#love seeing these text posts and writing a bunch of tags abt her and going 'wow. i do love her.' OFC U DO U DID HER but oh well

[kuroopaisen]

@kacchand (i couldn't tag your main but i wanted to make sure you saw this fdlkjfdlkj) 

hello dear! i’m sorry it took me so long to respond to this dflskjfdlkfdj i decided to answer your ask in a text post so i can link my thoughts to yours more easily! also, i know i'm going to Ramble, so i wanted to be able to keep it under a cut sdlkfjd

Hi rowan!! I've just finished the final chapter of aot and I just wanted to ask your opinion on it!

(SPOILERS THAT DEPICT MY UNDERSTANDING OF THE STORY'S MEANING AHEAD. READ ONLY IF YOU'VE FINISHED THE CHAPTER)

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(THERE'S STILL TIME TO BACK OUT)

(DO IT NOW. SPOILER ALERT)

I'd also like to ask a follow up question about it, because it seems that I've come to a different concl. from many of my friends and I'm feeling dumb abt how i feel w it.

first of all (and i say this as sincerely as possible, and if i'm coming off as condesending please let me know hh), please don't feel dumb because you've come to a different conclusion :(

we all read media at different levels (i’ve been told it’s ‘not that deep’ before fdljkfsdlkj) and identify different aspects in it, so the fact that you've had a different experience to some of your friends is absolutely not a reflection on your intelligence. and if anyone's making you feel that way, drop their @. i just want to talk :) furthermore, you’re not wrong for responding to something emotionally, especially if it really... makes you uncomfortable, you know? 

i'm from the PH & I've put off determining whether i'm comfy w the manga til the last chap,,,, but is it wrong that I can't shake the feeling that it's a justification of japanese expansionism and genocide? ik this manga has always been in the grey area, and that's what I love abt it! It often shows that no choice they make is absolutely good or bad, and does such a good job at showing you how each complex character came to that understanding (role of environment, etc...) but this last chapter felt too positive abt the rumbling? Like it was justified because paradis was able to advance and there wasn't much choice? idk.

that's totally valid! some of the best think pieces on the show i read mentioned that the concern with the narrative is less "is isayama a nazi sympathiser?" (he most likely isn't), but if he's a imperial japan apologist. and...

well, let's just say that my father is british, and when i was trying to say that colonisation was bad, using british india as an example, he said "well, we gave them railroads." it's... it's uncomfortable and gross and i think it encapsulates how countries with imperial pasts tend to talk about them; even if they don't officially endorse it, there's often a lot of talk about how "well colonialism was good for this country, actually--"

and if the manga felt like it was justifying japanese expansionism, then chances are it had elements that very much did point towards that. i've had a lot of trouble grappling with reiner, annie and bertolt, because they've existed in this grey area of 'victim of oppression' and 'war criminal'; and their existence raises the question of "do people who commit war crimes simply do what needs to be done?" and by victimising them it... it plays into the whole nuremberg defense of "i was just following orders". it's making you feel bad for the people committing said war crimes (and similarly with eren, and all the awful things he's done). but i'll get more into this point later dsfkjfd

i haven't read the last chapter yet (and don't worry about spoilers! i've been approaching aot from a very... specific perspective anyway, so i actually don't mind spoilers -- i read a bunch of analyses of the series before i'd even watched it hh), but... i think if it came off as too positive about, you know... an awful thing that happened, then it absolutely makes sense that you'd feel uncomfortable?

the modernisation narrative in general is one that always skeeves me out. it's one japanese imperialists use to justify the invasion of korea (and even those infamous tweets from the one account purported to be isayama talk about how the population of korea boomed under japanese imperial occupation, which... stop.)

it's also commonly invoked in cases of development. certain members of society (usually the poor), just 'had' to die for the good of the future. who gives a damn if they consent to that? they have to.

similarly, the 'we had no choice' narrative. that's... a concerning one that crops up time and again with history apologists, the argument that "oh if x country hadn't done y, then someone else would've!" or that acts of aggression were done as pre-emptive self-defence, which is so... ugh. i just. i just hate it.

