#lovestruckromeo

[whenwerebothcats]

Delicate Procedure

It's harder than I'd imagined, blocking impulses and reflexes that still fire when I'm near you. Separating love from itself; making it two things and having to settle for the lesser. Not lesser because it's not valuable, caring about you will always have its rewards because many of the memories are priceless. Lesser because it's what my mind rationalizes it's the way things have to be rather than the way my heart still wants it to be... and this heart won't shut the fuck up about you! It can't block you out, it still races when you're near and it wakes me out of dreams when it's alone and hurting. It wills me to try and hold you 'one more time'. This heart will always want 'just one more time' So please be kind as many times as you can when I have to hold back this crazy, love-sick, irrationally dedicated part of my heart that wants to leap carelessly into the feelings you used to inspire it with. I really am trying to win out over this reflex, but making the heart do something it doesn't want to can be a delicate procedure.

[cocobutterkisses]

i love you like the stars above, i love you till i die.