#looks like you might've pushed away everyone for good this time. isnt that what you wanted?

[infizero]

god it really is so insane that grian has always kind of pushed away his teammates and preferred to do stuff on his own and then as soon as hes actually on his own he gets upset about it. that is so fucking him im gonna be sick

[papirouge]

Are there any verses to combat having low self esteem? I've been the ugly sister, the ugly friend, the ugly ___ for a long time. I have a step sister who's just perfect and popular.. guys would only acknowledge me to ask about her. The one guy I could think of as a bf since we just started dating I brought to dinner and she captivated him. Left me to try and date her, she basically ignored him since hes my age and younger than her, then tried to come back to me. Im glad that I rejected him and ignored him too but that whole thing hurt like..wow.. I dont drink either. I'd go along with my friend to a bar and order like..seltzer water while she enjoys all the attention. Shes a model so it's common. Then some random guy would try to entertain me as my friend flirts with his friend or friends that's really into her. but the one that talks to me isnt talking to me because he likes me. Hes a wingman trying to push away the ugly friend from the hot one. Literally it's a real tactic so many guys use. Not just at bars but anywhere. And it happened to me... I just honestly fake feeling sick or just leave. It hurts.

First of all, I am sure you're not ugly anon🙃

But yeah, people aren't equal regarding beauty....and that's okay. Maybe you are very young, but you'll realize soon enough that beauty and attractivity aren't necessary mutual. Beside, it's interesting how people will get insecure over not being "pretty enough", but will never get envious of other qualities they find in other. Hardly anyone today is like "my friend is super generous and it makes me self conscious" 😭 ...like, hun, what you feel is just a consequence of society ridiculous obsession with physical beauty over anything else.

I too knew very pretty girls, and you know what? past a certain time, their features aren't that wow'ing anymore, and they awful personality (when they are awful people) clouds their overall vibe. One in particular was a colleague of mine was very pretty and she was regularly getting asked her number, but all relationships were messy because she didn't have the actual personality to back it up (the fact she was only dating dusties didn't help too). Beauty doesn't buy respect.

So yeah, you girl friend captivating men doesn't men she'll get a better romantic life than you. She might've won the genetic lottery but nothing beats actual character idc. Everyone gets old, your body changes, and having a pretty face at your prime isn't a guarantee of being as much desirable throughout your whole life. #prettyprivilege is entertained both by insecure people who think their romantic shortcomings are only the fault of their looks (and not... personality) AND narcissists who think rando being kind to them bc of their attractiveness give them somehow an overall upper social value in society..

Nobody wins at life for simply being "pretty". Or at least only for a while. Brains and personality will stay forever though so you should rather try to capitalize on it rather than looks and trying to put up with your friend's beauty😏

You dodged a bullet big time with your date who threw you under the bus try his chance with you friend ; and she's definitely a good friend for turning him down💝 (hopefully his age isn't the only thing that stopped her from dating him lol)

The whole wingman strategy is indeed quite common for men experienced in chasing women, but as I said earlier being pretty isn't a guarantee you'll attract high value men. Sorry but this whole plot to seduce a woman whime distracting their friend is corny. A self confident man doesn't do that.

If that situation makes you feel sick maybe the best solution would be to stop hanging around with your friend if there's only the 2 of you? I know this might sound radical but you shouldn't let your friendship hurt you like that. You have to prioritize yourself first.

Beside, and I really don't want to sound shady, but pretty girls too have their own strategy and purposely hang around girls they know her less pretty than them to come off more appealing, so beware... From my experience, I'd advise you to never hang out with people triggering your insecurities. You'll always end up losing :/

[duckugou]

golden

Kenma x GN!reader

Im trying to stray away from my comfort zone of just writing readers that use she/her so bear with me

sorry if this lowkey sucks but it was inspired by harry styles song golden

cw: big cursing, huge fluff, strangers to friends to lovers, comfort, aged up!

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Being a streamer comes with perks. Being comfy at home, not having to face people in real life every day, playing games, typical shit. Another perk is making good friends.

Meeting people on a voice chat is common for Kenma -guys and gals alike. What he wasnt expecting one night was the sweetest voice on the other end of his headphones.

"You're all fucks- I'm better at this game than all of you combined. Try me."

To think that was the sentence that made Kenma's ears perk up and burn.

"What the hell ever- we have the great Kodzuken on our side." One of the guys said, half joking half dead serious.

"Oh yeah, he isn't even speaking up to defend your pussy asses- probably knows I could beat him too." You could hear the smirk in that last part.

"U-uh, no. You can't beat me. Nobody can actually. Not at this game." Kenma rebutted , confident in his gaming skills but not so much his speaking skills to this stranger.

"Oh man, you certainly sound confident. Come on, Kodzuken- 1v1 me then. Show me who the best really is."

Kenma suddenly felt nervous. Should he really demolish this stranger? Isn't it polite to let the person you like win? He didn't like this person yet but god their voice was attractive.

"Fine. Send the request." He decided.

"Sent, fucker."

The game resulted in a tie because this stranger actually knew what they were doing. They both threw friendly insults at each other the whole time of course, making each of them laugh a little.