It also feels really weird w the ymir and the whole loving fritz thing. i wish we got to see more of her thought process and what conclusion she came to that led her to destroying the power of the titans.

i... hate this so much. i get that abuse is complicated and victims often have multifaceted feelings towards their abusers, but... most people would focus on that in their story? the story would be about that? but instead, it's just... a thing in the history of the world and that's... icky.

also having the genesis of the titans come from a slave girl in love with her captor... there's many levels of ick to it and i highly doubt it was handled with the appropriate level of grace and sensitivity.

honestly, this might be one of the things that pissed me off the most because of how... contradictory her backstory was with That One Chapter (you know, instead of ymir crying because she wants to be free or because she’s been trapped she........ wants to see mikasa kiss eren’s decapitated head? i guess? what the fuck?) 

idk...I just think that context is sometimes everything. and i understand that media can portray incorrect things,,,, and that isayama likely didn't intend for it to become a global sensation, but i guess i'm just uncomfortable w the right wing nazis getting a comfort book ahaha.

i totally get that! even if attack on titan is meant to be anti-fascists, the fact of the matter is... a lot of fascists love it. and relate to it. which is... alarming. especially given just how popular aot is worldwide.

it’s hard because before the ending, attack on titan did feel like it was more grey; i remember saying that i wouldn’t know how to feel about it until the ending because the story was either saying “the military is corrupt and war is hell”, or it was saying “the military is corrupt and war is hell, but it is necessary.” 

still sorting out my thoughts, but yeah. I think i'm having a hard time understanding what they really accomplished with the rumbling and how they gave eren a sudden lelouch role and a lot of how they made it out to be a happy thing? perhaps I'm too biased to see it fully but to me it gives a "woah. eren was a hero. he saved us from destruction. those people needed to die for us to achieve this temporary peace and new start". i suppose the rumbling gave them a levelled playing ground?

OH MY GOOOOOD okay. i haven't finished code geass. but i really don't like lelouch. i mean... i think i just don't like characters that sacrifice other people for a purported 'greater good' (i could write an Essay about how much i hate erwin smith looking at him is enough to send me into an unhinged rage), but where i'm up to in the anime, i don't like the direction they're going with eren? i mean, i've never liked eren, but... that whole "martyr for the eldians" is just. ew. especially when you see several eldian characters disagree and resist him. 

why does this one guy get to make choices for everyone else? because he’s sPeCiAL? fuck off 

sorry for not being coherent. maybe i'm basing this too much on feelings ahaha. trust aot to finish it's scandalous run with a scandalous end.

no omg you're being perfectly coherent :( also, if anyone's making you feel bad or stupid for how you experience media, they’re... definitely not as smart as they think they are fdslskjfdlk. 

i'm of that mind that, while media consumption is in part an intellectual exercise, it is inherently very emotional; narrative media tries to make us feel as much as it makes us think. that’s what stories are for, you know? intellectual analysis is well and good but what’s the point of a story if it doesn’t make you feel anything?

that's to say, i don't believe there's such thing as basing your opinion too much on feelings :') especially since it's your personal experience with a piece of media; you don't owe anyone 'objectivity' (which is always a farce when it comes to this sort of thing) or 'logical analysis', because nobody's got any right to criticise you for engaging with media the 'wrong way'.

tl;dr I feel like the mood was too celebratory abt the rumbling, and didn't entail enough on the tragedy so much that it felt like a justification for genocide and expansionism. how do you feel abt it's ending and the message it leaves? is isayama responsible to give a morally correct answer to the cycle of hatred? you're not obligated to answer! and sorry for the rambling.

hhh yeah i guess that’s the thing at the end of the day... is isayama responsible for giving a “morally correct” answer? no, but the way the ending plays out is very telling. 

like armin thanking eren? mikasa’s e n t i r e character boiling down to being in love with a mass murderer no matter how poorly he’s treated her? and one could argue that kind of ending is supposed to be unsettling, supposed to hint that the cycle will just continue, but...

framing is everything. and it’s framed like a Good, Emotional Thing, Aren’t We So Grateful Eren Did All Those Awful Things 

YI think I would've been fine if we got to see more of Eren's or Yif you have a different perspective on how eren is being portrayed please do share! I just felt really yucky watching armin say "thanks for murdering all those people for us" with love,,, I suppose he was trying to make eren feel better. ach maybe I'm just overreacting. idk. im dumb ahaha . i'll send this in anyway cuz I'd love to hear your take!

