#love me some beaten and broken boyo!!

[yharnamopossum]

NEW OCS!!! hhh i was too impatient to wait to draw dante before posting these (he’s a more minor oc anyway pfft) but here are the first five boyos!!

bottom middle is shi & ambroise’s boyfriend otto and the other four are the golden girls more or less lmao, bunch of old nerds who grew up together and had a LOT of wildly troubling times in their youth but eventually figured stuff out and now spend their time hanging out again~

tagging @poogle-races cus cass is there & @toreesucks for all the support :,))

some short personality info (in order)~

Ludger Benhart: PLEASE get this man some therapy, my god. a walking nightmare of delusions and obsessions and trauma in the shape of a grouchy old mule. at the root tho he really just needs some friends, some patience, and some heavy medication. he means well and has a heart of gold (or at least of unfaltering devotion) and loves his friends and family to death. which, speaking of, he died once but is determined to live the second chance he got in a way that won’t hurt anyone. believes in atonement. just wants to talk it out and apologise for things he didn’t even do

mmm spoiler alert he's more or less a fursona cus i gave him All My Problems Disorders And Horrible Tendencies so he's basically just me with less impulse control uhhh whoops don't @ me

Cassius Calgary: if the concept of "*tips fedora* m'lady" were incarnate in a person it would be this guy. asshole supreme. WILL piss you off for fun. absolute bastard man, but not in the fun way. proud of the royal heritage he never even goddamn knew to an absolutely insufferable degree and thinks he's better than you because of it. calls himself a doctor but really shouldn’t. probably the most immoral jerk you’ll ever have the displeasure & discomfort of meeting. ego big enough to rival the seven seas. at least he’s fun at parties

tell him to treat his family better

Nikolai Derivière: the GOODEST boy who deserves way more than the dumb horrible world has given him. patient and forgiving and loving and fatherly and basically everything that's wonderful in the world, constantly getting shafted and betrayed and hurt by those he is closest to. his shyness and tendency to let people push him around has got him stuck in some horrible situations, but he figures it’s never too late to learn to stand up for himself, so he fights on. probably shouldn't be as forgiving as he is, but i mean hey. he's yet to meet someone who didn't eventually realise how Awful they are

please smack his husband across the face for him (cus god knows he won’t do it himself)

Othello (Otto) Octavian-Calgary: nervous boy. the biggest romantic this side of meridian but has just the absolute hardest time figuring out the proper way to voice it. the weirdest mix of shy and forward you'll ever meet. he'll call you cute and ask you out but if you say yes he'll ask you why and are you sure you’re not just kidding yourself. still, smart and quick-witted and caring and supportive but real quick to turn a cold cheek if you cross any lines. he won’t say it out loud though; he is, quite fittingly, an incredibly mousy little dude

at least his boyfriends are more awkward than he is

Laurin Feuerhund: another gud boi who ended up snapping over some... really unfortunate circumstances and lost his faith in the world because of it. he grew up optimistic and patient (and honestly all that sunshine is still inside him somewhere) but he genuinely has been beaten and broken by so many people and situations in the past that now he’s just. Done. over it. really, really over it. but!!! otherwise, he has never done anything wrong in his life, ever, and is just generally an incredible person who puts up with and forgives way too much. heart of gold. ludger would literally actually be dead without him (and was at one point /kneeslap)

let him sleep he is tired

[all-hail-the-witcher]

(for that fic commentary thing :) ) Mush tried desperately to make eye contact with Blink to see if it was real, but Blink stubbornly kept his head down. Mush felt hot tears in his eyes. Surely, this wasn’t how they would end, this had to be a dream. He would wake up any second and Blink would put his arms around him and hold him close and reassure him that he would never leave him.However, it was not a dream, and Mush found that out the hard way when Oscars knuckles connected with his skull.

