equivalency or deservingness in regards of what I'm looking for. I mean why have such high standards then right, if you think you're unworthy? idk. It's the believer in me that refuses to die I guess.

[enteragoodnamehere]

I was already excited for it bc im a big fan of How Fish Is Made and I think the devs are really clever and good with that sort of thing but Man. Man. they really hit it out of the park good lird

there’s just. so many layers and so much depth and the way the story was told was brilliant. People in the comment section were saying it deserves to be a movie but tbh? I don’t think a movie could do it justice. You need the gross ass parts like feeding Curly his leg or scanning a weird lumpy womb-thing for a horse fetus to really Get It. It’s just. god I love how the devs tell stories. This and How Fish Is Made are probably the grossest games I know and I wouldnt have them any other way

And the fucking story. Again. So many layers. I feel emotional and nauseous (complimentary) just thinking about it. All the characters are so well written and developed and aughhh!!!! This game is so good jesus. Expect me to post a lot about it in the coming days

just finished a video playthrough of mouthwashing! im never going to be the same 😁