HHHHHHH i just hate eren and i never got him. i felt bad for him in the beginning, but he's always been too... violent for me. there was a very short period of time in season 2 where i felt bad for him, but otherwise it’s just been... ugh. the main three have always been the weakest part of the series imo, so it’s really not surprising they’re part of the reason the ending was so. bad. 

and... well, that one infamous quote pretty much sums up my issue with armin. he's supposed to be the 'intelligent' one, but he's hopelessly devoted to a homicidal maniac with whom he has a very artificial, unbelievable bond with.

at the end of the day, the "thank you for becoming our monster" thing just makes it seem like attack on titan's core message is "war is horrible, but it is necessary." it feels like it's justifying massacre. and while fiction is fiction, and sometimes it's as simple as that, i think something as politically loaded as attack on titan needs to be looked at with a critical lens when discussing what it’s trying to say or what it means. 

do i think it makes someone a Bad Person for liking aot or being attached to it in some way? no, because that’s dumb, and what media someone likes =/= their Moral Goodness TM. ofc trends are a thing and certain pieces of media appeal to certain types of people, but it’s a false equivalency that misses the point. 

but by that same breath, nobody is wrong or stupid or has Less Valid Opinions just because what they took away from it makes them uncomfortable. 

i’m sorry this is So Long i have so many thoughts about this dskljfslkj 

but at the end of the day, 

levi sexy

[flexmains]

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#stray 1am thoughts 

#my dad always handled the camera when i was growing up #if we ever had any family photos he'd always be the one to set it up or he'd opt to not be in the photo to take it himself

#i am comforted to see that other neurodivergent people have forgotten such large chunks of their childhood too #because i know i don't remember him for all the things he did do for me #and that's the only thing i feel a little bad about when i think of him

#but i do remember plenty of the things he did do to me so that's on him for that B)

#i wonder if he'd have encouraged me to pick it up when i was in high school and curious about my fencing advisor's photography lab #i wonder if he'd have kept it locked away from me #i wonder if i would have ever felt comfortable expressing myself enough to mention that i liked the idea of photography at all to him

#the photography and the printing and the tucking them away in albums and hiding the albums away #the shame, me having to call myself stupid to make him back off, feeling slow, and just... feeling neutral about everything else #i wonder what shaped my awkward aversion to looking at myself in the mirror most

#the feeling i remember most is the embarrassment of making eye contact with a stranger on public transportation while i washed my face in the morning

#i remember staring intensely at my own hands as i brush my teeth in the morning - and i still do 

#i can't find myself in photos if i'm not the central figure and someone doesn't tell me 'hey that's you' 

#i almost remember the day i realized i could see my own reflection in windows as i walked the streets outside my high school #and i was embarrassed and shocked and almost afraid of the realization and the recognition of BEING and then i got tired of typing in tags and moved this to a full text post but

i don’t really know 100% where this thought came from... i did talk to a friend about some of these thoughts, but it really all started tonight when i wanted to think about my dad holding the camera. and i thought to myself, he handed it over to me sometimes, right? and i think he did. 

and i think i was so awed by the weight and complexity and the magic of it that i never played with the dials or settings or buttons. i was afraid to even adjust the zoom or focal length for fear of his having made some settings before letting me see. 

and i wonder if he could have criticized me for it (i’m not curious enough, how dull) or if he was glad to see it (i would not mess with his things because i was respectful) or if he noticed or cared about it or me at all (did he really have a second family? can i trust my mother’s narrative about that?)