I should really title my shit

comments in these bad bois ()

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Mush had been on edge all morning. He listened to Jack ramble to Weasel about the strike, scanning the crowd of newsboys for a familiar head of sandy hair. Blink hadn’t been at the lodge that morning and Mush was beginning to get worried. What if he had bailed on them? (Welp that’s a terrible opening, it doesn’t even establish if they’re at the actual strike or not but yolo I’m leaving it)

Mush’s worst fears were confirmed when he saw his boyfriend walking up to the circulation gate amongst the other scabs to buy papers. His stomach sunk down to his shoes. (is that a term? isn’t it sinking to the floor? they’re outside there is no floor….Wait is it your heart?) Surely Blink wouldn’t do that. He wouldn’t betray all of them. Would he? (oh yes he would)

Mush tried desperately to make eye contact with Blink to see if it was real, but Blink stubbornly kept his head down. Mush felt hot tears in his eyes. (ew that’s cringy. can tears even be hot? I don’t think I’m using this correctly…..) Surely, this wasn’t how they would end, this had to be a dream. He would wake up any second and Blink would put his arms around him and hold him close and reassure him that he would never leave him.

However, it was not a dream, (no shit) and Mush found that out the hard way when Oscars knuckles connected with his skull. (that was a disgusting intro argh I regret writing this)

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Hours later, after getting beaten beyond recognition by the bulls and the brothers, Mush staggered into an ally to rest a moment. (wait what injuries does he have? im confused, should I work those out...nah) He was trying to get back to the lodge, to all of his brothers whom (is this an instance where I should use whom, idfk but it sounds cool) he knew should be worried about him, but he lacked the strength. (seriously what happened to him??) All he could hope was that one of the boys found him.

And someone did, eventually. But it wasn’t the someone he had been hoping for.

“Mush?! Oh my god. Mush, can you hear me? Oh my god, oh my god.” (ah yes I forgot to add those italics when I published whoops)

Mush blinked open his eyes to see the one person who, until this morning, he had trusted more than anything. Blink was kneeling down in front of him, concern and worry clouding his face. (I use the word clouding way too much) Mush wasn’t sure if he was relieved or terrified to see him.

Blink reached out his hand to touch Mush’s face, but he flinched away. Blink looked hurt. “Mush…” he whispered in disbelief. (awwwwwww)

“No,” Mush croaked out. “You don’ ge’ t’ touc’ me an’mor’.” (Argh stuttering and slurring is so hard to write is that even legible)

“Mush, listen I-” (sHuT uP bLinK)

“No,” Mush said again with as much force as he could muster. He paused to spat some blood out of his mouth. (Seriously boi What happened to you? If you’re that badly hurt Blink should havebrought you to the lodge instead of talking) “You b’tray’d us. You shoul’n’ e’en be ‘ere. Jus’ -”

“Michael Myers, will you just shut up and listen to me?” (FUCK IS HIS NAME MICHAEL SHIT FUCK CRAP I NEED TUMBLR)

Mush was so startled by the use of his real name that he paused his rant.

“Oscar and Morris,” Blink began, “they cornered me yesterday. Offered me three dollars (is three dollars even a lot back then?) and a promise that they wouldn’t hurt you during the strike if I became a scab. As I didn’t-” Blink paused, sniffling slightly. “I didn’t want you to get hurt. And money’s been tight at the lodge recently and I knew we would need some to buy medical stuff and food once the strike started. And I didn’t want to, believe me it was the last thing I wanted. But I had to keep you safe, I had to at least try, I can’t….I can’t lose you too.” (too? Who else have you lost? Idk but I’m putting it in) Blink wiped at his eyes with the bottom of his shirt. “But it looks like it was all for nothing cause they beat you up so bad I barely even recognized you coming in here. It was all for nothing and now you probably hate me and the boys all probably hate me so I’ll just bring you back to the lodge and then I’ll be gone, okay? I’ll leave and never come back. None of you guys are going to want to have a traitor there anyway.” (awwwwwwwwwwwww soft soft boyo I love you)

Mush stared at Blink in a stunned silence for several long seconds before reaching out his less injured arm to clasp Blinks hand. (Less injured arm? Has this kid gone through a war or something?) Blink looked up in surprise at the contact.