"Okay fine. The great Kodzuken himself almost beat me. Im almost honored to have a great streamer almost beat me."

"Well you almost beat me too- uh-" Kenma stuttered over the fact that he didn't know how to address this stranger.

"Oh! Call me Y/n." The person giggled.

"You can uh, call me Kenma."

"Oh you don't want me to repeat your title over and over like everyone else?" They laughed.

"No, friends don't call me that. They use my name name." His ears were burning.

"Friends, huh? Guess that means you owe me your number so we can schedule a rematch where I can properly beat your ass."

"Huh, guess so."

A few months had gone by and Y/n and Kenma were as close as they could be. They found out they live close by each other and began hanging out a lot.

Y/n would be in the back of his streams on occasion and wouldn't hesitate to speak up during them. Thats the thing about Y/n. They've always been so outspoken. Since the start. Everything they talk about comes so easy to Y/n. Nothing is held back. Kenma knows everything about them. He on the other hand is still a bit closed off. Quiet. The two are so opposite yet so alike. Kenma doesn't speak much about himself, opting to listen.

Especially when talking about past relationships.

One night, they were sat in Kenmas room in separate chairs, letting conversations flow.

"So, you've dated but why have the relationships ended?" Y/n asked.

"Ah, I dont know- its not important. Why did yours end?" Kenma flipped the question as he always does.

"One guy cheated," Y/n tossed a piece of popcorn in the air, missing their mouth and brushing it off. "One girl left because she was leaving for school, and one guy just didn't mesh with me. Your turn." Y/n pushed the question back.

"Uh- well. I don't click with people easily. I'm pretty closed off so when I date it usually ends in hurt feelings by accident or they get sick of me." Kenma finally admitted.

"Huh." Y/n flopped onto their stomach on the bed after setting down the popcorn. "Don't you like anyone though? Like- if you liked someone enough, do you think you would give opening up a shot?"

"I mean I guess. Nobody ever takes the time to...pry me open." That got a laugh out of Y/n. Good. "But yeah I do like someone."

Sitting up suddenly, Y/n became visibly excited.

"TELL ME WHO."

"No god no- it isnt important." Kenmas ears burned again.

"Come onnnnn. Its gotta be someone big time cool to earn your heart. I have to approve."

Y/n pulled Kenma from his chair to the bed, not letting go of his hand as he sat down.

"Theyre very cool- and very sweet. Understanding. Someone who stands up for me and makes me comfortable-" Kenma began gushing.

"Do I know them?" Y/n interrupted.

"Y-yeah. You sure do." Kenma scratched the back of his neck.

"Oooh ok, a guessing game. Describe them more- their looks!" Y/n held his hand tighter, bouncing up and down with excitement.

"Well- ok." Kenma took a deep breath and decided he could be vague enough. "Theyre short. As short if not shorter than me. Competitive. Very cute smile-"

"TOO VAGUE give me the JUICY DETAILS" Y/n pushed.

"They uh- they have..pretty eyes." He was staring at this point, eyes wandering around Y/ns face to find more things to describe. "cute nose too I guess. Squishy cheeks. Glasse-"

"WHO THE HELL IS IT KENMA- its starting to sound like youre describing me." Y/n laughed.

"No- I'm totally not!" Kenma rushed.

"Tell this person you like them. You look so happy when you talk about them. Its kind of sickening."

"I can't just do that." Kenma stated flatly.

"Yeah you can."

"No-"

"DO ITTTT. Nothing to be scared of- it's CUTE. They would be dumb to not like you."

Kenma sighed, knowing he couldn't tell Y/n the truth about who he liked. What does he usually do when he's put in a corner like this? Oh thats right-

"Who do you like then Y/n?" He asked, proud of himself for deflecting again.

"Oh thats easy. You." Y/n said, letting go of his hand and laying back on the bed, leaving Kenma sitting up and stunned.

"What? No I mean a crush idiot. Who do you liiikkkeee?" Kenma pushed, hoping he didn't hear Y/n wrong.

"You, Kenma. I've had a crush since our first tie in a game. Thought that was obvious-"

Kenma flopped back on the bed as well. The both of them looking at each other.

"Oh. My person is uh... really... open and honest." Kenma said quietly.

"Is that why you wont tell them?" Y/n asked just as hushed.

"Yeah... what if right now they say yes but then their feelings change one day? That would hurt so bad. Worse than not telling them ever." He whispered.

There was silence. They knew what they both just admitted. Kenmas heart started racing. This might've fucked everything up. He might lose them. But they like him too so why is he so scared?

Y/n held his hand again.

"I know that youre scared because I'm so open...but hey... If you wanna give it a try..." Y/n whispered, scared about whether or not their honesty fucked them over.

"You might be right this time Y/n." Kenma whispered.

The space between them was closed due to both of them being drawn together like magnets in that moment. A sweet kiss.

"Let's try it then. I'll work on... being more open if you'd like." Kenma said.

"Kenma. I dont want you to change one bit. I like you the way you are."

Acceptance. It was the best thing Kenma has ever felt.