and then he would frame us in the viewfinder and take those photos and print them out and put them away. they’re still downstairs and i think about looking at them all the time, but i’m kind of scared to.

and when i was in high school i had no concept of my physical literal body. seeing my clothes in the mirror was like looking at a mannequin, and sometimes i would be like “hm, not bad” sometimes if I liked the collar on my shirts, but my face and my head and my person weren’t REALLY there and i didn’t really see them. like if i could pop my head off and look at what was left and i’d be like, sure, that’s normal.

i was so shocked in college when i looked at my old high school photos. my body... looked like THAT? i had been so muc hcloser to being fit actually 😔 and it wasn’t that i thought i wasn’t fit or that i thought i was fat or anything, but i just DIDN’T think of myself.

i think about that now and i wish i’d maintained that body type a bit more B) now i am heavy but i think i’m pretty strong too. i might never be thin again but i want to be strong. 

oh i remember what i wanted to write this post for now o:

i wish picking up a camera came more naturally to me. my parents said they wanted to prioritize showing us the world while we were young, to give us that kind of open perspective they didn’t have. they were literally eating grass off the hills in the mountains of China at the age my brother and i first went back to China to visit. they were foraging for roots and vegetables at the age we first went to Disneyworld. when i went to Alaska for my 8th birthday, my mother and her would have been going to school and working at home on alternating days to maximize the family’s potential food rations.

but to me, i feel like maybe they didn’t know what they were showing us, so we didn’t take in all that much. we went on so many trips for so many of my birthdays, but we rushed through more cities instead of spending more time in any one place. we did the most basic touristy tours once a day and then spent twice as long in transit between other locations.

i feel pretty certain that i only really had the freedom i have had to be myself and explore myself and to learn about myself through other lenses because my dad passed away. i don’t think i could have learned as much about being a lesbian as i did without him combing all my history and downloads and everything as he did. i think he would might have been even more controlling than my paranoid mother when i was in college. i wonder often if he’d have pushed me to apply to different schools and changed that trajectory a lot.

i wonder if he would have found it in himself to accept that about me? i think it would be unfair for me to jump to remembering him at his meanest and say he’d entirely have shut me down for it. he did end up working for one of my elementary school friends’ lesbian moms in real estate, so i feel like he had to be kind of okay with it to a degree.

but he got to control so many photos and i never built my habit of wanting to take photos while he was around. and now, when i go somewhere beautiful, i automatically feel clumsy whipping out a camera. and when i pull out my phone, i feel a little guilty for being screen-obsessed, but i think about how on the nights i am home and thinking abt where i have traveled in my city and the world... i just want to remember what it was like to stand where i did and see what i did thousands of miles away... i know i would rather have taken the photos than not B’)

i’m so sad to think that i could have forgotten these moments without the photos to give me context. i’m sad to think about the moments i did forget without photos. i know there’ll be more, and i know that all things will come to pass, but i want to remember. i just want to remember and i want to hold the memories a little longer. i want to experience being me a little more in my own head and my own memory. i think that would be neat, to say the least.

i stare myself in the eyes and doodle versions of my self the way i’d reconstruct anyone if they asked me to doodle them. i would love to learn to paint, and i’d love to make it a hobby to sit on a bench and paint whatever i see before me. i think that would be a really good exercise of viewing and creating and i have no actual intention to start doing so any time soon, but i’ll think on it intensely, at least.

speaking of physical appearances, i don’t think i ever really put my photo on my blog even when i was active on krorys, especially considering how weird i felt about seeing my own face, but

i had my hair cut short almost a year ago and i’m now fat in a way that i’m not good at drawing accurately yet but that’ll come with practice.i’m learning to cut my hair through lockdown but i’m intimidated by trimming the top part of my undercut. it’s gotten so long that it constantly gets in my eyes and i will have to bite the bullet and cut it myself soon anyway. i accidentally bought a bunch of v-necks and couldn’t be bothered to return them for other necklines and i got flip flops in san diego that i’m abt to break out again for the hot weather now B) and that’s how i construct how i see myself 

ty for reading this post of literally just me rambling about myself if you’re down here to see it. i just like to let the thoughts out at the end of a day and wander through them B’)