“I firgiv’ ya,” Mush slurred. (fuck more slurring) “Ya did th’ wron’ thing fir th’ righ’ re’sins. An’ ‘f any uh da fellas can’ see tha’...” Mush trailed off. There was so much more he wanted to say. Blink had been so brave, doing something he knew might get him kicked out of his only home just to protect him. Admittedly, it hadn’t worked in his favor but it was the thought that counted.

“Thank you,” Blink whispered, curling his fingers gently around Mush’s potentially broken ones. (pretty sure I stole this from a fic oops) “I love you, Mush.”

Mush was too tired to say it back, but he squeezed Blinks hand ever so slightly. Blink seemed to notice Mush’s rapidly deteriorating physical state (oh finally? It’s not like he’s half dead or anything get him back you moron o wait I’m the author I have the power to do that oops) because his eyes widened and he gently picked his boyfriend up. Mush let out a few pained moans, but remained otherwise quiet.

“C’mon babe,” he whispered. “Let’s get you home.” (that could have been longer but I’m lazy argh)

[windyvalleyzone]

Tag thing

Thank you so much to to @nervous-artist-boyo for tagging me!!

1st : tag 9 people you’d like to get know better

hhhhhhhhh i dont remember theres noo way im doing 9 but heres some  @memebuster5000 @angryflutenoises @transnasa @rakhila @metahomo

2nd : BOLD those statements that are true for you 

APPEARANCE: I am 5'7" or taller I wear glasses I have at least one tattoo (its a paupu fruit for anybody wondering) I have at least one piercing I have blonde hair I have brown eyes I have short hair My abs are at least somewhat defined I have or have had braces

PERSONALITY: I love meeting new people People tell me that I’m funny Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me (im really big about being that person -- the one you can always count on to put a smile back on your face. pinkie pie is my spirit animal) I enjoy physical challenges I enjoy mental challenges I’m playfully rude with people I know well I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it (i cant count how many times this has happened) There is something I would change about my personality (i would change the fact that the littlest things put me into a bad mood)

ABILITY: I can sing well (that doesnt stop me tho lmao) I can play an instrument I can do over 30 pushups without stopping I’m a fast runner I can draw well I have a good memory I’m good at doing math in my head I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute I have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestling I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch I know how to throw a proper punch

HOBBIES: I enjoy playing sports (i dont have any friends tho so its not like i can play) I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else I’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else I have learned a new song in the past week (are we talking just listening? because i dont play) I work out at least once a week I’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months I have drawn something in the past month I enjoy writing (good luck getting me to do it tho) FANDOMS ARE MY #1 PASSION I do or have done martial arts

EXPERIENCES: I have had my first kiss (regret) I have had alcohol (regret) I have scored the winning goal in a sports game I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting I have been at an overnight event I have been in a taxi I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year I have beaten a video game in one day (so many) I have visited another country I have been to one of my favourite band’s concerts

RELATIONSHIPS: I’m in a relationship I have a crush on a celebrity I have a crush on someone I know (my partner) I have been in at least 3 relationships I have never been in a relationship I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them I get crushes easily I have had a crush on someone for over a year I have had feelings for a friend (that shit ruined me)

MY LIFE: I have at least one person I consider a “best friend” (my partner) I live close to my school My parents are still together I have at least one sibling I live in the United States There is snow right now where I live I have hung out with a friend in the past month I have a smartphone I have at least 15 CDs I share my room with someone

RANDOM SHIT: I have breakdanced I know a person named Jamie I have had a teacher with a last name that’s hard to pronounce I have dyed my hair (my hair was pink for a solid year) I’m listening to one song on repeat right now I have punched someone in the past week I know someone who has gone to jail I have broken a bone I have eaten a waffle today I know what I want to do with my life I speak at least 2 languages I have made a new friend in the past year