[pegaeae]

im on mobile so sry if this is the case but i love Lyna so much?? does she have an OC page? what is her personality like normally (and before becoming a grey warden)?? what's she like post blight? what do she and zev love about each other?? how did they even fall in love?? i have so many questions omg honestly i love her even tho i dont even know much about her yet lmao

ahhh thank you so much!!! /o\ it makes me so happy knowing ppl like her ;; she doesn’t have an OC page but she does have a tag, it’s just #mahariel because i’m boring. i try to shove all my art and posts abt her in there but i forget to tag my text posts a lot.

 i’m gonna tuck this under a cut bc it got pretty long ^^;

before becoming a grey warden she was pretty pragmatic and down to earth (if incredibly stubborn) and got paired off w/ tamlen a lot bc her “hold up there buddy” personality really reined in his impulsive, very burst-of-energy personality. after the eluvian shit and becoming a grey warden she’s really different bc she’s dealing with the guilt of thinking she killed tamlen and had to leave her clan bc of it so she’s very… quiet and angry and upset all the time, snappish, drags her heels because she REALLY doesn’t want to be with a bunch of humans saving the world, especially when it gets into like the politics of redcliffe, she just wants to go back to her family. after the tamlen ambush (really reopening some wounds there for her bc she found out she not only didn’t originally get him killed but he turned into a ghoul and then she really DID have to kill him) and seeing his ghostie again during the urn of sacred ashes, she kind of starts finally burying him in her heart and working towards getting over her grief–and starts becoming a regular person again (albeit more irascible and withdrawn than she used to be) w/ zevran’s help

post blight!! she’s a lot better. between the end of da:o and the beginning of da:a she and zev are hanging out together bc he still considers himself her man, w/o reservation, and also they both have massive crushes on each other. their romance starts during this weird limbo period… 

as for falling in love, zevran is the first person lyna starts opening up to after the urn of sacred ashes quest–during the time before that (from ostagar up until) she hadn’t taken care of herself at all bc she was just so miserable and angry all the time, so she goes to him for help bc he’s 1) the only other elf in camp (and she’s pretty.. biased against humans) and 2) he spends more time on his appearance than basically everyone else in the camp combined. anyways. she’s mortified at asking him at all bc she hates asking other people for help but they go off to a nearby river and he cuts out all the mats and snarls in her hair and then washes it multiple times for her with his nice soap and combs it all out until its nice and braids it for her… and after that he braids her hair almost every day. if her hair looks nice in anything i draw or write its because zev did it for her lol

it was a really gradual thing and i think lyna had feelings for zev before he had feelings for her. for her it started with how he respected her boundaries, especially when she was grieving–and it was really significant for her since he had like, been hired to kill her and everything. also him being really hot didn’t hurt. & then when she went to him for help he just like, immediately went to help her and didn’t tease her TOO much about it. it was a very slow thing built up through a lot of long conversations and many, many mornings of him combing her hair for her. 

on zev’s side i can’t.. imagine he was actually interested at her in all at first. she literally looked like a walking tornado half the time, and she gave off huge warning vibes all the time. he still flirted with her a lot anyways because like, that’s what zev does, and he spends basically the entirety of the blight expecting her to knife him over some minor argument but his feelings started to change during the taliesin fight–lyna deliberately moves between him and taliesin and leaves her back open to him and zev’s like, oh, shit, this is intense, she really trusts me, bc she’s giving him a VERY obvious opportunity to shank her and just the sheer amount of trust she’s putting in him is nuts in his opinion. after that everything goes downhill and he develops Feelings for this Girl, who is no longer a walking tornado because he makes her look nice

in their actual relationship: 

lyna loves that when zev walks into a room, it feels like everything is brighter, like everything is better. she loves that when she’s in a shitty mood he can immediately sweep her out of it by pulling her into his arms and covering her in kisses and making stupid jokes that still make her laugh even though they’re DUMB. she loves that he stays with her, even when she asks him to do awful, awful things like go back to Ferelden in the middle of winter–and she loves the sad puppy dog eyes he gives her when she asks him lol. she loves the way he buries his face into the crook of her neck and shoves his cold toes under her when they’re trying to sleep, and the way he’ll stroke her hair and tell her how strong she is when she’s having an awful nightmare.

zev loves her strength and the way she gets shit done and digs her heels in until she gets the result that she WANTS. he loves that she does what her heart tells her to do even when its something fucking stupid (”lyna why did you stab that guy” “idk i just felt like it needed to be done”). he loves the way that she smiles when he makes a particularly bad joke–just a little quirk of her lips bc she’s trying to hide that she actually found it funny. and he loves the thought that she puts into things–the little designs she embroiders on the hems of all of his shirts, the making sure that they have enough warm blankets and coats because she knows he gets cold so easily, the nice antivan wines she buys for dinner even though he knows she hates the taste. he really loves the elvish songs she sings to him when she thinks he’s asleep

THIS GOT.. REALLY LONG i’m sorry… i love my kids /o\

[ourlittlebitofnothinguniverse]

Tagged by @snowcatmoon​ ayyyyyyyyy nice thanks i lo v e doing these things

Rules: Answer the questions and tag 20 people. (but not rly bc i’m a nerd who never knos who to tag so basically if u see this and u wanna try it go for it my dude!)

LAST: 1. Drink: Water 2. Phone call: i mean if this is like personal calls it would be my mom calling me @ work but if not it would be a person calling @ work to talk to my boss 3. Text message: uhhhhhh i don’t have a phone so i can’t text but my last fb message was abt my follower count 4. Song you listened to: tally hall - & 5. Time you cried: I frustration cried a little yesterday

HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: what is this word, dating 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: kissing? completely foreign concept what’s that 8. Been cheated on: No 9. Lost someone special: yes 10. Been depressed: Have u Seen Me i am a Wreck At All Times 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: never

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12. vibrant or saturated Reds 13. greens across all spectrums 14. warm metallic colors like gold or bronze but not silver bc it’s ugly imo

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: yah! a precious girl who comes into the library p often, she told me abt the story she’s writing and it’s rly cute nd funny and she’s sweet she gave me some of her ar 16. Fallen out of love: nope 17. Laughed until you cried: often lmao 18. Found out someone was talking about you: idk man i’m boring what would they have to talk abt? my sleep patterns? lmao 20. Found out who your friends are: nah not so far this year 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: there’s that word again!!! kissing what is?

GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: can’t remember bc i unfollow them and soft block them from all my posts when it happens so honestly i forget they exist lmao ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 23. Do you have any pets: Yah!!!!!!!! archie my love, and two betta fish! 24. Do you want to change your name: yes plea s e 25. What did you do for your last birthday: uhhhh 26. What time do you wake up: a brief moment at 5 to feed my son (archie) and then usually anywhere from 10:00 AM to 2 PM. Depends if i have work 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: FIGHTING A FUCKING CHEATING AI IN A GAME 28. Name something you can’t wait for: leaving this fucking hole of a town i live in rn

29. When was the last time you saw your mom?: this morning 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: FDAHS;KJL just ONE (1) thing???????? 31. What are you listening to right now: Tally Hall - & idk man i just rly like it

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: i..... don’t???? know????? 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: Being POOR(tm) 34. Most visited website: TUMBLR, YouTube, and fb so i can talk to most of my friends

35. Mole/s: idk 36. Mark/s: idk???? 37. Childhood dream: veterinarian but i gave up on that bc i’m super squeamish 38. Hair color: brown 39. Long or short hair: medium 40. Do you have a crush on someone: what is this crush thing you speak of? 41. What do you like about yourself: i am a god damn fiLTHY TRASH GOBLIN/DEMON AND IT’S FABULOUS 42. Piercings: the standard ear piercing you get when ur little but i’m allergic to metal so i can’t actually wear earrings (however, despite years of never wearing earrings, the holes haven’t actually ever closed so i still could if i wished which i don’t bc no thanks it gets itchy and hurts)

43. Blood type: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 44. Nicknames?: hoo boy okay any and all variations one can spin on my name (rachel) and: squisheebug (nobody calls me that anymore but it’s become my art handle so i still use it for myself), one friend sometimes calls me kitten, and a bunch more tbh i have so many 45. Relationship status: Single Pringle Not Looking To Flamingle 46. Zodiac: libra scorpio cusp 47. Pronouns: She/her 48. Favorite TV Show: mH i am bad at picking just one favorite lmao 50. Right or left hand: Right-handed 51. Surgery: Not technically? i almost had surgery once when i was like eleven bc the doctors srsly thought i had gallstones but it was actually just acute stress and emotional trauma related pain (i also had a lump of tissue removed from my neck but idk if that counts) 52. Hair dyed in different color: i’m scared it would mess my hair up too much 53. Sport: i don’t sport but i love watching ice skating videos 55. Vacation: i have never been on Vacation(tm) unless you count the trip the seniors took after graduation which was just to make sure that we didn’t Do Drugs. However, ideal vacation would be going across the world visiting abandoned and really old (or haunted) places bc i love that shit i eat it up W/ a S p o o n 56. Pair of trainers: is that like... tennis shoes/sneakers? bc?? i have a pair of converse??

MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: hot cheetos 58. Drinking: an otter pop 59. I’m about to: get ready for work 62. Want: A house in my very own forest and for nobody i didn’t like to ever visit me and also the complete destruction of capitalism and world peace and the complete deconstruction and rebuilding of our government and far more time in one life than currently exists and abt a billion other things but on the more “realistic” (yeah right not in this economy) sidei just want to not live in an apartment anymore, i want to live in a house (also to meet a bunch of my fav youtubers i’d LOVE that) 63. Get married: maybe idk i’m not violently against it but it’s doubtful 64. Career: i wanna be an animator ahfsdlkjsdafagdfs 65. Hugs or kisses: currently: neither! Hands Off Pls 66. Lips or eyes: both preferably but u kno we can’t be picky 67. Shorter or taller: aaaa who cares?????? 68. Older or younger: doesn’t matter idk 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: both! tummies are so cute and arms are Good for Hugging (when i’m not touch repulsed) 71. Sensitive or loud: what is the correlation between those two they aren’t opposites what 72. Hook up or relationship: bitch miss me w/ hookups if i ever do date somebody it’s gon be ride or die it’s gon be Commi T m e n t(tm) 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: why

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a stranger: No 75. Drank hard liquor: No 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: yah 77. Turned someone down: probably? if so i wouldn’t have known 78. Sex on the first date: St O p 79. Broken someone’s heart: Probably not? i’m not the most Lovable(tm) person, as far as i kno nobody has even liked me lmao 80. Had your heart broken: yah but like?? platonically 81. Been arrested: No 82. Cried when someone died: only ppl i didn’t kno that well have died around me but if i even THINK one of my friends might die i start bawling my eyes out and can’t stop 83. Fallen for a friend: ??

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84: Yourself: sometimes 85. Miracles: yes 86. Love at first sight: nope 87. Santa Claus: yesssssss but the concept of him not the actual jolly fat guy who brings presents. 88. Kiss on the first date: I DON’T UNDERSTAND DATING (just leaving @snowcatmoon‘s response bc i’m laughing rly hard and same)

OTHER: 90. Current best friend name: what are u just supposed to have one? 91. Eye color: brown 92. Favorite movies: *rolls out a mile long list* okay do u want this alphabetically, in order from the first time i watched it? in order of How Many times i’ve watched it or?

i am not going to tag anybody bc i am an eg who doesn’t know ppl to tag so!!!!! if u see this and u wanna try it like i said before!!!! feel free to pls!!! also if u do i’d love it if u tagged me in it bc i’m curious abt who all follows me aaa